Saturday, August 27, 2016

Lap-Dogs Will Be Catty

I’m watching my dogs fight over the food bowl;
Neither one is very interested in eating––it’s just a competition to see who can out intimidate the other––so basically it’s like a catfight on America’s Next Top Model.

Friday, August 26, 2016

Creativity; You Have to Do The Work.

Sitting on the floor in my living room staring at a blank computer screen;
Sometimes I’d rather see that annoying Macintosh rainbow hamster wheel––because at least then I’d know someone (or thing) was thinking.
Creative writing is like throwing a dinner party; it all sounds fun until you actually start doing the work––once your guests show up you all get drunk and have a fabulous time, when it’s over you have to clean up the mess and you swear you’ll never do it again––and then a few weeks later you miss the idea of a dinner party.

Thursday, August 25, 2016

Hotel Hideaway.

Not even the luxurious pool can entice me into the scorching heat of the desert;
I’m swimming in a sea of blankets and shaded by blackout curtains in my hotel room today; because sometimes vacation is a date with room services and HBO programming.

Wednesday, August 24, 2016

Palm Springs Mini Vaca

I walked outside and my flip-flops melted to the sidewalk;
My head beaded up with droplets of sweat and my pits are soaking wet.
It’s the perfect poolside retreat.
I’m off with a book in my hand, zinc on my face and a handful of drink tickets:
Bartender I’ll take the bottomless Pina Colada’s please!
I love a mini vacation.

Tuesday, August 23, 2016

Monday, August 22, 2016

Find Your Light

The light is easy to find when you’re standing in darkness;
Often we run towards it naturally, as a way out.
But when we’ve hit the height of the day––people are tempted to run from the illuminating energy and seek shadows; afraid of what might be uncovered.
Those who remain exposed shine brighter.

Sunday, August 21, 2016

Sunday

Coffee time with my family;
Our puppies cuddled in our laps––as we sip our caffeine and catch up on the current state of our lives.
We sit and read the news (online, of course) and discuss the fate of the world––just like grandma and grandpa used to do.
Lazily, we make our way to the bathroom and start to groom ourselves for whatever the day holds in store:
I may go to yoga––if I can rally and remind myself how accomplished I’ll feel afterwards;
Or, I might skip yoga and go to brunch with a friend instead.
I’ll need to find time to be with God––in His house or mine––it makes no difference, I just need to connect; it’s always beneficial to remember that there is a power greater than I can imagine in control.
In the meantime, I sit quietly on our sofa taking stock in the blessings I have. There’s no pressure to overachieve or attend to anything other than the present.

Saturday, August 20, 2016

Moms Are The Best!

My mom leaves town today;
I’ll do my best to focus on the adventures we shared while she was visiting––rather than being sad that she has to go.
Her love and support have helped me shine through every single journey I’ve walked.
But what I miss most when she’s not here, is her sense of humor––her contagious laugh is like an opera.
My heart is warm when her eyes sparkle with a wild thought or cleaver remark;
Every witty bone in my body was passed down from her.
We both like to shop, too.
And of course, I will miss our quality coffee talks!
I love you mom.

Friday, August 19, 2016

Mani Pedi With Mom

A trip to the spa with my mom;
Bonding over a manicure and pedicure with a champagne toast.
Because who doesn’t love being pampered?
My mom has always been a fabulous shopping buddy, I’m a lucky guy––and I have the soft hands and shiny toenails to prove it.

Thursday, August 18, 2016

Wednesday, August 17, 2016

Lights. Camera. Action!

The rehearsals are done;
Lines are learned,
Costumes have been fitted;
I look the part.
Working with a talented cast and crew;
Today is a dream that will live for eternity on film––well actually it’s digital––but still, you get the point.
Rolling!

Tuesday, August 16, 2016

Rehearsal

I love the dark cool vacuum of a soundstage;
Scattered pieces of scenery––half familiar sets from movies and television shows you love.
The smell of burning lights.
Avoiding craft services to and from the dressing rooms––do you want to be in shape on camera or not?
Performers gathered in a corner of the set reviewing the choreography;
Laughter ensues, while I try not to sweat through my costume.
And then, action!
I love being on a set––living my childhood dream.

Monday, August 15, 2016

Forget Your Troubles...

Come on get happy!
Happiness requires the difficult ability to let go—and move on.
Becoming aware of the underlying anger is the first step; releasing it is the hard part.
But once this happens, you are present again.

Sunday, August 14, 2016

Feeling Blessed

Early morning drive through Los Angeles;
The city is calm—I inhale the landscape and survey my life:
Family and friends are healthy;
I continue to follow my dreams and receive opportunities to grow as an artist;
And I seek balance through faith and awareness in the present.
Life is great.

Saturday, August 13, 2016

Truth on Tour: 2.7

Goodbye's are always rough;
Working with so many talented people in such a short amount of time—you develope a unique artistic bond.
Emotions are high; our paths have crossed for a special reason, and I'm sure we'll cross again.
Until then, I hold fond memories.
Now, back to my family!

Friday, August 12, 2016

Truth on Tour: 2.6

Today is the last day with my Dance United family;
There are some jobs that are work––and others that are a pure joy.
Whether teaching class, sharing late night conversation with likeminded choreographers, or experiencing an adventurous hayride; every moment is filled with inspiration, laughter, and light.
Whenever I’m surrounded by the collaborative energy of these artists, my spirit soars.
Life on tour is always brilliant when the people you’re working with are seeking the same creative journey.

Thursday, August 11, 2016

Truth on Tour: 2.5

When more than three choreographers gather by a pool two things happen:
A dialogue about transitions, technique vs. performance, and a terminology exchange;
And a choreographed water show in the pool.
I thoroughly enjoyed another fabulous evening with artists from around the world.

Wednesday, August 10, 2016

Truth on Tour: 2.4

The days are filled with dance;
The nights are loaded with food, friends, and more dance...
In my mind I feel eighteen;
Physically I feel like a grandpa––but I push through.
My soul feels alive, grateful, and at peace.

Tuesday, August 9, 2016

Truth on Tour: 2.3

The only disadvantage to working with talented choreographers and dancers from around the world is that once you’ve gathered for creative conversation and laughter––with plenty of wine involved––no one wants to go to bed.
I may not be getting enough sleep, but I’m having a marvelous time bonding with talented, intelligent, thoughtful people; and with all of that creative energy, who needs sleep?

Monday, August 8, 2016

Truth on Tour: 2.2

Waking up in your friends house instead of a hotel room, is a much more peaceful way to start in a new city.
A home cooked meal,
Soak in the hot tub,
Wine and lively conversation,
And crash in a comfortable bed, while watching Netflix.
It’s going to be a brilliant week.

Sunday, August 7, 2016

Truth on Tour: 2.0

Standing in front of the gate agent desk for United;
First in line—but aware of the shady businessmen who congregate in the vicinity waiting to pounce, "I just have a quick question" they say.
Patiently I wait as they beg for their First Class upgrade.
Shameless—it's what I loath about society; entitlement.

Saturday, August 6, 2016

A Trip to the Beach: Check List

Sunscreen with Zinc;
Two luxury terrycloth oversized beach towels––one for sunbathing and one to dry off with;
Healthy (but still savory) snacks;
A large bottle of water to stay hydrated;
A stylish but functional hat––to guard against skin damage;
A juicy summer book;
Several trashy tabloid magazines to warm-up the conversation;
An external speaker with BlueTooth technology;
A light summer hoodie for the crisp ocean breeze;
A positive attitude.
Summertime is meant for sand, sea, sun, and seriously outrageous laughter with friends!

Friday, August 5, 2016

Boy Scout Motto

Be Positive?!
I was a Boy Scout––and prior to that a Cub Scout––for over ten years;
I learned a lot: how to hold a knife, pitch a tent, climb mountains, cook in high altitudes, flirt with boys, and Be Prepared.
I can’t remember if be “Be Positive” is one of the Scout motto’s or not––but it should be.
I spent the better part of my twenties over-planning, worrying too much, and trying to force “life” to happen.
I’m so grateful that as I continue my journey as an artists and human being, that I’m learning the true meaning of life: Be Present.
To remain aware in each moment––a skill that requires positivity.
Regardless of the set back or situation, a positive mind set enables me to focus on the moment at hand; this in turn provides me with the ability to achieve my goals and stay committed to my resolutions.
The Boy Scouts taught me to Be Prepared––Faith has taught me that no amount of preparation will serve me better than a positive approach to living in the present.

Thursday, August 4, 2016

A Day of Rest

Even on my days off I end up working.
Today, I’m hiding from the world, which includes:
Turning of my iPhone,
Ignoring my emails,
Avoiding social medial,
Hiding from responsibility,
Dodging my agents request for self-submissions,
Skipping yoga (okay maybe I’ll go to yoga––but only because I find the meditative exercise relaxing),
And binge watching Sons of Anarchy on Netflix.
Life is short: Find balance.

Wednesday, August 3, 2016

Find the Light

No, I’m not quoting Tyra Banks––in order to capture that perfect moment on film, models and actors have to “find their light”.
Imagine if the human collective could find the light, too.
Darkness exists everywhere––if you don’t believe me just turn on Fox News or CNN––depending on the angle you learn towards, you will see a slanted representation of anger, fear-based analysis, exploited “victims”, and sensationalized drama.
Too many people live in fear because it’s what they’re told to believe; conditioned over time to hate and challenge anyone who looks or thinks differently from them.
Now imagine if we (society) started to shine a positive spin on the spin cycle.  What if we took positive action––however small––against every negative emotionally charged circumstance that we are witness to?
In total darkness, even the smallest crack of light is enough to lead us to a way out.

Tuesday, August 2, 2016

Back on the Mat

After traveling for five weeks straight––with very little time for meditation or exercise; I’m looking forward to getting back into yoga.
It’s time to get downward-dog and get upward with my spirits.
The calming, peaceful, grounded experience that transcends work, ambition, and stress;
When I’m back on the mat––my life makes sense.

Monday, August 1, 2016

That's A Wrap

I'm saying goodbye to my fifth city in four weeks;
I'm officially exhausted.
Grateful for the opportunity to share my passion with future performers—I've continued to remind myself that a positive attitude is the best defense against the pitfalls of life on the road.
Still, I'm grateful that I've successfully completed another leg of my tour;
Only one more city, and then I get to take a break!

Sunday, July 31, 2016

NYC Summer

The scorching heat and intense humidity;
How anyone looks good in the summertime is beyond me.
I shower, dress, and walk out of the comfort of a climate controlled apartment––and I’m a hot sweaty mess!

Saturday, July 30, 2016

The Past

The past is behind us, and we all know that there’s nothing you can do to change that.
So it’s odd that artists spend so much time living in the distant memory of a life they’ve already lived.
I’m currently in the process of completing my second book; no small task.  Especially because this book is a very personal account of the crazy adventures  and random circumstances I’ve encountered in my life thus far.
In order to accurately convey my story, I’ve spent a lot of time reliving terrible moments in my life––similar to re-watching any movie from the 80′s––you know there’s comedy somewhere in the mix; but you have to sift through a lot of shit before you get to the gold.
Essential I’m examining my life from a more clear point of view, and the majority of events that have transpired feel almost dreamlike.
“That couldn’t have really happened to me, did it?”
The answer, of course, is always, YES.
That was your life and somehow you maneuvered around it.  Once I wrap my mind around that, I continue writing.
It’s oddly gratifying to liberate myself from past indiscretions; and also heartbreaking to relive a tragic moment.
In the end, the truth will always set me free.

Friday, July 29, 2016

Well Rested

I just slept for ten solid hours;
My obvious reaction––I must have really needed the sleep.
But I can hear my grandpa saying, “You can never catch up on sleep.”
He may have been correct with his evaluation, but my body begs to differ.
I feel so well rested and fresh;
I’m ready to conquer the day––and it’s a good thing too, because I’m teaching in a very big workshop in New York City!

Thursday, July 28, 2016

Starbucks NYC

It’s been fourteen years since I’ve lived in New York City;
And it’s as if no time has passed as I write from the Starbucks on 40th and Lexington Avenue.
This was not my “home” Starbucks, but aren't they all the same?
I spent so many hours of my life (pre-marriage) journaling, dreaming, and plotting my career path in a Starbucks;
Surrounded by strangers who felt like family at Starbucks––we all shared common themes: aspiring actor–writer–director–students–without–air conditioning in the summer heat.
Which is very similar to my circumstances today.
While I’m much older––and can actually afford air-conditioning now; I am in a city that I no longer have a home––so I found solace in my family at Starbucks.
In between meetings and meeting up with friends, I happily hack away at my computer––finishing a chapter in my new book, and catching up on emails.
The traffic is at a standstill, but my creativity is in full-force;
That’s the beauty of New York––once you're here, you can’t fight the energy.
I’m delighted to visit NYC for a trip down memory lane, however, I’m so grateful that I achieved my goals in this city––with nothing to prove here––I enjoy visiting friends, working my gig, and returning home to my family!
I enjoy NYC, I LOVE LA.

Wednesday, July 27, 2016

River Walk with the Puppies

My dogs are always so eager to get out of the house;
Which is odd in this heat––I’m doing everything I can to stay in the arctic confine of my sixty-eight degree climate-controlled house.
If I even walk past the puppy drawer my Shih-Tzu, Lily, goes crazy––she knows where the harness is stored and she is ready!
After sleeping in until 7:30AM, I decided it was still early enough to go for a short walk along the Los Angeles river.
Once I was dressed and lathered from head-to-toe with SPF 100 with zinc, I gathered the puppies and we embarked on our journey.

Within three blocks of our house, my Yorkie, Ginger, had given up: she made her business and then demanded––via digging all four feet firmly into the scorching sand beneath her––that she received princess status in my arms.
Lily, on the other hand, was ready to trek the miles of California foliage that lined the riverbed; in search of a scent that was yet to be discovered.

Finally, after thirty minutes in the heat, Lily laid down in defeat.  Eager to get home, but not thrilled about carrying two furry creatures in the blazing sun, I found the shadiest path possible and laboriously made my way home.

Now inside the freezer box, I see Lily eyeing me, “Daddy, don’t ever make us do that again.”  My thoughts exactly.

Tuesday, July 26, 2016

Recovery Road

How many days does it take to recover from a three week tour across the country?
I might be able to answer this question more honestly if I weren’t so busy sleeping.
I’ve spent the past three days in and out of a bear–like hibernation; where I used to wake up early and conquer the world in three hours, I find myself accomplishing the smallest of tasks: like emptying the dishwasher––followed with a two-hour nap on the couch.
My grandpa used to tell me that you could never catch up on time––I’m not sure if that is scientifically proven (and I’m too lazy to open a new search window to Google it) but it makes sense.
How on earth am I supposed to recover from a month of fourteen hour days?
I need a vacation!
Instead, I’m going back out on the road.
No one said the glamorous life was easy.  Work hard, play hard, and sleep when you’re dead.

Monday, July 25, 2016

Back On Track

I’m not a total slacker, but it’s hard waking up early when I don’t “have to.”
While I was out on tour, I had set call-times that I couldn’t miss;
Now that I’m home, it’s a challenge to set an alarm.
My body wants to catch up on my sleep deprivation––but my brain knows that you can never recover from lost sleep.
I’m no stranger to a schedule and I know that accountability is key to success;
Now if I could just convince my body to accept its fate and get out of bed!

Sunday, July 24, 2016

I'm Home!

Waking up in my own bed;
Puppies on either side––cuddling me with unconditional love.
After three weeks on the tour I feel recharged, but not yet ready for more;
Thankfully, I have three days in Los Angeles, before I go back out on the road.
The life of an artist is often lonely and always grueling.
On the one hand, we get to express ourselves through writing, dancing, painting, or performing––hopefully inspiring an emotion or thought provoking reaction in others; what we forget is how taxing that energy is to cultivate and distribute.
I’m always elated to share my journey;
And even more delighted when my journey brings me home.

Saturday, July 23, 2016

Truth on Tour: Day 24

I slept through three alarms and a back-up wake up call;
After receiving a friendly (and slightly panicked) Facebook messenger call at 3:05AM—I shoved my toiletries in my suitcase, threw on my clothes   (which were preset—of course) and I was in the lobby by 3:15AM.
Arrived at the airport with plenty of time, and even in a rush the only thing I left behind was my Apple headphones.
A small price to pay—considering my emergence escape from my hotel room happened in total darkness.
I have three days at home, before I'm back on a plane; the glamorous life is truly insane. 

Friday, July 22, 2016

Truth on Tour: Day 23

Four cities in three weeks;
Hotel rooms have become my new home––thankfully tomorrow I return to my family and life in LA.
The pause button is pressed on the road;
Friends, family, and projects continue without you.
I set resolutions in an effort to stay focused on the positive aspects of my time away from loved ones––no distraction or goal is great enough to completely soothe the hardship that distance creates.
Still I found time to create, laugh, meditate, develop new friendships, perform, and collect a paycheck.
Life is full of tradeoffs;
Some are harder than others.
When I left Los Angeles I was overwhelmed at the daunting schedule that I had committed to; but I reminded myself to stay present and focus on one day at a time––in doing so, I found balance every day and the opportunity to evolve as a person and artist.
There is nothing more liberating than the power of awareness and the freedom of making a choice: stay present and make the best of every circumstance.

Thursday, July 21, 2016

Truth on Tour: Day 22

Today is my last day of work on tour;
I get paid to sit at a table with industry professionals and share fun stories while watching the next generation of talented performers take stage.
It’s been a whirlwind journey full of laughter, creativity, backstage drama, egos, attitudes, adventures, and love.
Life on the road is not for everyone––I’m thankful that as I’ve grown older, I’ve learned how to us my time thoughtfully and continue to evolve as a person and an artist.
I’m not sure if I’m eager to sign up for another creative project that takes me away from my family and our home for more than a week; but like every true gypsy, I’ll decide that in the moment,

Wednesday, July 20, 2016

Truth on Tour: Day 21

Gearing up for another twelve–hour day in the theater;
After getting a solid four hours of sleep.
I’m ready to face the day with: positive energy and a lot of coffee.
Sometimes balance requires caffeine.

Tuesday, July 19, 2016

Truth on Tour: Day 20

My time on tour is almost done;
It’s hard to believe I’ve been away from home for a month.
Once you’re on the road you lose track of time and the days all feel like one gigantic scene in a movie––you wake up and you feel like you’ve already finished the scene, and the director is calling for another take.
Growing up I dreamed of this life; traveling, performing, late-night parties, hosted events, and the money––don’t forget the money.
I don’t take for granted how blessed I’ve been to travel the world; my childhood dream has been actualized as a career.
It’s remarkable what a person can accomplish when they believe that nothing is impossible.
I’m grateful that I knew what I wanted for my life at a very early age––moreover, I am incredibly thankful that I had a loving, supportive family and was surrounded by inspirational mentors who believed in me.
So, as my time on tour wraps up I can say without hesitation that I made the most of every day.  I stayed present, positive, creative, healthy––and though I worked hard, I enjoyed fun activities, too.
The best part, I am returning home to a loving family, a beautiful home, money in the bank, and a manuscript that is three chapters closer to being complete!

Monday, July 18, 2016

Truth on Tour: Day 19

When you have an omelette station in your green room before call time;
You wake up extra early to ensure your spot in the line.
Little things like warm, fresh food have the impact of three hours of sleep––so I’ll gladly lose an hour of shuteye to gain that eggsellent energy!
Plus, that leaves me even more time to make my trek to Starbucks, and when you’re staring down a fourteen hour day in the theater––that little green mermaid logo becomes your best friend.

Sunday, July 17, 2016

Truth on Tour: Day 18

A brisk walk outdoors in Lake Tahoe is the perfect way to start a week of ruling hours;
Finding balance is difficult in life––and can be even more so when you’re on the road working in close proximity with the same people, doing the same job over and over again.  Some might call it insanity.
Luckily I’ve stayed on course with my daily resolutions and continue to find time to laugh, be creative, exercise, and get out of the theater.
Even now, as I’m sitting at the Starbucks in Heavenly Village I feel at peace;
Surrounded by gorgeous mountains and a pristine lake––how could I not be present?

Saturday, July 16, 2016

Truth on Tour: Day 17

I haven't been to bed yet;
After wrapping our third city, we returned to our respective holding locations—where I sat up with a colleague and finalized the schedule for our next show.
Our car arrived at 3:30AM to deliver us to Newark Airport, where I now sit in an unopened knockoff version of a trendy New York eatery; a blaring security alarm penetrates my brain—reminding me that I haven't slept in well over twenty-four hours.
I struggle sleeping on airplanes, so today should be a fabulous test in mediation, patience, and kindness.
I dreamed about this life—and I'm living it; however glamorous may or may not be.

Friday, July 15, 2016

Truth on Tour: Day 16

There are times when you just need to blow off steam and let your hair down;
You can always count on the lively people on the East Coast to encourage a wild and crazy night.
I partied like a rock star last night––thankfully I was able to sleep in today.
Also cool, today is the end of the third city; three down, one to go!
Life tends to feel as though it moves faster when you’re on the road.
Probably because there are days when you never leave the hotel lobby, so you never know if it’s light or dark outside.
Yesterday, when we were finished with our show, I walked outside and like a vampire on True Blood I cringe when I saw the sun––this cannot be a positive reaction; I’ll be happy when that glowing ball of energy in the sky is a series regular in my life again.

Thursday, July 14, 2016

Truth on Tour: Day 15

Past halfway;
The home stretch!
Staying focused, creative, and accountable.
A smile and some positivity goes a long way.

Wednesday, July 13, 2016

Truth on Tour: Day 15

Remember:
When the wake-up calls get tough, and you feel like blowing them off and sleeping in;
Remember how good it feels to accomplish your creative goals before going to be creative for someone else.

Tuesday, July 12, 2016

Truth on Tour: Day 14

Yesterday I was off my game;
I had a bad day––and I could not find my way back to a positive outlook.
Fourteen days into the tour; today marks my half-way point.
That’s cause enough to celebrate!  It’s also my anniversary and I’m away from home.
When you’re working, socializing, and sleeping (in the same hotel room) with the same people for an extended period of time––and you’re not married to them––things are bound to get bumpy.
Thankfully, I climbed out of my negative slump and I’m ready to laugh again.
I used my complaint card (we all get one on tour) and now it’s time to build a bridge and get over it.
No one wants to be around a bitter, jaded diva––unless you’re married to Shannen Doherty and you’re just after the money...

Monday, July 11, 2016

Truth on Tour: Day 13

Finding peace in chaos;
Meditation is possible, even with excess noise.
Breathe,
Tune-out,
Release,
Trust,
Focus,
Commit to the resolutions that have encouraged positive and creative energy.
Seeking balance is key to establish a drama-free time on tour;
When the cast and crew start to complain––shut up and walk away;
Nothing good will come from gossip––this isn’t the CW Network,
And I’ve got more important things to do.

Sunday, July 10, 2016

Truth on Tour: Day 12

I’m eating an un-toasted bagel and drinking burnt black coffee, crouched behind a banquet-style folding table covered with a standard polyester hotel tablecloth; on top piles of merchandise stacked in neat piles is ready to be pillaged by hundreds of dance moms.
I have four hours of “downtime” until I teach a master class; with hundreds of eager young dancers––all just like I used to be: talented, idealistic, and hungry for fame.

If they only knew that the road to fame is paved in a swirly-mustard patterned stained ballroom carpet at [NAME ANY POPULAR HOTEL ACROSS THE COUNTRY].


Not that I’m complaining, I have loved every moment of my career––and I continue to remain grateful for every opportunity I get; sometimes they come with red-carpet treatment, and sometimes you’re just delighted that the carpet doesn’t have (many) unidentifiable red stains.

Saturday, July 9, 2016

Truth on Tour: Day 11

Travel day;
There's always someone who sleeps in—while the rest of us sit on the bus complaining.
Airport TSA,
The line at the airport Starbucks,
Boarding with group 5,
Accepting the inevitable—that man who looks like he ate Big Foot—is sitting in your row, next to you.
The only day off between shows is spent traveling, this is the glamorous life.

Friday, July 8, 2016

Truth on Tour: Day 10

The last day in a city is always a blur;
Once you’re in the tour-machine you forget which day it is.
Alarms programed to wake you up in time for every event, show, and rehearsal.
When I stop and take a breath––I realize I’m almost to the halfway mark;
And then an alarm goes off, reminding me that it’s time to get back to work.

Thursday, July 7, 2016

Truth on Tour: Day 9

Another early call;
Getting it all squeezed in.
I peel my eyes open and convince myself to get to work.
Sometimes balance requires sacrifice.

Wednesday, July 6, 2016

Truth on Tour: Day 8

The earlier the wake-up call;
The more disciplined you have to be.
Get up,
Get out of bed;
Get on your feet.
It’s pouring rain––the heavy drops collide into our window;
Echoing the tears in my heart.

Tuesday, July 5, 2016

Truth on Tour: Day 7

Gathered around the campfire; melting marshmallows and dripping chocolate––I resisted the temptation of S’more’s.  Anyone who knows me can attest, that was no small feat.
Celebrating Independence Day––or any holiday––away from home is often challenging; in a sick way, I crave the typical family bickering whenever I hear an explosion in the sky.
Like one of Pavlov’s Dogs, my mouth salivates for potato salad, dill pickles, hotdogs, and a family argument.
Last night the company gathered for music, delicious food, and a lot of laughter; just like home, minus the fireworks.

Monday, July 4, 2016

Truth on Tour: Day 6

One show down, four to go;
I stayed on target with my resolutions to remain healthy, creative, and positive.
No easy task while working a full-time show, too.
Finding balance has always been something I strive toward––only occasionally achieving it in my day-to-day life.
Thankfully, as I grow older, I find more room for acceptance and less resistance.
The grasshopper is finally becoming the grass?! Or something Zen like that.

Sunday, July 3, 2016

Truth on Tour: Day 5

I was so eager to get up and get my day started that I nicked myself shaving;
Never use a razor when you’re in a hurry.
My face turned into one of those artificially flavored, yet juicy Gushers––the blood wouldn’t stop; so now I’m walking around with a wad of toilette paper on my face.
The good news is that we’re on camera today; so much for my extreme close up!

Saturday, July 2, 2016

Truth on Tour: Day 4

Our show finished early yesterday; I stepped outside the theater door and I thought I was going to evaporate True Blood style.
It was a rare and precious opportunity to get outside while it was still light; not willing to waste a moment––I gathered with an intimate group of friends and we walked along the River Walk.
When I write “walk”, what I should mention is that dancers never walk, we choreographed an impromptu show––yoga video shoot included––while Plus-sized tourists gathered in curiosity; less like a zoo, more like a car accident.
After our spectacular spectacle we decided to enjoy a fancy dinner at an upscale (and delicious) American bistro.
I gorged on a steak that was prepared to perfection: with a ton of butter and salt; as passer-byes would stop and ask, “Are you those yoga people?”
Yes, I’d mumble with salty carcass falling from my mouth; it was a great night!

Friday, July 1, 2016

Truth on Tour: Day 3

I’m up.
It’s too early, but I woke up––I’m alive; which is a great thing.
It would be really difficult to pursue my dreams if I were dead.
I don’t remember the first time I heard the expression, “Life is what happens to you while you’re busy making other plans.” But I understand the wise words from either John Lennon or Allen Saunders, depending on what you believe on Google.
Humans spend so much time thinking, dreaming, scheming––looking for our purpose; even those who were born with a burning passion, a genius mind, or a remarkable talent sometimes forget the beauty of life.
Today is here; use it, or lose it.

Thursday, June 30, 2016

Truth on Tour: Day 2

I woke up early and eager;
Yesterday I managed to accomplish all of my daily resolutions:
Post social media content, spend time writing my new book, give myself a yoga class, find time to read, journal, and still somehow I was able to work.
In order to achieve these tasks, I’ve accepted that I have to wake up before the sun comes out.
My body wants sleep, but my soul needs to feel fulfilled;
Sometimes balance requires compromise––while on tour, it comes in the form of a baker’s wake-up call.
...It’s time to make the donuts!

Wednesday, June 29, 2016

Truth on Tour: Day 1

The alarm rang ten minutes after I woke up;
It's rare that I get a good nights sleep before a travel day.
Showered, dressed, and kissed the puppies goodbye.
We arrived to an empty airport—apparently the only time LAX is calm: 4AM.
I reacted like a First grader when they lose their favorite toy when I discovered that Starbucks was closed, and wouldn't open until after we take off.
The drama continued when I realized that I'm going to be on a three hour flight sitting next to a man who smells like Robert Downey Jr's breath (before rehab.)
This is #TheGlamorousLife!

Tuesday, June 28, 2016

Life on Tour

I'm hours away from embarking on a four week tour of the US; teaching, choreographing, and adjudicating dancers in glamorous cities like New York, Chicago, Atlantic City, and San Antonio.
As if the idea of spending a month living out of a bag, eating lukewarm convention food, and tolerating the needless body pat-downs from power hungry TSA agents doesn't make you think twice about my chosen line of profession—imagine leaving your cuddly puppies, comfortable pillow-topped bed, and of course my husband.
Like a high school Math team, I've spent the past week trying to mentally prepare for my TOURnament, with meditation, "to-do" lists, and creating projects that will keep me distracted while away from home.
One of those projects is a daily account of my life on the road; my objective with Truth on Tour, is to stay positive and creative through a series of quips, videos, pictures, and blog posts.
With any luck, I'll be so overwhelmed with creativity and brilliant energy, that I won't be so consumed with missing my family.
But for today, I'm going to enjoy a puppy in my lap and the other cuddling up next to me!

Monday, June 27, 2016

Sunday, June 26, 2016

The Power of Positivity

Light and dark;
Positive and negative;
Good and evil;
The ability to remain present requires acknowledging the difficult task we face as people––the power of choice; to allow other people or circumstances to effect our ego, or release it and stay present.
Grandpa always said, “If you want to be happy, be happy.” Equally that must mean, “If you want to be unhappy, be unhappy.”
The choice is ours.

Saturday, June 25, 2016

Reminder

I woke up and started writing in my journal (as I do every morning) and I started to feel overwhelmed––which is the opposite feeling that I expect when I’m releasing my emotions on a blank page.
I took a step back and realized that I was thinking about the next four weeks on tour; how long I was going to be out of town, and how little creative time I’ll have for my writing, acting, and choreography projects.
I paused and released the fear; I reminded myself that life is full of opportunity––when I give myself the opportunity to stay present and focus on what’s in front of me.
Release the past, let go of the future, and shine today.

Friday, June 24, 2016

Zen Accountability

In an effort to stay present on tour, while also finding time to exercise my body and my mind, I'm going to start a new social media experiment; which will encourage me to meditate and simultaneously maintain my mental and physical strength.
#TenMinuteYogaOnTour
The idea is simple: Whether I’m in an airport waiting for a connecting flight or in the Green Room waiting to go on stage; there is no reason why I cannot find ten minutes in every day to be mindful.  The bonus is that I can stay connected socially and encourage others to take positive steps in their mental, physical, and spiritual health, too.
I haven’t worked out all of the details, and I’m not entirely certain how to incorporate an interactive social presence––but like every new adventure, the path will become clear once I start the journey.
Regardless of the success of this new yoga based social experiment; I know that I will stay accountable and aware of my overall health––and that is a Zensation!

Thursday, June 23, 2016

Outlook is Everything

I woke up later than I’d like to on my day off;
At first, I was upset and I started to think about all of the things I “needed” to do before I could actually “enjoy” my free time––and then I remembered how easy it can be to release all of the pressure, and just start doing things.
My grandpa used to say, “If you want to be happy, be happy.”
Yes, it really can be that simple––if you understand that we have a choice;
I can continue to tell myself that I’ve wasted time and the day is ruined, or I can remind myself that I was able to get the sleep my body felt it needed and now I can be more present during my tasks.
Life is short, and it goes by fast––be here now, and find happiness in whatever the circumstance may be.

Wednesday, June 22, 2016

Clear Mind

The last thing I want to do on my day off is clean; especially when I'm getting ready to go on tour for a month—leaving behind my family at home.
I wanted to spend quality time with Jeff and our puppies, rather than running errands and vacuuming.
While I was hunched over the kitchen table dusting, I came across a note that is written myself; "Be present."
Instantly smacked down with—yet another reminder that I am here now; tomorrow might not come (I know this sounds bleak, but it's true) so why not make this a fun memory?
I took a deep breath (a common theme lately), turned on Amazon Prime, and rocked out with Jeff and my puppies while we got our household chores wrapped up.
Simply stated: "Awareness leads to a clean mind!" 

Tuesday, June 21, 2016

Life; Evolution and Awareness

Like tastebuds, emotions evolve.
What an exhilarating moment when you no longer desire acceptance;
Instead, finding inner peace, gratitude, and awareness.
The ability to look back into the past with fond memories––without getting stuck there; simultaneously, looking toward the future––without losing the present.

Monday, June 20, 2016

Morning Traveler

When you arrive at the airport early and you discover that Starbucks isn't open—but Pizza Famiglia is;
So, I can get a slice but I can't get a drip?
Heartburn before caffeine just doesn't seem right.

Sunday, June 19, 2016

Barnes & Noble

I’m on the road teaching and choreographing––which is par for the course for me during this time of year––surprisingly I have a chunk of time off to myself; so I decided to walk over to a Barnes & Noble to be creative.
The moment I walked through the threshold, I was transported to my earliest memories of the bookstore mega-chain.
When I first moved away from home, I spent most of my downtime in Chicago (when I wasn’t at the gym trying to bulk up to secure a place in the concert dance company I was apprenticing for) sitting in the alcove of books; searching for answers.
I was still in the closet, broke, and consumed with gaining knowledge on: art, history, acting, style, design, fashion, philosophy, and spirituality.
Hours would pass effortlessly as I combed through stacks of books and magazines––keeping detailed notes in my journal (prior to SmartPhones or a laptop.)
When I moved to New York City, I continued to find solace at Barnes & Noble––finally out of the closet, I hoped to meet my future husband; he would also love books and be passionate about wasting days drinking overpriced coffee while researching the latest ideas in entertainment and pop culture.
Finally at a point where I was open and honest with myself, I decided to dream big and I found inspiration to do so everywhere I looked.  I knew that one day I, too, would be an author with a book on these shelves.
(Hey, I kept a journal––and I knew that I had important things to share with the world. So why shouldn’t I think about becoming a writer?)
When I met my boyfriend (now husband) Jeff, we discovered early on that we had a mutual obsession with killing time in a bookstore.  It was my match made in heaven.
We moved to Los Angeles together several years later, and continued to find bliss in the Newsstand at the Barnes & Noble at The Grove.
So now, as I walk around the store today, I’m reminded of the journey that I’ve been on.  It’s bizarre to accept that twenty years have passed since I first fell in love with getting lost in a sea of words on a page.
I’m a published author now, and my book sits on the shelves in the very store I first decided that I could do anything I put my mind to.
The word surreal doesn't even begin to define my emotional reaction.
Not at all in the place I imagined I might be when I was eighteen, and setting my sights on a brilliant future––while I still feel that kid inside; I have evolved into a version of myself that God has designed, far more rewarding than any goal I had envisioned.
I have been blessed; and I just re-discovered that, in a bookstore.

Saturday, June 18, 2016

Food For Thought

I wear a retainer at night in order to keep my teeth in place while I sleep;
If only they made a retainer for your tummy!

Friday, June 17, 2016

Ray Of Light

The vibrant golden line appears in my window––sending a warm amber ray of light; as if setting the stage for a rehearsed morning dancing.
I sit at my breakfast table writing in my journal, doing my best to focus on the present.
If this beautiful beam of energy, doesn’t serve as a reminder;
nothing will.
Trust in light, seek light, be light.

Thursday, June 16, 2016

Cheesy Rhyming Poem: Day Off

When the sun is high and the sky is blue;
You better believe you will find me in our pool!
There's nothing better than a day off outdoors;
It's called balance, even if it means ignoring chores.

Wednesday, June 15, 2016

Just Say No.

Dairy is my nemesis;
I eat too much of it—and then complain about eating it.

Tuesday, June 14, 2016

The Time Is Now

I cannot accept the present if I continue to think about the future;
Likewise, my current situation will not evolve if I compare it to my past.
This moment is here now––regardless of yesterday’s victories or setbacks; and tomorrows challenges or accomplishments will come tomorrow.
Living in the present requires the Faith to be in this moment––and no where else.

Sunday, June 12, 2016

Peace

Humanity.
Violent and compassionate––we coexist with people who share vastly different backgrounds: politically, socially, religiously, and economically; it’s devastating when one disturbed individual plays God in the name of God.

Saturday, June 11, 2016

Happiness

My grandma used to say if you have to cross the street for happiness, you've gone to far.
Similarly, she'd remind me often that money cannot buy happiness.
I know that my grandma was a very positive person—and I trust that she honestly believed that money would not add value to the quality of her life;
Still, I can only imagine how excited she would have been to be able to afford a fancy streak house dinner from time to time.
As I continue to explore my personal happiness, I question what motivates me.
I am a performer; an artist who is used to struggling—never entirely certain where my next job will be, or how much it will pay.
Now that I'm more established, I have more opportunities and financial independence—and I must admit, it's nice to have a refrigerator stocked with food, instead of cabinets full of Top Ramen. So in that regard, money has provided happiness.
Equally, I enjoy going to movies, wearing nice clothing, and traveling—all things that require money. However, I get to pursue my passion and earn a living.
I'm not sure that I would appreciate any of the fancy-pants lifestyle choices I make, if I were forced to take a job I loathed.
Moreover, I believe that if I lost every material procession, I would still go out of my way to find happiness; however insignificant it might seem.
So my conclusion (at least in this moment) is that I appreciate the things that money can bring—but I find joy in the fact that I continue to seek peace and gratitude in the relationships and opportunities I'm blessed with.

Thursday, June 9, 2016

On With The Show

On my worst day in this business––I still feel alive with passion;
The darkness and doubt is not match for the energy that rushes to my soul when I get to share my story.
Rejection is part of the larger pictures;
The success in in the journey.
Connecting with an audience,
Collaborating with other artists;
A magnificent body of work develops over time.
A moment of recognition;
No failure will overshadow the triumph of accomplishing a dream.

Wednesday, June 8, 2016

Six Month Check-Up

We’re supposed to go to the doctors office for regular check-ups;
So it makes perfect sense the I should follow up on my creative, mental, and emotional goals that I set in January.
It’s easy to start the year off with a newfound energy and inspiration; maintaining it throughout the year can be difficult.
Thankfully, I’ve tapped into a manageable way to stay accountable for my resolutions, without becoming insanely obsessive.
I’ve implemented a set of daily reminders to keep me on track without the crazy:


  • Start each day with a morning meditation.
  • Journal––to release my frustrations and talk through my goals.
  • Allow no more than (5) goals or tasks on a list at a time; once I’ve completed an action, I can add a new objective to the list. (This helps me stay focused on the most pressing matters, and allow things to be resolved in order of urgency.)
  • Remain positive; the moment I feel negative thoughts or energy, take a deep breath and refocus on a new action that incorporates positive action.
  • Live in the now; accepting what is in front of me and making the most of it.
  • Trust––maintaining faith that if I follow the steps above, everything will work out.

It’s important to check in with your goals regularly.  No one ever accomplished anything by chance or luck; there was a dream, which lead to a goal, that gave way to preparation, that later turned into opportunity.
Life is short––take action and be positive; everything happens with Faith, hard work, and positive action.

Tuesday, June 7, 2016

Balance Is Key

It’s a beautiful summer day in LA;
Blue skies, birds are chirping––not even the sound of the gardeners leaf blowers are a distraction.
I sit here contemplating my next step:
A. Continue writing inside?
B. Stop what I’m doing and go to the pool?
C. Take my laptop to the pool and be creative there?
I think the answer is clear.
Balance is key; and today I’ll be balancing my laptop on a pool chair!

Monday, June 6, 2016

Meet Me At The Mall

I’m sitting at the mall searching for creativity.
Drawn to the food court where similar Mac men and women peck at their keyboards, while people––who take the shape of characters from any random 80′s film––devour food-on-a-stick.
For every sentence I complete, I reward myself with a thirty-second scan of my surroundings:
Moms comforting crying kids,
Old ladies playing mahjong,
Old men playing chess,
Teenagers plotting their next takedown,
And me––fighting for my next great idea;
Maybe some MSG from Panda Express will help me?

Sunday, June 5, 2016

I am Blessed; I am also a Baby.

Yesterday I threw a huge party for myself;
It was a themed party: Pity.
I allowed minor annoyances to cause a shift in my outlook––which in turn caused a major adjustment in the mood of my peers and coworkers.
There’s no doubt that one persons energy can impact an entire population.
I woke up this morning embraced at my lack of maturity;
I had several opportunities to take a deep breath and turn my day around yesterday; but like a small child who is demanding that toy in Target––I gave into my selfish side.
The beauty of life is that every day that we wake up, we have the luxury of a fresh start––we can decide to let the past dictate the future, or we can live in the present; a true gift.

Saturday, June 4, 2016

Friendly Reminder: Bad Days

Bad days are a choice;
I have the tools to release the negative energy and work through the anger, fear, resentment, or insecurity.
One deep breath at a time, I seek to be present in this moment.
I cannot change the actions of another person, but I can change how I react to them.
I cannot control my emotions, but I can acknowledge my feelings––and set a course for healing.
Nothing successful develops from an unpleasant attitude;
The past is gone, let it go and move on!

Friday, June 3, 2016

Puppy Vs. Human

I’m watching my Shih Tzu, Lily, cram her furry head into the side of the couch;
Burrowing deep into the pile of blankets to shield her ears from the sounds of the neighborhood leaf blowers and trash trucks––disturbing our quite reading time.
If only I could bury my head every time I hear something that annoys me;
I could walk around with a pillow and protect myself from the needless distractions.

Thursday, June 2, 2016

Life Lesson:

When the sun is shining bright there’s only one thing to do:
Go to the pool!
Finding a balance between work and play can be difficult;
But with twenty-four hours in a day––it’s not impossible to set aside two hours for a relaxing recharge.
It will help inspire creativity, and perhaps motivate you to start attacking your goals from a new point of view.

Wednesday, June 1, 2016

Letting Go; Again.

I woke up agitated and the simplest mis-exchange of information set me off in a cranky mood;
No way to start a day off––but how to get back on track?
Trying to navigate through life’s ups and downs can be daunting; on the one hand, you want to be able to feel your feelings––and then sometimes you just have to get over them and move on.
My grandpa used to say, “If you want to be a happy, be happy.”
This didn’t make sense as a child, but now I understand––I have a choice, and I can use it to sit in misery reliving the negative moment, or I can release the energy and smile.
Life is short, I’m ready to take a breath and let this one go.

Tuesday, May 31, 2016

Stress

When stress prevails;
Creativity fails.
The power of release comes in the form of a deep breath, positive energy—and action! 

Monday, May 30, 2016

Memorial Day

When you’re gathered around the pool with friends and family;
Grilling up deliciously seasoned meats and diving into bowls full of French onion dip, it’s easy to forget why we celebrate this day.
So before I overload on potato chips and Red White and Blue themed alcoholic beverages, I’m going to offer up a moment of silence––to honor all of the men and women who continue to sacrifice their safety to ensure the protection and freedom for our beautiful country.
As an artists––I try my best––never to take for granted my right to express my thoughts and actions; and it’s because of the heroes who serve in our countries armed forces that we have these liberties.
So today, I’m raising a glass to those brave warriors.
#HappyMemorialDay

Sunday, May 29, 2016

Serving Up a Sunday Slice of the American Dream

In a bus headed back to my house, we passed an IHOP full of happy people stuffing their faces with overly sweet corporate  pancakes—the American Dream is alive; and full of diabetes.

I love gathering for Sunday brunch with friends.
Most of my weekends are spent working long hours for mediocre pay—the American Dream is alive; and full of stress. 

 

Friday, May 27, 2016

LapTime

Some people sit at Starbucks on their laptops;
I sit at Starbucks with my lap-dogs!
I might not be getting much work done—but my quality of life is better.

Thursday, May 26, 2016

Family Ties

I live two thousand miles away from my family, so I'm always grateful when someone in my tribe comes to visit me; even if they arrive on a Harley Davidson!
My dad—a born and breed mountain man—and his wife are on a cross-country ride with another couple, who are equally adventurous and fearless. 
We shared a wonderful two-day adventure, sight-seeing, laughing, eating (too much), and discussing politics and religion.
I was encouraged when my dad and his Rabbi friend, who share opposing views from me, we're inspired to engaged in a Spirit-ed conversation.
Proving that no matter what your Faith or political affiliation is, when you sit across from a fellow human (who also happens to be family) and converse from your heart—with love and compassion, there is room for mutual acceptance, respect, and a new perspective.
I love my dad, whether he agrees with my beliefs or not, he believes in me—and loves me unconditionally; as I do him.
It was another bonding experience that makes me feel blessed.

Wednesday, May 25, 2016

Think Less; Sleep More

Falling into old patterns;
Late nights, over-thinking––trying to achieve more.
Sometimes less is more, in this case I realize that I am in desperate need of a solid nights sleep; yet here I sit, typing on my computer.
My comfy bed calls to me, but my mind is active and demanding.
Finding balance has been a major theme in my life––and this year in particular, I’ve made it a priority.
So why my obsessive drive to do more?
I’m on my fourth self-help book in a row, and I continue to crave more;
When will it be enough?
There’s no time like the present to let go of this unhealthy habit, and create a new one––get more sleep and become even more productive.

Tuesday, May 24, 2016

Sleep Deprived

I slept in thinking that I would feel rested and fresh;
Instead, I have a headache, my face looks like I was hit by a semi-truck, and I missed my morning yoga class––so I feel soft and lazy.
Sometimes you just can't win;
In those moments, it’s important to stay positive:
I’m positive I need to go to Starbucks and recharge.

Monday, May 23, 2016

Good News?

I’m sitting at the airport;
CNN news channel is on in the gate area––and I’m instantly sucked in.
It’s impossible not to laugh at the sensationalism of their news; which is equally as ridiculous as their Fox News counterparts.
The “news” is now just a storyline on a reality-based soap opera.

Sunday, May 22, 2016

Early Morning Pep Talk

The wake-up alarm is my reset;
It’s a new day––even if I’ve only slept for four hours, and it’s time to rise and shine.
If I embrace this moment with Faith and positive energy, I will have a greater chance for success.
So no matter how groggy I am, I have to rally and rock the day.
Life is short;
Be here now––and make the most of every breath.

Friday, May 20, 2016

Breathe, You Are Blessed.

My emotional happiness is in direct relation to my outlook;
As I sit at the airport waiting to board another flight––I fight the urge to rage.
One deep breath in and a release with a smile; which catches the attention of an older woman walking toward the gate––she smiles back.
Positive energy is contagious, I know this, and yet I forget to trust my instinct to be grateful.
Every day is a new opportunity to be a more evolved version of myself.
People always say, “enjoy the journey”, but very few people understand how to proceed.
After too many self-help books, I’m beginning to accept that every single day will be a challenge, the goal for me: how to stay present.
Sometimes it’s in a deep breath, sometimes it’s in an unconscious blog post, and sometimes it’s with alcohol.
I’m okay with that.
Today, I found peace in the fact that I have a career which allows me to follow the dreams that I’ve had since I was a young child; if that means dealing with TSA, annoying passengers, crabby flight attendants, and flying to glamorous locations like Charlotte, North Carolina––well I consider myself blessed.

Thursday, May 19, 2016

Awareness

In past years I've struggled to maintain my goals by mid-May.
The year always starts off strong, and unlike many—I usually manage to stay on track well into the year; but once May comes, I start to fall back into old habits.
Thankfully, one of my biggest goals this year was to remain in the present.
In setting such an ambitious goal, it occurred to me that I would be forced to think outside the box on how to go about achieving awareness on a moment to moment basis. 
This realization manifested into series of books about enlightenment, awareness, and productivity.
Today, while lying by the pool, I looked up into the vibrant blue sky and felt an inner peace and happiness that wasn't connected to a job accomplishment or financial gain—it was a gratitude for the beauty of this moment.
My head was clear, calm, grateful.
Awareness is possibly every day; it requires silencing the noise of ego—and accepting this moment for what it brings.

Wednesday, May 18, 2016

Grey LA

Headed into our fourth day of grey in LA––in May!
Even rhyming it sounds gloomy.
It feels more like winter in London, or every day in Seattle.
But the overcast skies can be a positive reminder;
Despite the trademark golden rays of Southern California––the birds are still chirping and protein shakes are still being consumed for that perfect LA body.
Sometimes life gives us dark days––but you can always find the light; even if it’s only on a movie set.

Tuesday, May 17, 2016

Starbucks and Human Connection

Starbucks is my second home.
In a world consumed with technology, it's a place to gather and connect with people young and old.
Sharing ideas, discovering a new point of view, and making direct eye contact.
We're so used to communicating through a screen;
It's comforting to share caffeine and a laugh with someone you'd never meet on Facebook.
Human connectivity at a coffee shop, just like our great-grandparents! 

Sunday, May 15, 2016

Creativity on Pause.

Watching Game of Thrones while trying to rouse creativity on the computer is like balancing a checkbook at Disneyland: no matter how hard you try to do the math––the sentences just don’t add up.

Saturday, May 14, 2016

Cheap Saturday Poem

No work on a Saturday;
A very rare treat––
I’ll go to the movies with a friend and then off to eat!
A cheap rhyming pome is all I can do,
I’m in a hurry and still need to––what rhymes with ‘do’?

Friday, May 13, 2016

Letting Go

It’s hard to release things or ideas that we believe we need;
For whatever reason we decide that it’s important to hold onto a thought or object in order to feel complete––even if it no longer serves us.
Life is a continuous cycle of learning and letting go.
We’re either evolving, or not; either way there’s no stopping the inevitable––wouldn’t you rather enjoy each day?

Thursday, May 12, 2016

Couch Movie

Cuddled up with my puppies on the couch;
HBO is satisfying my action-packed-blockbuster movie experience.
The salty bruschetta and lavalicious chocolate cake are the cherries!
Now I just need ice cream...

Wednesday, May 11, 2016

Rest

I slept in today.
Sometimes your body just needs to heal.
I push myself past my threshold physically, creatively, and emotionally—so it's nice to give myself a lazy morning.
But now it's time to wake up!
And I will, in fifteen more minutes.

Tuesday, May 10, 2016

Dinner With Friends

When preparing a birthday dinner for yourself;
Remember:
Inviting friends to a restaurant is so much easier.
Still, it is nice to share my grandma’s spaghetti and meatballs with my inner circle.
In honor of Gram’s birthday––I went all out.
Tomorrow, I’m going to sleep all day.

Monday, May 9, 2016

Zen Thoughts: Cars

When the check engine light in my Jeep goes off,
I get a little overheated;
That flashing orange hazard light signals a reaction in myself.
Usually associated with money.
On the flip side, how lucky are we to have indicator lights in our cars––usually alerting us to a situation before it worsens.
Too bad humans don’t have “check engine” lights;
Or do we?
#ZenThoughts

Sunday, May 8, 2016

You Are Here Now; Again

I started to over plan for my day tomorrow;
Until I remembered that it was today.
I quickly dropped my pen and took a breath.
The moment I become aware of my present––I allow the opportunity for a greater experience than anything I could plan;
I make space for life to happen, as it is supposed to: in the NOW.

Saturday, May 7, 2016

Outlook

Your outlook on life is everything.
Some people see rain;
Theater nerds see, "Singing In The Rain".

Friday, May 6, 2016

Koi Zen

Yesterday I walked through a beautiful Zen garden;
I gazed into a Koi pond and watched as the fish gathered near the bridge that I was standing on, no doubt waiting for food.
I was fixated on their total presence––I watched as they breathed in and out while popping up to the surface with their mouths open.
My arrival must have appeared as a shadow God who distributes nourishment;
Sadly for them, I came empty handed.
But there they wait, and eventually the substance will come.

Thursday, May 5, 2016

Positive Social Media

Social Media has an incredible impact;
Yesterday I received an outpouring of positive energy and birthday wishes–proof that technology can deliver more than just another Tweet about Kim Kardashian.
The inspiration and love was overwhelming.
Today, I’m another day older and twice as grateful for the friendships I’ve nurtured during my thirty-ahem years on this earth.

Wednesday, May 4, 2016

It's My Party...

And I’ll enjoy a full day of nonstop eating and drinking (in-between riding the rides at Disneyland) and NOT feel bad about skipping yoga... If I want to!
#BirthdayGuiltFree

Tuesday, May 3, 2016

Wipe It Away...

I woke up feeling pumped;
Ready to greet the day with positive energy.
I looked around my room and saw dust and dirt everywhere, my house is under construction and it looks like a tornado struck.
I started to get angry and then I remembered how blessed I was:
A. That my house was not actually hit by a tornado.
B. That we have the resources to renovate our bathrooms.
Finally, C. That I can either get up and clean the grim away, or stay in bed anxious and overwhelmed.
Sometimes the choice to be happy is as simple as wiping away the debris.

Monday, May 2, 2016

Work In Progress

Five months into 2016;
I continue to concentrate on the goals I’ve set for myself.
I’m two days away from my thirty-eighth birthday and I feel blessed.
Every day I seek new opportunities to grow as a person:
Mentally, physically, emotionally, creatively, and spiritually.
In my twenties I spent too much time worrying about how my dreams were going to “happen”.
In my thirties I made a conscious choice not to be consumed with the fear and doubt, instead I would focus on the creativity.
As I approach forty, I am seeking a deeper understanding of the present.
Which probably means I should stop thinking about who I want to be when I’m forty; and appreciate that for two more days, I’m still thirty-seven!
Life is a constant work in progress, the goal is to evolve into a brighter version of myself everyday.

Sunday, May 1, 2016

Pure Love

The overstuffed room was bursting with love in honor of my grandparents sixtieth wedding anniversary.
Surrounded by lifelong friends and family; we shared in delicious food, laughter, and dancing.
It was overwhelming to hear the stories, and watch my grandma and grandpa react to the memories.
Some could hardly contain their tears of gratitude.
Others sparked an explosion of joy with their recollection of a wild adventure, never before shared.
I scanned the room and witnessed pure love.
My grandparents have blessed me with unconditional love, support, and guidance; whether on family vacations or working for the family business––my grandparents never missed an opportunity to inspire a teachable lesson.
Faith, integrity, loyalty, positivity, and fearlessness have been instilled in my life in great part because of my grandparents.
The most meaningful lesson I learned from my grandparents, is something they continue to live by today: family and friends first.
I’m honored to have such magnificent role models.
Thank you Grandma and Grandpa Smith.
Congratulations on sixty years of love.

Saturday, April 30, 2016

60 Years!

My grandparents celebrate their 60th Wedding Anniversary today.
I'm in awe of their love, light, laughter and  ability to work through sixty years of life's highs and lows.
They continue to inspire me to strive for excellence in every aspect of my life;
Seek new opportunities, build solid relationships, and shine bright.

Friday, April 29, 2016

Faith vs. Frustration

When you have expectations you’re bound to be disappointed;
When you have Faith––you know you will succeed regardless of the circumstances.

Thursday, April 28, 2016

Flying to Family

I am a professional traveler;
Lounging in gate areas is my speciality.
Conducting business, meditating, and of course people watching—it's the perfect slice of life.
Today I'm traveling to visit my family.
It's nice to be in an airport when it's not work related;
I actually feel like a normal person on my way to a fun vacation.
I'm expecting a drama free trip.
#PositiveAffirmations while visiting family!

Wednesday, April 27, 2016

Not Overachieving

Sometimes all I need is a nap by the pool to remember how blessed I am.
I'm simultaneously working on my tan, meditating, and enjoying nature.
#Balance

Tuesday, April 26, 2016

Monday, April 25, 2016

Note to Self:

My ego has an agenda that is in vast conflict with my soul;
The voice in my head has a plan that is in direct opposition with my heart.
Silence the distractions and trust the faith;
Be present and the path will appear.

Sunday, April 24, 2016

Sunrise

Few things bring me as much joy as waking up to a beautiful sunrise.
The vibrant colors of blue in the sky;
A happy reminder of how textured life can be.

Saturday, April 23, 2016

Friday, April 22, 2016

Life vs. TSA Line

Both require a deep breath.
You might not want to deal with the wait;
But the destination is usually worth it.

Thursday, April 21, 2016

Remember

If you’re looking for a reason to be upset––you’ll find one.
If you want to spend the day in a bad mood, that is a choice.
With less energy than it takes to be negative; you can take a deep breath, release that moment, and smile.
We always have the choice; why let five minutes of frustration evolve into a full day of negativity?

Tuesday, April 19, 2016

Change Is Happening; Always.

When I was in preschool our class sprouted bean plants;
We set a dry bean on a wet paper towel and carefully placed it in a ziplock bag.
Over the course of a week we watched the progress of the bean.
The first night I could hardly sleep;
I was anxious to return to the classroom to see my new bean plant.
Alas, I arrived the following morning to the same light brown bean––no change.
The second day I had a similar reaction.
By day three, I believed I could see the side of my bean splitting; still not the result I was expecting.
Every day I carefully monitored the bean––and was in agony over how long the process was taking.
By the end of the week, I was on my way to school and I had given up hope of seeing a dramatic difference in the bean.
To my surprise (and satisfaction) the bean was completely transformed overnight!
There was long light green sprout which curled back on itself, and several little roots.
The bean experiment is the perfect reminder for life:
Change is happening constantly.
As an adult I realize that bean didn’t sprout over night.
Every second there was change.  The beans exterior was softening.  The embryo was forming. However it would not have been able to penetrate the beans surface if the outer shell of the bean was not ready.
It sometimes feels otherwise; but my life is constantly evolving.
The energy I spend writing, reading, meditating, exercising, working, and creating are helping me transform.
I cannot expect to see results over night;
but if I’m patient, I will experience a lifetime of joy.

Monday, April 18, 2016

Life Lessons at an Airport

Waiting at the gate to board a flight is a wonderful metaphor for life:
Some people line up early,
Others wait patiently until it’s their turn,
And then there are those who sit and wait to board until the last minute;
Either way––everyone will end up at the same place.

Sunday, April 17, 2016

Release the Need to Over-Achieve

It’s easy to become overwhelmed with all of the things that you want to happen in your life.
The pressure, whether self-inflicted or realized based on a comparison, to accomplish greatness is real;
So is the struggle to release it.
While establishing a strong foundation for success is important; no amount of planning, goal-setting, or hard work can force a hand.
I’ve witnessed that opportunities present themselves in time––whether we think we’re ready or not.
We can either take a leap of Faith or not.
Ultimately it’s not about the accomplishment or victory; it’s the journey of self-discovery along the way.
My life goal: Enjoy my life.
No amount of fame, success, wealth, or accolades will bring us closer to happiness or enlightenment.
Regardless, presence and awareness will bring us peace of mind wherever we go.

Saturday, April 16, 2016

Go Into Your Zen

When the mind is overwhelmed there’s only one thing to do:
Close your eyes;
Take a deep breath;
And go into your Zen.
Meditation is the key to finding peace of mind.
Refocusing on the present;
Releasing the past;
Remembering the future will resolve itself later.

Friday, April 15, 2016

The View Is Clear

I'm currently on an airplane flying somewhere over the boarder of California and Nevada;
From up here the view is clear, calm, peaceful. 
All of the fears, doubts, and stress floats away;
I'm reminded that distance provides perspective.
Life is beautiful. 

Thursday, April 14, 2016

Surrender

When you cannot change a circumstance,
You can always surrender to it.
Sometimes it makes more sense to release the need to control;
And completely let go.
Similar to that moment you’re on a roller coaster and you’re near the peak––the panic builds and you question, “Why did I get on this ride?”
All you can do is raise your hands, close your eyes, and scream like hell!
Once you surrender––the fear dissipates and the journey is once again fun.

Wednesday, April 13, 2016

Remember:

In the midst of chaos, turn on the light;
Generally a switch is located near the entrance to fear (right next to the part of your brain that does the overthinking.)

Tuesday, April 12, 2016

Shine On.

In the darkness of a power outage;
A flash light is your friend.
Likewise, when you’re overwhelmed by negative energy;
A positive thought will brighten the situation.
Fear, anger, insecurity––they feed in the shadows of our thoughts.
Remain present.  Breathe in light and there will be no room for shady business.

Monday, April 11, 2016

Flip The Switch

Fear is a defense mechanism, which stops you from pursuing your purpose.
Flip the switch from fear to fearless;
Exposing the endless possibilities that your future holds.

Sunday, April 10, 2016

Same Path

You can walk along a wooded path in darkness feeling fear and loneliness;
That very same path in the light of day can bring joy and a sense of adventure.
The path is full of colorful flowers and deeply rooted trees in darkness or light;
The only difference is our outlook.
In the darkness we fear the worst, in the daylight we see the journey for what it really is.
This is life.

Saturday, April 9, 2016

Inner Body Peace

How we feel on the inside;
Is directly associated with how we present ourselves on the outside.
Seeking enlightenment requires uniting the mind, body, and soul.

Friday, April 8, 2016

Thursday, April 7, 2016

Wizard of OZ Moment

The moment I release doubt;
Success guaranteed.
No amount of stress, insecurity or fear can outshine Faith.
The power of choice is always within my reach.

Wednesday, April 6, 2016

Remember:

When you turn your focus to positive action––you are more empowered and find joy; regardless of the outcome.

Tuesday, April 5, 2016

I Am

I Am here.
Present; without fear of the unknown.
Awake; without regret of the unchangeable past.
Aware of the endless possibilities that this moment offers.
I Am ready.

Monday, April 4, 2016

Airport Gratitude

For nearly twenty years I've called airports across the globe, my second home;
I'm so grateful for the relationships that I've cultivated on my adventures.
Regardless of distance or the time past between visits—I always find comfort in my friends.
After years of artistic growth, the have blossomed into my family.
I'm blessed to have them on my journey!

Sunday, April 3, 2016

Rise and Shine

A new day;
Opportunity awaits.
Waking up to endless possibility.
Just because you’re up and out of bed, doesn’t mean you’re awake.
Rise to the occasion by releasing yesterday and finding a new purpose today.
Present, aware and ready to shine.
Today is the only moment that matters.

Saturday, April 2, 2016

Find the Light.

In the midst of darkness;
Finding light can be challenging.
Close your eyes tight and take a deep breath,
As you release the air, slowly open your eyes and you will see light everywhere.
Repeat as often as it takes to find your way back to enlightenment.

Friday, April 1, 2016

Ready for Adventure

When you live in the present;
Everything is an adventure.
Mindful of the fact that time is measured in our ability to stay aware. 
Without judgment, fear, doubt, stress, or anxiety—anything could happen!

Thursday, March 31, 2016

Take A Moment...

Trust means allowing yourself a day to be goofy.
I’m exploring my boundaries with balance;
Everything that needs to get done––
Will be accomplished in time.
Or it won’t be.
I’m okay with that... At least in this moment.
#Present

Wednesday, March 30, 2016

Quality vs. Quantity

I’m an overachiever;
Always trying to squeeze more productivity out of every moment.
Thankfully, over the years I’ve learned that it’s not always about the quantity––but the quality in which I spend my energy.
Sometimes giving one-hundred percent means stepping back from the situation and allowing the momentum build.
Trust that work is happening, even in the downtime.

Tuesday, March 29, 2016

Now Is Always Here

As an artists, I’m always searching for inspiration––which inevitably leads to an endless loop of reliving memories, revisiting ideas and thinking about how to anticipate what’s next.
I’m constantly resisting the urge to overanalyze. Like getting stuck in an all-night Google search session; you started out the journey looking for one answer, and somehow you’ve ended up reading about the success of your teenage crush.
Tapped in the past, or lost in the future––neither will help me in the present.
Creating meaningful work requires staying connected to what’s happening now; that awareness is the key to evolution.

Monday, March 28, 2016

Life Journey

The most challenging journey that I’ll ever experience, is ongoing;
Life––the ability to stay on course.
One step at a time maneuvering through hopes, dreams, goals, fears, setbacks, accomplishments and processing loss;
It’s not about reaching the destination on this adventure.
It’s about seeking joy, becoming enlightened and evolving as a person.

Sunday, March 27, 2016

Easter Light

I went to Easter Vigil mass last night;
The congregation gathered outside the church––holding un-light candles.
The priest read a passage from the bible and then explained the significance of the candle light; he lit the blessed candle, and then the parishioners each lit their candle from the light of the first. Turning and sharing the light that they had received.
We walked into the pitch black church.
I reached an unoccupied pew and stood alone in the darkness.
I felt sadness––I missed my family, friends and Jeff.
Easter used to be full of color, light, family gatherings and joy.
Tears came to my eyes; all of the sudden the watery glaze illuminated the candle I was holding––I followed the glow around the church.  It was beautiful.
The flicker of light finally lead me back to the cross.  I looked up and realized,
I am not alone––I never have been and never will be, so long as I believe in Gods word.
In that moment I felt calm, grateful, supported, and blessed.
My focus for the past three months has been centered on light: seeking light, living in light, shining my light––how appropriate that I decided to attend an Easter Vigil.
I needed to be reminded that Easter is more than past memories, chocolate bunnies, family gatherings and expensive brunches––it’s a time to reflect on the sacrifice that was made so that we could seek the light.

Saturday, March 26, 2016

Now or Nothing

The little voice in my head gets louder when I slip away from the present.
Demands and expectations are catapulted from unconscious fears and I lose grip of my awareness;
Nothing brilliant is born from doubt or stress.
How do I confront the inner bully?
I don’t.
I release the noise and refocus on living in this moment.
I can torture myself––agonizing over circumstances that cannot be controlled;
Or I can make the choice to let go.
Nothing is lost when you make the choice to return to NOW.
The past can’t be extinguished any more than the future can be decided;
All we have is the breath in this moment––and nothing else.

Friday, March 25, 2016

Wednesday, March 23, 2016

You Are Here

Mall directories offer the best advice for life:
In the chaos of the Starbucks, Bloomingdale’s, Apple Store, See’s Candy, Foot Locker, Wilson’s Leather, The Gap and Bath and Body Works––there is a giant arrow that points to a location and says: “You Are Here”.
Our lives become so overcomplicated with flashy signs, material desires, social media, and the voices in our head demanding us to relive the past and stress about the future, that we forget about the only thing that matters; the present.
If only we could remember that mall directory when we become overwhelmed;
You are here, now.

Tuesday, March 22, 2016

Success

I think it’s safe to say that everyone has their version of success;
Some use jobs, connections, accomplishments and social status to determine if they’ve become successful.
Others seek fame and fortune to define their standing;
Then there are those who believe success is found doing what they love.
I used to be one of those people––until I realized that I find more happiness, gratitude and energy finding success in awareness; being awake in the moment and appreciative of the joy that comes from whatever I’m doing in the present.
In doing so, I’m free from any burden of society’s expectations or judgments.
A simple switch in the outlook of success, can offer a lifetime of stress free, fearless blessings.

Monday, March 21, 2016

Joy

Joy is in the simple tasks;
Hidden behind the stress or doubt––a beam of light escapes, forcing you to acknowledge that even the darkest corners of your mind seek positive energy.

Sunday, March 20, 2016

Two Words; No Problem

Problems are dealt with out of fear;
Situations are solved through awareness and action.
Simply by changing the way we look at (and label) the same circumstance––we can shift focus, remain positive, and proceed with faith.
Life is either beautiful or devastating, depending on you outlook.

Saturday, March 19, 2016

#Positivity

Waking up to fresh opportunities;
The only thing more intoxicating than the aroma of coffee at 5AM,
Is the fragrance of life––and the exciting adventure that awaits today.
#Positivity

Friday, March 18, 2016

The Power Is In Your Hands

The ability to release the guilt from yesterday,
and resist the anxiety of tomorrow––allows us to be more productive today.
The past is gone. The future will never be here;
All we have is the present.
Nothing from the past or future can come in contact with the present;
Unless you enable it to enter your mind.

Thursday, March 17, 2016

The Light in You

When the negative energy is overwhelming;
The mind becomes concentrated on giving into the doubt.
When you are surrounded by darkness externally;
Close your eyes and find the light inside––it will always be there.
We have the tools to triumph in even the darkest storms.

Wednesday, March 16, 2016

Tuesday, March 15, 2016

Breathe In The Climb

Living in the present requires relinquishing control;
For someone who identifies with type-A personality traits, this is similar to a mental expedition up Mount Everest.
Without the proper tools, the trek will be impossible.
Even after doing the research, training and preparation––there is no guarantee that I will reach the top.
That is the beauty of an endeavor so massive;
The fulfillment is not found looking down from above––instead the gratitude is inhaled one breath at a time.
The past is gone, the future is never here––the present is all we have time for.

Monday, March 14, 2016

Ego

My ego tells me I have to accomplish more;
My soul reminds me that my ego is a bully.
The ego fears death;
The soul embraces life.
Live in the NOW!

Sunday, March 13, 2016

The Power of Now

The ability to acknowledge this moment:
Accept it without judgement;
Release it without thinking;
Stay present without doubt.

Saturday, March 12, 2016

Dive Into Pain––Find Joy.

Some people think that an artist has to live a tortured life in order to create a true masterpiece.
I believe the beauty of a brilliant work of art is not discovered in the pain, but rather through the acceptance of who we are; flawed, insecure, filled with doubt.
Compelled to uncover a deeper sense of joy, artists dive forward into the pain in order to experience the joy that radiates from the awareness––stripped from everything we are all the same: humans in search of inner peace.

Friday, March 11, 2016

Pain To Present

What feels like a deep wound is little more than a scratch.
Once the cut has been cleaned and examined you can distinguish between reacting to a fear based on past experience, and the truth of the moment; the pain is a memory of the past.
As soon as we shift our mind to the present, the pain is released, Now the healing begins.

Thursday, March 10, 2016

The Joy of Release

The intoxicating sense of gratitude;
Surrendering to the simple fact: We are in control of absolutely nothing.
The release of expectation––gives way to the joy of abundance.
Walking through the darkest trails only enables us to appreciate the light of a new direction.

Wednesday, March 9, 2016

The Past Is Gone––Find Your Present!

The most difficult obstacle on the path to enlightenment is accepting that every day brings a new challenge;
How we react to circumstance is directly connected to how we achieve inner peace.
Everything can be resolved with a deep breath––it’s not always the easy choice, but it is certainly the most effective way to release the past and step into the present.

Tuesday, March 8, 2016

Mind Your Creativity

When my mind is still;
My sense of play is activated––I am free to be creative.
Without fear, my imagination kicks in and I’m off on a new adventure.
The static of life can cause insanity;
Over analyzing a situation beyond thoughtfulness and into the realm of negativity––darkness.
Only in the light can we clearly see the beauty of our inspiration.

Monday, March 7, 2016

Open Here

God provides doors to rooms you didn't even realize existed—until you've discovered that you're ready to enter.

Sunday, March 6, 2016

Remember

Inner Peace begins with release;
There can be no enlightenment without letting go. 

Saturday, March 5, 2016

Gratitude.

When I feel like complaining I remind myself:
I’m alive, I’m healthy, and I get to follow my passion.
Nothing else matters.