Automated Call Centers!!!

The rage I experience when dealing with automated call centers is un-chartable.
Testing the growth and knowledge from every inspirational book and zen–yoga–mind–body–soul practice I’ve ever encountered.
There is no breath deep enough to help me move past the faux-human MONSTER that refuses to have a conversation with me;
No, I don’t want to press one––and thank you for pressing every boundary I’ve attempted to create, so as to stay in a happy place.

Grandpa Knew Best

My grandpa used to tell me that I worried, too much.
I would sit at the table while my grandma and grandpa read the morning paper, and my mind would be lost in thought;
Grandpa would ask, “What’s wrong Matt?”
I would shake my head and say, “nothing.”
He would laugh, and then remind me, “Life is short––don’t worry so much. Whatever you’re thinking about, if you want to do it––do it; if you don’t want to do it––don’t do it.”
It was simple, albeit lost on me at the time.
But grandpa was right, and it works this way, too:
If you want to be angry––be angry; if you don’t want to be angry––don’t be angry.
There’s no point in allowing someone or something to effect your life.
Release and move on.
The past is gone, why live there in your mind?

Be Happy

My grandpa used to say, “If you want to be happy, be happy. If you want to be upset, be upset.”
The lighthearted wisdom with which he spoke would encourage me to think rather than react in anger, which is what would happen if anyone else would try to talk me out of a bad mood.
I was never able to grasp the ability to, “be happy” as a teenager; I was too busy caught up in the need to express my disappointment.
My grandpa was the only man I’ve ever met, who was able to stay calm and smile through almost any circumstance.
Even on his deathbed he reminded me, “Don’t be sad Matt, I’m so proud of you.”
For grandpa, Faith and the power of making a choice was all he needed to accept everything that life delivered to him.
“Happy” is a choice.  It requires releasing everything that is provoking un-happy feelings––which is tough to do if you love the drama, but necessary if you want to find inner peace.

In Knots

Twisting and turning,
A sea of dread and anger.
Daydream to forget.

Let It Go. Seriously, Let It Go!

Don't be pissed about something that happened yesterday.
The fact that I let it ruin one day is bad enough.
Now I have to let it go. Release the disappointment, anger and rage.
Some people are assholes, I realize this and accept that there is nothing I can do about their problems.
I don't have to let their drama, become mine.
Let it go!

Stress Sweat

It's a special odor unlike any other;
The adrenaline, anger and potential for things to go seriously of course makes the body react in such strange ways.
Every toxin in the body rises to the surface to motivate you to push through the stress,
Leaving you with a euphoric and smelly outcome.

I HATE When...

People put words in my mouth!
Don't tell me what you think I'm going to say, listen to what I'm saying.
And yes, I "sound angry," because I AM ANGRY!
That's what happens when people tell me what they "think" I'm feeling.
R-A-G-E!