Note To Self: Letting Go

Some days just start off on the wrong note––no matter how hard I try to find the pitch, the music is flat.
In those moments I used to freak out, rage and live in negativity;
Thankfully, yesterday I was able to exhale anger and breathe in awareness.
The day didn’t get any less complicated, but as my outlook shifted, I was able to laugh through the setbacks.
Life can be overwhelming if I allow external circumstances to dictate my emotions;
But the power to take control, remain calm, focused and present in the moment is always the option that will lead to a more productive day.
It will keep me healthier, too.

Crazy Meet Crazier!

The world is full of colorful people, and by that I mean crazy.
Somehow I’m still shocked when a seemingly logical person will attack me without the proper information.
I’m a very thorough person; I never engage in a dialogue (or a full out war) with anyone unless I can back my argument up with facts;
So when I’m called out in a group of peers with misinformation, I have no problem standing my ground.
When I was younger, I used to get hotheaded and react with a total lack of dignity.
Thankfully, I’ve calmed down, and when I come for you I can cut you down with a smile and arsenal of facts.
Please don’t come for me unless you’re absolutely sure you can take me down––because I’m not going without a serious fight.

Road Block:

I don’t have time for this shit.
It’s moments like this that make me wish I had a “Force Quit” button when dealing with dumbasses.

Do You Hear Me?

Misunderstandings;
Some people hear you, some don’t.
Let go and move on!

Let Go and Go Get It!

In an effort to reduce stress and enjoy a more balanced life,
I’ve decided I’m not going to rage today.
Yes, I want to go off on the lack of productivity I’ve received from people whom I entrusted with my career––but the simple truth remains;
NO ONE will ever work as hard as me on my behalf.
So, the negative energy is gone, and I’m ready to move on!
#LetGo&GoGetIt

Life Goes On

Past the storm, calm waters.
Not much damage to report;
Bright skies lead the way.

Saying Goodbye to 2014

Sitting in a gorgeous cabin in the snow covered hills,
I realize how blessed I am.
For no other reason than the simple fact that I have friends and family who share their blessings with me.
2014 has been a year of growth.
It wasn't always easy, nor was it a year full of major victories.
At times I felt like I was in a holding pattern–– every hurdle was twice as high and road blocks kept me changing the course.
I punished myself for things that were out of my control.  
I was angry that I couldn't do more. (A common theme in my life, and a curse that I'm hoping to "resolve" in the New Year.)
I accomplished obstacles that had once been forgotten goals:
going back to school, getting back into acting classes, finding a way (and the time) to stay in yoga.
As with every year, I laughed.  Not nearly enough this year, but that will also be a challenge for 2015.
Loss, sadness and guilt were a major part of 2014.  More than any other year in my life that I can remember.
It's time to let it go.  Saying goodbye is extremely difficult and painful.
However, I've tortured myself enough, and in order to grow––I must forgive myself.
Life is too short, and I have a brightness in me that deserves the opportunity to shine. (We all do.)
So here's a salute to a year of learning, and to the year ahead, may it bring the evolution and opportunity I'm ready for!

Filled With Rage

One exchange is all it takes.
Just like when we were kids.
Selfish, defensive, screaming-
Games;
I won't play them.
So now I have to accept that my relationship will no longer be a priority.
I'm devastated and I know I'll miss her,
But I can't handle the rage, or the fact that I'm always the one to concede, without an apology.
Life isn't always fair, this is a major loss.

Let It Go. Seriously, Let It Go!

Don't be pissed about something that happened yesterday.
The fact that I let it ruin one day is bad enough.
Now I have to let it go. Release the disappointment, anger and rage.
Some people are assholes, I realize this and accept that there is nothing I can do about their problems.
I don't have to let their drama, become mine.
Let it go!

One Sided...

When I call you and you don't pick up the phone-
It's annoying.
When I send you an email and you don't respond-
That's hurtful.
When you ask me for help and I help, but don't return the favor-
That's disrespectful.
When I communicate to you that our relationship feels
one sided and all you do is talk about what you need-
That's the end.
I have no place for one sided relationships in my life.