Truth on Tour: Day 6

One show down, four to go;
I stayed on target with my resolutions to remain healthy, creative, and positive.
No easy task while working a full-time show, too.
Finding balance has always been something I strive toward––only occasionally achieving it in my day-to-day life.
Thankfully, as I grow older, I find more room for acceptance and less resistance.
The grasshopper is finally becoming the grass?! Or something Zen like that.

Truth on Tour: Day 5

I was so eager to get up and get my day started that I nicked myself shaving;
Never use a razor when you’re in a hurry.
My face turned into one of those artificially flavored, yet juicy Gushers––the blood wouldn’t stop; so now I’m walking around with a wad of toilette paper on my face.
The good news is that we’re on camera today; so much for my extreme close up!

Truth on Tour: Day 4

Our show finished early yesterday; I stepped outside the theater door and I thought I was going to evaporate True Blood style.
It was a rare and precious opportunity to get outside while it was still light; not willing to waste a moment––I gathered with an intimate group of friends and we walked along the River Walk.
When I write “walk”, what I should mention is that dancers never walk, we choreographed an impromptu show––yoga video shoot included––while Plus-sized tourists gathered in curiosity; less like a zoo, more like a car accident.
After our spectacular spectacle we decided to enjoy a fancy dinner at an upscale (and delicious) American bistro.
I gorged on a steak that was prepared to perfection: with a ton of butter and salt; as passer-byes would stop and ask, “Are you those yoga people?”
Yes, I’d mumble with salty carcass falling from my mouth; it was a great night!

Truth on Tour: Day 3

I’m up.
It’s too early, but I woke up––I’m alive; which is a great thing.
It would be really difficult to pursue my dreams if I were dead.
I don’t remember the first time I heard the expression, “Life is what happens to you while you’re busy making other plans.” But I understand the wise words from either John Lennon or Allen Saunders, depending on what you believe on Google.
Humans spend so much time thinking, dreaming, scheming––looking for our purpose; even those who were born with a burning passion, a genius mind, or a remarkable talent sometimes forget the beauty of life.
Today is here; use it, or lose it.

Truth on Tour: Day 2

I woke up early and eager;
Yesterday I managed to accomplish all of my daily resolutions:
Post social media content, spend time writing my new book, give myself a yoga class, find time to read, journal, and still somehow I was able to work.
In order to achieve these tasks, I’ve accepted that I have to wake up before the sun comes out.
My body wants sleep, but my soul needs to feel fulfilled;
Sometimes balance requires compromise––while on tour, it comes in the form of a baker’s wake-up call.
...It’s time to make the donuts!

Truth on Tour: Day 1

The alarm rang ten minutes after I woke up;

It's rare that I get a good nights sleep before a travel day.

Showered, dressed, and kissed the puppies goodbye.

We arrived to an empty airport—apparently the only time LAX is calm: 4AM.

I reacted like a First grader when they lose their favorite toy when I discovered that Starbucks was closed, and wouldn't open until after we take off.

The drama continued when I realized that I'm going to be on a three hour flight sitting next to a man who smells like Robert Downey Jr's breath (before rehab.)

This is #TheGlamorousLife!

Life on Tour

I'm hours away from embarking on a four week tour of the US; teaching, choreographing, and adjudicating dancers in glamorous cities like New York, Chicago, Atlantic City, and San Antonio.

As if the idea of spending a month living out of a bag, eating lukewarm convention food, and tolerating the needless body pat-downs from power hungry TSA agents doesn't make you think twice about my chosen line of profession—imagine leaving your cuddly puppies, comfortable pillow-topped bed, and of course my husband.

Like a high school Math team, I've spent the past week trying to mentally prepare for my TOURnament, with meditation, "to-do" lists, and creating projects that will keep me distracted while away from home.

One of those projects is a daily account of my life on the road; my objective with Truth on Tour, is to stay positive and creative through a series of quips, videos, pictures, and blog posts.

With any luck, I'll be so overwhelmed with creativity and brilliant energy, that I won't be so consumed with missing my family.

But for today, I'm going to enjoy a puppy in my lap and the other cuddling up next to me!

A Trip to the Mall

Sometimes spending money encourages me to make more money! 

The Power of Positivity

Light and dark;
Positive and negative;
Good and evil;
The ability to remain present requires acknowledging the difficult task we face as people––the power of choice; to allow other people or circumstances to effect our ego, or release it and stay present.
Grandpa always said, “If you want to be happy, be happy.” Equally that must mean, “If you want to be unhappy, be unhappy.”
The choice is ours.

Reminder

I woke up and started writing in my journal (as I do every morning) and I started to feel overwhelmed––which is the opposite feeling that I expect when I’m releasing my emotions on a blank page.
I took a step back and realized that I was thinking about the next four weeks on tour; how long I was going to be out of town, and how little creative time I’ll have for my writing, acting, and choreography projects.
I paused and released the fear; I reminded myself that life is full of opportunity––when I give myself the opportunity to stay present and focus on what’s in front of me.
Release the past, let go of the future, and shine today.

Zen Accountability

In an effort to stay present on tour, while also finding time to exercise my body and my mind, I'm going to start a new social media experiment; which will encourage me to meditate and simultaneously maintain my mental and physical strength.
#TenMinuteYogaOnTour
The idea is simple: Whether I’m in an airport waiting for a connecting flight or in the Green Room waiting to go on stage; there is no reason why I cannot find ten minutes in every day to be mindful.  The bonus is that I can stay connected socially and encourage others to take positive steps in their mental, physical, and spiritual health, too.
I haven’t worked out all of the details, and I’m not entirely certain how to incorporate an interactive social presence––but like every new adventure, the path will become clear once I start the journey.
Regardless of the success of this new yoga based social experiment; I know that I will stay accountable and aware of my overall health––and that is a Zensation!

Outlook is Everything

I woke up later than I’d like to on my day off;
At first, I was upset and I started to think about all of the things I “needed” to do before I could actually “enjoy” my free time––and then I remembered how easy it can be to release all of the pressure, and just start doing things.
My grandpa used to say, “If you want to be happy, be happy.”
Yes, it really can be that simple––if you understand that we have a choice;
I can continue to tell myself that I’ve wasted time and the day is ruined, or I can remind myself that I was able to get the sleep my body felt it needed and now I can be more present during my tasks.
Life is short, and it goes by fast––be here now, and find happiness in whatever the circumstance may be.

Clear Mind

The last thing I want to do on my day off is clean; especially when I'm getting ready to go on tour for a month—leaving behind my family at home.

I wanted to spend quality time with Jeff and our puppies, rather than running errands and vacuuming.

While I was hunched over the kitchen table dusting, I came across a note that is written myself; "Be present."

Instantly smacked down with—yet another reminder that I am here now; tomorrow might not come (I know this sounds bleak, but it's true) so why not make this a fun memory?

I took a deep breath (a common theme lately), turned on Amazon Prime, and rocked out with Jeff and my puppies while we got our household chores wrapped up.

Simply stated: "Awareness leads to a clean mind!" 

Life; Evolution and Awareness

Like tastebuds, emotions evolve.
What an exhilarating moment when you no longer desire acceptance;
Instead, finding inner peace, gratitude, and awareness.
The ability to look back into the past with fond memories––without getting stuck there; simultaneously, looking toward the future––without losing the present.

Morning Traveler

When you arrive at the airport early and you discover that Starbucks isn't open—but Pizza Famiglia is;

So, I can get a slice but I can't get a drip?

Heartburn before caffeine just doesn't seem right.

Barnes & Noble

I’m on the road teaching and choreographing––which is par for the course for me during this time of year––surprisingly I have a chunk of time off to myself; so I decided to walk over to a Barnes & Noble to be creative.
The moment I walked through the threshold, I was transported to my earliest memories of the bookstore mega-chain.
When I first moved away from home, I spent most of my downtime in Chicago (when I wasn’t at the gym trying to bulk up to secure a place in the concert dance company I was apprenticing for) sitting in the alcove of books; searching for answers.
I was still in the closet, broke, and consumed with gaining knowledge on: art, history, acting, style, design, fashion, philosophy, and spirituality.
Hours would pass effortlessly as I combed through stacks of books and magazines––keeping detailed notes in my journal (prior to SmartPhones or a laptop.)
When I moved to New York City, I continued to find solace at Barnes & Noble––finally out of the closet, I hoped to meet my future husband; he would also love books and be passionate about wasting days drinking overpriced coffee while researching the latest ideas in entertainment and pop culture.
Finally at a point where I was open and honest with myself, I decided to dream big and I found inspiration to do so everywhere I looked.  I knew that one day I, too, would be an author with a book on these shelves.
(Hey, I kept a journal––and I knew that I had important things to share with the world. So why shouldn’t I think about becoming a writer?)
When I met my boyfriend (now husband) Jeff, we discovered early on that we had a mutual obsession with killing time in a bookstore.  It was my match made in heaven.
We moved to Los Angeles together several years later, and continued to find bliss in the Newsstand at the Barnes & Noble at The Grove.
So now, as I walk around the store today, I’m reminded of the journey that I’ve been on.  It’s bizarre to accept that twenty years have passed since I first fell in love with getting lost in a sea of words on a page.
I’m a published author now, and my book sits on the shelves in the very store I first decided that I could do anything I put my mind to.
The word surreal doesn't even begin to define my emotional reaction.
Not at all in the place I imagined I might be when I was eighteen, and setting my sights on a brilliant future––while I still feel that kid inside; I have evolved into a version of myself that God has designed, far more rewarding than any goal I had envisioned.
I have been blessed; and I just re-discovered that, in a bookstore.

Food For Thought

I wear a retainer at night in order to keep my teeth in place while I sleep;
If only they made a retainer for your tummy!

Ray Of Light

The vibrant golden line appears in my window––sending a warm amber ray of light; as if setting the stage for a rehearsed morning dancing.
I sit at my breakfast table writing in my journal, doing my best to focus on the present.
If this beautiful beam of energy, doesn’t serve as a reminder;
nothing will.
Trust in light, seek light, be light.

Cheesy Rhyming Poem: Day Off

When the sun is high and the sky is blue;
You better believe you will find me in our pool!
There's nothing better than a day off outdoors;
It's called balance, even if it means ignoring chores.

Just Say No.

Dairy is my nemesis;

I eat too much of it—and then complain about eating it.

The Time Is Now

I cannot accept the present if I continue to think about the future;
Likewise, my current situation will not evolve if I compare it to my past.
This moment is here now––regardless of yesterday’s victories or setbacks; and tomorrows challenges or accomplishments will come tomorrow.
Living in the present requires the Faith to be in this moment––and no where else.

Six Word Essay on Balance

Balance requires unplugging; now’s the time.

Peace

Humanity.
Violent and compassionate––we coexist with people who share vastly different backgrounds: politically, socially, religiously, and economically; it’s devastating when one disturbed individual plays God in the name of God.

Happiness

My grandma used to say if you have to cross the street for happiness, you've gone to far.

Similarly, she'd remind me often that money cannot buy happiness.

I know that my grandma was a very positive person—and I trust that she honestly believed that money would not add value to the quality of her life;

Still, I can only imagine how excited she would have been to be able to afford a fancy streak house dinner from time to time.

As I continue to explore my personal happiness, I question what motivates me.

I am a performer; an artist who is used to struggling—never entirely certain where my next job will be, or how much it will pay.

Now that I'm more established, I have more opportunities and financial independence—and I must admit, it's nice to have a refrigerator stocked with food, instead of cabinets full of Top Ramen. So in that regard, money has provided happiness.

Equally, I enjoy going to movies, wearing nice clothing, and traveling—all things that require money. However, I get to pursue my passion and earn a living.

I'm not sure that I would appreciate any of the fancy-pants lifestyle choices I make, if I were forced to take a job I loathed.

Moreover, I believe that if I lost every material procession, I would still go out of my way to find happiness; however insignificant it might seem.

So my conclusion (at least in this moment) is that I appreciate the things that money can bring—but I find joy in the fact that I continue to seek peace and gratitude in the relationships and opportunities I'm blessed with.

Soaking Up The Sun at Starbucks

Delicious coffee,
A random celebrity;
Starbucks after yoga.

On With The Show

On my worst day in this business––I still feel alive with passion;
The darkness and doubt is not match for the energy that rushes to my soul when I get to share my story.
Rejection is part of the larger pictures;
The success in in the journey.
Connecting with an audience,
Collaborating with other artists;
A magnificent body of work develops over time.
A moment of recognition;
No failure will overshadow the triumph of accomplishing a dream.

Six Month Check-Up

We’re supposed to go to the doctors office for regular check-ups;
So it makes perfect sense the I should follow up on my creative, mental, and emotional goals that I set in January.
It’s easy to start the year off with a newfound energy and inspiration; maintaining it throughout the year can be difficult.
Thankfully, I’ve tapped into a manageable way to stay accountable for my resolutions, without becoming insanely obsessive.
I’ve implemented a set of daily reminders to keep me on track without the crazy:

• Start each day with a morning meditation.
• Journal––to release my frustrations and talk through my goals.
• Allow no more than (5) goals or tasks on a list at a time; once I’ve completed an action, I can add a new objective to the list. (This helps me stay focused on the most pressing matters, and allow things to be resolved in order of urgency.)
• Remain positive; the moment I feel negative thoughts or energy, take a deep breath and refocus on a new action that incorporates positive action.
• Live in the now; accepting what is in front of me and making the most of it.
• Trust––maintaining faith that if I follow the steps above, everything will work out.

It’s important to check in with your goals regularly.  No one ever accomplished anything by chance or luck; there was a dream, which lead to a goal, that gave way to preparation, that later turned into opportunity.
Life is short––take action and be positive; everything happens with Faith, hard work, and positive action.

Balance Is Key

It’s a beautiful summer day in LA;
Blue skies, birds are chirping––not even the sound of the gardeners leaf blowers are a distraction.
I sit here contemplating my next step:
A. Continue writing inside?
B. Stop what I’m doing and go to the pool?
C. Take my laptop to the pool and be creative there?
I think the answer is clear.
Balance is key; and today I’ll be balancing my laptop on a pool chair!

Meet Me At The Mall

I’m sitting at the mall searching for creativity.
Drawn to the food court where similar Mac men and women peck at their keyboards, while people––who take the shape of characters from any random 80′s film––devour food-on-a-stick.
For every sentence I complete, I reward myself with a thirty-second scan of my surroundings:
Moms comforting crying kids,
Old ladies playing mahjong,
Old men playing chess,
Teenagers plotting their next takedown,
And me––fighting for my next great idea;
Maybe some MSG from Panda Express will help me?

I am Blessed; I am also a Baby.

Yesterday I threw a huge party for myself;
It was a themed party: Pity.
I allowed minor annoyances to cause a shift in my outlook––which in turn caused a major adjustment in the mood of my peers and coworkers.
There’s no doubt that one persons energy can impact an entire population.
I woke up this morning embraced at my lack of maturity;
I had several opportunities to take a deep breath and turn my day around yesterday; but like a small child who is demanding that toy in Target––I gave into my selfish side.
The beauty of life is that every day that we wake up, we have the luxury of a fresh start––we can decide to let the past dictate the future, or we can live in the present; a true gift.

Friendly Reminder: Bad Days

Bad days are a choice;
I have the tools to release the negative energy and work through the anger, fear, resentment, or insecurity.
One deep breath at a time, I seek to be present in this moment.
I cannot change the actions of another person, but I can change how I react to them.
I cannot control my emotions, but I can acknowledge my feelings––and set a course for healing.
Nothing successful develops from an unpleasant attitude;
The past is gone, let it go and move on!

Puppy Vs. Human

I’m watching my Shih Tzu, Lily, cram her furry head into the side of the couch;
Burrowing deep into the pile of blankets to shield her ears from the sounds of the neighborhood leaf blowers and trash trucks––disturbing our quite reading time.
If only I could bury my head every time I hear something that annoys me;
I could walk around with a pillow and protect myself from the needless distractions.

Life Lesson:

When the sun is shining bright there’s only one thing to do:
Go to the pool!
Finding a balance between work and play can be difficult;
But with twenty-four hours in a day––it’s not impossible to set aside two hours for a relaxing recharge.
It will help inspire creativity, and perhaps motivate you to start attacking your goals from a new point of view.

Letting Go; Again.

I woke up agitated and the simplest mis-exchange of information set me off in a cranky mood;
No way to start a day off––but how to get back on track?
Trying to navigate through life’s ups and downs can be daunting; on the one hand, you want to be able to feel your feelings––and then sometimes you just have to get over them and move on.
My grandpa used to say, “If you want to be a happy, be happy.”
This didn’t make sense as a child, but now I understand––I have a choice, and I can use it to sit in misery reliving the negative moment, or I can release the energy and smile.
Life is short, I’m ready to take a breath and let this one go.

Stress

When stress prevails;

Creativity fails.

The power of release comes in the form of a deep breath, positive energy—and action! 

Memorial Day

When you’re gathered around the pool with friends and family;
Grilling up deliciously seasoned meats and diving into bowls full of French onion dip, it’s easy to forget why we celebrate this day.
So before I overload on potato chips and Red White and Blue themed alcoholic beverages, I’m going to offer up a moment of silence––to honor all of the men and women who continue to sacrifice their safety to ensure the protection and freedom for our beautiful country.
As an artists––I try my best––never to take for granted my right to express my thoughts and actions; and it’s because of the heroes who serve in our countries armed forces that we have these liberties.
So today, I’m raising a glass to those brave warriors.
#HappyMemorialDay

Serving Up a Sunday Slice of the American Dream

In a bus headed back to my house, we passed an IHOP full of happy people stuffing their faces with overly sweet corporate  pancakes—the American Dream is alive; and full of diabetes.

I love gathering for Sunday brunch with friends.

Most of my weekends are spent working long hours for mediocre pay—the American Dream is alive; and full of stress. 

 

Six Word Essay on Las Vegas

Drunk people everywhere; it's too hot! 

LapTime

Some people sit at Starbucks on their laptops;

I sit at Starbucks with my lap-dogs!

I might not be getting much work done—but my quality of life is better.

Family Ties

I live two thousand miles away from my family, so I'm always grateful when someone in my tribe comes to visit me; even if they arrive on a Harley Davidson!

My dad—a born and breed mountain man—and his wife are on a cross-country ride with another couple, who are equally adventurous and fearless. 

We shared a wonderful two-day adventure, sight-seeing, laughing, eating (too much), and discussing politics and religion.

I was encouraged when my dad and his Rabbi friend, who share opposing views from me, we're inspired to engaged in a Spirit-ed conversation.

Proving that no matter what your Faith or political affiliation is, when you sit across from a fellow human (who also happens to be family) and converse from your heart—with love and compassion, there is room for mutual acceptance, respect, and a new perspective.

I love my dad, whether he agrees with my beliefs or not, he believes in me—and loves me unconditionally; as I do him.

It was another bonding experience that makes me feel blessed.

Think Less; Sleep More

Falling into old patterns;
Late nights, over-thinking––trying to achieve more.
Sometimes less is more, in this case I realize that I am in desperate need of a solid nights sleep; yet here I sit, typing on my computer.
My comfy bed calls to me, but my mind is active and demanding.
Finding balance has been a major theme in my life––and this year in particular, I’ve made it a priority.
So why my obsessive drive to do more?
I’m on my fourth self-help book in a row, and I continue to crave more;
When will it be enough?
There’s no time like the present to let go of this unhealthy habit, and create a new one––get more sleep and become even more productive.

Sleep Deprived

I slept in thinking that I would feel rested and fresh;
Instead, I have a headache, my face looks like I was hit by a semi-truck, and I missed my morning yoga class––so I feel soft and lazy.
Sometimes you just can't win;
In those moments, it’s important to stay positive:
I’m positive I need to go to Starbucks and recharge.

Good News?

I’m sitting at the airport;
CNN news channel is on in the gate area––and I’m instantly sucked in.
It’s impossible not to laugh at the sensationalism of their news; which is equally as ridiculous as their Fox News counterparts.
The “news” is now just a storyline on a reality-based soap opera.

Early Morning Pep Talk

The wake-up alarm is my reset;
It’s a new day––even if I’ve only slept for four hours, and it’s time to rise and shine.
If I embrace this moment with Faith and positive energy, I will have a greater chance for success.
So no matter how groggy I am, I have to rally and rock the day.
Life is short;
Be here now––and make the most of every breath.

Six Word Essay on Hotel Rooms

I allow myself to be messy.

Breathe, You Are Blessed.

My emotional happiness is in direct relation to my outlook;
As I sit at the airport waiting to board another flight––I fight the urge to rage.
One deep breath in and a release with a smile; which catches the attention of an older woman walking toward the gate––she smiles back.
Positive energy is contagious, I know this, and yet I forget to trust my instinct to be grateful.
Every day is a new opportunity to be a more evolved version of myself.
People always say, “enjoy the journey”, but very few people understand how to proceed.
After too many self-help books, I’m beginning to accept that every single day will be a challenge, the goal for me: how to stay present.
Sometimes it’s in a deep breath, sometimes it’s in an unconscious blog post, and sometimes it’s with alcohol.
I’m okay with that.
Today, I found peace in the fact that I have a career which allows me to follow the dreams that I’ve had since I was a young child; if that means dealing with TSA, annoying passengers, crabby flight attendants, and flying to glamorous locations like Charlotte, North Carolina––well I consider myself blessed.

Awareness

In past years I've struggled to maintain my goals by mid-May.

The year always starts off strong, and unlike many—I usually manage to stay on track well into the year; but once May comes, I start to fall back into old habits.

Thankfully, one of my biggest goals this year was to remain in the present.

In setting such an ambitious goal, it occurred to me that I would be forced to think outside the box on how to go about achieving awareness on a moment to moment basis. 

This realization manifested into series of books about enlightenment, awareness, and productivity.

Today, while lying by the pool, I looked up into the vibrant blue sky and felt an inner peace and happiness that wasn't connected to a job accomplishment or financial gain—it was a gratitude for the beauty of this moment.

My head was clear, calm, grateful.

Awareness is possibly every day; it requires silencing the noise of ego—and accepting this moment for what it brings.

Grey LA

Headed into our fourth day of grey in LA––in May!
Even rhyming it sounds gloomy.
It feels more like winter in London, or every day in Seattle.
But the overcast skies can be a positive reminder;
Despite the trademark golden rays of Southern California––the birds are still chirping and protein shakes are still being consumed for that perfect LA body.
Sometimes life gives us dark days––but you can always find the light; even if it’s only on a movie set.

Starbucks and Human Connection

Starbucks is my second home.

In a world consumed with technology, it's a place to gather and connect with people young and old.

Sharing ideas, discovering a new point of view, and making direct eye contact.

We're so used to communicating through a screen;

It's comforting to share caffeine and a laugh with someone you'd never meet on Facebook.

Human connectivity at a coffee shop, just like our great-grandparents! 

Six Word Essay on Letting Go

Smiling is easy when you release.

Creativity on Pause.

Watching Game of Thrones while trying to rouse creativity on the computer is like balancing a checkbook at Disneyland: no matter how hard you try to do the math––the sentences just don’t add up.

Cheap Saturday Poem

No work on a Saturday;
A very rare treat––
I’ll go to the movies with a friend and then off to eat!
A cheap rhyming pome is all I can do,
I’m in a hurry and still need to––what rhymes with ‘do’?

Letting Go

It’s hard to release things or ideas that we believe we need;
For whatever reason we decide that it’s important to hold onto a thought or object in order to feel complete––even if it no longer serves us.
Life is a continuous cycle of learning and letting go.
We’re either evolving, or not; either way there’s no stopping the inevitable––wouldn’t you rather enjoy each day?

Couch Movie

Cuddled up with my puppies on the couch;

HBO is satisfying my action-packed-blockbuster movie experience.

The salty bruschetta and lavalicious chocolate cake are the cherries!

Now I just need ice cream...

Rest

I slept in today.

Sometimes your body just needs to heal.

I push myself past my threshold physically, creatively, and emotionally—so it's nice to give myself a lazy morning.

But now it's time to wake up!

And I will, in fifteen more minutes.

Dinner With Friends

When preparing a birthday dinner for yourself;
Remember:
Inviting friends to a restaurant is so much easier.
Still, it is nice to share my grandma’s spaghetti and meatballs with my inner circle.
In honor of Gram’s birthday––I went all out.
Tomorrow, I’m going to sleep all day.

Zen Thoughts: Cars

When the check engine light in my Jeep goes off,
I get a little overheated;
That flashing orange hazard light signals a reaction in myself.
Usually associated with money.
On the flip side, how lucky are we to have indicator lights in our cars––usually alerting us to a situation before it worsens.
Too bad humans don’t have “check engine” lights;
Or do we?
#ZenThoughts

You Are Here Now; Again

I started to over plan for my day tomorrow;
Until I remembered that it was today.
I quickly dropped my pen and took a breath.
The moment I become aware of my present––I allow the opportunity for a greater experience than anything I could plan;
I make space for life to happen, as it is supposed to: in the NOW.

Outlook

Your outlook on life is everything.

Some people see rain;

Theater nerds see, "Singing In The Rain".

Koi Zen

Yesterday I walked through a beautiful Zen garden;
I gazed into a Koi pond and watched as the fish gathered near the bridge that I was standing on, no doubt waiting for food.
I was fixated on their total presence––I watched as they breathed in and out while popping up to the surface with their mouths open.
My arrival must have appeared as a shadow God who distributes nourishment;
Sadly for them, I came empty handed.
But there they wait, and eventually the substance will come.

Positive Social Media

Social Media has an incredible impact;
Yesterday I received an outpouring of positive energy and birthday wishes–proof that technology can deliver more than just another Tweet about Kim Kardashian.
The inspiration and love was overwhelming.
Today, I’m another day older and twice as grateful for the friendships I’ve nurtured during my thirty-ahem years on this earth.

It's My Party...

And I’ll enjoy a full day of nonstop eating and drinking (in-between riding the rides at Disneyland) and NOT feel bad about skipping yoga... If I want to!
#BirthdayGuiltFree

Wipe It Away...

I woke up feeling pumped;
Ready to greet the day with positive energy.
I looked around my room and saw dust and dirt everywhere, my house is under construction and it looks like a tornado struck.
I started to get angry and then I remembered how blessed I was:
A. That my house was not actually hit by a tornado.
B. That we have the resources to renovate our bathrooms.
Finally, C. That I can either get up and clean the grim away, or stay in bed anxious and overwhelmed.
Sometimes the choice to be happy is as simple as wiping away the debris.

Work In Progress

Five months into 2016;
I continue to concentrate on the goals I’ve set for myself.
I’m two days away from my thirty-eighth birthday and I feel blessed.
Every day I seek new opportunities to grow as a person:
Mentally, physically, emotionally, creatively, and spiritually.
In my twenties I spent too much time worrying about how my dreams were going to “happen”.
In my thirties I made a conscious choice not to be consumed with the fear and doubt, instead I would focus on the creativity.
As I approach forty, I am seeking a deeper understanding of the present.
Which probably means I should stop thinking about who I want to be when I’m forty; and appreciate that for two more days, I’m still thirty-seven!
Life is a constant work in progress, the goal is to evolve into a brighter version of myself everyday.

Pure Love

The overstuffed room was bursting with love in honor of my grandparents sixtieth wedding anniversary.
Surrounded by lifelong friends and family; we shared in delicious food, laughter, and dancing.
It was overwhelming to hear the stories, and watch my grandma and grandpa react to the memories.
Some could hardly contain their tears of gratitude.
Others sparked an explosion of joy with their recollection of a wild adventure, never before shared.
I scanned the room and witnessed pure love.
My grandparents have blessed me with unconditional love, support, and guidance; whether on family vacations or working for the family business––my grandparents never missed an opportunity to inspire a teachable lesson.
Faith, integrity, loyalty, positivity, and fearlessness have been instilled in my life in great part because of my grandparents.
The most meaningful lesson I learned from my grandparents, is something they continue to live by today: family and friends first.
I’m honored to have such magnificent role models.
Thank you Grandma and Grandpa Smith.
Congratulations on sixty years of love.

60 Years!

My grandparents celebrate their 60th Wedding Anniversary today.

I'm in awe of their love, light, laughter and  ability to work through sixty years of life's highs and lows.

They continue to inspire me to strive for excellence in every aspect of my life;

Seek new opportunities, build solid relationships, and shine bright.

Faith vs. Frustration

When you have expectations you’re bound to be disappointed;
When you have Faith––you know you will succeed regardless of the circumstances.

Flying to Family

I am a professional traveler;

Lounging in gate areas is my speciality.

Conducting business, meditating, and of course people watching—it's the perfect slice of life.

Today I'm traveling to visit my family.

It's nice to be in an airport when it's not work related;

I actually feel like a normal person on my way to a fun vacation.

I'm expecting a drama free trip.

#PositiveAffirmations while visiting family!

Not Overachieving

Sometimes all I need is a nap by the pool to remember how blessed I am.

I'm simultaneously working on my tan, meditating, and enjoying nature.

#Balance

Chill Out

Overwhelming doubt;
Just chill, it always works out.
Live in the present.

Note to Self:

My ego has an agenda that is in vast conflict with my soul;
The voice in my head has a plan that is in direct opposition with my heart.
Silence the distractions and trust the faith;
Be present and the path will appear.

Sunrise

Few things bring me as much joy as waking up to a beautiful sunrise.

The vibrant colors of blue in the sky;

A happy reminder of how textured life can be.

See The Light.

The curtains are closed;

The sun penetrates my room.

Light conquers darkness!

Life vs. TSA Line

Both require a deep breath.

You might not want to deal with the wait;

But the destination is usually worth it.

Remember

If you’re looking for a reason to be upset––you’ll find one.
If you want to spend the day in a bad mood, that is a choice.
With less energy than it takes to be negative; you can take a deep breath, release that moment, and smile.
We always have the choice; why let five minutes of frustration evolve into a full day of negativity?

Smile

A smile is contagious;
Spread happiness today!

Change Is Happening; Always.

When I was in preschool our class sprouted bean plants;
We set a dry bean on a wet paper towel and carefully placed it in a ziplock bag.
Over the course of a week we watched the progress of the bean.
The first night I could hardly sleep;
I was anxious to return to the classroom to see my new bean plant.
Alas, I arrived the following morning to the same light brown bean––no change.
The second day I had a similar reaction.
By day three, I believed I could see the side of my bean splitting; still not the result I was expecting.
Every day I carefully monitored the bean––and was in agony over how long the process was taking.
By the end of the week, I was on my way to school and I had given up hope of seeing a dramatic difference in the bean.
To my surprise (and satisfaction) the bean was completely transformed overnight!
There was long light green sprout which curled back on itself, and several little roots.
The bean experiment is the perfect reminder for life:
Change is happening constantly.
As an adult I realize that bean didn’t sprout over night.
Every second there was change.  The beans exterior was softening.  The embryo was forming. However it would not have been able to penetrate the beans surface if the outer shell of the bean was not ready.
It sometimes feels otherwise; but my life is constantly evolving.
The energy I spend writing, reading, meditating, exercising, working, and creating are helping me transform.
I cannot expect to see results over night;
but if I’m patient, I will experience a lifetime of joy.

Life Lessons at an Airport

Waiting at the gate to board a flight is a wonderful metaphor for life:
Some people line up early,
Others wait patiently until it’s their turn,
And then there are those who sit and wait to board until the last minute;
Either way––everyone will end up at the same place.

Release the Need to Over-Achieve

It’s easy to become overwhelmed with all of the things that you want to happen in your life.
The pressure, whether self-inflicted or realized based on a comparison, to accomplish greatness is real;
So is the struggle to release it.
While establishing a strong foundation for success is important; no amount of planning, goal-setting, or hard work can force a hand.
I’ve witnessed that opportunities present themselves in time––whether we think we’re ready or not.
We can either take a leap of Faith or not.
Ultimately it’s not about the accomplishment or victory; it’s the journey of self-discovery along the way.
My life goal: Enjoy my life.
No amount of fame, success, wealth, or accolades will bring us closer to happiness or enlightenment.
Regardless, presence and awareness will bring us peace of mind wherever we go.

Go Into Your Zen

When the mind is overwhelmed there’s only one thing to do:
Close your eyes;
Take a deep breath;
And go into your Zen.
Meditation is the key to finding peace of mind.
Refocusing on the present;
Releasing the past;
Remembering the future will resolve itself later.

The View Is Clear

I'm currently on an airplane flying somewhere over the boarder of California and Nevada;

From up here the view is clear, calm, peaceful. 

All of the fears, doubts, and stress floats away;

I'm reminded that distance provides perspective.

Life is beautiful. 

Surrender

When you cannot change a circumstance,
You can always surrender to it.
Sometimes it makes more sense to release the need to control;
And completely let go.
Similar to that moment you’re on a roller coaster and you’re near the peak––the panic builds and you question, “Why did I get on this ride?”
All you can do is raise your hands, close your eyes, and scream like hell!
Once you surrender––the fear dissipates and the journey is once again fun.

Remember:

In the midst of chaos, turn on the light;
Generally a switch is located near the entrance to fear (right next to the part of your brain that does the overthinking.)

Shine On.

In the darkness of a power outage;
A flash light is your friend.
Likewise, when you’re overwhelmed by negative energy;
A positive thought will brighten the situation.
Fear, anger, insecurity––they feed in the shadows of our thoughts.
Remain present.  Breathe in light and there will be no room for shady business.

Flip The Switch

Fear is a defense mechanism, which stops you from pursuing your purpose.
Flip the switch from fear to fearless;
Exposing the endless possibilities that your future holds.

Same Path

You can walk along a wooded path in darkness feeling fear and loneliness;
That very same path in the light of day can bring joy and a sense of adventure.
The path is full of colorful flowers and deeply rooted trees in darkness or light;
The only difference is our outlook.
In the darkness we fear the worst, in the daylight we see the journey for what it really is.
This is life.

Inner Body Peace

How we feel on the inside;
Is directly associated with how we present ourselves on the outside.
Seeking enlightenment requires uniting the mind, body, and soul.

Uncomplicated Zen

The path to enlightenment begins with a deep breath and ends with an exhale.

Wizard of OZ Moment

The moment I release doubt;
Success guaranteed.
No amount of stress, insecurity or fear can outshine Faith.
The power of choice is always within my reach.

Remember:

When you turn your focus to positive action––you are more empowered and find joy; regardless of the outcome.

I Am

I Am here.
Present; without fear of the unknown.
Awake; without regret of the unchangeable past.
Aware of the endless possibilities that this moment offers.
I Am ready.

Airport Gratitude

For nearly twenty years I've called airports across the globe, my second home;

I'm so grateful for the relationships that I've cultivated on my adventures.

Regardless of distance or the time past between visits—I always find comfort in my friends.

After years of artistic growth, the have blossomed into my family.

I'm blessed to have them on my journey!

Rise and Shine

A new day;
Opportunity awaits.
Waking up to endless possibility.
Just because you’re up and out of bed, doesn’t mean you’re awake.
Rise to the occasion by releasing yesterday and finding a new purpose today.
Present, aware and ready to shine.
Today is the only moment that matters.

Find the Light.

In the midst of darkness;
Finding light can be challenging.
Close your eyes tight and take a deep breath,
As you release the air, slowly open your eyes and you will see light everywhere.
Repeat as often as it takes to find your way back to enlightenment.

Ready for Adventure

When you live in the present;

Everything is an adventure.

Mindful of the fact that time is measured in our ability to stay aware. 

Without judgment, fear, doubt, stress, or anxiety—anything could happen!

Take A Moment...

Trust means allowing yourself a day to be goofy.
I’m exploring my boundaries with balance;
Everything that needs to get done––
Will be accomplished in time.
Or it won’t be.
I’m okay with that... At least in this moment.
#Present

Quality vs. Quantity

I’m an overachiever;
Always trying to squeeze more productivity out of every moment.
Thankfully, over the years I’ve learned that it’s not always about the quantity––but the quality in which I spend my energy.
Sometimes giving one-hundred percent means stepping back from the situation and allowing the momentum build.
Trust that work is happening, even in the downtime.

Now Is Always Here

As an artists, I’m always searching for inspiration––which inevitably leads to an endless loop of reliving memories, revisiting ideas and thinking about how to anticipate what’s next.
I’m constantly resisting the urge to overanalyze. Like getting stuck in an all-night Google search session; you started out the journey looking for one answer, and somehow you’ve ended up reading about the success of your teenage crush.
Tapped in the past, or lost in the future––neither will help me in the present.
Creating meaningful work requires staying connected to what’s happening now; that awareness is the key to evolution.

Life Journey

The most challenging journey that I’ll ever experience, is ongoing;
Life––the ability to stay on course.
One step at a time maneuvering through hopes, dreams, goals, fears, setbacks, accomplishments and processing loss;
It’s not about reaching the destination on this adventure.
It’s about seeking joy, becoming enlightened and evolving as a person.

Easter Light

I went to Easter Vigil mass last night;
The congregation gathered outside the church––holding un-light candles.
The priest read a passage from the bible and then explained the significance of the candle light; he lit the blessed candle, and then the parishioners each lit their candle from the light of the first. Turning and sharing the light that they had received.
We walked into the pitch black church.
I reached an unoccupied pew and stood alone in the darkness.
I felt sadness––I missed my family, friends and Jeff.
Easter used to be full of color, light, family gatherings and joy.
Tears came to my eyes; all of the sudden the watery glaze illuminated the candle I was holding––I followed the glow around the church.  It was beautiful.
The flicker of light finally lead me back to the cross.  I looked up and realized,
I am not alone––I never have been and never will be, so long as I believe in Gods word.
In that moment I felt calm, grateful, supported, and blessed.
My focus for the past three months has been centered on light: seeking light, living in light, shining my light––how appropriate that I decided to attend an Easter Vigil.
I needed to be reminded that Easter is more than past memories, chocolate bunnies, family gatherings and expensive brunches––it’s a time to reflect on the sacrifice that was made so that we could seek the light.

Now or Nothing

The little voice in my head gets louder when I slip away from the present.
Demands and expectations are catapulted from unconscious fears and I lose grip of my awareness;
Nothing brilliant is born from doubt or stress.
How do I confront the inner bully?
I don’t.
I release the noise and refocus on living in this moment.
I can torture myself––agonizing over circumstances that cannot be controlled;
Or I can make the choice to let go.
Nothing is lost when you make the choice to return to NOW.
The past can’t be extinguished any more than the future can be decided;
All we have is the breath in this moment––and nothing else.

Calm

The anxious mind seeks answers;
The peaceful mind seeks stillness.

Remember:

When you breathe and release;
You are at peace.

You Are Here

Mall directories offer the best advice for life:
In the chaos of the Starbucks, Bloomingdale’s, Apple Store, See’s Candy, Foot Locker, Wilson’s Leather, The Gap and Bath and Body Works––there is a giant arrow that points to a location and says: “You Are Here”.
Our lives become so overcomplicated with flashy signs, material desires, social media, and the voices in our head demanding us to relive the past and stress about the future, that we forget about the only thing that matters; the present.
If only we could remember that mall directory when we become overwhelmed;
You are here, now.

Success

I think it’s safe to say that everyone has their version of success;
Some use jobs, connections, accomplishments and social status to determine if they’ve become successful.
Others seek fame and fortune to define their standing;
Then there are those who believe success is found doing what they love.
I used to be one of those people––until I realized that I find more happiness, gratitude and energy finding success in awareness; being awake in the moment and appreciative of the joy that comes from whatever I’m doing in the present.
In doing so, I’m free from any burden of society’s expectations or judgments.
A simple switch in the outlook of success, can offer a lifetime of stress free, fearless blessings.

Joy

Joy is in the simple tasks;
Hidden behind the stress or doubt––a beam of light escapes, forcing you to acknowledge that even the darkest corners of your mind seek positive energy.

Two Words; No Problem

Problems are dealt with out of fear;
Situations are solved through awareness and action.
Simply by changing the way we look at (and label) the same circumstance––we can shift focus, remain positive, and proceed with faith.
Life is either beautiful or devastating, depending on you outlook.

#Positivity

Waking up to fresh opportunities;
The only thing more intoxicating than the aroma of coffee at 5AM,
Is the fragrance of life––and the exciting adventure that awaits today.
#Positivity

The Power Is In Your Hands

The ability to release the guilt from yesterday,
and resist the anxiety of tomorrow––allows us to be more productive today.
The past is gone. The future will never be here;
All we have is the present.
Nothing from the past or future can come in contact with the present;
Unless you enable it to enter your mind.

The Light in You

When the negative energy is overwhelming;
The mind becomes concentrated on giving into the doubt.
When you are surrounded by darkness externally;
Close your eyes and find the light inside––it will always be there.
We have the tools to triumph in even the darkest storms.

Release and Be Happy

When you're holding on to anger;

You're losing the opportunity for happiness.

Breathe In The Climb

Living in the present requires relinquishing control;
For someone who identifies with type-A personality traits, this is similar to a mental expedition up Mount Everest.
Without the proper tools, the trek will be impossible.
Even after doing the research, training and preparation––there is no guarantee that I will reach the top.
That is the beauty of an endeavor so massive;
The fulfillment is not found looking down from above––instead the gratitude is inhaled one breath at a time.
The past is gone, the future is never here––the present is all we have time for.

Ego

My ego tells me I have to accomplish more;
My soul reminds me that my ego is a bully.
The ego fears death;
The soul embraces life.
Live in the NOW!

The Power of Now

The ability to acknowledge this moment:
Accept it without judgement;
Release it without thinking;
Stay present without doubt.

Dive Into Pain––Find Joy.

Some people think that an artist has to live a tortured life in order to create a true masterpiece.
I believe the beauty of a brilliant work of art is not discovered in the pain, but rather through the acceptance of who we are; flawed, insecure, filled with doubt.
Compelled to uncover a deeper sense of joy, artists dive forward into the pain in order to experience the joy that radiates from the awareness––stripped from everything we are all the same: humans in search of inner peace.

Pain To Present

What feels like a deep wound is little more than a scratch.

Once the cut has been cleaned and examined you can distinguish between reacting to a fear based on past experience, and the truth of the moment; the pain is a memory of the past.

As soon as we shift our mind to the present, the pain is released, Now the healing begins.

The Joy of Release

The intoxicating sense of gratitude;
Surrendering to the simple fact: We are in control of absolutely nothing.
The release of expectation––gives way to the joy of abundance.
Walking through the darkest trails only enables us to appreciate the light of a new direction.

The Past Is Gone––Find Your Present!

The most difficult obstacle on the path to enlightenment is accepting that every day brings a new challenge;
How we react to circumstance is directly connected to how we achieve inner peace.
Everything can be resolved with a deep breath––it’s not always the easy choice, but it is certainly the most effective way to release the past and step into the present.

Mind Your Creativity

When my mind is still;
My sense of play is activated––I am free to be creative.
Without fear, my imagination kicks in and I’m off on a new adventure.
The static of life can cause insanity;
Over analyzing a situation beyond thoughtfulness and into the realm of negativity––darkness.
Only in the light can we clearly see the beauty of our inspiration.

Open Here

God provides doors to rooms you didn't even realize existed—until you've discovered that you're ready to enter.

Remember

Inner Peace begins with release;

There can be no enlightenment without letting go. 

Gratitude.

When I feel like complaining I remind myself:
I’m alive, I’m healthy, and I get to follow my passion.
Nothing else matters.

You Are Here.

Release yesterday, it cannot be changed;
Loosen the control of tomorrow, it cannot be tamed;
Breathe in today, it is all we have for certain.
Stand in the beauty of this moment and embrace the unlimited potential that exists, NOW.

Follow Light.

The lighthouse stands tall and bright in the pitch-black horizon.
In total darkness, it is impossible to miss the light.
Whether we seek it or not is our choice;
Follow the light to a safe harbor––or ignore it, and collide with the inevitable.
There are warnings throughout our life, but only those who welcome the light will find a happy landing.

Challenge, Accepted!

Where some people see problems––I see a challenge;
A new adventure that will push me to activate my mind, body and soul.
Stirring creativity and intellect to achieve a new level of awareness and, and continue my evolution as a creator.

When In Doubt...

If you’ve ever experienced a moment that falls into place perfectly once you let go of the fear––you'd want to tap into that ability every time there’s an issue, right?
But human nature will more often than not, have us turn our concern or doubt into fear; if we obsess and panic, it will motivate us?
I used to think if I wasn’t stressing out about something––I probably didn’t care enough.
Thankfully, I’ve learned that the more I care, the more I should release the doubt and Faith it out.
Trust that I have done the work and will know what to do when the time comes; remember that there is a higher power working to guide me where I’m meant to be, and release everything else.

Faith

The ability to trust what cannot be seen;
To thrive on the energy that can only be felt;
To create from the wisdom that is handed down from experienced practitioners;
The light that radiates from a source that is greater than us:
Reminding us to live!

Free Will

We all have a choice;
The question is will we use it to evolve?
Once I decided to change my outlook, a library full of new opportunities opens up.
Renew your library card, and start reading!

Trust

Questioning, encourages growth;
Doubting, invites fear;
But neither can replace trusting.

Practice Makes Stronger

Tools are only useful if you’re willing to do the work;
Developing the skills daily––like a carpenter refining their craftsmanship,
I continue to seek enlightenment and awareness.
Through Faith and fearlessness;
I will continue to evolve.

Spotlight

The creatures who fear light remain in the depths of the ocean for a reason;
It requires overwhelming effort to ascend from the darkness.
Hiding in the shadows is easy––stepping into the spotlight is terrifying;
Once you feel the power of light, your journey will find new purpose.

Note To Self: Letting Go

Some days just start off on the wrong note––no matter how hard I try to find the pitch, the music is flat.
In those moments I used to freak out, rage and live in negativity;
Thankfully, yesterday I was able to exhale anger and breathe in awareness.
The day didn’t get any less complicated, but as my outlook shifted, I was able to laugh through the setbacks.
Life can be overwhelming if I allow external circumstances to dictate my emotions;
But the power to take control, remain calm, focused and present in the moment is always the option that will lead to a more productive day.
It will keep me healthier, too.

Happiness Party of One

Everything in life worth having,
Comes with an extremely high price tag: hard work.
If we don’t invest effort in improving our inner well-being;
Connect to a higher power,
And release the idea that happiness should be “easy”;
No amount of success, fortune or fame will fill the void.
No procession, person or social status will radiate the joy that is produced through personal awareness of the present.
Happiness only takes you.

Do The Work; Every Day.

When everything is going your way––the real work begins.
I’ve heard a similar sentiment before, and I thought I knew what it meant;
After reading “The Tools” by Phil Stutz and Barry Michels, the idea has a new meaning.
Most of us are striving to achieve the goals and dreams that have consumed us since we were children––those thoughts that would inspire us to fight through the pains of adolescents.
We had a target to focus on, and spend our life working toward achieving those benchmarks.
Harnessing our passion, and through hard work, dedication, and focus we begin to reach these achievements––in doing so we think our life is going to be easy from there on.
Then we realize that each new victory reveals a more difficult challenge;
No amount of success, riches or fame can “fix us”, like we imagined it would when we were kids.
But as adults we have the power to seek repair from the inside out;
Focusing on self-improvement, becoming aware and releasing the fantasy that money, possessions, success and fame are the answer to all of life's problems.

Grateful

I used to think that if I didn't feel pressure, overworked, overwhelmed or constantly searching for a way to stay creative, I wouldn't achieve my goals;
The constant chaos felt like I was actively building on my career.
Obviously there are so many paths towards a victory––and while I did follow my dreams and accomplish so many of my goals, I wasn't always present.  I didn't always feel satisfied with the outcome; worse, I almost never enjoyed the moment as it was happening.
I'd look back with a sadness––if only I would have enjoyed that process (I'd think to myself).
I woke up and decided that I no longer wanted to live with those feelings.
Rather than focusing on the past, I decided to concentrate on the present.
This requires letting go of the things I cannot change, and accepting that, no matter how hard I try, I can't predict the future.
I have to be present, now.
Every time I start to feel like I'm not doing enough, I close my eyes, take a deep breath and focus on this moment.
Awareness has been my way to a new adventure; my only goal is to enjoy the moment for whatever it brings.  The old me would have been terrified that I wasn't trying hard enough––the new me is ready to be grateful for whatever the day has to offer.

I Am Here.

The moment you let go of the past;
Is the instant you embrace the present.
The second you start worrying about the future;
Is the point when you release control of today.
Be here, NOW.

Through Darkness Seek Light

Grey clouds roll in covering the perfect LA facade;
The rain is a sign of renewal,
And a reminder that in a storm, I seek the light of the sun.
The rays are still there hiding behind the darkness;
I search for a sliver of light––if I look close enough, I see a silver lining.

Be Here Now.

Knowing that I am one with the universe,
Trusting that God has a plan for everyone,
Believing in something even if those around me don’t,
Grateful for every journey, adventure and lesson;
Faith when all else fails––trusting that my path will always be clear.
Aware of how short life is,
I live in this moment, and that is all that I have.

Dark Clouds Block Light

Above every dark cloud remains the brilliant shine of the sun’s rays.
Seek the silver lining in the cracks, and follow that sliver of light to the positive place––where creativity, productivity, and Faith remain.
The warmth and power that accompany light are worth searching for.

Express Yourself

Express yourself.
It’s more than just a song by Madonna;
It is our greatest tool to shine.
When our hidden shadow and our conscious-self collaborate to manifest an authentic experience––we become aware, and therefore create the most enlightened version of ourself.

Me and My Shadow: The Collaboration

I’m working on joining forces with my alter ego;
The short, fat kid with acne who still lives inside of me––making occasional appearances in moments of pressure, fear, or uncomfortable circumstances.
In honor of Valentine’s Day, I’m going to give my little butterball the love and attention he needs.
Rather than trying to hide that version of myself (or worse, pretend he never existed), I’m going to listen to him.  I’m going to be the “cool” best friend that he thought he never had in middle school.
His rage, insecurity, passion, and need to be heard has helped motivate my life;
Now I’m in a position to help him heal.
I’ve done the work.  I accept who I am.  I’m not afraid to expose the dark imperfections.
It’s time.

Self-Expression through our Shadow

Who hasn’t felt small, insecure, shamed?
We endure pain and humiliation as part of the universal human experience;
Which also means that we can connect through that common bond.
Once we acknowledge our shadow self, we can confront others without fear.
The language of love and understanding can be expressed in our ability to face the darkest version of ourself––and use it to express our greatest (and most unique) voice.

The Path Is Clear

When you release the fear of the unknown;
It becomes clear to see the road in front of you.
One step, in any direction, will lead you to the next step.
We’ll face challenges and setbacks no matter which path we choose;
Deal with those roadblocks when they happen––until then, enjoy the journey for what it brings today.

Insecurity

The moment we decide to take authority over the destructive demon––the outdated version of us, which is thriving in the darkest corner of our memory; you will begin to soar.
We all have an idea of how the world perceives us;
Until we’re able to detach from that image and shine who we really are, we are doomed to a life without realizing our greatest potential.
Self-expression is what makes us unique:
Beautifully flawed,
Vulnerable and still strong,
Creative without judgment.
Insecurity will not serve us, it will stop us from becoming who we were born to be.

Trust

The journey to self-discovery begins within;

Consuming information and expanding ideas through reading and writing—eventually you just have to trust.

Trust that you have invested wisely and will respond accordingly to every circumstance, or that you have the Faith to trust in a higher power.

Enlightenment comes through awareness and faith.

Grandpa Knew Best

My grandpa used to tell me that I worried, too much.
I would sit at the table while my grandma and grandpa read the morning paper, and my mind would be lost in thought;
Grandpa would ask, “What’s wrong Matt?”
I would shake my head and say, “nothing.”
He would laugh, and then remind me, “Life is short––don’t worry so much. Whatever you’re thinking about, if you want to do it––do it; if you don’t want to do it––don’t do it.”
It was simple, albeit lost on me at the time.
But grandpa was right, and it works this way, too:
If you want to be angry––be angry; if you don’t want to be angry––don’t be angry.
There’s no point in allowing someone or something to effect your life.
Release and move on.
The past is gone, why live there in your mind?

Courage

In order to live a full life––I have to release the ideas and expectations I perceive from society;
Self-inflicted thoughts bully me into unproductive patterns.
Staying aware, present in the moment and open to the opportunity that exist today; not waiting for a bigger, better, brighter experience tomorrow.
Every adventure starts NOW and leads to a journey that is more magnificent than any plan or dream.

Take The Step

The first step can be overwhelming;
Anticipation, fear of the unknown, and doubt make it hard to lift your leg.
With a deep breath you find the strength to lift your leg––soon you’re walking one foot in front of the other.
Soon you’re in a full stride with grace and confidence;
Pushing yourself toward new opportunities.
With action comes adventure!

No Pain, No Gain

The deeper we dive into the pain;
The closer we are to finding a way to move past it and heal.
Avoiding uncomfortable conversations, activities and events prolongs the experience.
Facing circumstances head-on forces us to work through the discomfort and evolve.
The fear we endure from pain is no match for the euphoria we experience once we’ve conquered it.

Comfort Zone

Push past the Comfort Zone;
Living small, safe, and secure will not lead me to new opportunities.
Shine bright, be fearless, and adventurous.
It may cause embarrassment, pain, or insecurities to arise;
Only then can we evolve into the person we were born to be.

Faith

Freedom
Awareness
Infinite
Trust
Happiness
Once you release the idea that Faith is intangible;
You can begin utilizing it.
We can’t reach out and grab a handful of air, but that doesn’t stop us from breathing.
Those who need proof of the existence of Faith––should look for the absence of it;
There they will find hopelessness, anger, fear, darkness and doubt.
Now, look for someone who radiates light, positive energy, fearlessness––all trusting.  It is no accident that they succeed and achieve remarkable things.  It is a belief in a higher power, energy or collective consciousness.

Breaking the Habit

Breaking the ego––creating space for awareness;
Focused on breathing to release the negative ideas and actions that will not serve us.
Living in the present, ready for new opportunities, adventures and evolution.
Growth happens whenever we allow ourselves to experience the moment;
Accepting the situation––while continuing to invite new ways of thinking enthusiastically, to gain a greater peace of mind.
“A new attitude means nothing unless followed by a change in behavior.”
––”The Tools”

I Am Here.

Once I released the need to control my path;
My journey became about self-discovery in the present, instead of a premeditated excursion.
Life––awake in this moment, is reward enough.

A New Earth

Acceptance. Find the peace in what has to be done.
Enjoyment. Seek joy from within, not from an accomplishment.
Enthusiasm. Stay positive and present on the journey.
Three ideas that require letting go of ego to make space for inner peace.
Aware that this moment, the present, is the only space in which we can awake and serve––ourself and others.
Enlightenment is not the end goal––it’s an active choice.

Rise

Awake consciousness,
Take action,
Remove ego,
Embrace the Present.
We are all searching for enlightenment;
Only when we still the noise, can we hear.
Inner peace is already inside––we just have to breathe and invite it to rise.

Awake

There is beauty in releasing ego and embracing awareness;
No goal or accomplishment is greater than the inner peace that comes out of release.
The Presence of life––in this moment is all we have;
Breathe through the fear of inadequacy and awake the spirit:
Mind, body, and soul in search of light.
Just like dawn shocks the sky with gorgeous light from complete darkness––our life begins anew each day with purpose beyond who we are, or what we do.
We are more than ego, we are a connected energy.

Inner Space

Deep breath in;

Exhale all thoughts and invite light,

Surrounded by stillness and warmth.

The space in my mind is clear:

Inner peace. 

Reaction

Some people seek a reaction in order to validate their presence.
Others complain in search of being heard.
Awareness means letting go of the judgment––often a non-response says everything you need it to;
By silencing your thoughts, you gain consciousness in the present.
The inner voice can rest, free from labeling a situation good or bad:
You are at peace.

I Am

I am here in this moment;
Nothing more, nothing less––
The past is behind me and cannot be changed,
The future is in the distance and cannot be promised.
I exist in this moment: Aware, Grateful, Focused; seeking enlightenment.

For Better or Worse.

The present is here, for better or worse;
Enjoy this moment––you don’t know when it may come again,
Endure this moment––you don’t know what it’s preparing you for.
Welcoming awareness into every aspect of our life allows us to accept the circumstances for what they are, and move forward accordingly.
Invite the light and thrive, even in our darkest hour.

Be Happy

My grandpa used to say, “If you want to be happy, be happy. If you want to be upset, be upset.”
The lighthearted wisdom with which he spoke would encourage me to think rather than react in anger, which is what would happen if anyone else would try to talk me out of a bad mood.
I was never able to grasp the ability to, “be happy” as a teenager; I was too busy caught up in the need to express my disappointment.
My grandpa was the only man I’ve ever met, who was able to stay calm and smile through almost any circumstance.
Even on his deathbed he reminded me, “Don’t be sad Matt, I’m so proud of you.”
For grandpa, Faith and the power of making a choice was all he needed to accept everything that life delivered to him.
“Happy” is a choice.  It requires releasing everything that is provoking un-happy feelings––which is tough to do if you love the drama, but necessary if you want to find inner peace.

Let E-go...

Letting go of ego;
To make room for evolution.
The goal: to become a more productive, generous, faithful person for the sake of a more pleasant world.

The Time Is Now

My active mind is always questioning time;
Practically speaking, time is the primary way we function in society: meetings, planning and marking special occasions.
Time also comes in the form of past and future;
Neither of which really exists in the present: the past is gone, and the future will always be a distant marker.
It is in the release of those boundaries that we can escape the restrictions of time.
Looking back will not change the past anymore than planning ahead will bring the future closer––today is the only moment which we can truly live.
Understanding that surrender brings me a peace of mind and allows me to utilize the only time I really have: NOW.

Present

Managing to stay aware;
Trusting that nothing before or after can effect this moment.
The Faith in releasing the unknown––the confidence to accept what is now.

Who Are You?

Staring back at myself in the mirror;
On the surface I see the resemblance of myself as a teenager––minus the acne and perhaps with more wrinkles.
A deeper gaze into my own eyes reveals an evolved version of myself.
More secure, grateful and at peace.
Every day I find a stronger sense of self––something that I didn’t even realize was missing in my twenties.
The beauty of my life intensifies when I release the fear and trust that I am here for a reason; my life has a purpose, and I will continue to explore, grow and become the person I’m meant to be.

I am enLIGHTened

The moment of letting go;
A deep breath in and a giant exhale of toxic thought, fear, reaction, or energy.
Holding onto outdated ideas of who I am or what I’m meant to be, will not serve me today.
Questioning my future will not lead to a brighter tomorrow.
Understanding that the only way to a more connected, happy life is through acceptance.
Acknowledgment leads to enlightenment.

Presence

Releasing the past;

Finding strength to mute the voice in my head and become aware without judgment.

A shift in processing how I interact with others and respond to conflict.

Allowing myself to experience the moment as it is happening, to awake my true potential. 

Note To Self

Energy, positive or negative, is transferred to and from everyone we meet;

A smile makes a greater impact and invites darkness to lighten up.

Negativity

I do not have to accept negative energy from others;

Their pain is not my responsibility.

Rather, my mission is to encourage happiness—through the release of fear and the welcome of Faith.

Inviting light in, and sharing it with a smile, a listening ear and positive thought.

Unhappiness is an Addiction

Recognizing the moment of unhappiness is the first step toward taking action.
When we can acknowledge the pain, fear, insecurity, doubt or sadness and understand where the feeling is coming from, we are more likely to find happiness.
It requires learning how to stop the negative energy the moment we feel it; and in exchange invite a positive thought to combat it.
Only by inviting in the light can we extinguish the dark––but you have to accept that you can’t see before you admit you need to turn on the light switch.

Let It Go.

Letting go of the past will set me free;
Or at least give me the permission to make space for the present.
I have a tendency to overanalyze situations and events.
As I work on finding a more peaceful balance in my life, I must accept that the past is behind me; good, bad or indifferent––I cannot change the circumstance or even the outcome, but I can shift the way I react to the memory.
Memories are similar to a roadmap; guiding us back to a place in time.
Once I can look at that map as a point of reference, so as not to make the same choice (if it was a negative experience) I will have a powerful tool.
I can acknowledge the experience, release the painful scenario and approach the present with a peaceful mind and a valuable compass.
History only repeats itself––good or bad, when we allow it too.
I’d rather make history than repeat it.

Emotion

The egos reaction to circumstance;
Knowing the difference between an instinctual fear vs. overthinking.
Receiving praise or criticism alters my consciousness and triggers my body to respond, whether positive or negative, for self-preservation.
Awareness brings serenity, Faith, trust and acknowledgement.
When I release the attachment to self; I invite the truth of the situation enabling me to process the information and evolve.
Surrendering to fear, anger, resentment, sadness, jealousy––all contribute to an unhealthy body and unhappy mind.
Embracing and working through the facts allows for a positive outlook and a healthier, loving, quality of life.

Collaboration

Welcoming the opportunity to join forces in creativity, wisdom, strength and quality––to yield a more polished product.
A successful use of talent; an enlightened way to work.

The Now

The magic of now.
Failed attempts, heartaches, grievances and disappoints are behind me;
The challenge to embrace a fresh start––we get one everyday, and it’s our choice to take advantage of the new sunrise, or seek the darkness of the night before.
Happiness is not the byproduct of a fabulous victory, job or opportunity;
It is a conscious effort to find balance and a calmness from within.
Finding contentment does not mean losing the essence of who I am––anymore than it means I will no longer fight for my creative voice.
Rather, it is knowing and accepting that whatever today brings will serve me tomorrow.

Stay Focused

It’s so easy to slip back into deeply rooted ideas and habits;
They’re safe, comfortable, and familiar––they are also destructive, otherwise we would not have invested the conscious energy in resolving to try something different.
Evolution of the mind and spirit takes conscious effort and dedication.
We all have the opportunity to grow as individuals and expand our potential;
But it requires work to unlock our preset ideas and discover our true selves.

“You are most powerful, most effective, when you are completely yourself.”
––Eckhart Tolle

Happiness

My grandma always used to say, “If you have to cross the street to find happiness, you’ve gone too far.”
I’d respond with a groan and remind her that I’d heard that before––she’d smile and say, just remember it.
Now that she is gone, I think about her and that saying all of the time.
I miss her laughter, the smell of her soft skin, her unconditional love, wisdom, support and guidance.
Thankfully, I hear her voice speaking in my head often; usually reminding me that happiness is within.
As I continue to work on evolving into a more enlightened person, I seek knowledge from others who have discovered their inner light.
While reading a chapter in, A New Earth, I was reminded of my grams favorite saying, and it suddenly made sense in a whole new way.
Searching for happiness is not the answer, exploring why I might be unhappy with a circumstance is more productive, and allows me to move past the obstacle there by making room for a positive reaction.
Happiness is not something you are, it is something you work toward everyday––in releasing the doubt and accepting light.

Within Not Without

The most overwhelming obstacle in life can be taking the first step;
Focusing on action in a new direction.
We struggled as toddlers and we continue to stumble along the path toward reaching our full potential.
The idea that most of us crawled before we walked escapes our memory somewhere along the road to adulthood, and we forget that nothing worth having comes easy.
There is no short cut that leads to success––more to the point, there is no success which promises inner happiness.
No dollar amount or opportunity can provide peace in our soul;
Reaching career goals, accomplishments, material processions and wealth can contribute to an already enlightened heart, but I haven't found a magic wand that replaces the work that has to be done in order to evolve as a human.

Awareness

I live in a town full of glamor, fame and ego-driven success;
Los Angeles has a reputation (almost as famous as the movie stars who live here) for being fake.
Admittedly, there are a lot of bodies that have been enhanced, résumés that have been exaggerated and conversations that are less than honest.
Despite the negative aspects, Southern California is surrounded with art, culture, massive mountains and an impressive coastline.
The sun shines, wildlife thrives and those who seek adventure can find it anywhere in the form of almost anything from snowboarding to surfing, opera to  art openings.
So how does a location with so many extraordinary features invoke such negative attention.
Let’s be honest––everything ego-driven in LA can be said of New York City, Paris, London, Rome; yet Hollywood takes the blame.
Los Angeles (the city itself) has become an analogy for the people who comprise the city.
How does fixating on the negative aspects of a circumstance; whether it be a person, city or dream serve me?
How can I shift my perspective to help others become aware of the beauty that surrounds them––wherever they are?

Change of Plans

Letting go of plans;
Requires trust in the unknown.
How can I live a full life if I don’t make room for surprise.
The rainy day off was an ideal opportunity to visit with friends, eat a delicious lunch and catch up with a close friend.
Plus, I was actually more creative afterward and I still accomplished a few goals.
#Balance

Body Philosophy

My body is healthy and strong;
Time has not yet erased the presence of happiness and youth.
One day not far from now my body will show the scars.
Will I be able to look in the mirror with love and acceptance?
Only when I love my body completely––for what it provides and not how it looks, will I find inner-acceptance and peace.

Losing Ego

The idea of letting go of material possessions has never been that difficult for me.  Perhaps it is because I have a sister who is a borderline hoarder.
(I mean that with as much love and support possible while recognizing the truth.)
Growing up, I watched her put so much energy into the memory or an object;
Whereas I’m the opposite, I put equal weight into the idea of a goal.

As I read, A New Earth, by Eckhart Tolle, I’m discovering that I too was attaching to possessions––mine just happened to be ideas.

Generally, I’ve been the type of person who forces myself to move on:
From jobs when I feel they’ve served their purpose,
Friendships that no longer serve the wellbeing of either party,
Televisions shows that have run their course,
Fad diets that stop working,
You get the point.

The pain from loss is intense, and secretly there is a part of me that enjoys the discomfort––which is why I challenge myself to let go of previously mentioned circumstances.

Now I’m focused on how much I will hold onto an idea––even if it no longer serves me.  A powerful question (from Tolle’s book) has enticed my mind to rethink loss:

“Has who you are become diminished by the loss?”

I’ve never been afraid of dropping jobs or friendships because I’ve never felt less-than by releasing them.  Yet, I’ll hold onto an idea (even if it’s no longer important) for fear of feeling inadequate.
I’m ready to release the ego in order to make room for new opportunities.

Faith not Fear

Silence surrounded by chaos,
The moment you transcend the fear and invite the light;
Surrendering to God’s path doesn’t mean giving up,
It means working harder than ever with confidence that the energy will manifest into an unknown opportunity.
Releasing ego and replacing it with Faith.

Pain Means It's Working. Right?

That feeling you have the day after an intense workout;
I didn’t realize my body could ache in so many places.
No seriously, I didn’t even know I had a muscle there!
Like Oprah, 2016 is the year of loving my body like never before!
Not through Weigh Watchers (unlike Oprah), but with a positive outlook, hard work and major portion control.
I’m done with comparing my physical appearance to anyone else;
I’d rather discover the best version of me––inside and out!

Timing

I don’t care how cliché it is––timing is everything.
I do believe everything happens for a reason;
From the most brilliant to the down right disastrous,
I trust that everything I encounter is a piece of the puzzle that will prepare me for a larger picture.
I sat down to set goals and incorporate ideas to work towards in 2016, as I do at the start of every new beginning.
After several weeks of meditation and thought, the theme of “light” continued to nag at me.
The idea of drowning out the darkness with the pure positive energy of light continued to call, so it is––my focus will be to find the light in every circumstance.
Today, I picked up a book that I purchased back in 2008––for whatever reason I was unable to appreciate the message at the time, so it sat on my shelf, and started working on my own book.
Now, eight years later, my book has been published and I’m in a very different place in my life.
I decided to start reading Eckhart Tolle’s, “A New Earth” as part of another goal for 2016.  The once cumbersome words were now shining off the page.  It wasn’t until I got to the last sentence in the first chapter that I knew I had selected the perfect time to read this book:
“The light of consciousness its all that is necessary.  You are that light.”
Timing is everything.

Hello 2016

There is nothing more intoxicating than a blank page in a fresh new journal.
For some, especially writers, that empty space is overwhelming;
I see it as an opportunity to reinvent my story.
An empty canvas––the only expectation, to imagine the possibilities.
I’ve always been that guy who sets goals, both attainable and lofty dreams that seem impossible, which provide a brilliant challenge for me.
In my twenties I spent too much time focusing on hitting the target, and didn’t appreciate the path through the woods––with unexpected obstacles; at the time I considered them roadblocks, now I realize they were challenges that helped me fine-tune my shot.
In my early thirties I refined my approach.  I focused my energy and harnessed my efforts in order to soak in the sunlight that beams down along the trail.
Now, I’m expanding my ideas.
I’m less concerned with hitting specific career goals, and more determined to seek happiness in the daily journey.
Human nature tells me to continue wanting; no matter how out of reach the goal might be, once I’ve accomplished it––like a junkie looking for the next fix, I need more!
I’m ready to break that cycle.  Not that I believe there’s anything wrong with aspiring to achieve new heights, but I’d rather splendor in the moment rather than constantly fight to feel happiness through achievements.
I have never defined my success based on a job or dollar amount, still I fall victim to the mindset that “it” will never be enough.
“If I could just sell this book, then I’ll be happy.”
So as I face the bright empty glow of cotton card-stock, I set in motion a new plan.  I will embrace each day with light and fearlessness, and as I work to accomplish new goals––I will stay present and be thankful for the challenge each new day brings; without stress or doubt.  Every roadblock is conditioning me for the next adventure.

Goodbye 2015

When I look back on the past year I remember;
Brilliant things happen when you stop pushing and start trusting.
There is nothing more powerful than light.
I’ve spent most of my life fighting, pushing, praying, searching, dreaming;
Now, I’ve found a place of peace––I am open to the path unwinding.
I’m not afraid of the shadows,
I will conquer the darkness and hurdle the roadblocks.
My journey leads me on a new adventure: I am ready.

Find The Light

Mesmerized by the glowing ambers;
The flame dances,
Reminding me to see my passion everywhere.
Ignited and ready to blaze in the new year!

A New Day In LA

Golden slivers pierces through my window;
Enticing me to separate from the warmth of my cozy bed.
Awake the day with coffee and conversation,
Mind fresh, gratitude plentiful, and endless possibilities.

Mimosa!

Effervescent joy,
Fresh orange tang awakes my mouth;
Delightful nectar!

Christmas Coma

The day after Christmas I fight back the urge to take down all of the decoration:
Standing as a defiant reminder of a day that comes and goes;
Leaving a trail of financial ruin, selfish children, and cranky parents.
I admit, I fall victim to the joyful cheer that begins in early November––commercialism and the lure of family traditions.
I have to take it down, now!
But I know, regardless of how hard I resist, next year I will shower my home with Christmas too early, and all will be right again.

A Trip To The Mall

The line for the parking lot was a parking lot;

People with bags of returns passing people exiting the mall with armfuls of merchandise and clothing now at "blowout" bargain prices!

Store associates ready to hide,

There's no escaping the angry woman without a receipt.

Why did I come to the mall? Tradition.

I walked in with a return, 

And departed with two leather club chairs and twelve linen napkins...

Don't judge me!

Merry Christmas

I miss my family who are not near this time of year;
But I’m thankful for the man who brings me cheer.
The Christmas spirit: Sharing Faith, love, and goodwill to family and friends.
Midnight mass was a reminder to release fear and trust in God;
Beautiful music, a joyous celebration of the season.

Twas the night before Christmas and all through our condo;
Not a creature was stirring,
Because we’re all lounging on our brand new sofa!
The stockings are hung and our fireplace is glowing,
Our tree is gleaming;
And thank God it’s not snowing––it’s a fabulous perk of living in LA.

The Wait Is Over

Today marks the end of a fifteen year wait;
From my very first day working at the Pottery Barn on the Upper West Side of New York City, I knew that I would one day own a well-built piece of furniture.
The anticipation hurts almost as much as my butt from sitting on a less-than-perfect couch for too many years.
After a decade of dreaming of a designer, u-shaped sectional sofa of my very own––I will experience the comfort of luxury.
#MerryChristmas

Holiday Break

It’s a rainy LA morning.
Christmas is just around the corner, and I am in full vacation mode.
There are hundreds of activities and errands I should be doing;
I’m giving myself the rest of 2015 off!
Although I just spent the last hour deleting emails from 2006 from my server––what can I say, I love an organizational activity.
Now, time for hot coco and puppy cuddles on the couch with a Christmas movie.

Proof I'm No Longer In My Twenties

Watching Saturday's episode of SNL at 6:30 AM & then heading to yoga. 

The Calm Before Christmas

The end of the year approaches faster than department stores axe their Halloween displays and deliver us Christmas.
Longing to delight in the decadence of the festive season, I plan too many parties, dates with friends and family, and overbook my schedule;
Leaving me overwhelmed and stressed.
Every year I remind myself to enjoy the moment and appreciate each event, but I end up spending more time just trying to stay calm and get through it.
So today, I’m offering myself the chance to binge watch cheesy Christmas movies (thank you Hallmark Channel) while wrapping presents, chatting on the phone with loved ones, and yes––eating too many Christmas treats.
Tis The Season.

Christmas Is Coming

When I was young, my grandma would sing Christmas carols with me;
It was an exciting way to welcome in the holiday––full of joy, love, Faith, and family.
While I’m grateful for the blessings and life that I live now,
I get nostalgic for those simple memories.
Today I’m treating myself to a trip to the Grove (an outdoor mall) where I will thrust myself upon the holiday madness, search for gift bargains I can’t live without, and hopefully hear a carol or two around the piano at Nordstrom;
Christmas is coming, and I need a boost of jolly!

Find The Light

It’s thrilling to be awake early enough to watch the sky change from dark to light;
It’s remarkable how fast the transition is:
I glance outside to see a cold, dark winter morning,
Then a sliver of light cuts through the bare trees that line my backyard––and in a breath the sky is brilliant blue.
Another reminder that light will always overcome darkness.

Day Off

Breakfast at home,
Walk along the LA Riverwalk, Sherman Oaks,
Window shopping on Ventura Boulevard,
Barrel and Ashes––deliciousness,
DVR on the couch with the family!

Note To Self

The holiday parties are bad for my waistline!

But great for wasting time laughing, drinking, and reconnecting.

Tis The Season

Tis the season for holiday cheer;
A party every night will surely lead to a ten pound surplus of Christmas jolly.
And by “jolly” I mean fat like Santa...
Time to ho, ho, ho myself to yoga!
If I’m going to eat, drink, and be merry––I need to find the inner peace to shake like a bowl full of jelly.

Oh Shoot!

Life on set gabbing with artists;

Sex talk at the craft service table,

Poop talk between takes—

I'm not sure who is more explicit:

The crew or the talent. 

Hanukkah

Family, friends, food and wine;
Lighting candles and illuminating the reason we celebrate.
The parties and gifts are fun,
But Faith is the true gift.

Family Vacation Day 5

A day to relax and spend quality time;
Blocking the negative from my mind––I’m focused on positive energy.
I love my family.
After we’ve said goodbye, I watch them drive away.
Back to their lives, and me to mine;
I will hold onto the fun memories and erase the dark spots.

Family Vacation Day 4

Long days,

Sleepless nights,

Hungry bellies;

Pointless fights.

I love my family. Even when they hurt my feelings.

Family Vacation Day 3

Expectations lead to let-downs;

Gratitude, love and letting go inspires laughter.

Sometimes.

I love my family.

Family Vacation Day 2

Early morning wake-up call;
Five grown adults and a kid have to shower.
I’ll let them fight over who goes first––I need a Starbucks!
The drive to Disneyland will be long:
Puppies in tow.
Christmas cheer among the crowds waiting in line for a thirty second ride;
Tis the season!
I love having my family in town.

Family Vacation Day 1

Nineteen years and worth the wait;
The city I call home––where we spent our childhood, my sister returns!
Mom, sister, and niece are here.
Breakfast at our favorite childhood hole-in-the-wall,
My niece and I collect seashell at the beach.
Sand in our feet, I love watching her react to the foamy, brisk Pacific water.
Memories of laughter and love as we drive past the house from our youth.
Now cuddling on the couch with a cartoon before our journey to Disneyland.
I love when my family visits me!
Life is good.

Note To Self:

I am capable of accomplishing more in one day when I set targets;
Release the negative energy, and take action.
A full day equals a day fully lived!

Six Word Essay on my Return to LA.

Sleeping off the New York haze.

Times Square Last Night

Time Square drunk and scared;
The glowing neon leads me,
Safely on my way.

Friendship

Catching up with old friends,
We shared New York City in our twenties––our youth;
Bonded for life like family.
Like sipping an expensive bottle of champagne, I savor the evolution of our relationship.
Neither time or distance will discourage our love.

City to the Suburbs

Riding the train into Brooklyn with my friends, who swore they’d never move to Brooklyn (back when we were in our twenties), I discovered that I appreciate distance from the city life.
Interesting how age makes you appreciate space;
In life, love, friendship, and housing.

Travel Day

I'm up;

The airport is not.

No coffee,

Where's the donut guy?

Blame It On the Puppies...

If cuddling with my puppies while watching reruns of The Golden Girls was a sport––I’d be a Gold medal winner.
Their soft little bodies warm my bones better than grandmas electric blanket;
But it’s their unconditional love that provides such an enormous amount of joy which forces me to stay in bed an hour longer.

Back To The Grind

It’s always a bit of a challenge getting motivated after a week of holiday festivities;
I’m comforted by the fact that I leave for New York City in two days, however I realize I have about six days worth of work to process.
Lists, goals, and plans won’t help me know––I have to dive headfirst into the deep end.
Here goes...

Six Word Essay

Cozy on the couch with puppies.

Game Day

Tailgate in style,

With gourmet food and champagne;

Victory for all!

Cashmere Countdown

The madness begins,

People desperate for discounts;

Crazy for cashmere!

Thanksgiving

Friends gather around the table; 

Family away from home.

Gratitude and good food.

The Night Before Thanksgiving (it's a thing...)

I’m drunk on the bright glow of the moon tonight;
Abundant gratitude,
Comfort from family, friends and food.

Yoga Is Life

Yoga is the breath;
Body, soul and universe––
My life is balanced.

That's ShowBiz

A charlatan always reveals their true character eventually;

Deceit hides in a bright smile with empty promises.

Lies laid like land mines in the Middle East.

Dirty

Washing the dishes the morning after a dinner party is dirty, smelly, and it’s much more difficult to scrub away the caked-on shit;
Similare to recovering from a hook-up in your twenties.

That's Life

I received a 4AM wake-up call;
Thanks to a reaction from the vaccination that both of my puppies had yesterday.
You don’t really know what love is, until you’re cleaning shit and vomit, while using a calming voice, “It’s okay sweetheart, you just had an accident.”
People who say dogs are just like having babies are wrong:
Babies wear diapers!

People Watching

Every shape and size,

Eclectic humanity.

I flash a smile.