The Sunset Strip Market

I was pleased to be a part of the launch of the KICK-ASS certified Farmers Market...
Every Thursday from 5-9 PM on The Sunset Strip in West Hollywood.
Live music, delicious food, wine tasting, fresh produce, cheeses, meats, breads and flowers too.
There's even a doggie day-care and a place to play games and fun activities.
It's awesome!
For more information check out www.SunsetStripMarket.com
And "Like" them on Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/SunsetStripMRKT

When You've Had a Long Day...

...and you have three more until you're on an airplane to paradise-
Order Chinese food, wait an hour to get it, chow down and then relax.
Tomorrow will get here soon enough!

Looking Back...

I try not to live in the past.
Life is short, so I'd rather spend my time enjoying the present-
Nevertheless, there are those moments when you can't resist the urge to sneak a peak of an old journal or photo album!
I just took a forty five minute parade down Memory Lane...
It's interesting to read your own writing from fifteen years ago.
Things have changed since then (mostly for the better.)
However, I'm more intrigued with what hasn't changed, and why?
My passion, determination and goals are very similar to those I possessed when I was still nineteen-
The only difference is that now I know how to use them!
I guess looking back from time to time can help me appreciate the opportunities and continue to fight for the people and things I love.

It's Electric!

Here's a fun little class combination that I taught tonight in class!

Book It!

Only five short days away from a trip to Hawaii!!!
What relaxing vacation would be complete without a few juicy summer books to read?
I think I found the perfect summer selection-
I'm going to kick start the vacation reading Tina Fey's book Bossypants!
Who knows where I'll go from there...

Addicted to Crack TV!

I think it's no surprise that I'm a Reality TV crack junkie! I love watching people with no talent make total asses of themselves just to be on TV... I just forced myself to watch fifteen hours of this season's The Real Housewives of Orange County to prepare for another parody shoot! Seriously, you'd think I'd be over watching a bunch of rich, annoying, "housewives" by now- But I just saw a preview for tonight's new episode of The Real Housewives of New York and I can hardly contain myself!!! The crack is good!

Happy Pride!

When we walked down to join the fabulous festivities-
This was the first thing we saw:

I guess you can say the gays know how to get trashed!

Body Ache!

Nine hours on my feet-
Leaping and twirling like I was a kid.
My body reminds I am not!
I ache from head to toe...
But if was a fun day at the studio.

Dance Through The Pain!

Is what I try to tell myself when working with kids half my age...
It's just so upsetting that my body doesn't want to do the things that it used to do with ease!
I've turned into that choreographer who marks everything-
I never thought that day would come.
I've got to get back in shape.
Ballet barre here I come!

Redeye

The goal is to fall asleep in the darkness and wake-up with the sunrise-
The fact is, it rarely happens.
Rather, you twist and turn constantly readjusting your seat.
Praying that you can trick yourself into a slumber before its too late.
Then, and without any warning, you're jarred awake as the plane slams down on the Tarmac.
I suggest plenty of pills for the inexperienced!
P.S. My eyes are more puffy and pink than red...

Six Word Essay On Work

I do it for the money!

A Moment of Zen

A parody PSA for Marriage Equality

I'm always excited to share the work that we do at A Group Production...

This parody PSA for Marriage Equality is our latest!  I think it's pretty funny. But more importantly, it has a massage!  ...or do I mean message?  Watch and see!

Sundays...

SUNdays you just need to chill...
Today is that day!
Beautiful view of the ocean from our balcony-
Light cocktail in hand,
A puppy on either side of me,
and a blockbuster movie playing in the background!
Perfection.

Action!

Always
Challenging
To
Incorporate
Others
Needs...
But in the end, it was an awesome shoot and an excellent collaboration!

HIGHdiddelyDEE The Creative Life for Me!

I'm not happy unless I'm spending every second of the day working on something.

I can't sleep at night if I don't have:

A clear desk with all of the days projects complete,

and

A list of tasks I want to accomplish the following day.

Add on the fact that I'm out of town four times a month; choreographing, teaching and directing shows and it makes for a highly productive life.

The interesting thing is that I get so overwhelmed in the process that I forget that I can take a break...

I start to stress out and become less creative-

It's such a double edged sword!

Ugh....

If only I was a complete slacker! 

I'd have chill life on the beach.  Maybe a job as a barista at a local coffee house... Maybe not?

Oh well... that's just not me!

Too Much Food

No matter how many times I try to remind myself...

Overeating will lead to a fat ass and jiggly tummy!

Ugh- 

Back to moderation!

Dinner with a Mosquito

The perfect dinner alfresco in Brentwood;
Complete with comfy cushions surrounding a perfectly candle lit table-
A fabulous view of Malibu from the deck built into the side of a tree.
Delicious food fresh off the barbecue.
Fabulous drinks.
Festive conversation with friends...
And one annoying mosquito!
A mosquito that apparently bit me seven times as it worked its way from my ankle to my thigh!
I've been scratching for the past two days!
Next time- I'm coming with bug spray!

Six Word Essay On Memorial Day Food Fest!

I'm like Star Jones pre-surgery!

Thank You For Keeping Us Safe.

While I was out dancing at a club this weekend in LA I had the pleasure of sharing a brief conversation with two men that served our country side by side on multiple tours of duty in Iraq;
One of the men was straight.
The other gay-
I told them I was grateful for their services EQUALLY.
I'm so grateful to all of the men and women, gay and straight-
Who risk their lives for the safety of our country!
Happy Memorial Day.

Berry Good!

The end to a perfect BBQ with friends...

Relax

The sun is out-
The skies are blue,
LA is calm...
I'm at peace too!

Break Time

Sitting at a Starbucks in Santa Monica-
Near A-Plus Auto.
I'm waiting while Leo, my mechanic, installs new breaks and tunes up my car.
This is where I've been coming for the past eight years for all of my automotive needs.
In LA the most important number to have saved on the iCloud is not your agent at CAA.
It's the number to a reliable mechanic-
Your agent can't save you when you break down on the 405.
But your mechanic can!
Unless it's an emotional break down-
In that case you're screwed!

PR Please

According to Hollywood- Talent and creativity will get you far; But if you want people to like you or at least know who you are, You will have to pay!

Anti-Social Media

I met up with friends at a bar on the Sunset Strip
tonight for a fun social night out;

I spent the first ten minutes trying to "check-in,"
Yelp and Twitter my activities-

Followed by another five minutes shooting a fun
photo and tagging everyone on Facebook.

It was pointed out to me by one of my friends that with
all my social networking I had become,

"Anti-social media!"

The truth hurts!

So I put down my phone and engaged in conversation
with the friends who were actually in front of me...

It was a fun night.

Of course I went right back to my on-line friends
while walking home from the restaurant.

Six Word Essay on Technology

I hate when computers don't work!

Signed, sealed and Delivering Pop Culture...

After a year of hard work, dedication and a lot of hustling...
I'm so proud to announce that Jeff and I, along with our company A Group Production have signed a deal with PorchLight Entertainment for our new half-hour pop culture variety parody show!

Now the real journey to gold begins-

But if all goes well, we'll be coming to TV channel near you soon!

Is It Safe To Come Out?

I never intended to spend a large part of my life lying to the people I love the most-
I worked hard to keep a dark secret under wraps.
As I got older, it became harder for me to hide from myself;
I could not control my deepest thoughts and emotions.
I could no longer pretend to be someone I didn't recognize or respect.
When I released the fear and began living openly, I began to soar.
So when Instinct Magazine approached my partner Jeff and me to feature us in their April 2012 issues, I felt the most in incredible sense of pride.
It was a turning point for me- 
The article would openly acknowledge Jeff as my partner; 
both professionally with our company A Group Production and personally.
But before I could come out to the world in a magazine, it occurred to me that I was still hiding the secret from one of the closest people in my life.
Though my grandma has spent a lot of time with Jeff over the past ten years, our relationship status had never been defined or talked about. 
I know that she loves me unconditionally and Jeff too-
Yet I struggled with wether or not I should share with her one of my proudest accomplishment to date.
It would have been the first time in my life that I withheld a victory from her.
While I contemplated my dilemma, it occurred to me that this woman has shared her unconditional love and support my entire life. 
Why would this be any different?
So this week while I was at home visiting her, I decided to share our article.
As she began to read the first paragraph, a smile grew across her face-
"That's a wonderful story," were the first words out of her mouth! 
Followed quickly with a chuckle and, "...you make a pretty girl."
It was such a relief to get that validation from a woman that I love so much!
I am completely free, and not hiding anymore!

Off-Episodes With Grandma

Sitting across the table from one of the most important women in my life;
I almost don't recognize her shell.
Parkinson's disease has manipulated her graceful body-
Her proud and bullheaded determination remains unaffected,
She will not concede without resistance!
Her laugh is still as infectious as ever-
The "off-episodes" are painful.
I search to find the grandma I know.
Then the fog clears and my best friend is back.
I don't know how long I'll have her.
I struggle to cherish every minute-
Even the frustrating moments!
She's shown me a lifetime of unconditional love;
I will certainly do the same.
It's hard to think about missing someone who's still on earth.
So I'll focus on loving her while I have her!
She's assured me she will always be with me on my shoulder...
With a wink and a smile.

Right now, I'm grateful that we're still able to enjoy moments like this:

A House Is Just A Shell

So many fond memories transpired here.
Birthdays, parties, Sunday dinners, summer vacations, heated debates, morning coffee talks, laughter and tears-
It is the only place in my life that has been a constant source of unconditional love.
However as I lay here tonight and begin to accept the inevitable, I realized the smell of my grandpa has disappeared, but his memory lives on.
I finally truly understand the saying, "Home is where the heart is."
This house is just a shell, my heart is ready to accept responsibility to make a home for my memories.

Conversations With Dad

His unconditional love for me speaks louder than any conflict in faith or politics- We may not see eye to eye on a lot of topics, but we're committed to the mutual adaptation of our relationship as adults. He continues to be... A wonderful man, and my hero.

The Light Of My Life!

Call me a proud uncle...
But I just can't resist sharing the extended video of my gorgeous niece!

Rocky Mountain Mornings

I always love waking up early in Colorado.
Watching the sun sneak up over Pikes Peak from grandma's back porch is breathtaking.
Little baby birds chirping, eagerly awaiting the robin that sits up in the gorgeous elm tree.
The magical blue sky.
The fresh smell in the air instantly transports me back to the summer vacations I spent with my family growing up!
River walks with my aunt Susie,
Scrambled eggs with grandma and grandpa Shaffer,
Trips to Dairy Queen with grandma and grandpa Smith;
Mornings in Colorado are magical.

Vacation?!

Taking a vacation to visit with family can feel more like work; It's a struggle to please everyone, Watching loved ones battle the onset of old age, Trying to keep up with life in LA- so that we don't miss out on opportunities...  I'm thrilled I get to spend time with with the people I love... But the fact remains-  I start my day the exact same way I finish it...  Exhausted.

Kisses From Kellyn!

My adorable niece is filled with love.
She brings me a joy I've never felt before-

Late Night Drink With Friends

Late to bed-
Early to rise,
Makes my eyes;
Puffy, irritated and dry!
But a delicious drink and conversation with an old friend is worth it.

Life On The Road...

Traveling for work in a city that also happens to be where your family lives is strange;
You want to be hanging out with family-
But the entire reason you're near your family is for work.
So you spend your day at work thinking about your family...
Then when you get off work to spend time with your family,
You're too tired to have fun because you know you have to get up early and go back to work!

Six Word Essay On Early Morning Airport Travel.

Grande iced coffee from Starbucks ASAP!

Puppy Love

No matter how rough my day;

Regardless of the challenges, drama and exhaustion-

I love coming home to my adorable doggies,

Their greeting at the door is enough!

Daily Reminder...

The only way I can implement action is if I release doubt!
The day started off rocky, which turns into an avalanche of boulders- working their way to crush my soul.
The only way out is to find a different path.
Life is too short to worry about things that cannot be controlled.

United in RAGE!

I really miss quality customer service.
I know I sound like an old man-
But I actually remember a time when it was a pleasure doing business with people.
Now, it's a pain in the ass!!!
I spent exactly 53 minutes on hold with United Airlines;
I had to listen to their recorded message remind me that, "The estimated wait time is approximately 3 minutes."
Ninety percent of why I stayed on the line so long was to tell them how annoying their false sense of hope is.
The rage built up so bad that not even telling off a low level customer support rep at United could keep me on hold...
The worst part is I still haven't been able to redeem my airline miles toward that ticket to Hawaii~
(That I CLEARLY NEED!)

Six Word Essay On Reconnecting Old Friendships

One smile brings the bond back!

Reincarnation...

I don't believe in reincarnation-
But if I did,
I'd pray to come back as Chris Hemsworth.
Shallow?
Yes.
I suppose I should want to return as someone more influential or meaningful to society.
But honestly...
The guy is Thor.
Need I say more?

Party Like A Thirty-Four Year Old?!

I spent my Birthday weekend partying like I did when I was twenty-one.

Drinking too much,

Overeating,

Staying up past 11 PM,

Not working out,

The only problem, I don't bounce back like I did when I was twenty-one.

There are so many advantages to growing older- 

Wisdom, life experience, success and a steady income...

Partying like a rock star is not one of them!

Cinco de Matteo!

I partied like Lindsay Lohan yesterday for my birthday...

So naturally this morning I woke up in a foggy haze
and reached for the bottle of Advil;

I chased them with a margarita!

Happy Cinco de Mayo!

Mexican restaurants everywhere are celebrating the fact
that Americans everywhere celebrate Cinco de Mayo!

Arriba

It's A Viral Birthday!

Wow! I never imagined turning thirty-four could be so much fun.

Thanks to the social media world we live in, it's hard not to feel special on your birthday...

Starting around 3 am, my iPhone alerts were off the charts;

By the time I rolled out of bed, around 8:30 am, I'd already received birthday well wishes from friends in several different countries!

You can say what you want about todays society spending less time interacting-

But today was proof to me that Facebook can also be used for good.

Who doesn't like waking up to hundreds of birthday well wishes?

I can honestly say, I felt the love of my online friends;

Some are lifelong friends, others are people I met out socially, and others are people I've never met but support my work- 

That's the beauty of a social world... 

The ability to reach out to people who make us laugh, think and inspire.

I was sincerely inspired by the energy I've experienced today!

I'm grateful today is already a Happy Birthday!

Last Day Of Jesus' Age...

Well I didn't lead a nation, save a prostitute from being stoned to death or die for anyone else's sins...

But I did produce a TV pilot, save a friend from making a huge mistake and died laughing at least once a week~

So I think my thirty-third year was a huge success! 

I strived to work hard, play hard and live in the moment this year, and I'm proud at the things I've achieved.

I'm not sure what's next in my life, but I imagine things are right on track!

Here's to turning another year older and hopefully another year wiser!

Birthday Week Festivities...

Birthday Week long celebration;
Each night a dinner date-
Making sure that each night has a specific theme.
Chinese on Monday,
Thai on Tuesday,
Tonight... a little pre-Cinco de Mayo Mexican food!
I'm fairly positive that come this weekend we're going to need a major detox!
But will have fun working our way into a fattening food frenzy in the mean time...

Six Word Essay On Being An Executive Producer

I hate negotiating issues involving money!

Touchdown USA

Fun adventure in Canada-
But grateful to be back in LA for the three P's;
Partner,
Puppies,
Phone access!
It's the little things in life...

Canada Day 3

Watching Canadian news show; Wow! Political talking heads in Canada are a lot different than ours in the US. You mean to tell me people can have completly different political and social opinions and actually debat the facts? Spin free? How civilized!

Canada Day 2

I just discovered that working out in Canada is exactly like it is in the states...
Painful and annoying!

Canada Day 1

Woke up this morning and turned on the TV in my hotel room;
Flip through the channels and land on "The Morning Show."
Bizarre, it's like watching my favorite morning show back home on a day where all of the co-hosts are out on assignment.
I never thought I'd say this...
I miss Ann Curry!
No offense to the talented co-hosts of "The Morning Show."
I do enjoy listening to them talk...

ShowBUSINESS!

I don't think you can truly appreciate Irving Berlin's sentiment, "There's No Business Like Show Business" until it's too late to turn back...
Anyone who's taken their childhood dreams and passion and set out to conquer New York or Hollywood will surly tell you how tough the journey is.
Rejection is only the beginning.
Still, it isn't until you've actually hustled endlessly to create your own project that you fully understand the Business of show.
Interestingly enough, the harder you work in Hollywood, the harder you have to fight!
Once you have something worth selling in Hollywood
 everyone wants a piece of it.
I guess it's a good position to be in-
With everyone reaching for a slice, you know you're serving up something delicious!

Life Is Not A Check List! Part: 3,234,654,668?!

I'm motivated to succeed and therefor I spend so much of my life trying to get things done;
I'm in a constant state of making lists.
I'm certain it all stems from an incredible fear I had as a child-
If I wasn't constantly focused on achieving, I thought I'd be a failure.
I suppose there are worse things in life than trying to get shit done.
I just need to make a list of ways to enjoy a life for a moment...
See?! There I go again!
Enough is enough.
I'm going to see a movie in the middle of the day!
Everything else can wait.

Never Give Up!

I gave up on myself once;
I was ready to believe I could stop believing in my dream-
Thank God I snapped out of it.
Just in time to realize how short life is.
Not every day is easy, but somehow I always end up having a good time!

Two Reality Diva Bitches is Better Than One!

The only thing better than one icy Reality Queen... is two!

Here's A Group Production's latest parody:

Tabatha Takes Over shannen Doherty Parody

Hope you enjoy!

I'm So Hairy!

I remember when I used to dream about growing a beard-
I think I was five years old...
I thought it would be so cool!
Now I dream of a day without shaving;
The ingrown hairs, nicks and razor burn? I hate it!
Don't even get me started on the hair that grows on my chest and back! Gross.
When I was a kid I thought having hair on my face would make me grown up...
Now I know the truth, it just makes me feel like an old man!
On the upside, I still have a full head of hair- I guess every dark cloud has a silver lining!

Six Word Essay on Waking Up Early.

My eyes are still swollen shut!

Perks...

I spend a lot of my weekends traveling across the country-
One of the benefits of my job is experience the local culture...
Today we enjoyed a walk through a local farmers market, which happens to take place in the "Avocado Capitol" of the country! Delicious.

Six Word Essay on Long Days

I need a bath and wine!

Dinner With Friends

The only thing better than eating a delicious dinner...

Is enjoying it with a group of crazy friends!

"Deal" With It...

Trying hard not to rage;
People only care about helping themselves.
It's so frustrating to rely on people who call themselves professionals-
Then behave like amateurs.
I'm paying you for this?
Just another enormous detour along the road;
No wonder it takes twenty years to become an overnight success!
RAGE.

Beautiful Day...

Up at the crack of dawn.

Hiking while the sun rises;

Birds chip, 

Trash trucks beep,

The distant sound of cars racing to work.

The view from the hills above Sunset Boulevard is stunning.

Spring is here...

It's a gorgeous day in LA!

Six Word Essay on Life on Tour

Junk food and no exercise- FAT!

Talented

My job judging talent competitions is full of inspiration.
I'm always amazed by the level of talent that young performers have nowadays-
I'm impressed with the layers of emotion and technique that a six year old can achieve.
I'm pretty sure when I was six, I was busy playing in the sandbox and bossing the neighborhood kids around.

What is Your Damage?

Friendship is complex.
The relationship is based on the faith that both parties have the other persons best interest at heart.
Of course that's not always easy-
Especially in situations involving close friends with a long history of highlights and low notes;
At the end of the day, I can only be responsible for my behavior.
In the past, I've struggled not to engage. It's completely against my nature to walk away from a confrontation. Particularly when I know I've done nothing wrong.
Thankfully, I've reached a place in my life that I can step back, apologize for my part in the disagreement, and move on.
Unfortunately, not everyone is willing to do the same-

The Trouble With Alcohol...

Dinner parties are always fun with friends;
Especially when booze are involved!
You laugh,
You gossip,
You compare your shitty week-
You say outlandish things that stop everyone in their tracks;
Until spontaneous, gut-wrenching outbursts erupt!
You go to Tweet it, and the table glares...
I get it! No social media during dinner!
I wake up the next day...
I can't remember a damn thing!
That's the trouble with alcohol...
It's all fun and games, until you wake up and forget who you are.

Death and Taxes...

Goodbye sunshine hello rain.
It makes perfect sense that clouds would roll in on the day that I planned to meet with my accountant regarding my 2011 taxes!
I've made my peace with the fact that one day, I will eventually die.
But somehow, I just can't wrap my brain around the idea that taxes will always be a part of life!
It seems no matter how much I save, plan and prepare-
I'm always shocked at how little I make, and how much Uncle Sam takes!
Oh well, it's just one of those things that I don't have to accept, I just have to release it...
I know what happens to people that don't pay their taxes, and I can assure you I will not be one of them!

The Interesting Thing About Creativity Is...

Regardless of how excited you are about an idea in your mind, you cannot bring it to life without taking the time to sit down and do the work!
Unfortunately, jump starting my creative juices doesn't always happen.
No matter how long I stare at a blank computer screen...
Somedays you just have to cut power to the main source and walk away.

Not So Easy...

I'm starting to realize the only "easy" opportunities in life involve getting in bed with people that are anything but easy!

Happy Easter!

Happy Easter from Ginger and Lily...

The Den

You never know what kind of adventure you're going to find at a bar on The Sunset Strip...

Good Friday

My life is good.

God is great.

I have so much to be thankful for today.

Mainly, that come Sunday I will be able to eat carbs and drink soda again!
But if I'm going to be honest, I have to say that everything wonderful in my life has come from my faith.
I went to mass this morning and remembered how nice it is to believe in someone or something stronger than me.
I'm blessed and I'm not ashamed to give praise to a man who was tortured, ridiculed and died for me.

Puppy Poem Inspired by my Spoiled Dogs!

If I were a puppy I'd sleep all day,
I'd wake up at night and be ready to play.
If I were a puppy, I'd get pampered with love,
When people passed by me, I'd get tons of hugs!

Impromptu Dinner With Friends...

I love when friends come together unexpectedly!

I think this picture says it all...

Spring Cleaning...

Dirty floors,

Dust for days;

Spring is here-

It's time to play!

I'm stuck inside,

Cleaning my ass off...

How does a house get so dirty?

All day LONG!

I Hate Negotiating...

Just because I happen to be good at something,
doesn't mean I necessarily enjoy it!
Of course I'm so elated that I'm at a point in my
career where negotiation is necessary-
Nevertheless, it's uncomfortable.
Even with the best lawyers playing the "bad guy."
I mean, I hired them to act on my behalf, so what does that make me?
Ugh!
I just can't wait for this step to be finalized so I can move back into my happily creative corner of the universe.

Observation On The Road...

Taco Bell always tastes better out of town!

Six Word Essay on Talent Competitions

I'm convinced AquaNet makes everything better!

God Bless Texas...

Big hair,
Big hearts,
Designer divas,
Cowboy hats and tight blue jeans,
Delicious BBQ-
And intense competition!

Flying Off The Handle...

If working your way through the vile and evasive breach of personal space that (we pretend) is making us safer, known as the TSA, doesn't make your blood boil-
I trust the boarding process will!
By the time they finish boarding; First Class, handicap, those needing special assistance, Executive Platinum, Premium Platinum, Premiere Platinum, Platinum Plus and Elite Premiere Platinum Plus passengers- over half the plane and all overhead bins are full.
Then they start with Group 1?!?
Inevitably I'm in Group 4. Once I'm finally on board, I arrive to my seat which is a window- and three Premier Executive Douche bags have to get up to let me in my chair.
Naturally, the one I'm stuck sitting next to is 300 pounds over weight...
(And I wish I was exaggerating!)
More to the point, the hefty man treats me like it's my fault he's super sized, and refuses to share the armrest.
Flying has truly helped me reach new levels of RAGE!

Hustle

Hurry
Up!
Seriously
Try!
Lose
Excuses!

Stars... They're Just Like Me!

You know that section in US Weekly or Star or People or, well I'm not sure which one it is exactly, but they're all the same aren't they?

I love that section-  simply because they hire paparazzi to stake out dry cleaners, coffee shops and parks to catch "stars" acting like normal people.

Today for example, I was in line behind a famous star and his two adorable kids.

He ordered like me, paid like me, tipped the barista (like me on a good day) and waited for his coffee like me...  When his coffee came, he and his kids sat and enjoyed coffee and snacks.

It really made me think-

Wow, those trash magazines are right- He is exactly like me!

Then he and his kids left in a luxury car and it dawned on me...

He's nothing like me, I would never drive a red corvette!

Instinct Magazine Article

I'm so excited to share a fun interview that Jeff and I did for the April 2012 issue of Instinct Magazine.
I'm especially honored to be a part of this particular issue, because it features Jason Mraz on the cover.  It's the first time Instinct has featured a straight man on the cover... More importantly, it's an issue that focuses on Equality!  Please go out and buy a copy of the April Issue of Instinct Magazine and stand up for love!

A Moment Of Awareness

I love those moments in life when an important piece of your past reveals its true worth in your present.
Like a coded message you sent back from the future to experience as a child, so that you'd know exactly when and how to use it as an adult.
These life shaping discoveries are usually painfully embarrassing, sometimes even horrifying- but are followed with a new found strength.
As you continue along your journey through life, you forget these bookmarks, until one day the adult you, has a flash of recognition, and for one magnificent moment everything makes perfect sense.
The setbacks and realizations you fought so hard against as a kid, then suppressed as a teen, and ignored as a young adult slowly start leaking out-
The beauty is, at just the right point in time, you're finally able to comprehend the importance of those hurdles along the way. More importantly, you accept that all of those things that you rebelled against for so long, are precisely what made you who you are.
Once you can finally embrace them, you have the key to unlock who you're meant to be.
Life is so cool that way-

The Glamorous Life On Tour

You know you travel too much when you realize you're sitting in the same random airport bar in Salt Lake City as you did five years earlier, and the only thing that's changed is the amount of alcohol you consume.
It's not that spending your life getting paid to travel across the country can't be fun;
Late night trips to small town gas stations for more alcohol.
The rare craving for an awful chain restaurant like Applebee's.
Quick stops at national monuments, points of interest and mom and pop variety shops...
But on the whole life as an artist on the road is less glamorous and more TOURture!
Especially when you've been doing it since you were eighteen!
Of course I'm grateful that I've lived my life performing around the world-
What nineteen year old would turn down a six month trip performing across Europe on someone else's dime?
Still, at thirty-three, I'm ready to spend more time in the city I live, and less time on a brutal, oversold Southwest flight to (slight pause for dramatic effect) wow, I don't even know where I'm going!
...and I kinda like it that way.

Break-out!

Some days you wake up and cereal just won't do!
I love walking to a local restaurant for a delicious and hearty meal...
Eggs, bacon, pancakes, hash browns, coffee and OJ!
It's an affordable guilty pleasure-
And the perfect way to start the weekend!

Patience Is A Virtue... It's Also A Must!

I hate losing my patience with a loved one-
She has been a constant source of unconditional love, wisdom, support and laughter;
Now, when she needs me, I feel I fall short.
I've lost compassion and understanding.
Anger and sadness are affecting my reactions.
I know I can do better.
I HAVE to do better!
She gives me the world-
When I look back, I don't want to remember how frustrated I was;
I want to celebrate how beautiful life was with her!
I have to do better.

Solid Gold!

There are days in life when everything falls into place...

In LA it happens less often!

Today was one of those magical days...

Celebrate the small victories when they come, and embrace the possibilities!

On Teaching Dance

The thing about teaching teenagers:
Sometimes you break through;
Sometimes they break you!

Make It Happen!

It's not enough to "want" something in life,

You really have to be prepared to fight for it-

You work hard night and day, 

Pouring your heart and soul into a dream;

You give everything you think you have to offer,

Only to discover a deeper hunger and drive than you thought possible.

Then the opportunity comes along to set the plan into action.

Today is the day...

I'm going to make it happen!

Six Word Essay on Airport Terminals

I never get board watching people.

The Green Mile...

Spent the day inside a theatre working;
We could hear the sound of bag pipes and festive cheer between numbers-
Walking back to the hotel in the rain after the show;
Weaving in and out of a sea of drunken green people-
It became blatantly clear that St. Patrick's Day had taken its toll;
I made it back to my room without getting hit or thrown up on-
Happy St. Patrick's Day!

An Actors Life...

Urgent phone call and six follow up emails.

Last minute audition to be a series regular in a huge new pilot!

Note from casting:

"Actors MUST have all ten pages of dialogue memorized.  MUST not be flamboyant. Make strong choices! Actor MUST be a strong singer. Just be you! Be unique. Just have fun!"

That's my favorite part of this industry...

My entire day gets completely postponed for an opportunity to be PEFECT!

...along with the forty-five other guys that are "perfect" for this role.

Well, one of us has to get the part, maybe this one will be me!

Accounting Error... Tax Season Is Here!

I loath tax season!

The numbers.

The math.

The files.

The forms.

The write-offs.

The reconciling accounts.

It's all so annoying.

Even with a CPA I cringe at the entire process.

It would be nice if I actually had a nice return to look forward to!

Sadly, it seems like I always owe more money than I even made each year.

Ugh.  I have a massive headache!

Coffee Talk

One might ask me, "Matthew, you're in Starbucks a lot! How much coffee can you consume."
Answer:
There will NEVER be a time when I turn down a trip to Starbucks.
I hate that I'm a cog in the corporate trend... But Starbucks hooked me in when I was a Senior in high school and I've been addicted ever since.
I've already been twice today, for a production meeting and a quick "refuel."
Now I'm off to meet up with a good friend from NYC.
It's the perfect place to hang out, people watch and get pumped full of over priced, hand crafted beverages!

Mercury's In Retrograde?!?

Ordinarily I get a good chuckle when my friends with stars in their eyes inform me that Mercury is in retro grade...
I'm sure that astrology, much like almost everything else on earth effects the way we behave.
Our mood swings, happiness and our livelihood are no doubt connected in someway to the universe.
Still, I've never altered my plans, rearrange my schedule or change my life because the "charts" told me to do so.
Today however, I actually felt the sting of Mercury in retro grade.  I didn't realize it this morning when the first of many mini-disasters occurred, but it was confirmed tonight when the final ball was dropped.
Mercury is in retrograde ...and I can feel it!

Do You Ever Wonder...

Why, no matter what brand you buy or how much money you spend, it's impossible to start a new roll of toilet paper without losing the first 40 squares because of the glue they use?

What a waste!
Literally.

Change Your Underwear!

I'm ashamed to admit it...

But today, I'm wearing the same pair of underwear that I had on yesterday.

An unexpected overnight stay away from home has forced me to go without a lot this morning.

A toothbrush.

Toothpaste.

Face cream.

Hair product.

Fresh underwear...

The thought occurred for me to "fly solo" without the undergarments...

But it just doesn't feel right in a Calvin Klein suit!

That old trick about turning the underwear inside out...

It doesn't fool me... my ass knows it's in the same pair as yesterday!

After A Long Day of Judging Talent Competitions...

This is how I feel.
As they say... A picture's worth a thousand words!

Dance Moms The Parody

All I can say is that I had the most fun so far making this parody!
It's completely inappropriate and perfectly accurate!
Please enjoy Dance Moms The Parody:

I Need A Break!

Over worked.
Under paid.
Still loving life...
The complementary wine and cheese help!

A Sad State...

It's hard to believe that there are people in the United States of America who still condone discrimination in the Twenty-first Century
... let alone an entire state.
Sadly, the Utah Senate just passed legislation that forbids teachers to discuss anything related to sexuality or sexual orientation.  This includes a ban on anything that relates to the LGBT community.
Even if a student is being bullied, is curious or considering suicide.
Those parents who decide that they want their kids to participate in sex education classes have to opt in, and at that point their teenager will be taught an abstinence ONLY program.
I understand that there are people of many faiths in our country.  I also acknowledge that not everyone believes that you are born gay.
What I can't understand is why anyone would want to force a young man or woman struggling with their sexuality to suffer in silence.
Often times, the school is the only refuge for those kids to seek help, guidance and support.
It shocks me that there are so many people that still believe that you can "teach" a child to become gay.
If that were the case, why can't you "teach" a child not to be gay?
Don't even get me started on the (so called) Christian camps that convert your gay son or daughter.
I find it ironic that these faithful people that stand behind religion are the first to preach hate for EVERYONE that thinks or behaves different from them.
If they have faith, why are they concerned with others who have different beliefs?  Is their religion so weak that it will crumble if they don't convince everyone to drink the punch?
Clearly in Utah the do things by The Book!  ...of Moron.

Remember Mix Tapes?

What happened to the good old days?
Remember when you could pop a cassette tape into a tape deck and hit record?
Love mix tapes. Break-up mix tapes. Dance mix tapes. BFF mix tapes...
Even after CD's were introduced, we still found time to seek out our favorite songs from various CD's and record them onto one fabulous cassette tape that we would play over and over again on our lunch break to and from high school...
Then digital music swooped in and everything became so clean and "easy."
You can have all of your music in one place and share it with the world.
Too bad I spent six hours last night trying to cut two songs together in Garage Band.
A simple task, that SHOULD be painless. Considering the marvels of what a Mac can accomplish.
Unfortunately, with the onset of "convenient" music available at the click of a mouse, comes strict encrypting techniques that make some songs virtually impossible to cut, splice, mash or tweak.
Sometimes I really miss the days when you could steal music from the radio and no one cared!

Take A Hike!

When moments of chaos ensue-

I need to clear my mind.

I allow myself to get caught up in patterns;

Trying to accomplish too much in too short a time.

Stress, doubt and fear begin to rule.

The pressure will eventually build. 

I get lazy!

That won't help matters.

It's times like this when I need to step away from the iPhone Calendar...

And go take a hike!

Do What You Love!

For some, Sunday is a day of rest, brunch or football... I spent the day doing what I love with my talented friends. We shot a parody of (arguably) the worst and most fantastic Reality TV show every! Dance Moms! One might ask, "How do you parody a show that is already a spoof of itself?" Well- I think we nailed it! We should be doing with the editing by the end of this week... In the meantime, here's a sneak peak of what's to come!

Matthew as Abby Lee Miller Jeff Payton as Cathy of Candy Apples

The Cast of Dance Moms

Saturday Nights

When I was in grade school, I spent Saturday nights at the movies with my family.
When I was in middle school, I spent Saturday nights at the co-recreational dances perfecting the running man.
When I was in high school, I spent Saturday nights hanging at the beach with my drama geek friends around a bonfire.
When I was in my twenties, I spent Saturday nights out at the clubs in NYC!
And now, in my thirties... I (happily) spend Saturday nights making dinner with my friends...

Positive.

The battle to stay focused and positive is tough-

Sometimes you win. Sometimes you lose.

Sometimes you decided to say fuck it, and go for a long hike.

Take in the beautiful California blue sky and let the sun soak up all the negative energy.

Then maybe you come home, buckle down and get shit done...

So that when 5 O'Clock rolls around, you don't feel guilty sipping on a cocktail!

Now That We Got That Over With...

February is a bogus month!
Even with a bonus day every four years, I still fill like I'm being cheated.
How am I supposed to accomplish all of my monthly goals in twenty-eight days?
I consider February a wash.
If I get to cross something off a list, I'm pleased...
But if I didn't have time to get to a task, I'm not so hard on myself.
After all, you can't expect to conquer anything in under thirty days...
Just ask Lindsay Lohan.

Leap!

I don't understand why we have an extra day in February every four years...
I'm sure it has something to do with science, I never really paid close enough attention in school.
I liked history & drama more.
Regardless of why-
I'm always grateful for an extra day at the end of an already short month.

New York Date of Mind...

Today I got to have lunch with good friend from New York.
We laughed. We gossiped. We complained. We picked up right where we left off~
She's thinking about moving to LA, and I hope that she does.
It would be wonderful to have an old friend near.

The Process

I've dedicated the greater part of my life working toward a dream that I've had since I was a kid;

I said yes to every new opportunity that came my direction,

I struggled to stay focused when things didn't go the way I'd planned.

It hasn't always been easy or fun for that matter;

But the fact is I've been hard at work making my dreams come true;

Every day,

Every set back,

Every "no," is another chance to learn and grow. 

Every day is a new experience.

I have no doubt that I will be in that room one day soon-

It will be surreal.

But I will know that I earned my place there!

The OSCARS

Red Carpet fashion captured on the Glam Cam;
A-List stars light the stage.
Billy Crystal.
The acceptance speeches.
Inspiration-
I'm stuck in Kansas City working...
I want to RAGE!

It's A Living.

I spend my days creating art. I spend my weekends judging it. I'd rather just celebrate it- But life doesn't always work that way.

The Way We See It

It's Friday!
That means it's time for another episode of The Way We See It!
...and another opportunity to make fun of Michele Bachman!
Hope you enjoy!

The Day After a Dinner Party

Too much wine;

Need more sleep.

Puppies up;

They need to pee!

Ugh!

It's going to be a long day...

LA Traffic

Seriously?

How come everybody leaves work at the exact same time?

New plan:

Let's stagger peoples work hours based on the type of job they do~

Accountants and business people work until 6 PM

Doctors and lawyers until 5 PM

Teachers and city officials done at 3 PM
(Because they work hard enough in a short period of time...)

Everyone else- just stay home!

Hustle

Jump out of bed with too little sleep;

Shoving a mouthful of cereal down so I don't starve!

Wake up the computer and log in to check the inbox.

Where do I start?

For every email I respond to, four more bounce in-

Grab the iPhone and begin cold calling! ...that's ALWAYS a pleasure! (Sarcasm)

It's not even 10 AM and I'm already behind schedule.

Plan for rehearsal.

Say "yes" to another gig choreographing (even though I don't have the time.)

Pre-pack my bags for another weekend of the glamours life as an adjudicator for Starpower.

Prep for production on our next parody...

The hustle is never ending!

I hope I'll be able to slow down when my career really takes off!  (...more sarcasm)

Note To Self

Running errands on a holiday Monday in Los Angeles is a terrible idea!
45 minutes to go 5 miles;
RAGING!!!
I love LA. I love LA.
Yes, it's true, but I hate LA Freeways!
More RAGE!
Never again on a holiday!

Six Word Essay on Starbucks Coffee

I rage without my morning latte!

My Life Is Always An Adventure...

I'm sitting at a random hotel bar in the middle of America drinking beer and watching the Lakers game.  Funny, considering I'll be judging dancers in a talent competition tomorrow!

Reality Check!

Everyday a new Reality TV diva is born~
If you love to loath them as much as we do... you've got to check out our latest segment!
Each week our brilliant co-hosts Amy Claire and Ellen Buckley serve up a juicy slice of Reality TV gossip!  This week it's everything fabulous about Basketball Wives, Bridezillas and of course...
The Kardashians!
We encourage all of you to: "Stop Feeling Guilty About Your Guilty Pleasure!"©

BLT!

In the midst of a busy schedule, I find happiness in a B.L.T.
I know it sounds strange, but there are moments in my life when I just need a little bacon to bring an added joy to my day.
I get so caught up in work;
business calls,
the never ending email inbox,
and the non-stop efforts to stay social connected...  I need a little pick me up.
The deliciously salty, meaty, crispy crunch of pork, lettuce and tomato sends my taste buds soaring!
...it probably has the same effect on my cholesterol, but that's a worry for another day.
I'm going to ravish this B.L.T!

Life's Short. Do What You Want!

I'm at the point in my life where I no longer wish to do things just to satisfy other people.

For a long time I tried to be what other people expected of me.

I realize that the people who admire me the most, are the ones who appreciate that I follow my heart.

And last time I check, I remember that life is better when you live in the moment, and treasure every second! The good, the bad and everything in between! 

A Valentine's Day Poem

Roses are red,
Violets are blue,
I have a Valentine and so could you!
...if you stopped your bitching about how dumb this day is and settle for someone like everyone else did!

Happy Valentine's Day!

Six Word Essay on Monday's

Catching up on last weeks shit!

Dear Grammys,

I appreciate the tribute and love for Whitney Houston-
Her voice was a force that will be missed around the world.
But don't you think honoring Chris Brown with a Grammy Award is a touch counterproductive?
No matter how talented he may be, why do we continue to celebrate poor behavior?

Sad Day for the Music Industry

Whitney Houston passed away today.
Sadly, for me it comes as no surprise.  Still, it is heartbreaking.
Talk about a tragedy~ 
Her talent was enormous.  Unfortunately, so was her fame.
I'm not a celebrity, but I can only imagine how easy it is to get lost in "YesLand."
Anyone that watched the Oprah interview last year could see that Whitney was still in pain and most likely on drugs.  It was a cry for help on national television, and not even Oprah called her out on it.
Talent. Ego. Fame. Money.
It can be a lethal combination.
I'm devastated that Whitney had so many people who loved her, but clearly not enough to convince her to get help, so that she might love herself.
Sad day in music.

Another Year...

Another airport.
Another city.
Another hotel.
Another year at the world's largest (and best) talent competition.
The 2012 Starpower National Talent Competition has begun!
Bring on the sequins, spray tans & sassy stage moms!

Puppy Pair

When it comes to dogs, I always think two is better than one!
Don't your agree?!?

The OSCARS are near!

It's that time of year...

Awards season is in full force!

Like any die hard High School Drama Club geek, I LOVE watching the Academy Awards telecast.

Even in an off year!

And I hate to admit it, but I think we can all agree there is no real front runner in the race for Best Picture...

Which is why our company A Group Production, LLC decided to produce a fun parody tribute to this years Best Picture nominees.

Don't worry if you don't recognize the majority of the 9 films (yep... NINE mostly mediocre  films were nominated) in the category for Best Picture!  I think our 4 minute parody pretty much sums up everything you need to know...

Enjoy!

There are plenty of hours in the day.
I have not been using my time well.
There's no time for fun when there's work to get done!
Walking a tight rope of balance.
I need to remember how to succeed.
Hard work. Healthy diet. Plenty of sleep.
Most important- focus!

Six Word Essay on Mondays

It's rough getting the week started!

She's still got it...

Just when you think the world has anointed Lady Gaga as the new divaGoddessextraordinaire...

Madonna swoops in and reminds everyone why she's still the Queen of Pop!

This years Super Bowl half time show was malfunction free. 

Madonna is not afraid of an entrance and she always knows how to make an exit.  Everything in between was equally impressive.  The choreography was tight, the song choices were perfect and the production value was off the charts!  I'm pretty sure Madonna got everything she asked for.  From the LED screen that covered half the field, to the impressive costumes, the show was ol' skool fresh!

If Madonna is what Fifty-Three is supposed to look like, sign me up!  I could have done without her lip syncing, but I totally get it... and at least she knows how to do it well.  She puts Britney to shame!

Cut and Drink.

Spent the day shooting a fun OSCAR Parody...
This on the heels of a very long, albeit productive week.

Looking forward to a nice cold drink!

...or four!  

The Way We See It!

I'm thrilled to share that as we continue to expand our company A Group Production, and (hopefully) sell a TV show... We've just uploaded our latest segment!
Imagine how great it would be if "The Daily Show" and "Politically Incorrect" got married and had an adopted gay baby? "The Way We See It" is the news delivered with a witty, flashy and fabulous spin!  Jeff Payton reports on REAL new headlines and current events with his dry, intelligent and pun-filled humor, while I provide an off-the-cuff commentary and entertaining insight!

Pushy Pet

I love my dogs;  Ginger and Lily. But Lily, a one year old Shi Tzu mix is bullying our eight year old Yorkshire Terrier.  I know she's still puppy... But I think it's time she stopped destroying our sheets, torturing Ginger and acting like she doesn't hear me when I call her!

I Love Joan Rivers

God bless Joan Rivers.
I love that at 78 years old- she's smoking weed and jumping into hot tubs fully clothed!
On her refreshingly "unscripted" reality show, JOAN & MELISSA: Joan Knows Best? Joan is unafraid to push the boundaries of what an audience expects to see from a grandma.  I also respect that she'll do anything for a great rating.
Joan knows the industry better than half the men that run it.
How appropriate to engage multiple generations in the heated hot topic of medical marijuana.  I admire her ability to do it so honestly- with a tongue and cheek humor and witty resolve.
Joan uses her ol' skool skills to spark success. It's a highly contagious and outlandish show that actually makes me enjoy Melissa Rivers.
Clearly, Joan knows best!

Cultured By Brooke

I've mentioned her numerous times before, and rightfully so! My sophisticated friend Brooke has lead me on another intoxicating adventure... Brooke is as cultured as they come. Her personalized style and eclectic palate is refreshing and almost unheard of in L.A. (Let's face it, most people in Hollywood follow trends.) Somehow, Brooke has her finger on the pulse of what's hot, without being a "follower." Seriously- I can't even get her to Tweet the hilarious and off-the-cuff one liners that effortlessly explode from her lips! She's witty, gorgeous and the coolest chick you'll ever meet.
Tonight's journey involved a trip to the Echoplex in Silver Lake to see the dynamic band Dale Earnhardt Jr. Jr.
People overuse the word "corky" however, in this case, I think it's an appropriate adjective.
The band features two missed matched guys with the perfect balance of stage presence and passion.
It doesn't hurt that their voices sound killer together too!
The bands sound is youthful and energetic.  But don't let that fool you... the nearly packed house was entirely mixed with young and old, men and women, gay and straight, hipsters and plaid wearing preppy's - all dancing (in their own special way) to Dale Earnhardt Jr. Jr.'s music.
I loved their heavy percussion full of rhythm and tempo changes.  In one song the lyrics promise to "take you there" and they really did! They push the audience past uncomfortable, into outrageously intense in the best way.
It was an excellent night. Rocking music and a night out with the fabulous Brooke Kivowitz!

Busy Day

After weeding through a ton of emails, three meetings, two trips to the bank, a massive PR push, and pre-production work for our next parody (an OSCAR special...) I'm happy to call it a day!

Farm Fresh Fun!

Today some friend and I visited a local Farmer's Market in Los Angeles.
Mar Vista to be exact!
Fresh fruit and vegetables.
Breads and spreads.
Organic soap.
It was a wonderful day.
Below is a "Be For" and "And After" of the day.
I think it's self-explanatory...

There's Plenty Of Work To Do...

But today is Saturday, and I really need a break.

That's the funny thing about work... No matter how much time or energy you spend accomplishing a task, there will always be more!  I'm a classic overachiever.  I want to do more, more, more! However, sometimes doing more actually involves doing less.

So, I'm shutting down my laptop and my brain and I'm going to enjoy the rest of this weekend!

Friday Night Lights... Out.

Remember how exciting Friday nights were in High School? 
High School football games, movies with friends, ice skating at the mall...
It was a thrilling time full of raging hormones, nervous energy and Drakkar Nior.
Now, I get excited for Happy Hour with friends and a movie on the couch!
I guess I knew that I couldn't stay young forever...
I just never imagined it would be lights out at 11:00 PM in my (EARLY) thirties!

Spaghetti Dinner

One of my favorite childhood memories is Sunday Dinner!

Waking up watching. Watching cartoons until mom or dad told me I had to get in the shower and get dressed... Then off to church.  

Once church was out, I was eager to get to my grandma's house.

I'll never forget the smell when I'd walk into the house!

The aroma was so enticing I could hardly wait to dig into a huge bowl of spaghetti and meatballs!

As I got older, I sat and watched both of my grandmas prepare their unique recipe for the sauce.

Eventually, I started making the sauce with them...

Now, I'm on my own.  I've created a nice hybrid of both recipes that either grandma would be proud!

I love having friends over for my version of spaghetti dinner.
(Even if it's not Sunday...)

The aroma is the same, and so is the love from which it was prepared.

But I don't think it'll ever taste quite as divine as it did as a child!

Rehearsal

I love the smell of a dance studio in the morning.

The energy of a new project.

Laughing with friends between breaks.

I still have just as much fun as the first time I walked into a rehearsal!

Too bad my body hurts four times more!

Blogged Down...

Spent the entire day working online-
Updated my Twitter account,
Revamped our YouTube Channel,
Posted on Facebook,
Skimmed the gossip sites,
Now it's time to put my computer (and brain) to sleep!

Communicate!

If three people overheard the exact same conversation at a party, I'm confident that there would be at least three different exaggerations of the story-

Six Word Essay On Sleep

I just need six hours, please!

Life Is An Adventure- Part (???)

Some days I'm performing.
Some days I'm producing.
Some days I'm judging.
And some days I'm dressed up like a Grape, plugging a product, posing with Carmen Electra!

WORKed Over!

Fighting for money that's mine;
I shouldn't have to work this hard to get paid!
It's starts at the top-
The merge will never happen.

I'm Going to Need A Bigger Clipboard!

Woke up early this morning with a loaded agenda-
By the time I fed the puppies and myself, did my morning workout and took a shower I was ready to begin!
Sat down in front of my computer and got sucked into a Google Search black hole!
Aside from the fact that I read up on the latest celebrity gossip...
I've accomplished absolutely nothing in the past hour and a half.
Which wouldn't be an issue if the past two days weren't filled with exactly the same!
I've got to start crossing things off my list, or I'm going to need a bigger clipboard!

Internet Censorship!

I just found out that our U.S. Senate is trying to pass a bill that would censor the things that we do on the Internet!
I'm so confused...
If they censor the Internet, how are all of the closeted, gay Republican politicians going to cheat on their wives with the Twinks they'd find on Grinder?  If you ask me, it seems like Big Brother is really trying to keep their secret porn stash all to themselves!
Typical- rich, dirty, old white men that want to snoop on everyone else!

Leap And The Net Will Appear!

...Maybe.
Today I woke up in a bad mood. I was frustrated and feeling sorry for myself.
I hate that quality in people, especially myself!
So, keeping in mind my goals for this year- I took a deep breath, counted to 10 and released all the nasty doubt.
I decided to do three bold things that could help me around my current situation.
I put myself out there entirely-
So far the risk hasn't returned a profitable investment...
But I'm confident it will.
Every time I've jumped,
I've soared!

Can You Act Like A Fruit?

One of my earliest professional jobs in the entertainment industry was performing as a costumed character for a major production / theme park company...

So it seems appropriate that well over sixteen years in this business I will once again be sporting a plushy costume!

Thankfully, I've grown as a person since my first gig.  I understand a job is a job!

And in this economy, I'll gratefully jump into the red tights and ill-fitted headpiece and "act" like a strawberry!

Golden.

The food is prepped.
The alcohol is chilled.
The table is set.
The pre-show is on.
The red carpet judgment has begun.
The guests are near.
The party is on...
The dream continues!

Heaven on Sunset Boulevard!

Sometimes indulging is necessary!

Eavesdropping. Namedropping. And joining the Gay Mafia!

Nothing good ever comes from eavesdropping...

Namedropping is a completely different story!

I'm sitting at Starbucks in West Hollywood listening to all of the conversations around me.

It's remarkable how casually people name drop in this town!

It's a small world, and an even smaller industry...

You'd think that people would be a little more discrete when bashing a famous diva.

Nevertheless, the Who's Who of the Gay Mafia sit here day in and day out writing their scripts, dropping their resumes and networking...

So naturally I'm working my ASS off to become a member!  I guess I'm going to have to exploit my Lance Bass story!

If you can't beat them... Join them!

Becoming A Man Part I

I discovered that I didn't want to be a plumber when I was nine years old, in a crawl space with my dad while he was moonlighting on  a neighbors master bath "redo" in order to surprise my mom with a tennis bracelet for their anniversary.
I thought about many things on the cold, damp, California dirt, underneath that 1970's track home.
Aside from the obvious judgments; dirty finger nails, working on your back in dark nasty places, dealing with peoples SHIT... I knew that plumbing wasn't for me.
When my dad worked, I saw a sense of pride. Commitment. Art.
He worked with such a meticulous expertise.
I knew that even without the hanging safety lights and the blow torch, my dad would be able to fit a pipe with his eyes blindfolded.
As I watched my dad cut the pipe, and explain to me what he was doing as if it were perfectly logical, my mind wondered off in a thousand different directions.  I was panicked!  I didn't know how I was going to be able to tell my dad that I had no desire to go through all of this trouble for a girl!
I just remember looking up and saying aloud, "Dad, I don't think I want to be a plumber when I grow up."
And I'll never forget his reaction.  He chuckled and got a grin from ear to ear and said to me without skipping a beat, "Son, you can be whatever you want to be when you grow up."
I could hear the pride and relief in his voice.
It wasn't until I had a conversation with my dad as an adult for the first time, that I realized how much he sacrificed for me.  I don't think my dad wanted to be a plumber when he was nine either.  Somehow, he was able to put his dreams on hold in order to help mine come true.

Do Your DOOTY!

I'm freezing my ass off sitting in a mid-seventies court house holding room located in downtown Los Angeles with an eclectic group of slightly annoyed people.
We were all called (an hour and a half before they "needed us") for Jury Duty.
I'm not sure if it's the lack of faith I have in our court system as of late-
Or the fact that if I'm asked to serve on a jury this week or next, I will be missing out on several big auditions, which means the potential loss of income...
Either way, I do not think of this experience as a "wonderful opportunity" the clerk excitedly proclaims it to be!
Still, I'm fascinated by the entire process-
Calling people two hours before they need them, allowing people off the hook because their "Basic English" isn't strong enough to understand a trail (Didn't they all have to pass a citizenship test to even be considered for jury duty?) Finally the nuts who ask the same question that has been answered three times before...
Thank God I can find humor in watching as a group of mix matched adults try to maneuver their way around casual conversation. It's like the High School cafeteria all over again!
At least by now, most people are able to assimilate with the people they know they'll be able to tolerate. Of course there's always one that can't take the hint. Those are my favorite moments.
Hey, if I have to be stuck doing "something wonderful" for my fellow citizens, at least I get to watch something brilliant while I sit and turn into an icecap!

A New Year, A New Project!

One of the many goals I'm working on in 2012 is to continue writing a daily blog entry.
I started writing daily entries as a resolution in 2010, in search of a positive way to stay focused on creativity.
It was tough at first, but it became a wonderful way to keep the energy flowing.
In fact, I didn't realize what a huge impact the blog was for my career until three months into 2011, when I was no longer sharing my daily thoughts and stories. It was more difficult for me to think creatively on a regular basis. Not to mention the lack of positive energy.
The daily blog entry was a major contribution to my outlook on life, career and happiness.
So midway through 2011, I picked up on writing daily.
Obviously, I have every intention to continue the blog in 2012-
However, yesterday it dawned on me that I could incorporate another one of my 2012 goals into my blog!
I want to write about my life. More specifically, the relationship I've had with my father throughout my life.
My dad has helped shape me in every way. Now, as an adult, I'm able to see how important our relationship has been. He gave me the tools to become the man I am, and I want to honor him by sharing my story.
So, occasionally I will write about special moments that bonded us in a wonderful way. Hopefully at the end of this year I'll have a meaningful story to dedicate to my dad!

Back on Track!

2012 is now officially in full force.

The holiday vacation was long and wonderful-

Now it's time to blaze a new trail!

It can be so overwhelming coming back to a mound of mail, taxes and numerous projects!

But, I have to stay true to my personal goals for 2012.

Among them; release the stress, focus on productivity, positive energy and faith.

Once I take a deep breath, the path clears.

I'm back on on track and ready to climb new mountains!

I Love My Dad.

I found a new hero today.
It's not the first time I gained a new strength from him;
He has given me the best survival guide for life-
He gave me everything I needed.
He makes it look so easy!

Six Word Essay about Traveling 16 Hours Across Country!

My entire body aches to the bone!

Goodbyes Are Hard!

No matter how old I get, or how long I've been away from home...
Saying goodbye to my loved ones is painful.
I made a promise to myself a few years back that I would not spend time feeling sad about leaving home- it's the choice I've made to follow my dreams. It's a rough sacrifice, but as long as I continue to pursue my goals, I have to accept the pain.
But as I watch my grandparents, aunts, uncles, mom, dad, sister and even my niece grow older, saying goodbye becomes a lot harder!
In the end, I know we've all worked hard to appreciate the time we have together, however fast and furious it was!

Ready. Aim. Fired Up!

It's not everyday that I get fired up...
In fact, the last time I shot a gun I think I was about 15 years old and still in Boy Scouts.
So I was grateful that my dad was able to take the afternoon off from work and take me out into the country for target practice.
It was an awesome way to spend quality time with my dad, while getting a better education about gun safety.
Not to mention I need to learn how to shoot like an expert if I'm going to replace Tom Cruise in MI5!
In all seriousness, shooting a gun is not at all like you see in the movies! It's a lethal weapon that can end lives, and will, if you don't know how to properly use one!
Which is why I'm so thrilled that my dad took me out and trained me-
I consider him and expert.
I also feel much more aware about guns, and I'm a pretty damn good shot too!

Six Word Essay on Family Bonding

Beer makes a good time great!

Clean Sweep

Clearing out closets always stirs up something...
Usually it's dust.
Today I helped my grandma reorganize her kitchen, and the memories came flooding back-
Sunday dinners, Christmas baking and grandmas stories about cooking with her grandma.
Nostalgia at its best!
Now-
The pantry is clean and clutter free.
I picked up a few family treasures and I got to spend the afternoon bonding with my gram-

Crazy. Stupid. LOVED IT!

My favorite part of vacationing at home is the time I get to spend with my family.
Though I must admit, it's not quite the fantasy I imagined returning home would be when I was a kid.
How could I know that my parents would get divorced, happily remarry and continue on with their lives?
How dare them!
As we eventually all discover, life is complicated.
It can't always be perfect.
However, with every passing day it becomes more clear that the beauty of life is in the imperfection.
Spending the day antique shopping with my dad and grandma-
A day with my mom and her husband; coffee, an afternoon watching football with beer and snacks, a delicious dinner made by mom, a surprise visit from my sister, her husband and my adorable niece, topped off with a heartfelt and entertaining movie...
"Crazy Stupid Love"
Which is also the inspiration for this blog entry.
The point, I'm grateful for my life.
I'm happy for the good, the tough and the unexpected. Most of all, I'm appreciative for my time at home with my family.

Resolved!

Once the coffee kicks in and helps eliminate the remnants of the New Years Eve spirits... A beautiful new day begins!
With it- comes a fresh year. Opportunity to improve past success and correct the missteps.
It's no surprises how much I love a goal... So naturally, New Years resolutions are right up my alley!
Today, I sat down and focused on outlining a few new goals I'd like to achieve. In addition, I expanded on several larger objectives that I began to work towards last year.
Today, my year is full of possibility.
I'm resolved to begin every day this year with that in mind!