Saying Goodbye to 2014

Sitting in a gorgeous cabin in the snow covered hills,
I realize how blessed I am.
For no other reason than the simple fact that I have friends and family who share their blessings with me.
2014 has been a year of growth.
It wasn't always easy, nor was it a year full of major victories.
At times I felt like I was in a holding pattern–– every hurdle was twice as high and road blocks kept me changing the course.
I punished myself for things that were out of my control.  
I was angry that I couldn't do more. (A common theme in my life, and a curse that I'm hoping to "resolve" in the New Year.)
I accomplished obstacles that had once been forgotten goals:
going back to school, getting back into acting classes, finding a way (and the time) to stay in yoga.
As with every year, I laughed.  Not nearly enough this year, but that will also be a challenge for 2015.
Loss, sadness and guilt were a major part of 2014.  More than any other year in my life that I can remember.
It's time to let it go.  Saying goodbye is extremely difficult and painful.
However, I've tortured myself enough, and in order to grow––I must forgive myself.
Life is too short, and I have a brightness in me that deserves the opportunity to shine. (We all do.)
So here's a salute to a year of learning, and to the year ahead, may it bring the evolution and opportunity I'm ready for!

Inner Peace.

Yoga is my practice.
Balance is my focus.
Release is my mantra.
Faith is my guide.

Shake It Off...

The process of release is slow sometimes-
The point is that I'm trying.
Holding onto pain and the past, will not help my future.
I have to shake it off!
1, 2, 3...
Shake it off, shake it off!
(I think I understand the origin of that song!)

You Win Some, You Lose Some...

Some days you win-

Some days you lose.

That's life.

I fight like hell to stay focused, calm and positive.

Usually it works,

Today it didn't.

So now, I'm going to dig into a dark chocolate bar,

and pass out on my couch watching trashy TV~

Cheers to tomorrow!

Over Thinking... Seriously! Over it.

I woke up feeling pressure today.

The stress of over thinking everything.

I know how this scenario ends... I spend too much time worrying about something, and then it all pans out.

I just don't understand my need to obsess. Especially after experiencing time and again the effects of positive action.

Obviously we are conditioned to think, feel and act based on instinct. My instinct has never lead me astray, yet I continue to doubt it.

Still, there are days when no amount of coaching, meditation, reason or thought will change my point of view.

So I guess it's up to me to let go- and let God.

Indulged

I may have eaten too much.
I know I drank too much.
I'm certain I partied too hard...
I indulged for one day, and I'm sure it's going to cost me five days of hard work.
...It was worth it!

Just Let It Go...

Releasing the stress of the day,
Sometimes things just don't go the way you want them to!
The harder you fight to make it work,
The more it blows up in your face!
Frustrated by uncontrollable circumstances that block the task-
The rage builds from the lack of control.
Then it occurs to me,
I have the power to just let go!
Tomorrow is a new day and a fresh start.