The Glamorous Life...

The filtered light and steam billowing from the gap below the bathroom door nudged me up twenty minutes before the soft rippling waves of my alarm were set to wake me;
Still in a Netflix haze––binge watching Glow––had me body slamming pillows all night long.
My roommate finishes getting ready in the bathroom, while I check my Instagram account, trying to commit to getting up.
If I want to avoid another ten minute Starbucks line, I’ve got to get my ass in the shower...
Sleeping in is not an option on tour.

Get Over It; And Let It Go...

Is there a difference between getting over something and letting something go?
I think when I get over something I never look back;
But if I let something go, I always wonder if I’ve released it too soon...
I can get over my reaction to a circumstance, but I can never seem to let go of the person or path that lead me to react in the first place.
My goal this year is to learn how to really let go of the energy that no longer serves me; it’s a simple practice in getting over my need to control everything.
And I’ve already established that I’m good at getting over things...

Be. Here. Now.

The rage comes back from time to time;
Reminding me that no amount of yoga, Zen, meditation, Presence, or spiritual enlightenment can make me perfect.
I’m an imperfect soul––seeking to be a more evolved, aware, and gentle;
Through my setbacks I gain perspective and discover that I still have work to do.
A constant work in progress––with an emphasis on release.
Be. Here. Now.

I Make Lists

I’ve just crossed four major tasks off of my list;
The only thing that remains on the list, is to let go of making lists.
...It’s a process.

If Only...

I woke up in a positive mood;
After only 6 minutes on the phone with AT&T my entire demeanor changed.
If only I could lose weight as fast as the rage that ensues when dealing with random fees on a phone bill.

Breathe and Grow

I’m currently reading three books;
All in the realm of self-discovery and Faith, and each of them is pointing to the same thing: becoming present.
Everywhere I look I see signs reminding me of the same objective.
The universe, God, and my intuition are all in agreement that I need to concentrate on the present.
I’ve spent the past twenty years of my life seeking to work as much as possible;
Do more! Has always been my motto.
I believe we each have a path and my faith tells me that I will be where I need to be, when I’m meant to be there. Yet, I continue to question and challenge if I’m doing enough.
Worse, I see myself getting trapped in the addictive cycle of wanting more––instead of enjoying what I have in the moment.
I set out for surrender this year and I found it very quickly;
Sadly, it scared me.
Today, I realized that I need this calm, peaceful, mindful time to grow.
If I can understand and accept how to find the same gratitude and joy from stillness––imagine how brilliant and balanced my life will be.
I told myself that surrendering would be a challenge and it certainly has been.
The beauty is that I’m learning that I can thrive creatively and accomplish things in the calm, too.
Learning I don’t always have to go, go, go; it’s okay to breathe––and grow, grow, grow.

The Moment I Let Go Of It.

In my quest for balance, inner peace, and surrender I continue reminding myself that I just need to let go of “it.”
All of the self-discovery books affirm––in their own way––that release is the key to achieving a more evolved me.
But I think Alanis Morissette said it best,
“The moment I let go of it,
Was the moment I got more than I could handle.”
I have to face the facts, I’m a product of the 90′s.

Note To Self: Writing.

Staring at a blank page and a blinking cursor;
It’s either a wild adventure,
or
A dreadfully paralyzing creativity killer.
Focus on the story, not the screen.

Lick Your Wounds

I took my dog to the groomer yesterday,
They nicked her left paw and neglected to inform me;
I discovered it this morning, thanks to the trail of blood on my beautiful 800 thread count sheets.
She licks her wound,
While I scrub the blood from the Egyptian cotton.

Letting Go of Yesterday

Moody and insecure,
I spent the day waiting for an answer from The Universe;
When I couldn’t hear Gods voice––I allowed the devil in my head to take control.
The creative process can be dark,
Add the complications and demands of life, and the heavy shadow is cast.
Thankfully, the voice in my head is no match for the spark in my soul––the flicker that woke me up today and said: Create! (And stop judging your work.  That’s the critics job.)

Forget Your Troubles...

Come on get happy!

Happiness requires the difficult ability to let go—and move on.

Becoming aware of the underlying anger is the first step; releasing it is the hard part.

But once this happens, you are present again.

Letting Go; Again.

I woke up agitated and the simplest mis-exchange of information set me off in a cranky mood;
No way to start a day off––but how to get back on track?
Trying to navigate through life’s ups and downs can be daunting; on the one hand, you want to be able to feel your feelings––and then sometimes you just have to get over them and move on.
My grandpa used to say, “If you want to be a happy, be happy.”
This didn’t make sense as a child, but now I understand––I have a choice, and I can use it to sit in misery reliving the negative moment, or I can release the energy and smile.
Life is short, I’m ready to take a breath and let this one go.

Think Less; Sleep More

Falling into old patterns;
Late nights, over-thinking––trying to achieve more.
Sometimes less is more, in this case I realize that I am in desperate need of a solid nights sleep; yet here I sit, typing on my computer.
My comfy bed calls to me, but my mind is active and demanding.
Finding balance has been a major theme in my life––and this year in particular, I’ve made it a priority.
So why my obsessive drive to do more?
I’m on my fourth self-help book in a row, and I continue to crave more;
When will it be enough?
There’s no time like the present to let go of this unhealthy habit, and create a new one––get more sleep and become even more productive.

Six Word Essay on Letting Go

Smiling is easy when you release.

Letting Go

It’s hard to release things or ideas that we believe we need;
For whatever reason we decide that it’s important to hold onto a thought or object in order to feel complete––even if it no longer serves us.
Life is a continuous cycle of learning and letting go.
We’re either evolving, or not; either way there’s no stopping the inevitable––wouldn’t you rather enjoy each day?

Faith vs. Frustration

When you have expectations you’re bound to be disappointed;
When you have Faith––you know you will succeed regardless of the circumstances.

The Power Is In Your Hands

The ability to release the guilt from yesterday,
and resist the anxiety of tomorrow––allows us to be more productive today.
The past is gone. The future will never be here;
All we have is the present.
Nothing from the past or future can come in contact with the present;
Unless you enable it to enter your mind.

Release and Be Happy

When you're holding on to anger;

You're losing the opportunity for happiness.

The Past Is Gone––Find Your Present!

The most difficult obstacle on the path to enlightenment is accepting that every day brings a new challenge;
How we react to circumstance is directly connected to how we achieve inner peace.
Everything can be resolved with a deep breath––it’s not always the easy choice, but it is certainly the most effective way to release the past and step into the present.

Mind Your Creativity

When my mind is still;
My sense of play is activated––I am free to be creative.
Without fear, my imagination kicks in and I’m off on a new adventure.
The static of life can cause insanity;
Over analyzing a situation beyond thoughtfulness and into the realm of negativity––darkness.
Only in the light can we clearly see the beauty of our inspiration.