Tuesday, April 24, 2018

Sunshine

When the sky is bright,

My soul is light;

Radiant energy manifested into a smile,

Attracting positive affirmations from everyone I come in contact with.

Monday, April 23, 2018

Errands

A day spent running around town;

Leads to an evening by the hot tub with a glass of wine.

Sunday, April 22, 2018

Club Kid

I am not;
But I will do (almost) anything for a friend on their birthday...
Even if that means dancing the night away before a 6 hour day of teaching at a dance convention.

Saturday, April 21, 2018

Told You So...

From total darkness to light and laughter;
In just one day your world can change.
Acceptance of the present is the beginning of understanding:
Every single moment is a beautiful crumb on the path of life.
And “it” always resolves the way it’s supposed too!

Friday, April 20, 2018

Principle; Let It Go

Forty is just two weeks away;

I’m ready to embrace a new act.

Standing on principle was empowering in my 20’s and 30’s, but peace of mind is calling.

My principles haven’t changed, but my outlook has;

I can walk away and still be true to me.

And I’ve learned that the squeaky wheel always gets the grease, but more often than not it comes with a load of stress on the machine: me.

Thursday, April 19, 2018

Laughter

The cure to stress;

The answer to a ridiculous question;

The only way to overcome a negative circumstances;

The cheapest way to restore a more youthful appearance:

Laughter.

Wednesday, April 18, 2018

Present

I’ve received an unpleasant email that could have launched me into darkness and despair;

Then I smiled, because I’ve just finished yoga class, the sun is shining, and I’m with my family in LA.

If you react to things in fear, you will have reason to panic.

When you stay present, you realize life’s not so bad, and that email can wait.

Tuesday, April 17, 2018

Let Go and Let God, or The Universe, or Whatever You Believe In...

Taxes are due;
Waiting for multiple vendor payments;
Smoothing over a misunderstanding and work conflict;
Maneuvering three months of nonstop travel around the world––which will be fun at some point, or so I’m told;
And trying to maintain a smile on my face...because I have a fabulous life, or so I’m told;
In these moments it’s best to take a deep breath and let go.
Let go of the noise, doubt, fear, drama, anger, stress, and negative energy...and eat a burger.

Monday, April 16, 2018

Joy

The smell of freshly brewed coffee and hearing my best friend laugh;
Recalling a story from our past––what were we thinking?
Watching as she confidently steps into her role as an educator; she is a master at bullying her students with a smile and gentle, loving instruction.
Twenty years later, we’re still true to our passion.
I breathe in the moment; I feel joy.

Sunday, April 15, 2018

Inspiration

I’ll

Never

Stop

Pushing myself;

Inhale,

Release,

Accept that

Transitions

In life are

Opportunities

Not setbacks.

Saturday, April 14, 2018

Return to Now

Breathing in the moment;

I release the chatter in my head.

Finding space in my life for Faith;

I trust that where I am now is where I’m meant to be.

Releasing the constraints and comparisons of the past;

I know that the present will provide the best version of me.

Rejecting expectations for the future;

I will accomplish what I’m meant to in the time frame that I’m supposed to.

Thursday, April 12, 2018

Release Number: I've Seriously Lost Count...

One of the many practical benefits of yoga is that reminder to breathe.
Something that should come natural to all of us––and of course in the literal sense it does––but the depth and level of presence is always in question.
I spend too much time in my head, and while I fancy myself a creative and clever person, my mind is controlling and (at times) destructive.
There are things I cannot control and I know I have to let them go, period.
Remember: Nothing good comes from doubt, fear, or stress.

Wednesday, April 11, 2018

Family

With space comes appreciation;
Unconditional love evolved into endless gratitude.
Connected by blood; bonded for life by choice.

Tuesday, April 10, 2018

Rage

Anger will not solve the issue;
And it will certainly leave a poisonous residue.
Let. It. Go.

Monday, April 9, 2018

You Can't Please Everybody.

Intentions will be distorted;
Words will be twisted;
Actions will be misinterpreted;
Still, I will share my experience, knowledge, and passion with the hope of inspiring and motivating change just as my mentors did for me.

Sunday, April 8, 2018

Through Darkness

Through darkness there is a pinhole of light;
The beam of energy leads to a pool of unconditional joy.
You just have to make the choice:
Awake to the light or wither in darkness.

Saturday, April 7, 2018

Friday, April 6, 2018

Time

You lose time in the past;
You imagine time in the future;
In the present everything is possible.

Thursday, April 5, 2018

Stillness

Powerful calm; confident not because I know, because I’m comfortable not knowing.

Every dream, declared a goal, and set into action; manifested along a 20 year journey.

Energy that was—at times—overbearing, (It worked didn’t it?), no longer needy; now a confident stride.

Nothing left to prove; I am free with everything still to gain.

Ambition and creativity still abundant; I’m safe to stand in stillness, breathe, and be.

Tuesday, April 3, 2018

Release

The euphoric pleasure of letting go;
When you can’t change the past and you don’t want to perpetuate a habit in the future;
Something lost is an opportunity to find embrace something new.

Monday, April 2, 2018

A Dream...

Is a goal your soul makes.
The next step is manifesting the goal;
action,
creativity,
collaboration,
confidence,
and a lot of faith.

Sunday, April 1, 2018

Renewal

Death is a reminder of life;
The opportunity to live.
The sacrifice of one, so that all could be saved;
Everywhere you look, a chance to renew your spirit.
This beautiful gift is manifested in the blossom of a flower or the birth of a baby or the forgiveness of an enemy or the kindness of a stranger.

Friday, March 30, 2018

Thursday, March 29, 2018

Remember

Fear is a trap meant to keep us from living in the present; worry and doubt can easily be replaced with action and faith.

Wednesday, March 28, 2018

Take Action

Every small step toward your goal matters;

You motivate change regardless of how insignificant you think your contribution is.

Positive action spreads like a rumor on Facebook; it’s more powerful, too.

Tuesday, March 27, 2018

Life Is A Gamble

Avoiding your destiny is not noble or safe;
Ignoring your instinct will never serve you;
Denying your calling leads only to regret;
Never let the odds prevent you from pursuing something you know in the depth of your soul you were meant to pursue.

Sunday, March 25, 2018

Saturday, March 24, 2018

It's Not Magic...

If we can visualize our dreams and clearly define our aim into a goal;
We can work toward making it a reality.
It’s not magic; it’s hard work.
A nonstop effort to continually refine our approach until one day we arrive at the target.

Friday, March 23, 2018

I Want To; But, No.

When the track wheel spins on my computer, I want to throw it across the room; but, no.
When I’m cut off in traffic by someone who’s texting whilst driving, I want to ram my car into theirs; but, no.
When I feel overwhelmed with the amount of work I have to do, I want to quit life; but, no.
I practice yoga and meditation so that I can take a beat and breathe.
I want to find my Zen; no buts.

Thursday, March 22, 2018

The Beginning

Unknown; we all begin the same way.
Seeking advancement without investment; you will never flourish.
Meticulously observing the details and cultivating awareness for your craft will always serve you.
We cannot be perfect over night; by morning we discover no one will ever be.
This moment is all there is and will serve to prepare us for the the next.
Be here: the start of something.

Wednesday, March 21, 2018

Traveled

Feeling blessed to know so many talented and supportive people;

Creating opportunities to engage audiences and future artists alike;

A global cooperative of art, culture, social awareness, education, and history: humanities.

Joyfully traveled.

Tuesday, March 20, 2018

The Theater

West End;
Broadway,
Los Angeles;
And everywhere in-between;
Likeminded artists gathering together to inspire creativity; evoke change; remind us of our past; and challenge our thoughts.

Monday, March 19, 2018

Inspired

My time in the U.K. is coming to an end;
I’m both motivated and inspired by the passion, integrity, talent, and technique that my colleagues have.
They’ve created an environment that is artistic, academic, and professional.
I look forward to the next time; in the meantime I feel excited to return my students in the U.S. and raise the bar!

Sunday, March 18, 2018

Friendship

Old or new, they make you smile;

Supportive, inspirational, and honest;

They know when to tell you what you need to hear and when to give you a hug!

Saturday, March 17, 2018

Character

The entertainment industry depends on a layered character; carefully motivating the plot and engaging the audience.

Last night I was reminded that a person’s character determines your success in the industry; if you’re an outgoing, positive, collaborative person you’ll work—if you’re an asshole, you won’t.

So, develop a strong character, free of ego, loaded with personality!

Friday, March 16, 2018

Outlook Is Everything

On the right side of the train it is bright, the sun is shining and the skies are blue;

On the left side of the train it is grey and raining;

This trip toward London is a perfect reminder that your outlook is everything. If you don’t like the view, change directions.

Thursday, March 15, 2018

Grateful

Waking up to a European breakfast before a day of creativity in the studio;
Spending time in a foreign country exploring the culture;
Enjoying a holiday while earning a living:
I’m living my dream.

Wednesday, March 14, 2018

Moving Through Fear

Once you identify the fear;
Let go.
Once you let go;
Trust that you will know what to do next.
Every experience brings a layer of uncertainty; in those moments we discover who we really are and what we’re truly capable of.

Tuesday, March 13, 2018

From Chaos

The moment appears in the midst of chaos;

Sieze the opportunity with confidence:

Trust that you will know when and how to move forward; the only direction heading toward your dreams.

Monday, March 12, 2018

Triumph

Overcoming obstacles to reach you goal;

Finding gratitude for the present;

Accepting what is whilst seeking what will be.

Saturday, March 10, 2018

I'm Positive About This...

The amount of energy it requires to be positive is equal to the investment we make living in doubt;
Both are choices that we decide. There will always be people who use circumstance as an excuse.
True victims work through their pain; others use their past as a crutch moving through life.
We’ve all experienced setbacks, traumas, and darkness––relative to us as individuals––and it’s in those moments where we define who we will be because of them.
If both positive and negative energy require effort, why not work to seek an optimistic outlook?

Friday, March 9, 2018

Reach For The Goal

But don’t forget that it’s not about accomplishing the goal as much as it is about refining your aim and learning along the way.

Thursday, March 8, 2018

We're All In This Together

The driver who cuts me off;

The dance mom who screams because her daughter lost;

The barista who doesn’t smile back;

The gate agent who could put me in an aisle seat, but decided to leave me stuck in the middle;

The yoga teacher who chants peace, but shares such a negative vibe;

When I remember that we’re all connected by humanity—I release the rage and return to loving my fellow brothers and sisters.

Wednesday, March 7, 2018

Tuesday, March 6, 2018

Timeline; Destiny

I’ve stopped pushing;

I haven’t lost my tenacity—I’ve just accepted the present: what I have is enough.

I’ve witnessed countless brilliant stars burnout—or worse—lose themselves in the “its never enough” loop.

My journey has been filled with fabulous opportunities; I used to think, “Thus is the one, the one that would propel me into the mainstream.”

What happens once I’m there? Will I stop working hard? Will I feel like I have enough? No to both, I imagine.

Making it? I am making it; I’ve never stopped making it—I don’t need fame or money to prove that.

Letting go of the stress or the desire to accomplish a dream, and living it, presently.

This is my destiny.

Monday, March 5, 2018

Life.

When this moment ends a new one begins;
But all we have is this moment, so let’s just be here for that.

Sunday, March 4, 2018

A Little Faith

Some people believe in God;

Some people believe in The Universe;

Some people believe in Science;

Some people believe in the Self;

Some people believe in Mankind;

Isn’t it nice that so many people have so much conviction? Now, if we could just respect one another’s faith and learn how to coexist peacefully.

Saturday, March 3, 2018

Surrender To The Present

Last night I panicked a little bit. I briefly lost track of “me” and gave in to the unrealistic drama in my mind. I allowed my ego to launch into a full-blown  interrogation––similar to what you'd expect on a procedural crime show on NBC. I heard Mariska Hargitay’s voice challenging me, “Do you really think that you can continue on this path, Matthew?”
The tone in her voice was so judgmental and serious that it coaxed my soul and heart to conspire with my mind.
Then, a subtle light appeared out of the darkness, (thankfully) I saw my reflection in the one-sided mirror in the 10 x 10 holding room and snapped myself back into the present.
“Who cares what anyone else thinks about my journey?”
Now, my Criminal Mind character took over...
Please answer these questions, Matthew:

Do you still enjoy the journey that you’re on?  “Yes.”
Do you still find pleasure in the creative process? “Yes.”
Above and beyond the basic essential needs (food, housing, clothing, health), have you consistently been able to provide a loving, solid, adventurous life filled with lavish dinners, decadent cultural explorations, laughter and learning for you and your loved ones? “Yes.”
Finally, is there any place you’d rather be; or anything else you’d rather be doing with your life at this point? “No.”
Then what is the issue? “There is no issue.”

Back to the present then to continue the expedition into love, laughter, culture, friendship, family, creativity, and evolution.

Friday, March 2, 2018

Unknown; Possibilities

I woke up to the crying skies;
Grey outside but inside my heart and home warmth radiates;
I am sunny and ready to conquer the day!
Full of joy thinking about the endless possibilities that lie ahead undiscovered.
I continue to explore the boundaries of my dreams;
Some have manifested in unimaginable ways:
Others dance around in my soul waiting for their opportunity to leap!
The beautify of the unknown––there’s no timeline;
When the moment is right, you walk into the light.

Thursday, March 1, 2018

Action Causes Reaction

The effect of one action can lead to remarkable victories or devastating defeat;
completely dependent upon the motivation and intention.
Set into motion the positive energy that inspires creativity, change, growth, wisdom, and watch wait for the powerful return.
The reaction will be your reward.

Wednesday, February 28, 2018

Love Is Powerful

The silent conviction of my heart;

Sharing passion, Faith, and compassion.

Fighting fear, doubt, and ignorance with a deep breath and trust.

Drowning darkness with the radiant light of love; positivity prevails.

Tuesday, February 27, 2018

Your Choice; Powerful

Waiting for life; you’ll wait a lifetime.

Taking the first step; unknown and exhilarating.

Courage is active; only brave people evolve.

Power is within reach; your choice…

Monday, February 26, 2018

Process Over Prize

The savory taste of victory is no match for the complex, layered, well-balanced meal that is the journey.

Sunday, February 25, 2018

Strength

Taking a breath instead of reacting impulsively;

Backing down from an argument;

Releasing the need to control:

It takes courage to walk away.

Saturday, February 24, 2018

Let Go…

I held onto a beautiful writing pen for over twenty years;

Together we crafted stories—I wrote my first manuscript with the heavy silver rollerball instrument—countless hours of journaling and hundreds of love letters; many of which were sent to the love who gifted the elegant precision pen the Christmas of our lust affair.

I’ve long since moved on from his bitter betrayal, but the pen always served me well.

Never one to hold on to attachments, I didn’t realize how much I’d miss the pen… alas, it’s gone and I’m struggling to move on.

This (I tell myself) is why I practice yoga.

Let go. Non-attachment. Time to make space for a new story!

Friday, February 23, 2018

Thursday, February 22, 2018

The First Step...

When we start a new journey, the first step is scary.
Overwhelmed with the unknown and maneuvering through a landmine of fear, doubt, and questions.
If I’ve learned anything in my 30′s, it’s that I have so much still to learn;
Staying in the present helps.
Walking with Fatih and love, too.
We cannot know what will happen tomorrow or ten years down the road.
I believe that I will continue to manifest my dreams.
I don’t have to be concerned with the “how”, I just have to trust in the NOW.

Wednesday, February 21, 2018

Love, Above All Else

When the hate is strong;

When darkness suffocates the light;

When you are surrounded by fear;

When it feels impossible to find common ground;

Love, above all else!

Tuesday, February 20, 2018

Have Faith

The faith we have in ourselves will determine the amount of faith others put upon us.
Who wants to collaborate with someone who doesn't believe they can get the job done?
I’ve never lacked confidence, and I’ve often set out to accomplish a goal with (perhaps) an overinflated sense of certainty.  In those instances, I always found my footing along the way; I learned a lot about myself and how I handle stress; I evolved as a person and I discovered that I would always find my footing along the way.  Not every adventure lead to success, but they all gave way to growth and self-discovery.
You have to be fearless and trust that you will know what to do when you need to!

Monday, February 19, 2018

Ability Is Only Part of the Eqaution.

Wanting and dreaming are the catalyst;

Natural talent and drive will offer a strong foundation;

But success requires work.

Investing in daily habits that create opportunities to grow and achieve our goals.

Sunday, February 18, 2018

Wake Up to Love

Present in the company of The Universe;

God is love.

Never in harms way through grace and faith;

Alive and awake.

Saturday, February 17, 2018

There Is Always A Way

Some people find excuses for why they won’t succeed;

The rest of us find a way.

Fearlessly and faithfully tenacious, creative, relentless, passionate, and wise, we seek to carve a door where once there was a lead wall.

Friday, February 16, 2018

Love

With curiosity seek truth;

Not judgment.

Tragedy in the news confirms I understand less and less every day;

Still I believe in humanity.

Why? Unanswered, perhaps we ask the wrong question.

How? Can we offer more compassion; love.

Thursday, February 15, 2018

Wisdom & Courage

Wisdom is power, courage is using that power in a meaningful way; an unstoppable force.

I cannot convince the world to believe as I do, nor would I want to, but I continue to push boundaries with a fearless and positive tenacity in an effort to entice others to think for themselves.

Wednesday, February 14, 2018

Failure Is The Sign of a Life Fully Lived

Who can say they’ve lived a full life without—at some point—experiencing failure.
Dreams and goals plotted on life’s map; you either risk everything, set out on the journey, and live or watch others conquer from afar.

Monday, February 12, 2018

Practice Freedom:


From unhappiness, stress, fear, anger, the past, the future, and what others think of you.

We have the power of choice. As easy as it is to surrender to negative energy; the radiance of the positive action will set you free!

Sunday, February 11, 2018

Whatever The Situation; That Is Life.

I used to complain a lot.
I’m a very happy person and have been most of my life, still, I would always find a reason to nag.
As I’ve grown––traveled, worked, studied, evolved––I’ve discovered that successful people seldom complain.
Rather than seeing a negative, I’ve habitually trained myself to find a positive in every circumstance.
Naturally I don’t always succeed, I’m still human, but I’ve found a balance in my outlook.  Now, when I’m in a mood or struggling with a circumstance I force myself to admit: “This is life.”
Often, that simple admission is enough to return to the present.
When I acknowledge aloud that I know that I’m being ridiculous, I find it much harder to continue the destructive mindset...the situation is what it is; but I can choose to react based on my ability to breath and release, rather than out of fear and anger.

Saturday, February 10, 2018

Accept Death; and Live

There’s no escaping the inevitable truth: we will all expire one day.
A terrifying thought for many––especially if you’re not living in the present.
The moment you surrender to the honesty of life you realize that every day that you’re not dead you're living.
But are you truly living?

Friday, February 9, 2018

The Real Me.

Not the clothes, career, car, or home I own is me;
It’s my Faith, passion, and conviction that is my truth.
I trust in the moment and evolve with wisdom from every adventure, loss, and victory.
I am Me.

Thursday, February 8, 2018

The Loss of “I”.

Releasing the “I”dentity can be a challenge;
clinging to the labels we’ve cultivated for ourselves will eventually prevent us from evolving into the person we are truly meant to be.
Learn to let go; and prepare to receive!

Wednesday, February 7, 2018

Endings

The finality of life or the end of a wonderful experience reminds us that life is a cycle.
With every loss we can find a rebirth; a discovery that nothing is over—no matter how permanent it may feel—we are constant evolving. 

Tuesday, February 6, 2018

Face Fear; Accept Death; Live Present.

Once you surrender to the inevitable truth of the Universe, you are brilliantly catapulted into the present; living fearlessly.

Monday, February 5, 2018

From Death; Rebirth

From Death; Rebirth

Every night is death; every morning a rebirth, a new day!

Ideas that no longer serve us give way to fresh thoughts.

From the ashes of our ancestors, energy!

Sunday, February 4, 2018

Acknowledge Everyone

The human connection is powerful; when you take time to make eye contact, listen, and engage with others you elevate the level of presence and grow as a person.

Saturday, February 3, 2018

Object; Objection

Neither the clothes I wear, the car I drive, or the things I buy will bring me closer to the truth of who I am; material objects will not reveal who I am.
It’s commonplace to hide behind objects; possessions have their own story, and so do I!

Friday, February 2, 2018

Awareness: Past the Pain

The moment I overthink a circumstance, get sucked back into the drama of my past, or challenge the outcome of my future I have removed myself from the present.
A simple adjustment in my mindset and a deep breath bring awareness; a return to what is actually happening.

The pain and questions are my egos desperate attempt to control my life, and the simple truth is that I owe it to myself to live the life that is actually happening—rather than a rerun of my former life or a dream sequence of something that isn’t present.

Thursday, February 1, 2018

Ego Seeks Righteousness; Soul Seeks Peace

The need to be right usually overthrows the desire to find peace;
Letting go of the ego requires trusting that ‘you’ are enough!
My ego wants more; my soul is fed when I am present.

Wednesday, January 31, 2018

Attention: No Judgement

Our ego is quick to label and judge; self preservation is to blame.

However, when we return to the present and pay attention to what is in front of us, we are more likely to form cultivate positive, fearless ideas; without judgment!

Tuesday, January 30, 2018

Breathe In Light

When I take a deep breath and release everything I’m instantly return to the universe; connected with the life-force.

Monday, January 29, 2018

Labels Are Mind-Made.

We use words to describe, define, and divide.
Labels that were surely meant to help us identify, communicate, and navigate life, have evolved into a trap.
We get so hung up in our minds overthinking everything.
Do you think a dog questions the purpose of life?
Or a flower challenges the existence of God?

Sunday, January 28, 2018

The Universe; Alive in Us

Pulsing energy connected to nature, humanity, and the heavens;
Created to thrive as one;
A beating heart, we dance in rhythm––we are alive!

Saturday, January 27, 2018

Listen To Nature

Rain drops falling; the purification of life.
Wind whistling; moving energy across the universe.
A river trickling past; the reminder that life never stops moving.
Birds singing; hope is everywhere.
Nature is full of messages; in stillness we are reminded.

Friday, January 26, 2018

A Tree Is A Tree; I am Me.

The strong trunk deeply rooted into the earth;
Grounded and confident its branches sway and leaves rustle.
Through sunshine, rain, wind, and storms the tree remains fearless––not even the threat of fire causes it to be anything other than a tree.
Surely the tree is vulnerable to elements, yet it continues to provide shelter, food, and lodging to other insects and animals; some may even unknowingly hurt the tree; yet the tree continues to stand.
Nature can teach us a lot about being present.
I don’t have to be anything other than Me.

Thursday, January 25, 2018

Balance

Standing on one foot for an extended period of time is easy;
Finding stability among the challenges of life, relationships, career, and health where a strong center is key!

Wednesday, January 24, 2018

Surrender Now

Let go of yesterday; it’s gone and can’t be redone.
Let go of tomorrow; it’s too far away;
Be here now, surrender to this moment and reap the beauty of the present.

Tuesday, January 23, 2018

One Thing At A Time

Focused and present;
Quality over quantity;
Master the person, task, or adventure in front of you;
Engage in one thing ensures a completely full experience.

Monday, January 22, 2018

Breathing In This Moment

The power of breath;
Life, presence, awareness:
In with peace,
Out with love.
Grounded, strong, confident;
I am here.

Sunday, January 21, 2018

Clarity

Meditation, breath, and returning to the present;
I see and accept that all we have is now.

Saturday, January 20, 2018

Self-realization

You are not what you wear;
What you do;
Who you know;
Where you live;
Find space and silence to look deep within and meet the undiscovered and more connected you.

Friday, January 19, 2018

Inner Essence

Accepting that I am not the clothes I wear, the car I drive, the gig I book, the book I sell, the house I own, the friends I have, the adventures I’ve experienced, or the money I’ve saved is priceless.
I am a kind, strong, talented, outgoing, positive, creative, tenacious, loving person; I hope to share the gifts, passion, and faith that I have with as many people as I can.
Finding the inner light and giving myself the permission to shine.

Thursday, January 18, 2018

Accept What Is

It’s easy to accept the present when everything is going well. It’s when the world seems dark, and you’ve lost hope that acceptance becomes an obstacle.

Ironically, it’s in those moments of fear, doubt, insecurity, or utter despair that we need to be present and breathe.

I catch myself thinking, “Once I’m through with this [ FILL IN THE BLANK ], then I’ll be able to smile again.”

My goal is to reach those moments if heightened stress and smile through them. Thanking the hurdle for challenging me to grow as a person.

Acceptance doesn’t mean giving up; it means surrendering to “what is” completely—allowing room for clarity. Once you know what you’re up against, you can choose the most appropriate tool to overcome it!

I Am

The definition of who I am continues to evolve.
The most valuable lesson that I’ve learned through countless hours of meditation, yoga, prayer, reading, questioning, listening, traveling, and self-discovery is that I am present.
Undefinable based on what I’m working on, how much money I have, what clothes I’m wearing, where I live––and so on and so forth.
I am––a sacred space.
I am most at peace, when I accept what is in the moment and remain true to the version of me at that point in time; the Now.
I am––here.

Tuesday, January 16, 2018

Now is Always Here; Past and Future Are Thoughts.

Most of us continue to relive moments from our past or waste time dreaming about our future when the truth is all that we ever have is NOW.
The conversation that happened just seconds ago or the activity that is about to happen are just thoughts.
Accepting that this moment (right NOW) is the only thing we really have is freedom.
In this moment nothing from our past can prevent us from starting fresh, and nothing in our future can stop us from being present.

Monday, January 15, 2018

The Only Goal: Be Here Now

The ego demands that we remain in a constant state of chaos;
It says, “Achieve more. Be more. You’re not enough.”
The Present Moment says, “Take care of what’s in front of you.  Be here. You, are enough. This moment is all there is.”
All of the goal setting, planning, and tenacious outreach to gain more gets in the way of the most important aspect of life: appreciating what is.
Be here now.

Sunday, January 14, 2018

Identify The Ego

I’m sitting in my hotel room gazing out the window watching the gentle snow fall;
Every flake is gorgeous and unique;
A mirror to humanity.
The snowflakes fall together creating a stunning landscape without the need to compare or be better than the crystallized ice that floats around them.

Saturday, January 13, 2018

You Are Not The Voice In Your Head

We all hear a voice—or voices—in our head.

The nagging reminder of all the insecurities, doubts, and judgments that exist in thought.

We have the power to overcome those damaging thoughts, but it requires awareness.

The ability to become present when we hear the destructive dialogue and remember that your ego feeds on the drama; but you don’t have to! When you become aware of the voice, recognize the ego and refocus your attention on the present.

Complaining; It's A Pattern

Interesting: very few people appreciate listening to a friend or loved one complain, yet we all feel justified when it’s our turn to share in the Ego driven pattern of seeking redemption, validation, or justification as a victim.

Thursday, January 11, 2018

Become At Ease With the State of “Not Knowing.”

As an artist, I’ve spent a lifetime living in the unknown;
Where will my next job come from?
Will people enjoy my book, play, television appearance?
What will I do if I stop booking work?
The unknown can be a dark, terrifying place for anyone.
Yet, from the unknown some of my brightest experiences have been born.  Unexpected adventures to foreign countries; last minute bookings on TV shows; wild parties full of A-list heroes; job opportunities that pushed my creativity beyond what I dreamed I was capable of...
It is in the state of not knowing where hope and dreams thrive; there in that uncertainty remains the idea that anything could happen!

Wednesday, January 10, 2018

Awareness From Within

When I close my eyes and focus on the energy swirling inside my body I am instantly present;
In that moment I find the space to react, think, create, live and I am once again connected to my purpose.

Tuesday, January 9, 2018

"Not Enough" Is A Condition

During the early trails on my journey as an artists I discovered a detrimental character flaw.

Despite having a devoted and creative husband; a beautiful home; surrounded by brilliant friends and family; and a career that has allowed me to travel the world whilst building on my dreams—I found myself thinking, “I want more!”

My Ego exposed; it was not my finest hour. Yet, the revelation had me questioning my very purpose as a storyteller.

How can you exist in the entertainment industry happily? Every job—I was lucky enough to book—had me satisfied, no: elated! I made it! Then, the reality hit: this job will end. What’s next? I want to do this again.

Spending my childhood in endless dance, acting, and vocal classes; investing thousands of dollars and energy pursuing my dream as an adult; and finally receiving opportunities, it makes senses that I’d want more…

Artists believe that they need their ego to create anything worthwhile, what’s more, we believe that without Ego we won’t gain any attention.

When I found Eckhart Tolle the first time around, my Ego rejected his book. No thanks Oprah, he might be good enough for you, but I need my Ego.

Thankfully, I woke up a few years ago and recognized that if I wanted to survive this industry, I would need to find worth in myself regardless of my career.

When I accepted that my Ego, fear, insecurity, anger, joy are conditions that will eventually pass, I unlocked the peace of the present.

Since that awakening I’ve been more open to unimaginable adventures and my creativity, skill set, and job opportunities have flourished!

Monday, January 8, 2018

Compulsive Thinking Is Avoidance Of Now

I started writing this blog post in my head whilst practicing yoga this morning. There, in the midst of my Sun B flow I realized I wasn’t there; I was avoiding what was right in front of me.

My mind wanted to escape the present—a beautiful yoga class—and I had to ask “why?”

We’ve become so programmed to constantly increase productivity and we’ve completely lost quality control.

When I focus my attention, breath, and Faith, on one action I can achieve a more meaningful result.

Sunday, January 7, 2018

Don’t Take Your Thoughts Too Seriously

Lost in thought throughout my childhood; I spent too much time listening to the dialogue in my mind.

My conflicted soul resisted the noise in my head like an activist at a Trump rally, but it wasn’t until my last year in high school that I finally found the courage to convince my thoughts to trust my heart.

Dissecting every possibility; over analyzing the obvious; carefully calculating the odds—it’s no match for trusting your instinct.

Life is what happens while you’re making plans; or so the saying goes…

Why not plan to release and go with the flow?

Saturday, January 6, 2018

Friday, January 5, 2018

Wisdom Through Awareness

Growing up, my dad would “encourage” me to help him out around the house, in the garage, and at his office––I’m sure the free labor was half the reason my parents decided to have me––and whether we were in a crawl space repairing a pipe or neck deep in grease changing the oil in our car he would say (half joking to lift my spirits), “Watch and learn!”
My dad’s point was valid and has served me throughout my life.  He taught me to be a watchful observer, to be aware of my circumstances, and to learn from everything.
Turns out he was a wise guy after all...

Thursday, January 4, 2018

Stillness Is Where Creativity And Solutions Are Found.

I know people who seek drama, they think it makes them more creative; a real artist.
I’ve always been attracted to chaos, not necessarily in my personal life, but  among the talented circle of creative individuals I’ve surrounded myself with.
Then, I found myself on a project working alongside a dark, troubled, incredibly talented choreographer who thought it was a wise choice to create unnecessary friction between the cast.  I would leave the studio with a headache and spend the evening in a mild state of depression.
Slowly, I started to pull away from the rest of the cast––I found a quite corner in the rehearsal hall and read, journaled, or listened to classical music.
That’s when I first discovered the magic of stillness.  Throughout the remainder of the rehearsal process, my creativity and ability flourished; while the rest of my colleagues battled with injuries, struggled to stay positive, and continued to receive notes regarding their less-than-favorable performances.
That show was a wonderful opportunity for me to learn the value of serenity; giving myself permission to disconnect from the noise and find the gift of inner peace.

Wednesday, January 3, 2018

Awareness From Your Surroundings

I watched the sky transform from a deep cobalt blue into a soft sky blue in a matter of minutes;
I gazed at a tree and explored the layers and depths of green, yellow, and brown that twisted together in the wind;
With careful surveillance I observed my Yorkie, Ginger inhale a cookie like a child devours an ice cream cone on a hot day, I could taste the joy and feel her gratitude, love, and pleasure––all from a simple dog treat.
When I allow myself the quite space to become aware of my surroundings without labels or judgments, I’m reminded of how simple yet detailed life is; we are all connected.

Tuesday, January 2, 2018

Listen For Silence; Become Aware

Many of us walk around with a persistent voice in our head; planning, questioning, challenging, worrying endlessly.
Constant chatter that clouds our judgment and forces us away from the present.
I could feel the vibrant energy of 2018 pulling me in even before yesterday;
Collectively we (society) agree upon the beginning of a new calendar year and the mark of a fresh start.
Of course, when we allow ourselves to realize (or accept it as the case may be), we have the opportunity––the gift––to approach every single day with the same awareness.
Silence can be scary for many people; those who seek distractions from the never-ending demands of the ego.
If, when we think of that soundless space, we allow ourselves to become aware of the present, we may just find a moment of peace and clarity.
Try it; give yourself permission to stop the barrage of unnecessary inner dialogue and invite presence.

Monday, January 1, 2018

Inner Stillness

The perfect way to welcome a New Year!
Vibrant rays energize my body;
The California breeze sweeps past me as I sit in meditation;
Like a sound effect in a superhero movie, the world around me is silent; I’m in a bubble.
Then, clarity: silence is golden.

Sunday, December 31, 2017

Goodbye 2017; I’m Positive It’s Time For You To Go.

I sit here typing this blog in the early morning hours of the final day in 2017; thank God––I’m not one to be so negative––therein lies the problem.
In blatant disrespect of my yoga-Zen-Faith–seek-the-light-stay-positive-and-persevere general disposition, I spent most of 2017 confronting the Dark Force inside me, similar to the NEW Natalie Portman in the latest installment of the “Star Wars” franchise.
Then, I spent last evening in a yoga sound bath––yes, you heard me––*yoga sound bath, when it dawned on me that I’ve spent the past six months morning the death of my thirties.

I never thought I was that “guy” who cared about “age”, and (mostly) I’m not.   Then it occurred to me that I went through a similar transition when I turned 29, which makes sense. Until we’re several decades in, I suppose we don’t really contemplate how quickly they seem to go.
When I turned 39––six months into a year that started with Trump––a small part of me checked out.  I let myself give into negative thoughts and lost touch with my inner passion, spirit, and drive.  
My thirties were magical, but my twenties were brilliant, too, which is why I have no doubt that my forties will be spectacular.
As the final vibration of bubbly sound poured over my wider-than-usual shavasana, I concluded that my subconscious mourning period should end with 2017.  I have the power to replace every negative thought with a positive action; it has worked my entire life and subsequently attracted exceptional people and wild adventures.



*You’re dying to know what a yoga sound bath is, aren’t you? It’s a **yin-yoga meditation and stretch class with live music dripping all around you.

**You’re going to have to Google this one.

Saturday, December 30, 2017

Prepare To Let Go...

The year wraps up like a shot in a Beverly Hills plastic surgeon’s office;
Quick, painless, and expensive. (All of those post Christmas clearance sales?!)
I sit in peaceful meditation; contemplating the possibilities.
Endless adventure awaits those who can let go of last year's baggage and embrace a new set of luggage.

Friday, December 29, 2017

Set It, And Forget It.

Not the 90’s infomercial selling a slow cooker; goals and resolutions.
Find the courage to trust that your intentions will manifest as they are supposed to as you navigate through your day.

Thursday, December 28, 2017

Happy Trails Tommy; You Will Be Missed

I entered Joseph Arnold Elementary School two months into my 3rd grade year.  My parents had just relocated our family to Southern California from a small town in Colorado.
I walked onto the campus wearing the perfect Colorado outfit; tan corduroy pants, a western button-down, and Kangaroos.
It didn’t take me long to realize that I stood out from all the blond surfers wearing Gottcha T-shirts, board shorts, and Vans; I looked like a ballerina in a hip-hop class: awkward!
Thankfully, one brave boy, Tom Swayer (YES, that was his real name), walked over and asked me if I wanted to sit next to him––thrilled that I had an instant friend, I said yes!
We transitioned from Cub Scouts to Boy Scouts; countless family vacations; soccer games; backpacking trips; he taught me how to body-board during the summer vacation between 4th and 5th grade; school dances, our first girlfriends, late night pranks, wild adventures, and countless conversations about sex, God, and everything in-between.
Yesterday, Tom passed away in a terrible motorbike accident; I am in total shock.
Our lives drifted apart after high school, but thanks to the (sometimes) positive benefits of Facebook, I was able to rekindle our friendship online.
I’m devastated that I missed an opportunity to see him a few short months ago, while I was visiting a few of my friends from my old neighborhood in the South Bay.
We always think we have more time; another lesson remembered: today is all we have––and today––I am mourning the loss of my old pal.
R.I.P. Tommy.

Wednesday, December 27, 2017

Warmth

A simple practice repeated with breath and a mantra, warms my core—body, soul, mind—from the inside out; the heated room is the catalyst for powerful presence.

Tuesday, December 26, 2017

One Truth; Light

In a world abundant with unknowns and untruths, God is the only thing I’ve known to be certain; unfailing.
Full of love I’m happy; I feel at peace; my mind’s dialogue is calm; no nagging obsessive ambitions––still, continually work toward my dreams with purpose––and entirely fulfilled with my life.
I am present and that is everything.

Monday, December 25, 2017

Merry Christmas

When I was a kid we’d all be on speaker phone talking to cousins, aunts, uncles, and the grandparents... Now we all huddle around the iPhone for FaceTime!  It’s a Christmas Miracle.
#GameChanger

Sunday, December 24, 2017

Christmas Eve Tradition

I was recently asked what my favorite Christmas tradition was.
My answer caught me off guard, but it was true, “Not having to adhere to a tradition!”
I went on to clarify that throughout my life––and starting at a very early age––I’ve been blessed with so many adventures with family and friends during this time of year.
Whether we were meeting family in Las Vegas (a mutual agreed upon meeting point between my extended family in Colorado and our immediate family in Cali), or working on stage at Radio City Music Hall, I’ve been certain to find the gift of being in that moment.  In many ways, it was the beginning of my quest to find the Present.
As I scan the brilliant memories of Christmas past, the common theme (tradition if you will) is that I’ve been surrounded by love, joy, Faith, and laughter.

Saturday, December 23, 2017

The Nutcracker

Rats dancing around a gorgeous palace all decorated for Christmas;
A Sugarplum Fairy flirting with a Prince;
Ethnically insensitive stereotypes parading around the stage in competition;
Beautiful bodies stretching and reaching, twirling and jumping around the stage;
Sounds like every party I’ve been too in NYC.

Friday, December 22, 2017

You Know You’re Living The Dream When…

You can lounge by a pool with a book and a cool breeze, under a gorgeous cloud-free blue sky 3 days before Christmas!

Thursday, December 21, 2017

Tuesday, December 19, 2017

Feed The Ducks

Lily the Shih Tzu stares with her head titled, confused by the sound of quack... that’s not a dog?!
Ginger the Yorkie sits waiting for a crumb––they’re for the ducks Ginger... she doesn’t get it.
We walk along the Los Angeles River; just a bunch of animals feeding the birds.

Monday, December 18, 2017

Moderation

The holidays are full of festive gatherings, too much food, laughter, and booze;
Today––whilst attempting to get downward dog in yoga––I had a flash of clarity.
Why am I fighting so hard to get into this posture? My body feels broken and my belly is full––why not “drop down” and give myself a break.  (A sentiment that is often repeated throughout a yoga class.)
Yoga, just as in life, is a lesson in letting go and finding balance:
I have to know when to push; when to pull; and when to lie in shavasana.
I struck a healthy balance in class and discovered that moderation suits me.

Sunday, December 17, 2017

Say Cheese.

Holiday Parties full of laughter and cheer; and food––a lot of food.
My downfall: cheese. I can’t resist the creamy, buttery, salty, lactose-I’m-SERIOUSLY-intolerably snack;
And the proof is every picture. Every party thus far I can be seen posing with a mouthful of cheese!

Saturday, December 16, 2017

Finger Sandwiches

Delicious bite-sized triangles cut from the finest bread;
Spread with a delicate layer of homemade chicken salad and Kosher egg salad.
The crust removed with care;
Stacked on silver tray and accompanied by an exquisitely brewed cup of tea.
A respectable holiday treat!

Friday, December 15, 2017

December 15th

Fifteen years ago today I started dating the man of my dreams, who would inevitably become my husband and creative partner;
Seven years ago today my gorgeous niece was born, changing my world for the better;
Eighty-One years ago today my grandma was born; providing an instant fan for life and constant source of love and laughter––also the perfect shopping companion.
Today was a beautiful celebration of the many blessings I have in my life.

Thursday, December 14, 2017

Vent Before Zen

I’m sitting here in rage, writing this blog instead of getting downward dog on my yoga mat, because I’m unable to let go of a troubling email I’ve just read.

Add to that my obsession for getting things done, and you get this shitty blog post.

Often, my most inspired work is born out of frustration and a nonstop mindset; this entry is an exception to that rule.

I’m literally venting in a public forum in order to release and go find Zen on my mat!

Namaste.

Wednesday, December 13, 2017

Alabama

Christmas came early for America;
The good, morally and ethically conscious people of Alabama made their voices heard where it counts in this country: the voting booths.
Thank you Alabama!

Tuesday, December 12, 2017

Traffic To Yoga

Meditation starts in the car;

The mat is just an extension of the road ahead.

Chaos and crazy drivers all around;

My mind is challenged to find Zen.

Monday, December 11, 2017

Exit Booze; Enter Bread

I’ve consumed an adult beverage almost every night since Thanksgiving;

It’s time to take a break from the booze.

Enter bread. (It’s the only comfort I have left.)

Saturday, December 9, 2017

Dinner Party

Another holiday season is here;
Friends will gather for delicious food and––thanks to the booze––good cheer;
Days of prepping and cleaning and decorating;
All for one evening where inevitably Allison will drink too much wine, Alice will complain about the music, Mark (Alice’s husband) will offend one of the gay couples, Jeff (my husband) will keep the conversation pleasant, and I will spend most of my time filling up wine glasses whilst simultaneously searching for my Jack & Coke––which I no doubt set down in order to shove more food in my mouth.

Friday, December 8, 2017

Letting Go

My neck is twisted and my back is tight;
Isn’t it obvious I slept on the couch last night?

The silence is loud;
Yesterday, he walked on eggshells and attempted to engage several times;
I am too proud.

It’s not healthy to hold a grudge––and it’s completely out of character for me––but I’m having a hard time letting go.

I know what I should do;
But I don’t want to.

Thursday, December 7, 2017

The Aftermath

My raging temper is subsiding exposing the true depth of my sadness;
Emotionally exposed; I sit facing the cause of the storm.
I’m at a loss for words; possibly the first time ever.

I’ll wait for a meaningful shift in the winds before I speak.

Wednesday, December 6, 2017

The Storm

Violent words fighting for attention;
Through the whipping flames I feel the harsh judgments burn my soul like ambers from the fires that rage outside.

The earth is mad; so am I.

Tuesday, December 5, 2017

Enough Is Enough

The ego in me challenges everything.
Wanting more—a human condition I’m sure—fuels fires; it also destroys people. 
Idealistic and passionate I sought to follow my dreams and refused to compromise my goals. I set the bar high and tenaciously jumped each hurdle.
Finally, I arrived at an invisible finish line of understanding: you will never be finished.
Now, how do I cope with the ravenous desire to acquire more; achieve more; create more?
The answer is often as stunningly clear as a flawless diamond (as precious, too); Be Present. 
Then, as dark as a deep sea expedition without a working light—I am lost again.

Deep breaths in and out return me to the Now and I remember: when I foucus on what I love; trust in my Faith; release my fear; and create—I will continue to receive opportunities to work and inspire. Just as it has for the past 40 years of my life (24 of them as a professional), the path will guide me.

Monday, December 4, 2017

LA Dream

LA at 5am is a dream:
No traffic;
No assholes;

Just open roads and the silhouette of Palm trees swaying in the soft misty air.

Sunday, December 3, 2017

Brunch

Bacon and alcohol are permitted in excess;
Laughter is encouraged, too!

Friends indulging.

Saturday, December 2, 2017

Blessed

I sit in my comfy club chair watching my husband cuddle our Shih Tzu, Lily.
The fireplace is ablaze, our tree is lit, and Christmas music plays softly in the background, furnishing a cozy and romantic holiday atmosphere.
I have absolutely no desire to leave this moment and thankfully I don’t have to.
I am blessed.

Friday, December 1, 2017

The OC

We drove for two hours from LA to the OC, ordinarily this would be a fifty-five minute jaunt.
My appointment took less than twenty minutes––now what?
An impromptu adventure!
Window shopping at South Coast Plaza mall; dinner at The Capitol Grill; and a movie––Murder On The Orient––it was a perfect unplanned (but totally present) day.

Thursday, November 30, 2017

5 Minute Writing Exercise; The Word Was: Resonate

The hate was intolerable; it snuck into the darkest bowels of my soul––softer than when my younger sister would tiptoe in after missing her curfew.
I travel for a living so I felt the energy building long before my friends in Cali.  I knew the darkness would penetrate the light and take away everything that nearly a decade of change brought forth for my people. All people, fuck––for humanity.
The world buckled down with booze in both hands bracing for the nightmare that we’d have to live with––eyes wide open––for the next four years.
A sexual predator, a liar, a monster; our president; let that resonate.

Wednesday, November 29, 2017

Filed and Focused; Christmas Miracle

What was formerly beautiful trees in some shinny modernized section of the world, sat in a heap atop our desk;
Four months of bills, invoices, and important notes manifested into a mound of paperwork that was desperate for a file cabinet.
Today, I conquered Mt. Admin;
It took me three hours to sort and file the mess;
The vibrant laminate sparkles like the day we pulled it from the Ikea box,
And we are free to focus all of our energy on creative projects and parties in the month of December!
...now that’s a Christmas miracle.

Tuesday, November 28, 2017

Oh Pees.

After yoga, hydration is key;
My bladder is always full.
I pee every fifteen minutes;
“It’s only a problem if it’s a problem for you...”
Is the official response from my doctor.
It’s only a problem for me when I can’t find a restroom.
Still, I’ll suffer through he pain and my supply, moist skin appreciates it!

Monday, November 27, 2017

Fireplace

Beautiful dancing flame;
From your violet purple base to the wisps of your burnt orange tips, I’m mesmerized by your twirling silhouette.
Warming my heart with childhood memories;
Warming my feet as I cuddle up with my puppies.

Sunday, November 26, 2017

No Sun; No Problem.

After a vigorous morning sculpt class and Sunday meditation, my husband and I arrived at our friends house in Bel-Air––I’m name dropping only because, come on? Bel-Air?! I grew up with the Fresh Prince so just hanging with people who actually live in the indulgent and desirable zip code is like a childhood dream.
We drove down to Marina del Rey ready for a fabulous day at sea.
Overcast and chilly, we stepped aboard the yacht, and immediately started drinking the private reserve wine that was bold and buttery.
Layers of navy, white, and grey with a pop of coral––the perfect accent––for a socked in cruise on the Pacific.
Surrounded by people I love whilst eating mounds of rich cheese and laughing from too much vino; the crisp Cali air and misty salt water swept through our hair.
Just as we hit Malibu, the sun made a cameo––the silver lining was a delightful surprise.
As we made our way back into the harbor, a pod of dolphins danced around the boat and the day was complete.
When you’re sailing with loved ones, it’s impossible not to shine; sun or not, we’re on a yacht!

Saturday, November 25, 2017

The Day After...

When you wake up from a five (okay ten) day food-fest and your stomach is roaring, “ENOUGH!”
It’s time to take a step back from the holiday temptations and reintroduce myself to vegetables.
The final warning shot was fired yesterday, whilst during a Black Friday shopping mishap, I popped a button off of a pair of Ted Baker slacks in “my size.”
Needless to say I left the mall without making a single purchase;
So hey, the upside to my weight gain, is that I’m saving my bank account from a weight loss!

Friday, November 24, 2017

Black Friday

The day I step on the scale to see how much I’ve gained in one week;
It’s that time of year, when my waist grows two inches.
Bring on the holidays!

Thursday, November 23, 2017

Traditional Thanks

I woke up this morning next to my best friend.
We walked to Starbucks for matching Gingerbread latte’s; a tradition that we’ve had since we meet 15 years ago performing in the Christmas Spectacular at Radio City Music Hall.
We returned to cuddle with our puppies on the couch whilst watching the Macy’s Thanksgiving Day Parade.
I used to watch the parade with my grandma as a child;
the Broadway performances, marching bands, floats, and of course––New York City.
The parade inspired me to follow my dreams.
Now, as I look back on that tradition––one which sparked my own journey as a performer––I’m overcome with joy and gratitude.
What better way to spend Thanksgiving Day morning––with nostalgic memories from my past––and of course, creating new traditions in my present!

Wednesday, November 22, 2017

Palm Springs

Bright red lobster skin; do these people know about sunscreen?
Eating dinner at 5pm; in bed by 8!
I love lounging by the pool with a book...and an endless supply of Lava Flows.
I eat too much––because I’m on vacation––so parading in a swimsuit isn’t high on my list; but hey, that’s life.  It’s 120 degrees out here, and I’m letting it all hang out!

Tuesday, November 21, 2017

Age(d) Cheese

The indulgent, salty, delicious Mexican food I ate last night is screaming at me this morning.
The rich dairy and brilliantly seasoned beef have married in my belly and are sending up violent acid reminders to my burning heart: you are too old to eat like this!

Monday, November 20, 2017

The Things We Do…

I’m up at the crack of dawn;
strike that—the sun’s not even out yet.
I’m mentally preparing to take yoga befor my body is even awake.

Only because I love my husband!

Sunday, November 19, 2017

That’s 40...

Kids zipping past me high on candy, donuts, and soda;
Adults swapping conversation whilst shoving a bagel down their mouths simultaneously glancing back and forth at their child—who is high on sugar—and then, “Excuse me…”
Delicious cocktails.

Welcome to a 40th Birthday Brunch in LA.

Saturday, November 18, 2017

The Morning Practice

The calm quite energy is welcoming;
I enter the Zen like space with hope, eager to start a fresh new day with peaceful meditation.

Balance and breath vibrate through my body and remind me I’m alive!

Friday, November 17, 2017

Two Puppies

Cuddling on a couch like little dust bunnies;
There’s no distinction where their fur ends and the faux fur throws begin.
I want to snuggle them up all day long.

Thursday, November 16, 2017

Master The Moment

I woke up this morning with adrenaline and zest;
Ready to conquer a marathon of meetings, projects, and emails.
Cutting through the haze of 2017;
Mostly I stayed present, but there were times...
None of that matters now, I’m back in action and ready to master the moment!

Wednesday, November 15, 2017

Morning...

Lying in bed watching the sunrise.
Cozy with my puppies;
Quite and peaceful, I appreciate the beauty of a new day.

Monday, November 13, 2017

Back To La La Land

Fall is beautiful back east;
Golden leaves beneath my feet.
Still, nothing compares to the golden glow and blue skies of Los Angeles.

An evening swim in December is worth sacrificing two seasons.

Sunday, November 12, 2017

Fall Gratitude

Burnt orange and red leaves cover the ground leaving a vibrant belt of rust along the path outside;
The smell of smoke permeates the crisp air;
Wrapped in layers of clothing, a beanie, and scarf, we make our way toward the studio;
Once inside, the warmth of dancers in motion fills my soul with gratitude;
I am living my dream.

Saturday, November 11, 2017

After A Red Eye...

It’s best not to plan a day of work;
No amount of eye drops will alleviate the burning fire-engine-red dryness;

Caffeine helps jump start the sleepless day, but does nothing for your breath!

Thursday, November 9, 2017

Lame

Dear American Airlines,
Charging $300 for an airline ticket without a seat assignment, so that you can charge an additional $89 for a middle seat “upgrade” on each of the four legs of my flight is lame.
Sincerely,
A Future Southwest Passanger.

Wednesday, November 8, 2017

Feel The Burn

Acidy flames force themselves up my chest;
Punishment for the rich, zesty, pasta I enjoyed at the dinner party last night.
I’m sure the Jack & Coke’s didn’t help my situation...

Tuesday, November 7, 2017

Breathe Through It.

The jackhammer in my head is a product of yoga before caffeine;
Lying on a mat I felt the pain.
Downward dog, the blood flows to my brain, still the pounding continues.
I scan my body and realize I’m tense all over;
Isn’t that the point of yoga?
I wasn’t concentrating enough on my breath.
In through the nose and out through the nose;
I breathe through it.

Monday, November 6, 2017

The Task At Hand

Sometimes you have to push beyond the comfort zone to finish the task;
Motivated and wide-awake I seek to create.
When the language flows naturally, I concentrate on the unforced words and share my story.

Time Changed

The time changed;
I fall for it every year;
I already miss the sun.

Saturday, November 4, 2017

Observation:

My Yorkshire Terrier sits and waits for a treat like I stand in line waiting for my morning Starbucks; trying to be patient but...seriously give me the damn coffee already!

Friday, November 3, 2017

Nabucco

Verdi; a master of gorgeous ceremonial chords, pushing religious and political boundaries––and like most artists who’ve endured generations––a visionary ahead of his time.
Pl├ícido Domingo; a passionate performer, with rich texture and strong physical presence––not just a famous tenor, but a true actor.
LA Opera; a breath of fresh air, full of zest and willing to challenge audiences with programs that are both important and beautifully mounted.

Thursday, November 2, 2017

Coffee

Dark and rich with a hint of coconut milk and a dash of sugar;
When people ask me how I accomplish so much in one day, I could say that I’m great with balancing my time; I set manageable goals; I wake up early and stay up late; I practice yoga and focus on one task at a time; instead I offer up a simple truth: caffeine!

Wednesday, November 1, 2017

Hotel Slumber Party

Staying at a hotel is so much more enjoyable when I’m not traveling for work.
Lounging in the room with family and our puppies;
Watching trashy TV and ordering room service;
Sleeping in;
Leaving the beds unmade;
I love it!

Tuesday, October 31, 2017

Happy Halloween

Children dressed up like little witches, monsters, or their favorite athletes and superheroes;
Young adults dressed up as sexy / hot [Fill In The Blank];
Grown adults dressed up like former presidents or prominent former-leaders-turned-laughing stocks;
Then there are those who phone it in, with a tux and a martini glass a la James Bond––they might as well just buy the T-Shirt that reads, “This is my Halloween Costume.”

Monday, October 30, 2017

Now, Or Never

The time to be present is now. 
Nothing that has happened in the past, or might happen in the future, can replace what is happening now.

The ability to recognize this simple truth has made all the difference on my journey. 

Sunday, October 29, 2017

Is That Me, I See?

Staring at my face in the mirror;
The subtle stubble shadows my laugh lines;
When did I evolve into my father?

Saturday, October 28, 2017

Enter Zen Through Daily Observations.

Walking through our Zen garden I saw life;
Once neglected and desolate;
Tropical blooms tower over randomly placed stones.
Water and TLC restored Peace.

Friday, October 27, 2017

Wake Up Smiling...

When you wake up in a fabulous mood, even the leaf blowers sound like instruments in a Disney movie.
The chirping sound of birds is the perfect background melody to start my morning rituals;
Even the (usually) annoying toddler––stomping back and forth above––does so with the precision of a bandleader;
Today, is a beautiful day.

Thursday, October 26, 2017

Note To Self:

I just spent two hours doing something that should have taken ten minutes;
I need a vacation.

Wednesday, October 25, 2017

Exhausted

Three alarms,
Two leaf blowers,
A dumptruck and a traffic helicopter;
And I still couldn’t wake up!
My body is exhausted and another hour in bed made all the difference.

Tuesday, October 24, 2017

Audition

The saying goes, “When it rains it pours.”
Yes, and thank the Universe––and God––too, because 2017 has been a desert wasteland.
The moment I regained my creative conscious, I took action!
It’s one of the challenges of the entertainment industry; you can never know when the next job is coming––but you always have to keep the faith that it will come!

Monday, October 23, 2017

On Set

Walking onto a monstrous soundstage I’m instantly transported back to my childhood fantasies.
The overwhelming, yet familiar space encourages me to stand taller.
The skeleton of the set reminds me of my grandma’s doll house. 
The air is cool and the Hollywood haze fills the scene—they call it atmosphere—it’s a dream.
I pinch myself under a gigantic movie light: stay present. These are the moments that I will undoubtedly look back on when I feel like I’m never going to work again.

Crew, talent, craft service, and a lot of smoke and mirrors; it’s a collaborative process and I’m grateful for the job.

Sunday, October 22, 2017

A Fall Sunday

Waking up late;
Coffee and cartoons cuddled on the couch with my puppies;
The sound of football high-fives echo through the neighborhood;
Garage sales;
Brunch;
Window shopping on Ventura Boulevard.
Yoga and church––both bringing me back to the present.
A midday nap by the pool;
I love a fall Sunday!

Saturday, October 21, 2017

A Quick Trip To Target

Toilette paper,
Coffee,
Dog treats;
You know...the basics.
I don’t know what’s worse:
That I just used my blog post to make my Target list,
Or, that I can’t remember three items.

Friday, October 20, 2017

It’s An Art

Not giving a fuck.
Grandma taught me to be respectful, to treat people as I hoped to be treated. I agree with that on paper.
My dad taught me to stand up for what’s right; sometimes that means fighting fire with fire. I agree with that in practice.
I’ve found the perfect balance; assessing the circumstances and responding with the precise amount of compassion, power, and truth. 

The key ingredient: not giving a fuck what people think—not everyone’s moral compass works; stay true to you!

Thursday, October 19, 2017

Validation

One aspect of my morning ritual involves writing in my journal.
My journaling––born out of a need to hold myself accountable in high school––has developed into a habit over the last twenty years of my life.
At first, the journaling was a way to talk through things with myself before “putting them out there” to the universe.
An angry rant directed toward a friend, whom I really liked but felt betrayed by; my journal was a safe space to share.
Likewise, I was free to set goals, confess sins, and think. I did a lot of thinking, overanalyzing, reading, and of course, making lists.
In time, this freedom ushered a daily routine which has served me well.
Inspiring me to dream bigger, share bigger, and trust.
Looking back on any number of journal entries unlocks a memory from my past. No doubt a useful tool for a writer, I have called on these often dramatic transcripts to relive the agonizing pain or brilliant joy.
This morning I was working through my feelings and cataloging the hints of doubt about the past year.
“Did I do this or that enough...”
“Could I have pushed more here?”
“Have I been present?”
It only took me a few seconds to get back to the present. Simultaneously answering myself and feeling like maybe I have grown this year.
So far, this hasn’t been a year of huge outward strides; yet inside, I feel like I’ve grown more as a person and artist.  I’ve held myself accountable for being present and releasing the need to overachieve.
I’ve found more balance and somehow managed to create more rewarding job opportunities, too.
I finished my journal entry and headed to yoga class feeling reinvigorated and reminded that by remaining present I have an opportunity to prioritize goals, jobs, and my life, so that I can focus on positive action without fear.
After a blissful yoga class, I walked out of the yoga studio to a voice message from production; I booked a job choreographing a TV show next week.
I’m not saying that positive energy will always get you the job; but I’ve noticed that I seem to attract the emotion I put out into the world.  Today, I worked my way thought a negative thought pattern. The moment I was realigned with my perspective, I received validation.

Wednesday, October 18, 2017

Why I Yoga...

Feeling completely annoyed.
Accepting circumstances that are out of my hands is one of the hardest challenges to my peace of mind.
The ability to let go, release control, and move on;
It’s why I yoga.
I need to hit the mat!

Tuesday, October 17, 2017

Health Kick

I eat too much;
Therefore I’m fat.
I do yoga;
On a mat.
All the stretching, meditation, and sweat isn’t enough;
My inner peace is currently surrounded by a thick protective layer.
It’s time for a detox: mind, body, soul.

Monday, October 16, 2017

(Another) Technical Rage

Waiting for Safari to load on my 3 year old laptop is like that time in high school, when I first popped in a AOL Online CD into my best friend Leah’s computer.
We sat for 15 minutes enduring the crashing, screeching noise of information and (the end of privacy as we knew it) transmitting into the vast unknown.
My point, why––in the 21st Century––do I still have to wait to get online?
And why is a 3-year-old computer as obsolete as a VCR?

Sunday, October 15, 2017

Lazy

Lying in my bed looking at social media;
I’m not sure who is snoring louder––my dogs or my husband.
The crisp air snaps my arm back under the covers;
I should get up and start my day.
Then I remember it’s Sunday.
For a moment I contemplate falling back into my slumber;
But the allure of walking to Starbucks on this perfect fall morning is stronger;
I roll out of bed, throw on a hat, and bully myself into starting the day.