A Trip Home- Day 1

I love spending time with my family.
In some regard it's as if time stands still between visits,
And then there are the moments of complete realization-
I've been gone for 16 years.
It happens so fast!
The hardest part is accepting that I made a choice to follow my dream,
Which meant missing out on so many wonderful occasions.
Thankfully, I still have the highlights.
My Gram's diseases is not one of them.
It is taking over her body;
Uncontrollable shaking,
Uneasy walking and speech.
A really bad tremor can last hours.
I can see her mind fighting it.
Her frustration builds.
Her heart and spirit remain unaffected-
That's the hardest part for me to watch.
I cannot change the past,
Nor can I change the situation...
But I can be present and remember to enjoy the positive aspects of the time I have here-
At home, with family and on earth.

Out With The Old...

…in with the healthier, more resolved me!

Isn’t it funny how we wait until the start of a new year to decide to do something good for
ourselves?

Naturally I fall victim to the idea that change can only happen in cycles;

I make lists, set goals and strive to be that better person.

Yesterday I sat down with my journal and wrote out all of the things I want to
accomplish in 2013. 

(I’ve been doing this every year for well over ten years, and I’m always focused on setting
goals that are very ambitious.)

Generally I achieve some version of most of them too!

Yet there’s still one goal I write down every year, and work toward it every year, and still
some way or another it alludes me.

So my number one goal, dream, resolution… whatever you want to call it, is to release 
every expectation I have for what the year, month, day or even minute “should” bring,
and stay active and present while “it’s” happening!”
Starting now.

Rather than reedit this blog post (like I do) to make sure it’s perfect, I’m off to join my
family and watch a movie!

Happy New Year.

May all your goals manifest exactly as they’re supposed to.


Production Day!

I love a production day!
Sure there's the stress of making sure lights and sound are perfect,
the sets are dressed, the costumes are clean, the craft service station is ready,
the shot list is in order, the parking permits are ready....
Then you have to wrangle the cables, wrangle the actors, and try NOT to wrangle anyone's neck!
But then-
There's the joy of creating a fun new project with our talented friends.
The laughter, the conversations between takes, the magic of when a scene comes
together-
It's an overwhelming and long day;
I wouldn't dream of doing anything else with my life!

The Glamorous Life...

I grew up dreaming that I would always be able to follow my passion and do what I love.

As and adult I rarely take for granted that I get to wake up every day and live the life I dreamed.

Despite the fact that my body is in major pain today,

I'm thrilled that I spent my day yesterday auditioning for a new show.

As much as I love working collaborating with artists as a director and producer-

Yesterday reminded me of how much I still love the opportunity to perform.

I love to dance, sing and act.  

It's what I grew up doing and it will always be in my blood.

Even when I'm eighty years old!

My day continued to shine when a dear friend invited me to a home in the 

Hollywood Hills that she was staying at...

It was magnificent!

Everything you'd dream of owning if you were a big Hollywood movie star.

I'm not quite there yet...

But looking back on all of the wonderful adventures I've had in my life, 

I remembered how lucky I am.

I get to do what I love everyday!

And that is The Glamorous Life!