Happy New Year!

Releasing the doubt,
Possibilities reborn;
Partying all night!

Saying Goodbye to 2014

Sitting in a gorgeous cabin in the snow covered hills,
I realize how blessed I am.
For no other reason than the simple fact that I have friends and family who share their blessings with me.
2014 has been a year of growth.
It wasn't always easy, nor was it a year full of major victories.
At times I felt like I was in a holding pattern–– every hurdle was twice as high and road blocks kept me changing the course.
I punished myself for things that were out of my control.  
I was angry that I couldn't do more. (A common theme in my life, and a curse that I'm hoping to "resolve" in the New Year.)
I accomplished obstacles that had once been forgotten goals:
going back to school, getting back into acting classes, finding a way (and the time) to stay in yoga.
As with every year, I laughed.  Not nearly enough this year, but that will also be a challenge for 2015.
Loss, sadness and guilt were a major part of 2014.  More than any other year in my life that I can remember.
It's time to let it go.  Saying goodbye is extremely difficult and painful.
However, I've tortured myself enough, and in order to grow––I must forgive myself.
Life is too short, and I have a brightness in me that deserves the opportunity to shine. (We all do.)
So here's a salute to a year of learning, and to the year ahead, may it bring the evolution and opportunity I'm ready for!

Snow Day!

Sledding, skiing and maybe even a snowman?
Anything's possible on vacation in Beaver Creek-
With two feet of fresh snow and only 10 degrees,
Even with my long underwear, it's going to be freezing cold.
As fun as spending a day frolicking in the bone chilling cold sounds...
I'm really looking forward to the "adult" hot chocolate that I'll be enjoying afterwards!
P.S. When is Starbucks going to get hip to #alcohol?

Vacation Equals Excuse

Have you ever noticed that vacation is like a get-out-of-jail-free pass for everything?
I shouldn't buy that watch.  ...but I'm on vacation.
I shouldn't jump off a cliff.  ...but I'm on vacation.
I shouldn't have another drink.  ...but I'm on vacation.
I shouldn't eat another cookie.  ...but I'm on vacation.
Seriously, I wonder how many people lie, cheat and steal while on vacation.
I'd be more creative with this blog entry. ...but I'm on vacation.

Overhead Space

That awkward moment when you quickly pop your perfectly sized soft-sided duffle bag into the only empty overhead bin left-

Leaving the business man with three roller bags where he belongs, checked at the gate!

#VictoryOverFirstClass

...and scene!

The day Christmas ends;
Decorations are boxed up!
Clean palate, New Year.

Merry Christmas

Faith, Family, Friends and Food.

Christmas blessings;

Fully enjoyed.

Twas The Night Before Christmas...

And all through the house,
Christmas exploded everywhere... And. I. Love. It!
Not a corner is left without something red and green,
The stockings are hung on the fireplace with care, and I hope that tomorrow they'll be stuffed with more than just air.
I'm so grateful for my family and friends,
And to spend this evening in our home with loved ones, AND our puppies feels like...
#Christmas
Faith, Family, Friends, and Food.
Ho, Ho, Ho!

Spa Day

Shower,
Sauna,
Shower,
Steam room,
Hot tub,
Shower,
Massage,
Steam room,
Shower,
Hair cut,
Shower.
Repeat monthly!
#BecauseIReallyNeedIt

Note To Self:

The moment I allow fear to dictate my path, is the instant I've completely missed the point of life.

Filled With Rage

One exchange is all it takes.
Just like when we were kids.
Selfish, defensive, screaming-
Games;
I won't play them.
So now I have to accept that my relationship will no longer be a priority.
I'm devastated and I know I'll miss her,
But I can't handle the rage, or the fact that I'm always the one to concede, without an apology.
Life isn't always fair, this is a major loss.

Raging Headache

Johnny Walker and I got into a fight last night...
He won.
Tis the season.
#MerryChristmas

Friday, Finally!

As an independent contractor, my work is never done.
Expanding my career opportunities involves a nonstop hustle,
That does not consist of punching a time-clock.
Instead, I'm punching keys on my laptop; day in and day out.
Regardless of the hour, I keep on working.
Thankfully, I make the rules- and today, I'm taking an early lunch!
AKA I'm leaving the office early, and may not come back until after the holiday!
...or at least that's the goal.

Six Word Essay on School

Time to drink, the project's done!

Bagel and Rain

Sitting in my dining room eating a bagel and watching the rain fall;
If I didn't know better, I'd think I was in New York...
It's not supposed to rain in LA!
In the midst of the "worst drought ever".
I guess we should consider this a gift from Santa,
Or God?
I wouldn't mind the rain so much, if it didn't totally reck my hair.
#VainButGrateful

Holiday Baking; a poem.

Kitchen flour clouds,
The oven is preheated;
My diet is wrecked!

Special Day

Today is a special day.

The birthday of both my grandma and niece;

Also mine and Jeff's twelfth anniversary.

I'm so grateful for my loved ones.

Their unconditional love and support is overwhelming,

Their spirit's are uplifting.

#Blessed

Six Word Essay on Cranky People

Your attitude is unattractive, smiling helps.

Class

Whirling through the air,

Dancers will fearlessly soar;

Advil required.

It's A Living...

Alarm goes off at 4AM,

It's too early to think.

Bags are packed and clothes are preset.

Showered, dressed and on the road.

TSA is always nuts, and what? No Starbucks in the terminal?! 

How Un-American!

Middle seat, across the country.

Yep, it's official;

I'll do almost anything for work.

Six Word Essay on Waiting For a Response

It's just a "yes" or "no".

Bagel For Breakfast?!

Delicious and doughy,
It's like a savory donut.
Both are full of carbs, and neither one is healthy;
But totally satisfying, in an "I don't give a shit" kind of way!

Annoyed

That irritating feeling you just can't release,

Like a fly you can't catch.

Unlike the fly, my mood can't be killed.

So I sit. Taking deep breaths.

Hoping to release the attitude.

Life Lesson:

If you expect to be let down, you might occasionally be surprised;
If you hope to be surprised, you will always be let down.
#NoteToSelf

It's Party Time... Take 1!

Food is prepped,
Wine is breathing,
Candy everywhere;
'Tis the season!

Media Overload

Waking up to Facebook is more than a mild problem, it's an addiction.
Honestly, I'm not in my twenties and it is not 2007- so I think it's time to back away from the social media platform...
Plus, that will give me more time for Instagram, Twitter and Vine.
#SocialMediaMandatoryForSuccess

Throwing In The Towel

There are times you have to fight,
And then there are those circumstances where you realize, failure is unavoidable...
I am an incredibly willful person; I don't believe in giving up.
I also don't believe in clinging to an idea that has already imploded.
So I wipe the tears from my eyes, and throw down the towel.
#WalkAway

Play Day

I played hooky from EVERYTHING.
And I don't regret it.
#DealWithIt

There's No Business...

Eating dark chocolate after an audition is like my own personal F_c# You! to the industry;
Going to yoga the next morning is like my apology for betraying my passion and profession.
#CycleOfAbuse

Oh Christmas Tree...

Glowing amber lights,
The room smells like pine heaven.
No presents below?!

The Yoga Challenge:

Going back to yoga after a week of nonstop eating...
That's the challenge!
You can do it... is what I'm telling myself while looking at my gut in the mirror.
#Motivate