Thursday, August 31, 2017
Journaling
It’s the total escape from reason; pure free flowing energy, which helps me stay focused and present.
Not just for teenaged drama queens (although I was that, too), journaling is my therapy.
Wednesday, August 30, 2017
Pierced
In honor of the visit, Shiree decided to surprise Kellyn with a trip to the mall; Claire’s to be exact.
Anyone who has a daughter or grew up gay in the 90′s knows that Claire’s is the place for ear piercing.
When Kellyn found out why she was there, she jumped with joy and then her face washed with fear. “Is it going to hurt?” She asked concerned.
I promised it wouldn’t hurt worse than a shot... that seemed to satisfy her trepidation.
Once she picked out her earrings, she sat in the chair, the Claire’s “piercing experts” cleaned her ears and made a dot with a marker to ensure perfect placement.
While my sister held the iPhone to capture the momentous event, I held my nieces hand and Uncle Jeff kept Kellyn distracted with positive dialogue.
The Claire’s “piercing experts” conversed privately, deciding to pierce on count 2 (not three), and then they counted down.
1, 2, punch!
Kellyn didn’t even realize they’d pierced her ears.
I said, “It’s all done.”
She smiled and said, “It’s over?”
When we returned home, we couldn’t find Kellyn. I quietly snuck up on her gazing at her reflection––and newly pierced sparkling ears––in the guest bedroom mirror.
Mission accomplished!
Tuesday, August 29, 2017
All In The Family
Disneyland, pool parties, and coloring books galore!
Growing up my sister was my best friend (minus a few troubled high school years), and I’m so grateful that we continue to cultivate our relationship.
She’s the strongest person I know; fighting through cancer, a coma, and questionable haircuts...
I’m excited for a week of laughter, eating too much, and movie-night slumber parties in our living room.
Monday, August 28, 2017
Happiness Hangover
Last night I was in a room surrounded by my peers;
Talented, creative, loving, loud, obnoxious (in a magnificent way), and supportive.
Who says dancers are bitchy?
Oh, right... me in my 20′s.
Thankfully, people grow up.
I’m honored to be a working artists.
Sunday, August 27, 2017
That's A Wrap!
My summer tour has come to an end.
All of the complaining about airports, sleepless nights in uncomfortable hotel beds, and borderline diabetic food options (without a trace of leafy greens) will come to an end.
What will I complained about now?
Good question;
Most likely I'll moan about my dwindling bank account, because as much as I loath 14 hour days on the road—my pockets really appreciate the jingle.
For now, I'll find bliss on my butt, binge-watching Netflix while detoxing on lettuce, apples, and water with lemon.
After a week of irresponsible bum-like behavior I'm confident that my Type-A personality will demand that I motivate and make things happen.
That's the trouble when you're an overachiever; it's impossible to stop pushing.
So I'll find my Zen in yoga, and start the whole process again.
Saturday, August 26, 2017
The Evolution of Me
Born from a desire to achieve greatness––before I understood what that really meant––I bullied myself to be perfect.
Eventually learning (and accepting) that magic is harnessed through imperfection; I refocused my approach.
Perspective is everything.
My journey has enabled me to evolve as a person and artist; grounded, confident, and fearlessly manifesting my dreams.
Still coaxing myself to reinvent my life––not out of fear––but of desire, to depart from this world as the best version of “me” I can be.
Friday, August 25, 2017
Coffee Stop
Waiting in line for coffee at the Burbank airport;
Hipsters, business people, parents, and flight crew—all twitching like the addicts we are.
The java flow fuels my soul;
And yes, maybe I have a problem, but so do they! (And that gives me comfort.)
Thursday, August 24, 2017
Keep Going...
I continue to extract answers through my creative work.
In what I haven’t yet achieved, I find the response I’m looking for:
Keep going.
Wednesday, August 23, 2017
Pool Side
We laughed, while enjoying sparkling rosé and grapes.
Just like the ancient Roman’s––minus the corruption, brutality, and servants fanning us with giant leaves.
Tuesday, August 22, 2017
Finding My Swagger
I started to get in my head about my technique and performance, and then I remembered to trust my training and just have fun.
When I let go of the idea of what I thought I needed to be for the part, I found who I am in the part; finding my swagger in the freedom of a character.
It’s the entire reason I started acting in the first place, but as I grew older––and experienced more circumstances––I lost track of my fearless approach.
Whether I book the role or not is less important to me, than the self-discovery I remembered yesterday.
I’m craving more opportunities to create as a performer; time to start shooting content again!
Monday, August 21, 2017
A New Day
Everything is possible.
In the early morning hours I spend my time in mediation––clearing my head (and heart) of the past––preparing for the present.
Mindfully, I work to release the energy of things that no longer serve me;
Faithfully, I breathe in the sliver of light that cracks on the horizon.
A fresh start.
A chance to reawaken my dream.
Sunday, August 20, 2017
Balance
Lounging by the pool;
Not reading my work.
Slacking off feels like a giant FUCK YOU to my controlling nature.
#Balance
Saturday, August 19, 2017
Tiny Airport
Similar to a tiny house;
Only instead of life sized cars parked in the drive way out front, we board miniature airplanes.
#LifeOnTour
Friday, August 18, 2017
Trust
When I jumped;
I flew.
It was a simple act of faith that allowed me to reach new heights.
Thursday, August 17, 2017
Finish Line
My adrenaline spikes giving me the extra push I need.
Creativity and excitement surround my body carrying toward the goal.
With every race I grow stronger; mentally, emotionally, physically––and most important (to me)––creatively.
The journey; climbing hills, pacing myself around corners, releasing the obstacles––it’s all been worth it.
It’s not about finishing, it’s about evolving.
But the end looks very appetizing.
Wednesday, August 16, 2017
Tuesday, August 15, 2017
Thunderstorms
The rain punishes the earth as we glide across the road.
Then, without warning, the sky opens to a bright-blue-Hemsworth;
The sunshine radiates the green fields; all is well.
Reminding me again, that no storm lasts forever.
Monday, August 14, 2017
Blessed
I woke up to birds chirping and remembered that––although I’m not at home––I get to spend my week doing something I love.
I’m dancing and choreographing alongside one of my closest and oldest friends;
We’ve grown together as artists and people and we still find new opportunities to push ourselves and our relationship.
So while I’m suffering from exhaustion––thanks to six weeks on the road––I’m so grateful that the end of my summer touring schedule ends with a solid creative endeavor... and a lot of laughs!
Sunday, August 13, 2017
Airport
Lines everywhere;
Hurried passengers zipping around on carts;
Impatient parents and cranky kids;
Bitter flight attendants;
Uncomfortable chairs and a lack of electrical outlets, add to the stress of travel.
Saturday, August 12, 2017
Life On Tour; Pool Day
After a week of choreographing and dancing (full out and over the age of 30), I’m taking a pool day.
Fun in the sun, the floating lounge chair is my new dance partner.
Friday, August 11, 2017
Coffee Is My Warmup
As a young dancer my body was always ready to jump, pirouette, and jazz walk across the floor;
Now that I'm old, I need to do a few stretches, just to get out of bed!
I find that the most effective warmup—for me—is black coffee.
I'm joking of course, but not really.
Thursday, August 10, 2017
Note To Self: Trust
It’s that simple.
Wednesday, August 9, 2017
Still Got It
I’m motivated to create and crush!
Tuesday, August 8, 2017
The Intolerance
My heart melts like the cheddar I’m not supposed to eat;
It’s too delicious to pass up;
Too bad for me, I’ll be sick all night.
Totally worth it.
Monday, August 7, 2017
Life On Tour; Choreography
The bass kicks in and leads my soul, while the lyrics simultaneously instruct my body to turn, leap, and transition across the floor.
In the studio, everything makes sense.
Sunday, August 6, 2017
It's Happening
Life happens; the good, the not-so-good, and everything in between.
When I let go of the fear and trust;
I received a delightful surprise.
Saturday, August 5, 2017
The Moment I Let Go Of It...
Yesterday was a life changing moment for me and my family;
We spend so much time obsessing about “how” and “when”, we forget to trust in the present.
Over the past six months I’ve been slowly releasing my hold on one specific life-long dream, and the second I moved beyond the fear, the dream manifested in a direction I never saw coming.
God, The Universe, the present––always provides.
I’ve noticed that once I accept what is, I find a trail to what can be;
I’m ready for the next chapter in my life; literally and figuratively.
Let’s do this!
Friday, August 4, 2017
Bonus
Naturally, I took it home and popped it into the refrigerator, where it sat waiting for me to consume it until today!
How lucky to have a Starbucks crafted drink ready to greet my day at home.
Thursday, August 3, 2017
Don't Dream It's Over...
I’m sad I had to wake up, I was accepting an Emmy for my stellar work as a choreographer.
It was hard to accept that it was just a dream, but I’m happy to know that my dream is still alive––even if it’s while I’m sleeping––and more importantly, that I continue to follow my passion.
Wednesday, August 2, 2017
Lazy Dog
She spends her day walking from the couch, to my lap, to her bed, to our bed, and back to my lap––taking very few steps in between.
The only time she’ll get excited is when the word “cookie” is mentioned;
She jumps four feet off the ground, gobbles the delightful dog treat, and jumps back into my lap––snoring within two minutes.
Why can’t I have that life?
Tuesday, August 1, 2017
Tree Trimming...
Until the green leafy branches are trimmed back––revealing an even more gorgeous view of the Hollywood Hills––then I am reminded that everything looks better when we cut back...