Tuesday, January 9, 2018

"Not Enough" Is A Condition

During the early trails on my journey as an artists I discovered a detrimental character flaw.

Despite having a devoted and creative husband; a beautiful home; surrounded by brilliant friends and family; and a career that has allowed me to travel the world whilst building on my dreams—I found myself thinking, “I want more!”

My Ego exposed; it was not my finest hour. Yet, the revelation had me questioning my very purpose as a storyteller.

How can you exist in the entertainment industry happily? Every job—I was lucky enough to book—had me satisfied, no: elated! I made it! Then, the reality hit: this job will end. What’s next? I want to do this again.

Spending my childhood in endless dance, acting, and vocal classes; investing thousands of dollars and energy pursuing my dream as an adult; and finally receiving opportunities, it makes senses that I’d want more…

Artists believe that they need their ego to create anything worthwhile, what’s more, we believe that without Ego we won’t gain any attention.

When I found Eckhart Tolle the first time around, my Ego rejected his book. No thanks Oprah, he might be good enough for you, but I need my Ego.

Thankfully, I woke up a few years ago and recognized that if I wanted to survive this industry, I would need to find worth in myself regardless of my career.

When I accepted that my Ego, fear, insecurity, anger, joy are conditions that will eventually pass, I unlocked the peace of the present.

Since that awakening I’ve been more open to unimaginable adventures and my creativity, skill set, and job opportunities have flourished!

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