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Polygamy, Craft Fairs and Mormon Rap... It's Time For a Parody!

Introducing the latest parody from our creative team at A Group Production, LLC.

This time our camera's crash the compound of a polygamist family with a dark secret...

Proving once again, no matter how religious you are, there's always an outcast!

This is what happens when you parody the popularity of Bravo's Real Housewives franchise and splash in some Big Love!

Introducing: The Real Housewives of the L.D.S.

Time to Relax

Having a tough time switching my mind to "stand by."

Energy spinning and I feel the pressure to do more-

more. More. MORE.

The mantra in my mind: Balance.

There is a time to work.

There is a time to eat.

There is a time to create.

There is a time to sleep.

There is a time to relax and enjoy what you've created.

Struggling to take the weekend off.

Forcing myself to release the check list for the weekend,

I'm positive it will still be there when I look for it Monday!

Welcome March.

It's hard to believe that another Friday afternoon is here. With that,

the start of March.

It's true what my grandpa used to say when I was growing up, "The older you get, the faster it goes..."

I'm so grateful that I can still hear his voice in my head. In fact, he is one of the primary reasons I continue to push myself everyday to create and stay focused.

I remember having long talks with him in high school. He would remind me to use my time wisely doing something I love, and to enjoy every single moment! "...life is short Mattsky."

(Mattsky was my grandpa and grandma's nickname for me growing up.)

The beginning of this year started off rocky, but by mid-February I was able to snap out of my funk, and get back on track.

I had a blast shooting an episode of a new Disney television show, enjoyed creating another parody with my creative friends and last night I pushed myself back out onto the stage to do some stand up comedy.

I always forget how nervous I get before I do stand up... Honestly, I'm past the point of fearing what might happen. I get such a rush of adrenaline once I'm up there with that microphone. Of course I'm never at a loss for words. I'm happy that I decided to take another pass at stand up. It's so much better now than five years ago when I first started doing it.

I worried so much back then about being funny or what people would think of me and my stories. Now, I just stand up there and live in that moment. It's the perfect opportunity to express myself and share my craziness to a group of people who are ready and willing to laugh at our similarities and differences.

All things considered, I think my creative juices are flowing again...

I'm looking forward to the adventures that await me in March.

Please Stand Up.

Just in case I don't already have enough on my creative plate, I was talked into doing stand up tonight at the Comedy Shed in Los Angeles.

It's not that I don't have plenty on my mind to talk about:

Between Charlie Sheen's new found craziness to Whoopi Goldberg's bladder control issues, I'll have no loss for chatter!

I love an opportunity to get up on a stage and have people listen to me...

Let's just hope they like what they are hearing!

If not, oh well.

I'm on a mission to cram as much creative energy into every aspect of my life, so that one day I too will make as much money as Seth MacFarlane!

The man is a mega-millionaire genius... and he didn't get there by saying "no" to opportunity or making fun of untalented celebrities that have crossed into the land of Crazyville!

The Perfect End...

...To a perfect week!

Between shooting and editing our next parody, booking a part on a cool new Disney television show, a fun filled adventure at Disneyland, Saturday brunch with friends in Beverly Hills, picking up a quick gig (and some ca$h) Saturday afternoon, followed by a birthday party later that evening- all leading up to a relaxing Sunday morning at home, before hosting a small gathering to watch The 83rd Annual Academy Awards!

That's right. It's Oscar time!

I"m sure it's no surprise that Oscar night happens to be one of the most exciting nights of television for me. Dating back to my early childhood, I remember demanding that my parents spend the day as if I were actually nominated for an award.

Every year that I sit and watch the telecast from whatever party I happen to be at or hosting... I'm inspired and encouraged to continue to stay focused on reaching my goals.

This year is no exception.

Especially on the heels of such an awesome week.

I'm grateful for this week because despite the highs and lows in my life and career, I was reminded that my path is clear.

As long as I live in the moment and work toward the things I'm passionate about, everything will fall into place.

It always has.

It always will.

Now, off to the kitchen. I've got food to prep and the Red Carpet pre-show to watch!

Happy Oscar watching!

Rain Drops and Recorded TV...

Swimming pools. Movie stars. Trendy nightclubs.
Los Angeles is known for a lot of things...
But not rain!
This is supposed to be the golden state!
When it rains in LA the world comes to a stand still.
So today became the perfect day to catch up with life...
I got a hair cut. Sent off my claim forms for my medical reimbursements. Paid bills. But most important, I was finally able to watch the twenty hours of recorded television on my DVR.
Call me crazy, but I'm unable to focus on ANYTHING if I know there are unwatched episodes of 30 Rock, Top Chef, Big Love or Gossip Girl!
I'm a freak. I get an incredible high from crossing things off a check list. Sometimes I even make lists of things that I've already done or can't help but do, like waking up or taking a shower- just so I can get the satisfaction of crossing it off.
So you can imagine how relieved I am to see an empty DVR box.
Now if only the pouring rain would stop!
One lazy day is all I need. I've got an empire to build!
...and a list a mile long that's not going to cross itself off.

Living The Dream!

I'm fully aware that I have a wonderful life-

I'll take it a step further and admit that this week has been a surreal experience.

A real LA moment! I'm living the dream...

Proof again that positive energy and faith can triumph over fear of the unknown.

On the heels of such a wonderful year in 2010- I've been really struggling to maintain a sense of calm and clarity. After a series of misfortunate events, I was starting to lose faith in myself and the path I was on. This lack of confidence really hit home after an embarrassing audition for a new television show that I had last week.

I was honestly questioning my path. It's so strange how fast confidence can come and go. One minute I'm elated to be receiving glowing reviews for a parody I'm in, and the next, I'm questioning if I'm ever going to work again...

Then, on Saturday while I was judging a talent competition out of town, I received an email for an audition for a new Disney television show. It was a last minute audition to replace an actor who the producers didn't feel was right for the job. The audition was Tuesday, and if booked- I would go straight to hair, make-up and wardrobe and then onto the sound stage to shoot the first scene.

Instantly my mood shifted. No matter how tired I was from sitting in a dark theatre critiquing the stars of tomorrow, my heart began to race at the thought of booking a Disney show!

I reminded myself (like I've done for the past fifteen years of my life) that "this could be the one!"

I arrived at the Hollywood Center Studios, in Los Angeles around 9:15 am. I auditioned along side four other guys that the producers and director were considering for the part. Once each of us had auditioned we waited in a production office and the producer called each actor in one at a time to find out if they were the lucky guy that booked the part...

Because I was the third guy called into the office, I assumed I didn't get it... However, to my delight, they offered me the part on the spot!
The next thing I know I was off to hair and make-up and then into my costume!
By 11 am, I was shooting my first scene on the new Disney show KICKIN IT!

I spent the entire day in heaven. I'm at the point in my life when I realize these jobs don't come around that often... so when they do, I want to make sure that I'm really getting the whole experience!

For me it's such an accomplishment that I was able to book a job on a television show so early into the year! Of course it's what I hope and pray for everyday- so when the circumstances actually arrive, I'm grateful to "live" in them fully.

And I did! I spent every moment on that set soaking it up!
And to be honest, I received all of the validation I needed to realize that this is my path.
I just have to remain true to myself and follow my dreams.
I've already accomplished so many of my goals in life- that occasions like booking a Disney job when you are least expecting it, is extra icing on my cake!
P. S. Don't you think I make a great Disco Dude!?!

Every Good Joke Needs a Button!

For February's video entry...
I thought I'd share a clip of a fun adventure to Disneyland for my friend Michael Cornacchia's birthday!
Michael is an actor... and the BUTTon of every joke!

Joan Rivers is Tenacious

You can say what you want about Joan Rivers, but I've got to give her credit... The woman is tenacious!
I'm sitting in a hotel room somewhere in Scottsdale, Arizona. I just finished judging performers at the worlds largest talent competition.
It can be such a soul crushing job at times- Honestly, how are you supposed to tell a person that their passion is not enough?
Sadly, that's what I get paid for.
When I got back to the hotel I turned on the TV and to my surprise the Joan Rivers documentary Joan Rivers: A Piece of Work was on.
I've watched it once before, and loved it. So I decided to decompress and watch it again-
I'm so glad I did too!
She reminded me that regardless of what critics, industry professionals, family, friends and colleagues may say-
if you were born with the passion, spirit and soul of an entertainer, you're going to fight like hell to achieve your dreams.
I feel at peace again in my heart.
And more inspired than ever to conquer my next goal!

The Clouds Have Parted.

It's no secret that my year so far has been off to a rocky start.

I've revealed in several of last months blog entries, that my inability to maintain the positive outlook that helped me achieve so much last year, has been MIA.

I admit- ninety percent of my frustration is due to my lack of willingness to follow through with the recipe that has triumphed in the past.

Well, the sky may be gloomy and grey today- but a glimmer of light has burst through the darkness and jolted me back into action!

Everyday that I spend comparing my past achievements to my present circumstances, is a wasted opportunity to grow.

No matter how many times I've reminded myself of that idea this year, I've been unable to retain the knowledge-

Today the clouds in my mind have separated. I can either spend my energy lost in the haze of past victories, or I can set out to conquer new regions!

It's such an easy concept- Just be happy.

It requires so much work and faith to release the fear and doubt, and just stay focused on the "happy." But every time I remind myself what the worst case scenario is, it occurs to me;

I have nothing in life to lose, except a missed opportunity!

Just Say "NO!" ...sometimes.

There are moments in our life, when we ignore our instincts and decided to follow through with an idea or action to see if it plays out in an unexpected manner than we anticipate-

I'm not sure why we ever think the outcome is going to be much different than what we expect in our mind. In fact, I'm fairly positive that no matter how hopeful we are, if we go against our initial gut feeling, it may be our very own subconscious that is quietly plotting against us...

In other words, if I sense the inner feeling of dread or doubt and I proceed anyway, I imagine I will always have that emotion holding me back from achieving anything other than what I expected.

The end result is almost always what I feared it would be.

That's not to say that I don't thrive on taking risks, nor do I shy away from challenges. I love new adventures and respond well to change, as long as it agrees with my gut feeling.

But from time to time, I push myself to do something that goes against every safeguard that I have in place.

Call me crazy. Call me a gluten for punishment. Just don't call me a chicken.

I think because I'm so adamant against saying "no" to any of life's adventures, possibilities or opportunities, that I sometimes say "yes" to things that are designed for my demise-

No matter how hard I fight or push myself, there are things in life that are out of my control.

I'm so grateful that in my thirties, I'm learning and understanding that not everything has to be conquered! I'm finally realizing that turning down an offer or opportunity that I have no emotional investment in is not necessarily a bad thing! Actually, it's the smartest thing I can do for myself.

When I was younger, I thought if I said "no" too much, people would stop asking.

What I've come to experience is the exact opposite- The more I say "no" to the things that I know I'm not inspired to accomplish, the greater success I have at attaining the goals that I'm encouraged to master!

Last week my reminder came in the form of a terrible audition! It's hard to say "no" to an audition, especially in this economy... but it was an audition that I knew in my heart I was not right for- and I went anyway. I gave it my all, and in the end I still had a horrible audition. I left feeling embarrassed and upset.

Had I passed on the audition, I'm sure there is a part of me that would have felt like I missed out on an opportunity- however, I think the overall feeling would have been that I made the right choice, and I wouldn't have spent the following days in a state of emotional turmoil like I did because I went and did a sub-par job!

Oh well- life is a work in process. This week I learned that it is most definitely okay to say NO.

Faith

I cannot change the past.

I cannot predict the future.

I have an incredible opportunity to live in this moment now~

I know what I have to do.

I know when I do it, I get results.

So, with every ounce of energy I have-

I'm going to stop punishing myself.

Let go of my self-doubt, anger and insecurity-

And I'm going to let faith be enough.

Searching For Talent...

Waking up too early for a crappy flight.
Landing in a city you know you've been before,
taking the ground transportation to a hotel you know you've slept at before.
Meeting at the theatre to hear things you know you've heard before.
Sitting behind a judges table watching contestant after contestant perform for twelve hours or more-
Getting back to the hotel just in time for last call; order a glass of wine.
Sleep for five hours wake up and do it all again...
Not as glamorous as outsiders think.
It's not bad getting paid to watch talented people perform-
It just hurts the soul a little when they're not so talented...
This is my path-
I'm sure they'll find theirs too!

Peaceful Clarity.

After a rocky January, I was allowing the negative energy and doubt to slowly seep back into my day to day life. I've been aware of the unwanted feelings, but frustrated that for whatever reason, I haven't been able to release them and focus on the positive action and energy that lead to a successful and adventurous 2010.

So I decided to take a long walk along the beach in Malibu yesterday...

At the beginning of the stroll, I felt overwhelmed and frustrated. However, as I continued down the beach, I turned my attention to the crashing of the waves and the sun's warmth. It was difficult at first, but once I relaxed and let my mind rest- I noticed an instant change in my mood and outlook.

I was able to feel the sand beneath my feet, smell the salty sea air and enjoy the meditative flow of the ocean. I remembered again that every fear, doubt and insecurity is distracting me from what I know I'm capable of achieving. I took a moment to stand still, and with my eyes closed, I faced the ocean and thought about all of the wild journeys I've experienced in my life.

I was happy, proud and excited to move forward with this new year full of possibilities!

I was a little upset that I had to re-re-re-re-remember this idea, it's as if you make the realization, understand the point of life and see how easy it is to be positive, calm and accomplished- and then you go to bed at night, and you wake up forgetting everything you learned.

Then it dawned on me; setting goals and working toward creating positive energy and opportunity is important. But even more so, I'm grateful for moments of peaceful clarity- they don't come often and don't last long, so I try to live in them fully~

Question?

Does anyone else find it strange that I started to cry and experience honest feelings of sadness for Holly Madison after her "surprise" visit to the Playboy Mansion to congratulate "Hef" and Crystal on their engagement while taping an episode of her spin-off reality TV show; Holly's World?

I guess it's because I'm still super emotional from watching last nights episode of The Real Housewives of Atlanta's season finale...

It just breaks my heart to see NeNe Leakes without her "happy."

Really? This Video Explains Everything...

Really?

Because of the amazing accomplishments I achieved in 2010, I thought it would be a great idea to continue to apply myself creatively and set new goals to encourage sustained success in my life and career in 2011.

One of my goals was to upload at least one video blog a month in 2011-

I sat down today, January 31st to tape the first of said video blogs... I think the video I taped says it all... and don't worry- when I went to upload and play it back, I too realized that it recorded sideways! ...I taped it the exact same way I record all of my videos. I tried to flip it, edit it and reedit it, and for some reason it will not play correctly! I raged for over two hours before I decided to "release it" or "let it go" and move on...

Honestly I didn't have the patience to re-shoot...

I think the universe might be trying to tell me something!

I promise I'll do better next time. I mean I'm not an a moron... I know how to record and edit video, I just think this speaks volumes for how 2011 has started off for me. I plan on turning it around and getting back on my "A" game for the remainder of 2011!

Successes and Setbacks...

In life, I'm told you have to take the good with the bad...

I'm not sure why, I guess I just have to accept it and move forward. There really is no point in dwelling on things that cannot be change- But there is a little part of me that wants to act like a five year old! Jump up and down, screaming at the top of my lungs... and then throw myself to the floor, kicking and biting until the last ounce of rage spills out!

Yesterday, just as I had finally made peace with trusting that this year will be every bit as successful as last year, as long as I stay focused and positive, I received a disappointing call.

Long story short- in this industry (and in life) people are waiting around every corner to screw you over. In yesterdays instance, I learned a valuable lesson regarding the choice I made in hiring an assistant that did less assisting me, and more assisting herself in scooping up a job from underneath me!

I've been in this town long enough to understand how the game is played- and most people that I work with play by the rules, so I guess I was just bummed that in this moment, the rules didn't apply.

I have faith that the person delivering the upsetting news is in fact on my side, and I trust her whole hearted when she says she will make it up to me- Moreover, I was extremely grateful for how she handled the situation... Unlike my former assistant, she understands the rules in which you play.

I learned a valuable lesson. I lost a potential job because I allowed my assistant to show up in my place on the final day of shooting on a previous job, while I attended another project... In short, all she had to do was "baby sit" the actors to make sure they felt comfortable.

I will never make that mistake again. I will be even more selective when hiring an assistant, and I will make sure that they know their place is assisting me- not networking their own deals!

On a happy note- (the good with the bad...) I finished the first rough draft of the book I've been writing! After almost two years of research, writing and struggle to stay inspired, I'm pleased that I accomplished one of my 2011 goals already!

Now the tough part begins. Editing, rewrites and publishing!

Wish me luck!

Doubt Is the Devil

The daily battle to fight off doubt.

Some days you win, others you lose-

Everything wonderful in my life, came through faith and confidence.

Yet, a part of me continues to let the devil creep in...

Regardless of how many times I've been educated on this life lesson, I constantly test the boundary.

Fear is the root of evil. A plague. A nasty waste of time and energy on this already short existence.

In order to live up to my maximum potential and have a full life, I have to banish the doubt completely.

The only thing I can control in my life- is how I react to where I am, and determine how to proceed.

The only thing to lose is opportunity. So enough! I've got to stop wasting my time on negative energy, and focus on manifesting my goals into reality.

Collaboration is Key!

I just finished reading a wonderful book. The Collaborative Habit- Life Lessons for Working Together, by the famous choreographer Twyla Tharp. I'm moved and inspired by the stories and advice she shared.

And it couldn't come at a more appropriate time! After the success that my creative partner and I shared last year with our Real Housewives parodies, we've decided to kick it in to high gear with our collaborations. The first being our own production company. We've toyed around with the idea for several years, but because of the wonderful growth that we've made creatively and personally, we've decided to really pour our heart into our company: A Group Production, LLC.

Jeff (my partner in crime) and I share the same sense of humor, passion and drive. We both understand that in order to get anywhere in life, you've got to take the reins and make it happen. With the talent and generosity of our creative friends and colleagues, we've been able to focus on producing a product that is worthy of our own television show-

Hence, this has become our challenge in 2011.

When we started out working together, it was hit or miss- Though we share the same common goal, we both have strong opinions and personalities, so finding level ground was a challenge. Now, however, we've applied a layer of padding and we've found a way to communicate that is not only fair, but productive too!

The result. Hopefully a very successful partnership creating and developing television, film and theatre that we love, for a very long time. One that will include the amazing and talented people we know in this industry, because after reading Twyla's book, I'm confident that two (or more minds) is stronger and more creative than one!

Dear Blog

Dear Blog,

I miss you. I know that I made a promise to spend more of my creative time working on finishing the final draft of my book, however, I really think it might be better for me to share more with you too!

Why do we have to set such high demands on our relationship? I don't understand why my book is so jealous of our time together...

Maybe it's because you're such a better listener!

My book is just so, "Work on me. Finish me. Me. Me. Me..."

I understand where my book is coming from. I have been putting it off for a while now-

I guess I just need you Blog- to feel more creative and inspired.

Would it be okay if I stopped in more than once a week to share?

I hope that's cool with you. I know it would really help me.

Thanks for being her Blog. I'm really glad we had this talk!

Your friend,

matthew

A Lesson Learned. Again...

I've spent my entire life comparing nearly every event, adventure and accomplishment I've experienced with an early moment or memory. So it's no wonder I would fall into this pattern day in and day out-
Of course the start of 2011 has been no different! Despite the fact that I've already wrapped on a successful project that I co-produced, wrote, directed and act in and it's only the second week of a new year... My mind wants to stress that I'm not doing enough.
Or worse- that I'm already not living up to the success I had last year!
It's a strange and overwhelming feeling. And though I am aware that I have this flaw in my personality, rather than stop the negative thoughts- for some reason I allow myself to buy into it! Again!
Even after a wonderful year without it... Some part of me feels like I did so good last year that I have no chance "top it."
I realize how ridiculous this notion is... what's worse is that I know how to stop it
Thankfully today I snapped out of it.
I woke up and remembered the key ingredient:
I was successful last year because I lived in the moment EVERY day.
Without any preconceived ideas about what I had to accomplish.
I did not let myself give in to the negative energy or doubt, and I didn't worry about the uncontrollable circumstances.
In short- I lived in the moment with a positive outlook and balanced lifestyle.
I enjoyed my play time, creative time, work, family, friends, travel and health.
I focused on what I could accomplish each day, and was open and responsive to the unexpected opportunities that came along
So, I'm going to forgive myself for forgetting the amazing lessons I learned last year, I'm going to concentrate on living in the moment with positive energy, I'm going to continue to work to create projects and opportunities that inspire me and I'm going to force myself to stop comparing my life to past experiences or people.
I have to trust that living in the moment has always lead me on an amazing journey, and as long as I keep my energy moving forward and my faith in check, I will end up exactly where I'm meant to be.

Fame, Fortune and Plastic Surgery

Without further ado, I'm pleased to present the latest spoof that I've been working on!

Though I LOVE The Real Housewives of New York City, as they were the original inspiration that started the entire parody idea... We couldn't help but point a laughing finger at the delicious and delusional ladies of Beverly Hills.

What do you get when you cross a former child star and a former Playboy centerfold and throw in some Beverly Hills Ca$h?

You get The Real Housewives of Beverly Hills Parody:

(If you're having trouble viewing this video on the blog please

click the link above.)

A New Year... A New Real Housewives Shoot!

I'm so excited...

Gearing up to shoot another parody of Bravo's The Real Housewives franchise!

This time we're spoofing the glamorous gals of Beverly Hills!

They're by far my favorite.

They have more money than all of the other "housewives" combined, and they still act like total heathens- in gorgeous gowns and fabulous mansions!

I can't wait to call action...

Overwhelmed

Feeling a little overwhelmed today.

Want to start the new year off in a positive way-

Trying to keep things in perspective,

I know I have the choice-

Remember, positive action when fear is near.

So many wonderful adventures last year...

Stop trying to compare.

Just let life take me where I'm meant to be.

I've always had and amazing journey.

Relax and trust that the path will clear!

It's So Hard To Say Goodbye...

After spending the last 365 days sharing my emotions to the blogosphere-
I'm having a hard time resisting the urge to sign on and chat!
I spent a number of days during the past year forcing myself to make sure I followed through with my writing goals- even if I had nothing important or creative to say. So I never imagined I'd actually miss the opportunity to release my thoughts, yet here I sit only one day away from an accomplished resolution from last year... and I'm ready to blog some more!
It may be out of habit. But I think it's a bit deeper.
I'm going back to Los Angeles tomorrow, and I'm sad I have to leave my family-
In particular, both my grandma's. Two wonderful women. Very different, but amazing and beautiful in their own way.
I hate saying goodbye to begin with- when it's either of them the layers of pain are intensified.
They sit, each of them with their puppy, and I see them in a new light.
The look in their eyes; sorrow, joy, fear and pride all in one glance. I know they worry about me-
I wonder if they realize how much I worry about them?
It kills me to watch these two magnificent women struggle in their own way with the aging process-
Not from a vain point of view.
I don't know how many more chances I'll get to spend time with each of them, I hope and pray they'll be around and healthy for many years to come.
But the only thing I can be sure of, is the time I get now...
Which is why it's so hard to say goodbye!

Mission Accomplished!

I'm sitting in front of a computer screen in a gorgeous home with a decedent view of a snow covered mountain in Beaver Creek, Colorado. I was invited to my friends father's house for the New Year, and I honestly cannot think of a more appropriate way to finish out 2010.
Ordinarily the end of a year is always a little tough for me. I'm sentimental by nature, and I get emotional with the end of almost anything-
This year is a completely different feeling for me. I think for the first time ever, I truly lived in the moment each and every day. I set out to conquer my goals and resolutions, and I spent the majority of my time focused on creating opportunities and enjoying the process along the way.
It was no small task to sit down and force myself to share my deepest thoughts, dreams, setbacks, disappointment, heartache and Private emotions. Nevertheless, I gained such joy from releasing these ideas into the universe without fear of judgement. Plus, the act of this daily routine really sparked my creative juices.
Make no mistake, I'm not delusional- I realize that more than half of my entries are just the silly ramblings of a crazy guy with big ambitions. Still, I'm impressed that I actually found the energy to focus (even if only for ten minutes a day) on writing out a thought, feeling or experience that might help me get a step closer to my ultimate goal.
I decided to blog for myself. There was no expectation of achieving a huge cult following or to be picked up for my phenomenal literary skills- My only hope was that blogging would encourage me to stay active in my journey as an artist.
I'm thrilled to report, it has. I've gained a level of self-achievement that is directly associated with the success of my personal growth as an actor, choreographer and person.
I learned a great deal about myself and my approach to life from these entries. Most of all, that if I deal with my feelings in the moment, and release them, I'm fully competent to continue on a positive path toward the direction of my ultimate dream. I guess it was a way for me to manifest the energy and passion inside and help me to guid it in the right direction.
I'm ready for 2010 to come to an end, because I maxed out the full potential in each day. I'm inspired and looking forward to the amazing adventures that are in store for 2011 and beyond.
So, this is it... My final daily blog entry for 2010! I'm grateful to those of you who may have stopped by to enjoy an entry in the past year, and to those who followed each day- I hope that my stories sparked at least one person to take a bold step in the direction of their dream, or at the very least brought a smile to someones face...
I will not be writing a daily entry in 2011, I've decided to use my creative juices to finish a book that I started over a year ago... I will however be back weekly to share my adventures in 2011. I'm not sure if I will stick to a specific day, but I promise I will check in once a week- after all, it would be impossible now to imagine my life without a blog!
Here's to another year full of love, passion, creativity and success-
Happy New Year!

Random Thought

Ambition.
I often wonder where my creative desire, passion and determination came from.
Is it a product of my childhood?
Are we born with a predetermined path that we follow on instinct as we grow up?
I'm so intrigued with my ability to endure, despite every set back and obstacle. In fact, I often thrive when faced with negative reaction.
I believe there is enough room for each and every one of us to succeed at living up to our full potential-
Sadly, too many people worry about the unexpected challenges.
I say, bring on the challenges!
As I continue to grow, I realize that some of the best experiences I've encountered, blossomed from a failed attempt at something else.
As 2010 comes to a resolve, I look back at the extraordinary accomplishment I managed to achieve, and it comforts me.
I'm thankful that I spent 365 days working toward a dream that I've had since I was at least eight years old.
I was fortunate to have a strong fire for how I wanted to use my life-
And the best role models in my life to inspire my vision.

Fun With Friends

Beaver Creek, CO
With very special friends-
Pre-dinner cocktails,
A sleigh ride around the snowy countryside.
Dropped off in font of the lodge for a delicious dinner-
Back to the cabin for some rest and relaxation-
Tomorrow a lazy day around the fireplace.
I'm so blessed with amazing friends,

Drawing Near...

It's unreal how fast time passes by-
It doesn't feel like it's been a year since I sat in this very spot on my Grandma Shaffer's couch and stared up at the ceiling looking answers.
I've learned a lot about myself this past year.
Writing a daily blog has continued to inspire me to create projects in the industry.
The New Year is always tough for me-
I'm flooded with emotions both happy and sad. As I think back over all of the accomplishments and adventures I had in 2010, I'm overwhelmed with pride...
It's no easy task focusing on constant positive reinforcement and creative energy. In the end though, the prize has been more than worth it.
I'm grateful for each and every experience in my life, and I look forward to a new year full of great opportunities and continued love and support.

The New Addition!

Lily-
Little furry black bundle of joy-
Impossible to believe you were left at the pound.
Lovable.
You had me the moment you walked over and stared up at me with those sad but hopeful eyes.

It's Official!

Today was the day that I officially became my gorgeous niece Kellyn's Godfather.
This little baby girls is a miracle. Beyond the fact that my sisters chances of conceiving were very low because of her radiation and chemotherapy treatments after discovering she had cancer, Kellyn was a perfect angel. Not even a peep from her during the entire eight minute baptism.
As I stood at the alter in the beautiful old church in Florence, Colorado with; my sister, Josh and Kellyn (in Josh's arms)- I couldn't help but burst into tears . Ironic that a ten day old baby with water being dumped on her head remained calm and happy. Meanwhile, a flood of emotions comes crashing out of my eyes and nose!
I've never been more proud of my sister. There I stood, gazing at this magnificent creation that she and Josh produced, and I was the man that they picked to insure that Kellyn would have a strong sense of faith and unconditional love and guidance for as long as I'm alive.
Strangely enough, I'd been struggling with my own faith over the past two weeks, and it wasn't until today when I stood before God and my family, that I was able to see the many blessings I have in life fight now.
But the highlight of today's baptism for me was not the homily or the cute outfit that Kellyn wore- today I held my right arm around my sisters shoulders and cried with joy. I'm beside myself with gratitude. My sister was born to be a mother, and today I saw and felt a shift in her armor. I'm most grateful for our new bond. I made a promise to my sister that I would always be there to love and supports her, Josh and their daughter Kellyn. All it took was that first look at my peanut Kellyn to know that I was wrapped for life!
I consider myself a lucky guy tonight! I become the Goddfather!

Merry Christmas

Family gathered in the living room,
Opening presents was fun- but it's just not the same as an adult.
Let the cooking begin!
A full house.
The food is served...
I ate entirely too much food.
Then we were off to the movie theatre for a Christmas treat.
Yes- life is nice.
Merry Christmas

Not The EVEning I Had Planned...

I've spent this entire year forcing happiness on myself- even when it was difficult or inconvenient. Especially then.
The idea: Positive energy can change the outcome of the current situation. For the better part of this year, my little scheme worked. Of course there were a few "bad" days in the mix. There were moments when I'd ask myself if I was just being delusional or negligent with my feelings. At times I even felt guilty not feeling sad, or upset over something that I couldn't change.
I must admit, each and every single time I started to fear, doubt or worry about a situation or circumstance I forced myself to think of something positive instead- ninety percent of the time it worked too! Several times it lead to a new opportunity or job. Half the time it changed the situation, and almost every time- I felt better.
So you can imagine how upsetting it is to face the last ten days of 2010 with such negative events. For whatever reason, I have been unable to convince myself to take a positive approach while at home with my family. Even worse, it feels like I've regressed, which elevates my negative energy times ten. What I'm coming to terms with is that no matter how positive or happy I am in life, there are certain emotions that I'm going to have to face sooner or later. It will be painful. It will be work. But hopefully, it will allow me to move forward in 2011.
I think the greatest challenge is understanding that before I can release my emotions- I have to acknowledge them and work toward confronting the source of the negativity. But the difficulty is making sure that I don't get lost in the negative emotion.
I get it... Each of us (for the most part) is just trying their best to do their part.
Life is short- and no matter how painful moments can be (even on the worst days) every moment we have should be full of love, friendship and family. The family dynamic can be extremely difficult- however, in my opinion there's no greater love or unconditional support than that of your family. I fully intended on accomplishing all of my hopes and dreams, and there will be no one better to share that with than my family.

Holiday Cheer?

Is rapidly turning into Holiday fear!
Too many people to please,
Too many places to go.
Too much work to accomplish,
Next year, I've decided I'm flying somewhere far away from the family.
No offense, I love them-
But I hear that Rome is beautify this time of year..,

Niece

Never imagined how beautiful you would be.
I'm in awe when I stare into your magnificent eyes.

Extraordinary in every way.
Changed my life forever.
Ecstasy- pure and innocent.

This Is Your Life...

There comes a moment when you realizes: Yep, this is my life right now- either get on board or spend your time miserable!
For me it's always the same old story... I fight like hell to stay positive. Enlightened. Happy.
I try to remember that so far I've had a pretty excellent life.
Nevertheless, there are those days when you come face to face with the reality of your world- the bad, the sad and the painful.
A trip back home is like an unplanned, unpredictable opportunity to uncover the world that you've become an outsider to.
My life goes on while I'm in Los Angeles pursuing my career. So I'm not sure why I expect the members of my family to live in suspended reality.
My cousins grow up. My mom changes her hair style. My dad rebuilds another bicycle. My sister has a beautiful baby girl named Kellyn. My grandma's Parkinson's takes a deeper impact on her body. Each incident is only as significant as I allow them to be. Individually the impact is not as strong (with the exception of my sisters baby) and yet, when they're lumped together in a two week visit- the magnification takes its toll.
Still, I cannot shake the echo of my Grandpa Shaffer's voice as he was dying in the hospital, "Don't be sad Matt."
Over the past year and a half, I've carried his voice in my head, trying to maintain a positive attitude even in the worst of scenarios.
Overall, the outcome of the positive energy has lead to a productive and blessed year...
So I'm disappointed that this trip has been so rough on me. I believe I have the choice to remain happy. I trust that everything happens for a reason. Unfortunately, it's nearly impossible for me to ignore my grandma's condition.
To see the woman who inspired me throughout my life; my mentor, role model, cheerleader and best friend struggle to walk, swallow food, or fight to find the word to finish her thought- it is pure devastation.
But I believe that I have to continue to live my life. I fight with my inner judgement when it comes to this choice. At times it feels like I'm pretending, putting on an act so that I don't have to deal with the reality and pain. I want to accept that keeping a positive energy breeds a happier outcome for everyone involved...
So tonight, when I found myself leaving my seventy-four year old Grandma at home alone to visit with my mom at the home town bowling alley, I felt like I made the wrong choice. Nevertheless, I was there and thought I might as well make the best of it! I looked around the small but cool bowling alley, and all of the happy people bowling and enjoying the Christmas covered dish party that was going on simultaneously, and thought: "This is your life right now... You are here. So you might as well enjoy it!" I went to the bar and grabbed a drink, loaded up a plate of food and started to relax. No sooner than I did that, my cousin and his wife and children walked in and the night was a total blast!
Once again reminding me that no matter what life gives you- the opportunity to make the choice to find the positive in a situation will always end happier than the negative.

It's The Most Wonderful Time I'd the year?

I'm not sure if I'd agree entirely with the classic Christmas song.
If it's such a wonderful time of the year, then why am I so stressed out?
Coming home for Christmas doesn't have to be this hard does it?
Of course I'm so happy to see all of my family and friends;
Still, I wish that we focused more energy on spending quality time with one another- instead of keeping score with each other regarding the amount of time that we aren't together.
As if shopping, baking, wrapping, cleaning, etc. etc. etc. -wasn't bad enough, I have to consider how I should divide my time with each of the members of my family.
Each one reminds me, "Don't worry about hurting my feelings, go have fun... I'll see you when you get home."
But no one realizes that their demands are the source of my stress.
I'm flattered that everyone wants to see me,
I just wish I could be in three places at once!
Then we'd all be happy...
Until then- "It's the most Okay time of the year!"

Wiped Out!

What happens when you decided to adopt a perfect little 8 week old puppy?
You spend your entire day devoted to that beautiful little creature-
But I am falling asleep just trying to finish this blog...
Which means that taking care of our new addition is exhausting!

A Family Tradition

One of the perks of belonging to a large Italian family is our ability to work as team in the name of food- Seriously, the Keebler Elves have nothing on us!
The best part of coming home for Christmas is spending time around the table preparing delicious goodies like; ravioli, Italian Wedding soup with dough balls and my all time favorite- pizzelle, heavenly Italian cookies, paper thin and amazing...
I promise there is nothing more tantalizing than walking into grandmas house while we're kneading dough, cooking the sauce for ravioli's or baking a decadent sweet treat. The icing on the cake is devouring everything once it's done! ...there in lays the problem- the only family tradition greater than making the food...
Is eating it!

Complications On The Home Front...

I imagine the holidays tend to be a tricky time of year for every family.

Of course I'm delighted to be with my family, especially this year with the new addition of my niece Kellyn or as I like to call her: "my little peanut!" Still, I'm faced with the hurdles of having a very large, emotional and outspoken Italian family- add in the trials and tribulations of parents who are divorced and remarried, their extended family and half siblings- and you have a recipe for disaster!

The most frustrating part for me, is that no matter how hard I try to approach this time of year, I always seem to hurt someone, usually me. I will go out of my way to plan the entire trip, and it blows up in my face. Next time I'll make no plans whatsoever, and that comes crashing down on me- Regardless of the path I decide to take, it's always the wrong direction.

The worst part is how upset I feel once Christmas has passed, and I'm back in California wishing I could have been more patient, calm and carefree!

Every year my goal is to live in the moment and enjoy the time I have with each member of my family, and every year, I end up fighting with someone in my family...

I've been home for three days, and I've come dangerously close to an outburst. Thankfully, I've managed to remember that my family acts out like they do, because the love me and they want to spend time with me- It becomes an unintentional competition.

So I've reached the conclusion that in order to avoid complications on the home front all together; I have to close my eyes, take a deep breath and smile. If past holidays show me anything, it's that no matter what I do "right" or "wrong" my family is going to act however they want depending on where they're at in their life... so my only objective now is to not to react! If I don't engage- I don't have rage!

Home For The Holidays

My Grandma Shaffer always reminds me, "Home is where your heart is."
As a kid, I never understood what that meant- My heart is in my chest... How can my home be there?
Fortunately when I moved out on my own, I began to make sense of that phrase.
Chicago, New York, Los Angeles; no matter where I've lived, I've kept the love of my family in my heart.
Still, nothing compares to the aromas, laughter and love of returning home.
Over the past fourteen years I've found great comfort in my visits. Despite the silly fights with my dad, or the screaming matches with my sister, Christmas at home with my family has always been a joy.
As with everything in life- eventually things change. Over the past couple of years I've watched as things slowly change and evolve.
After losing my Grandpa Shaffer a year and a half ago- returning home has a new energy.
Of course I'm so grateful to be with the rest of my family- but there are moments where I flashback to a Christmas from my childhood.
It's painful to come home expecting everything to remain untouched and realize that life moves forward. True, the surroundings seem very normal at first glance. But look a little closer and you begin to see just how fast time and distance take their toll: No Christmas decorations up, because who has the time? No tray of baked goods out, because who has the energy? Then of course there is the absence of my Grandpa Shaffer, and the effect that his death still has on two Christmas later...
As a kid, Christmas is full of joy, toys and laughter. As an adult, it's stress, sadness, and memories-
No matter how hard I fight the tears, they're there. I just strive to remember the good times and laugh as much as I can.
It kills me to watch my grandma suffer from Parkinson's disease- This beautiful woman who has spent her life serving and inspiring others is slowly losing her ability to do function in the way that she's accustomed to.
Despite her challenges, her lack of energy and her pain of losing her husband of fifty-four years, she still finds the ability to share her amazing spirit! Her infectious laugh is all I need to be reminded that, someday when her battle with Parkinson's takes it's toll or she is no longer with us during Christmas- I will remember that home is where the heart is... And though my heart will ache from missing her- I will find comfort in the memory of her spirit, and I will fight like hell to keep her safe at home in my heart. Until then- I'm grateful that I'm in her house, the house that I've know for thirty-two years, and I am happy!

Extraordinary.

After almost thirty hours of labor- my sister was forced to have a last minute C-section today.
I will tell you that my sister has always been a fighter, but this little girl proved she is a force to be reckoned with!
I'm pleased to announce that at 2:44 PM my sister gave birth to a beautiful, healthy and breathtaking baby girl named Kellyn.
What I was not prepared for is how, at the first moment I saw my little niece, my life changed in a way I could never expected.
I felt a rush of elation that I've never experienced before inmy life.
I'm so happy for my sister- The only thing she ever talked about when we were children was the day that she becomes a mom.
After my sister had cancer and went through her chemotherapy and radiation treatments, we knew that the odds of her being able to conceive and carry a child were very slim.
Proving once again just how resilient my sister is! In addition to reminding me that Faith is stronger than statistics-

A Call From My Sister

This morning at 7:55 am I received a phone call from my sister Shiree on her way to the hospital!
She's going to have her first baby- a girl. And I'm happy to report that my little niece is almost a week past her scheduled birth day...
Proving what I've known from the get go... This wonderful bundle of joy is going to be just as stubborn, feisty and difficult as my sister was!
Pay back is a beautiful thing!
I plan on spoiling my niece as much as possible!
I'm on my way to Colorado now, and with any luck- that girl will come just in time for me to welcome her into our family!
I am so excited for the best Christmas gift ever!
Life.

Ode to AT&T

I'm completely over AT&T,

Their terrible coverage and nasty attitude enrage me!

No coverage, no bars, dropped calls,

They lie in their commercials, they've got balls!

I wish that Apple would leave,

So that I could give AT&T the heave!

Jack and Coke

I want to meet the original person who decided to mix Jack Daniels whiskey and Coke together;

It's such a deliciously sweet, crisp drink with bold cherry flavor!

Too bad drinking a few Jack and Coke's bloats me worse than a beached whale...

Ah, the holidays- where no matter how hard I try, I just can't say no to free booze!

Seasons Greetings from one bloated "could be" Santa- all thanks to Jack and Coke.

Bring On Christmas...

Walking into an eclectic crowd of people,

Wine and gift in hand,

Searching for a parking pass-

Get interrupted by an old friend,

A glass of wine is handed to me.

Mariah Carey is rocking out on the stereo,

I overindulge on the appetizers.

Parking pass has been located and taken care of-

Step out to the balcony for some fresh air,

the fresh air is tainted from the smokers corner.

Conversation with the smokers circle is always a riot... (Just like in high school)

Back inside, more guest have arrived and people are dancing.

The Secret Santa gift exchange was a total success!

Everyone has had a few glasses of holiday "cheer."

I love Christmas parties.

It's a good thing too... I have four more this weekend!

Ding Dong The Cold Is Gone!

Headache subdued,

Nose is drained,

Throat is clear;

The nasty cold is gone!

Bring on punch bowl of holiday cheer-

Just wash your hands before you serve it to me please!

One cold a year is good enough for me...

"Crazy People" are Making Me Crazy!

Sure, I'm a self-confessed type "A" personality with a touch of self-diagnosed OCD; Add a half a dash of Italian blood- and you'll see that I am passionate, emotional and yes... from time to time a bit fiery! Albeit, I consider myself a fairly rational, fun-loving, idealistic yet grounded person...

Nevertheless, I have come to accept that there is something in me that attracts CRAZY like a rock star to a blond bombshell with big boobs! This magnetic force that pulls the crazy people toward me is something that I've learned to deal with and even somewhat accept. I used to believe that I sought it out as a challenge or a fun adventure. However, as I grow older I've discovered that even when I immediately recognize the crazy energy upon an introduction and distance myself, the "crazy" instantly attaches itself to me with a force stronger than the gravitational pull!

I don't enjoy the energy or emotions that I experience while dealing with and (attempting to) rationalize with these crazy people. I have spent the past fourteen years of my adult life working on my inner foundation: What triggers me. Why do I react a specific way? How do I maintain integrity without losing my temper or allowing emotion to dictate action.

I'm in an industry where emotion, passion and artistic personalities collide- It's to be expected that everyone who lives their life the way artist do has a dash of "crazy" in them... Why else would we continue to submit our self to constant rejection, judgment and uncertainty. Still, there is a fine line between what is "normal" and delusional!

So I'm stating to the world that I can no longer maintain friendships or connections with:

People who lie about lying.

People who scream in my face about someone else.

People who do whatever they need to get ahead.

People who blame others for their crazy outbursts.

People who flip on a dime; one minute they're singing your praise and the next they're bashing you.

People who think it's "okay" to say whatever they want and then walk away. Or worse, stay and scream without listening to whatever emotions the other party may be feeling.

People who have no accountability.

People who are unaware of their behavior and what others think of it.

So there you have it. I know that I've pretty much ruled out working again in this town... Nevertheless- I can no longer sacrifice my sanity for a friendship or a job- No matter how great they may be during the "good" moments.

In the end, it ALWAYS ends with a bang... (and not the good kind!)

I refuse to go "crazy" dealing with crazy people!

Man's Best Friend...

When I come home tired from a long day,
there you are waiting by the foot of my bed;
Tail wagging,
Ears at standing attention,
Head cocked ever so gently to the right,
Dark lined eyes wide open saying, "I'm ready to love you now!"

When I'm too tired to wake up at six in the morning,
there you are hopping around the bed;Paws scratching at my face,
Mouth wide from yawning,
Head cocked ever so gently to the left,
Dark lined eyes half asleep saying, "I'm ready for you to love me now!"

Your ability to know when I'm sad is remarkable,
Your willingness to cheer me up is wonderful,
Your unconditional love makes you my perfect little yorkie...
Ginger, you're my angel.

Photo by: Christopher Ameruoso 2010

Can't Sleep!

Dry itchy eyes,
Phlegm filled chest,
Non-stop burning nasal drip;
Too hot under the covers-
Freezing without them.
Wide awake,
Tires as hell!
Miserable.

Holiday Head Cold...

Woke up with a dry mouth-

Burning watery eyes,

Itchy, phlegm throat;

I feel like I'm hacking up a lung!

I try my best to avoid these little colds...

I overdose on garlic, hot sauces, vitamin C and (as of yesterday) an abundance of Zinc!

Still, the scratchy irritated nose and lungs rage on!

By the way, did you know that phlegm is actually a good thing?

Apparently, phlegm contains "infection fighting substances" that help your body fight off cold or flu symptoms!

The good news is, by the time you're coughing up the nasty green and yellow film, the infection is almost over, and your body is trying to "expel" the phlegm naturally!

So bring up the phlegm! I want this head cold to be over...

I've got four more holiday parties to attend this week!

Christmas is Coming and I Am Getting Fat!

The holiday's are here.

I know it, because my tummy is hanging over the waistband on my underwear!

I love parties...

I just wish I could figure out a way to say NO to the;

cheese platter,

fried appetizers with the mix of unbelievable dips,

a second serving of the entree,

the dessert tray,

and the multiple glasses of wine, eggnog and cocktails!

Wow. I know what I'm going to ask Santa for Christmas-

Lap Band Surgery!

...just kidding! I'll do it the old fashioned way...

I'll do a cleanse and fast as soon as Christmas is over!

Or maybe New Years Day?!?

Hanukkah is Fun!

The fourth candle was lit,

the wine was poured.

Cross conversation and bursts of laughter-

Too much wine and brisket!

Amazing people,

wonderful host and hostess-

A brilliant Hanukkah celebration!

I Love A Gingerbread Latte!

My Gingerbread Latte song, sung in the melody of Jingle Bells:

Gingerbread, gingerbread, gingerbread latte-

Oh what fun it is to sip while sitting here today- hey!

Gingerbread, gingerbread, gingerbread latte;

Oh what fun it is to drink at Starbucks in LA!

Dashing through the mall,

In a hurry to shop and pay;

Through the crowds I weave-

Raging all the way.

Tummy starts to growl,

Gotta get caffeine-

What fun it is to sit and watch-

The shoppers being mean!

Oh, gingerbread, gingerbread, gingerbread latte-

What fun it is to drink you up during Christmas in LA!

What Ever Happened To...

Customer service?

Is it just me, or is anyone else tired of paying way too much money, for way too little service!?!

If I spend one more minute wasted, listening to a prerecorded apology from a robot with elevator music playing in the background- I might go insane!

It's odd that we as a society don't make more noise about what these large companies are getting away with...

Why do I have to call my cable company to report an outage, only to be yelled at by a robot?

Aren't I the guy spending over one hundred dollars a month for their service?

Why can't they call me?

Why can't they program their stupid little automated machine to call us when they're providing shitty service?

I am so OVER outsourcing!

I'm so OVER repeating myself to a robot operator...

Oh, how I long for the days when you used to be able to get a real human on the phone!

Rage!

Really

Angry

Getting

Emotional!

Shopping to Do...

Shows to enjoy...

The holidays have arrived.

And I have no desire to spend any money!

I know, I know; "Bah humbug!"

But can you blame me (or anyone) in this economy?

I'm very grateful to have work right now-

But if the past two years has taught us anything, it's to save not spend.

Yet everywhere I look people are spending!

I guess it's a good sign... Maybe things are looking up.

Still, I think I'm going to be creative with my gift giving this year...

I'll give the gift of joy and laughter! ...and maybe I'll bring a bottle of cheap wine too!

Hey, it's better than a lump of coal.

Big Brother Is Watching You...

It's official, I'm socially tapped in to the world!

The thought that once terrified me and sent me into a week long panic attack after reading George Orwell's book Nineteen Eighty-Four, in Mr. Goff's senior English class has become my reality!

I'm now linked, cross linked, integrated and plugged into every possible social website out there.

If I need a trusted opinion about the latest and greatest restaurant I'm thinking about eating at I can Yelp it. If I need to get a table at said restaurant, I can OpenTable it. If I want to let all of my friends across the world know I'm eating at that restaurant I can Facebook Place it. If I want to share a picture of my meal with everyone I will Tweet it. When I want to encourage new contacts to try it, I'll post it to Linkedin. When I'm ready to rave about that place myself, I'll go back to Yelp and write a review. Finally, when I'm ready to talk about the whole experience, I'll write a blog post, and share with everyone through GoogleBuzz!

And when the government wants to know exactly where I am and what I'm doing, I've given them a detailed map; with digital photocopies, bookmarks of every point along the journey including (but not limited to) a time stamped entry, my own personal commentary and an all access pass to use this information however they want!

Isn't technology wonderful!

Relentless.

Once I get something in my mind,

all bets are off!

I'll do just about anything to make my vision a reality.

At times I may seem; overbearing, adamant, feisty, pushy, and high strung-

I admit I have type "A" personality traits.

I'm doing my best not to strive to be such and overachiever.

I'm no longer a perfectionist, instead I aim to do the best I can with each project so that I can release it into the universe and make space for a new dream.

Yes, I may be annoying at times.

But always with positive energy and a motivative smile!

I'm relentless- and proud of it!

Ginger Gets A Bath.

My little yorkie Ginger hates taking baths.

She'll scurry side to side like a little sewer rat.

The entire bathroom is covered with a layer of soapy, watery foam-

Finally the last of the shampoo is rinsed from her coat;

Wow! That took longer than either of us wanted it to...

Now comes the fun part-

The blow dryer!

The shaking and whining begins.

Despite her magnificent struggle,

my powerful, yet gentle and loving grasp wins!

The dryer works its warming magic-

The adorable and fluffy fur ball is sparkling clean.

She is ecstatic to have her well deserved cookie.

Peace is restored in her luxurious doggy life!

...until the next time.

Black Friday...

Or as I like to call it...

Love

Eating

Filling

Turkey and mashed potatoes!

Omg

Very

Excited! I'm so

Ready for:

Stuffing

Thankful on Thanksgiving.

I'm thankful for:

My faith and spiritual guidance.

My wonderful family and friends,

and for their health and unconditional love and support.

The amazing career I continue to cultivate.

The passion, drive and determination I find when I feel like giving up.

My home and all of the blessing inside.

The people who continue to inspire me to be a better person.

The adventures and opportunities that life continues to offer me.

The Macy's Thanksgiving Day Parade...

The delicious turkey, stuffing, mashed potatoes, gravy, buttermilk biscuits, squash casserole and pumpkin pie I will be devouring in about six hours.

A gym membership.

Happy Thanksgiving!

Six Word Essay on Holiday Decadence.

Overeating leads to a jiggly tummy!

Movie Madness!

My favorite part of Thanksgiving week, aside from:

Family, friends and food of course-

Is the holiday movies!!!

There are very few things in life that I luxuriate in as much as going to a movie...

I'm sure it has a lot to do with my childhood. Growing up, everyone in my family was always off in a different direction. Mom, dad, Shiree and me- never in the same place at the same time. That is to say, until Friday came along. Generally on Fridays, we would all come together for a "date night." Dinner and a movie!

So naturally, I became addicted to food and movies!

Anyway, I always enjoy this time of year, because this is generally when Hollywood pumps the theatres jam packed with big budget films they hope will gross millions and become OSCAR contenders.

Since I have the week off for Thanksgiving, I intend on watching as many of those block busters as I can!

So dim the lights, pump up the THX and bring on the popcorn!

So strange, the way life works.

One day you feel invincible, and the next,

you fear you're never going to accomplish another worthwhile thing in your life.

Release it;

Just let it go.

It's hard, I know-

Positive affirmations can feel cheesy or delusional.

Wondering, "What's the point?"

But inspiring how fast positive energy, creates positive action.

As much as I'd love to have a lifetime of constant happiness and success, I'm reminded:

"Happiness is a journey, not a destination."

It's frustrating that I can be so sure of myself and attain such wonderful things, and then buy into the disappointment while experiencing a "dry spell."

Nevertheless, we are programed to want more, do better, reach the top!

The question is, do you ever reach the top? And once you get there, then where do you go?

I think at some point you grasp that reaching one peak only means that you have a long trek back down the mountain, where a new challenge awaits: How to stay positive and focused as you begin the steep and rocky climb along whichever path you decided to explore next?

Let The Holidays Begin!

Woke up today with coffee and treats!

Next, no holiday week should start off without a festive movie...

Can you say: Harry Potter and The Deathly Hallows - Part 1

Then, a delicious brunch on Sunset Boulevard.

Later, a trip to the mall for some pre-holiday sales!

Followed by an overcrowded scavenger hunt through Trader Joe's for Thanksgiving groceries.

Finally, at home snuggled up on the couch in front of the Christmas tree drinking hot coco and getting ready to watch the latest version of A Christmas Carol!

Let the holidays begin!

In Fifteen Years... An Essay From The Past.

On a recent trip home to see my family, I discovered a box of my old school papers that my dad had tucked away for me in one of those plastic Rubbermaid storage boxes.
Of course my curious nature got the best of me and I decided to mill through it to see just how geeky a student I was. I spent most of my teenage years spread too thin. I was an overachiever in a major way. Between my dance and theatre training, Spanish club, drama club, student council, Boy Scouts and choir, I still found time to stress out about maintaining a 3.8 (or higher) GPA!
As I read through the essays, term papers and book reports, I was transported back in time. One part nostalgia, one part gratitude that I NEVER have to go back to high school!
Then, I came across an essay from my college prep English class circa 1996. The title "In Fifteen Years." I remember this class very well, as it was my first class of the school day and my teacher, Mr. Goff was brilliant. I read the essay and I was shocked-
I guess it shouldn't come as a surprise how well I knew myself. Even then.

Nevertheless, it's very validating to read a fortune cookie from the past, so to speak.
I thought I'd share the essay below. Although I'm re-typing it, I will make no changes to the words I wrote fourteen years ago.
The grammar may not be the best, but somethings will never change.

In Fifteen Years

As I approach the end of my senior year, I find myself thinking about where I will be in fifteen years. I have many goal that I would like to accomplish.

To begin, I see myself holding a successful career on Broadway. I would like to have a stable job, and name that is well known in the entertainment industry. I also see myself as a family man, I would like to have a strong bond with my wife, and children. Fifteen years from now, the most important thing in my life will not be money. However, I see myself as a wealthy man. I plan to live as well as teach dance, in New York City. My goal for the future, is to have a well rounded education. After high school, I plan on attending the American Musical and Dramatic Academy, in New York. There, I hope to receive an education that can take me far in my career. In years to come, I hope to gain success and a knowledge, that will help me become a leader of tomorrow. Most important to me however, is to be happy with my own life, in fifteen years, I feel that is the key to my goals in the years to come.

I find some small comfort in the fact that I'm living my life very much like I had envisioned it would be. Sure, there are some obvious differences- No wife or children, but I still have a year, and I still very much plan on the children. What I find most assuring is that on some small level, I have achieved my dreams. I've continued the journey toward the goals I set for myself so long ago, and despite the ups and downs that are par for the course of an actor, I'm incredibly happy.
Regardless of the lack of wealth I've yet to receive, I consider myself a success for the simple reason that I did not give up.
I will not give up on my dream. No matter how tough the journey gets, I know this immense passion pumping through my blood is there for a reason. I figure, if I was so sure of myself fifteen years ago... it's time to write a new essay with the same title: In Fifteen Years.

Holiday Excitement!

Twinkling lights line the streets.
Tree lots popping up on corners.
The smell of pine and cinnamon.
Hot chocolate, while walking along the festive faux streets at The Grove.
Holiday movies! ...I want to see them all this week!
The tree is up and decorated.
Christmas music playing in the back ground-
I wonder how long it's going to be charming?
Before the nasty shoppers ruin it for everyone...
Oh! I am so ready for a Gingerbread Latte!

One Word: (and a picture...)

Disneyland!

Overcomplicated.

Life is short.
It should not be overcomplicated-
A very wise man once told a dear friend of mine, "If you want to dance, dance. If you don't want to dance, don't dance."
...words to live by!

Releasing the Fear. Again.

I'm not sure where all the emotion is coming from lately?

I'm not experiencing any major life dramas.

I've managed to make it through this year without a lot of the fear and self-doubt that I've placed on myself in years past.

I know I'm not anxious about money or work, I've succeeded in staying out of debt and I have great jobs directing and choreographing theatre lined up through next summer, both despite this awful economy.

My relationship is thriving. My career is on track, and I feel like I've grown as an artist and a person in 2010.

Yet I cannot shake this uneasy feeling in my stomach.

I've spent the better part of this year doing everything in my power to move through the setbacks, negative energy and fear. I said yes to whatever adventure came toward me, and because of it, I found myself working with creative people on television and film.

My partner and I created a hit YouTube parody that caught the attention of the Bravo network and one of its reality stars.

I've stayed healthy and in shape- Plus, I continue to "check in" with myself; who I am and what I want to accomplish.

Nevertheless, I still feel like I'm not doing enough!

I'm positive this feeling should be categorized as "Fear and Self-doubt." Even so, I maintain the idea that I should be doing more.

Over-achiever? Perfectionist? Realist? ...or am I just another victim of the conception that you can never rest.

I don't want to go through life always thinking I need to do more, more, more! I hope to enjoy the fruits of my labor from time to time too. I guess my fear is that, if I don't push myself daily, I will float through life, and turn around at seventy years old, wondering why "it" never happened.

So I'm forced to constantly remind myself that "it" is happening everyday, and has been my entire adult life. I'm aware that I have a wonderful life. I've enjoyed an amazing career up until now, and I don't take that for granted.

This year especially, I've witnessed the power of positive energy and action. I made it a point to release the doubt, by focusing on an action that could change the path that the fear was headed. In every instance this year, it has worked.

Moreover, the bold steps in allowing my authentic (for lack of a better word, thanks to Oprah) self to shine, has reminded me that who I am is what makes me special. Something I've always felt inside, but with few exceptions, been too afraid of what others might think to unleash it.

What was I scared of? Standing out? Isn't that what I've been working so hard to do?

I guess I'm feeling so uneasy now, because a part of me wonders if I'll be able to continue this inspired state of mind into the new year. If I did so well in 2010, will I be able to top that?

But even as I write the words, and hear them bouncing around in my head, I see how ludicrous this notion is.

Everything in my past has illustrated that my life as a person and artists continues to evolve. There will be setbacks, I'm sure. How I respond to them is up to me.

There's a dark voice that plays in the back of my mind from time to time saying, "What if you don't book another job? What if you don't make it? What if you're forty-five and broke?"

For too long, that voice held me back from unleashing my true potential.

But the spirit inside of me is a fighter, and the flame that was re-lit in my soul is doing everything in its power to reach the darkest crevices in my subconscious- to shine that light and blind the self-doubt that serves no purpose.

"Your playing small doesn't serve the world. There's nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you" -Marrianne Williamson

Beside, the only thing in life to fear, is a missed opportunity!

Six Word Essay on Thanksgiving.

You can never have enough stuffing!

Sunday Coma.

The problem with spending all day Saturday eating and drinking,

is waking up Sunday in a food and alcohol coma-

Detox is necessary!

Saturday Meatball Dinner...

Rose's are red,

Violet's are blue,

My meatballs will rock;

The socks off of you!

There's nothing I love more than grandma's home cooking.

But I will admit- I make a damn good meatball!

...my friends would vouch for me, but they're all too busy shoving their faces.

Fall Down Seven Times Get Up Eight.

Fall down seven times get up eight.

This is a Buddhist quote that I try to live by...

I'll admit, it's not always easy. However, I imagine the people who follow this zen idea, accomplish a lot more than the average Joe.

Similar to a boxer, you don't want to stay down for the count... I'm pretty sure the goal is to get up and finish the fight.

There was a moment yesterday when I was knocked down. I continued the fight. But I did so from the floor.

After a night of sleep and clear head this morning, I decided to get back up and try again.

It's not easy. Especially because I think I achieved the success yesterday. Unfortunately, I'm not always the one that gets to make that call.

So, here's to the Buddhist- May getting up this time (somewhere around four thousand eight hundred and eighty-five) be the time that I conquer the world!

Annoyed!

Angry.

Pissed off.

Annoyed!

There's nothing worse than a disagreement between people that have completely polar views-

Especially when emotions are already high...

I hate going to bed upset!

Follow the Leader...

Remember the good ol' days when adults would ask us, "If Tommy jumped off a cliff, would you follow him?" After we'd been caught doing something insane, and blamed it on someone else.

I can't even recall how many times I heard a phrase like, "be a leader, not a follower."

But now, with the progress of social networks and websites like Twitter, children and adults across the country are being encouraged and rewarded for being a "follower."

"Follow me on Twitter" is now a phrase that you see on every website, television commercial, newscast- hell, even my dentist wants me to "follow" him! Don't get me wrong, I'm guilty of it too!

I just had to stop and think about it for a moment today- The only place that following people is considered "cool" is on Twitter, and with roughly fifty million tweets per day, I'm wondering, where are all the leaders?

Ever Notice...

The closer we get to a due date, the faster the time passes?
Like my US history term paper, senior year. I knew I had three months to complete it. I was excited when I began working on it. I spent hours at the library researching and writing outlines. Then, distractions entered the scene; parties, theatre rehearsals, homework from other classes and an after school job. Before I knew it, I had a week left to turn in the paper, and only half the work was completed.
It's hard to believe that tonight's post marks entry number three hundred and thirteen!
With just under two months left with my goal of writing a blog entry a day, I'm fascinated that in many respects, it feels like I started this adventure last week.
Then again, there are moments when I've gone back and reread some of the entries from the beginning of the year, and it seems like those experiences I write about happened a lifetime ago-
I suppose life is funny that way. We're meant to experience things as they happen.
"Live in the moment."
Often we succeed-
Sometimes we fail.
When we first set out to accomplish something, the energy and spirit motivate us to push through all of the road blocks, jump all the hurdles and climb steadily up the hill. Soon, fatigue sets in. We get discouraged. At times, we spend a little too much time looking back, and then we stumble and fall.
As painful as it can be to accept, there is no way to rewind time. Nor can we slow it down.
However, in keeping this blog, I've come to terms with appreciating where I am on my journey.
I've had good days, and bad days. There have been times when I've had nothing to say, and I forced myself to write anyway.
This blog idea started out as a way for me to stay proactive in my career. Focusing on positive energy and creativity.
Ultimately, I'm beyond proud of myself.
What I've gained from keeping this promise to myself, is the ability to take a moment every single day, and focus on being present. A task that is very tricky for me. I've spent too much of my life feeling sad about the past and worrying about the future.
I used to cry every year on New Year's Eve. I never understood why? I think from a very early age, I was aware of just how fast time escapes us. Despite the fact that I can already hear the people lining up in Times Square to ring in the New Year-
I'm confident that 2010 was the first year of my life up until this very moment, that I lived everyday to its potential.

Six Word Essay on "To Do" Lists...

I need to stop the OCD!

Heavenly Horizon

I love Los Angeles. This view from my balcony is proof enough for me that heaven exists.

Football, Friends and Food!

Sun is golden, skies are blue;

Crisp chill in the air, just to remind you it's fall.

Carpool to the stadium with friends,

Taco trucks, gourmet burgers and cocktails-

the tailgate parties are more like parking lot stadium bistro's.

Funny stories, crazy competitions and old school networking...

The spirit of USC is in the air.

Kick-off.

We tipsily make our way into the coliseum.

More drinks?

Of course.

Football, friends and food!

I love Saturdays.

Friday Already?!?

Did you ever notice that some weeks feel like they drag on forever-

then there are those, where you turn around and you can't believe it's Friday?

The past week went way too fast for me!

Don't get me wrong, I love the weekend as much as the next guy...

However, I'm not wishing days away either.

I already feel like there is not enough time to accomplish everything I'd like in a week- let alone a lifetime.

That being said, I was able to finish several projects this week. Plus, despite having rehearsals and meetings in completely different directions, I managed to cross off everything on my "To Do" list! ...even though I'm trying really hard not to make "To Do" lists.

I guess I'm just going to have to accept that I'm a type 'A' personality. No matter how hard I fight it, there is going to be a part of me that wants to overachieve. Which can work out to my advantage, as long as I can forgive myself on those days where I accomplish absolutely nothing!

Daily Reminders 101

No matter how many times I've been taught and then learned, that everything works out in the end... I continue to forget the formula and research in the middle of the test.

Today, I was reminded yet again, that as long as I stay positive and focused on creating work and opportunities- the end result will be a success.

I'll never truly understand why we torture ourselves into fear, doubt and negative thought...

If my faith, friends, family and career have taught me anything, it's that I have always received exactly what I need, precisely when I need it!

It's so easy to be on the top of the mountain looking back from where you came from and think, "That wasn't so bad, and just look at what I accomplished..."

One of my main goals for 2010 was to recognize that moment, in the midst of the climb.

Though I think I've done a better job this year, than in any other year of my life-

Today I realized that I'm still a Freshman in this school of life, and the course I have to pass once and for all is Daily Reminders 101: Release the fear and doubt and trust it will all work out!

I Love Projects Like This:

From time to time I'm fortunate enough to work on a very cool project.

Several months back I was asked to choreograph an episode of the new hit television show

Childrens Hospital on [adult swim] Sunday's at midnight.

The show has an all-star cast including Malin Akerman, Megan Mullally and Rob Corddry. Directed by the hilarious and talented; writer, actor, director, producer, genius- David Wain.

I'm pleased to share the scene I choreographed for the episode, "Hot Enough For You?" as an homage to Spike Lee's film Do The Right Thing:

Another Day, Another Parody...

Since our Real Housewives of New York parodies have done so well,

we decided to go after the big guns!

(Though we may have to relocate in the witness protection program...)

You never know what connections those crazy women from New Jersey have!

According to Danielle Staub we may have to watch our back-

Oh well! We'll take our chances!

Please enjoy: The Real Housewives of New Jersey Parody!

The Never Ending Quest...

To stay focused, creative and relentless-

The battle to continue the slow, steady climb along the steep, narrowing path to the next ledge is exhausting.

Once you've reached that bench mark on the horizon, you realize you're no where near the peak;

The goal looks so close, and yet you know the worn down trail ahead will continue to surprise you.

Still, your drive and determination to reach the top will force you onward and up that rocky new terrain.

But I know the view will be amazing from the top-

So I just have to continue to find the strength.

You can't turn back when you've invested this much.