Check List.

I always feel so much better when I give myself goals.
Yoga- Check.
Laundry- Check.
Give my dogs a haircut- Check.
Get a hair cut- Check.
Finish two writing projects- Check.
Clean the house- Check.
Connect with social media to maintain online presence- Check.
It's lame I know, but I just get such piece of mind when I can look down and see where my day went.
Now if you'll excuse me,
I need a drink!

Creativity In Full Force...

Nonstop thoughts racing in my head.

Creative energy spinning out of control.

Ideas galore.

Now, where to find the time and money.

Both are out there within my grasp-

The momentum is building.

Now, how to utilize it in the right way?

Still climbing up the path.

The top is nowhere in sight.

I know it's up there,

My head is still in the clouds.

Looking forward to the day the path clears.

Just in time to realize it's time to start on a new adventure.

Happiness comes to me most when I am focused on the beautiful journey I've had so far.

True Blood Season 4

Waiting sucks! But thanks to A Group Production, the wait is over!
I'm pleased to present True Blood The Parody - Fairy Land:

WE always have a blast making parodies of our favorite television shows and movies. But I must admit, making this one was off the charts! Our cast including Jeff Payton, James Snyder and Beckie King rocked it out! However, the genius Amy Claire stole the show as Sookie!
Hope you enjoy!

What You Risk, Reveals What you Value...

People will suck you dry if you let them.
I'm not even talking about vampires...
Although we did just wrap on our latest project, True Blood The Parody! I will be posting it here soon.
While that rocks, one of my contract jobs does not.
I am done with shady business owners who think that they can do whatever they want without consequences.
For too long I've held my tongue and worried that I would ruin my reputation if I spoke out against an injustice in
the work place...
Now I realize the only thing hurting my reputation, is indifference.
Everyone has a voice. Some people choose not to use theirs.
I am not that person.
The bull$hit ends tomorrow!

Total Slacker!

I have been a total slacker!
I'm guilty of giving in to the summer temptations.
Sleeping in that extra hour. Eating that extra bowl of chips and salsa. Drinking that extra margarita. Skipping the extra sets in my workout routine. Spending less time working on my creative projects-
And now it's starting to catch up on me!
It's strange how quickly, gluttonous behavior turns into self hate...
I loath feeling out of shape.
I despise feeling uncreative.
I rage when feeling unproductive!
But I can't stand feeling helpless and hopeless either-
So enough of the complaining.
Time to refocus. I still have plenty of summertime fun ahead.
There are twenty-four hours in a day.
Definitely enough time to get shit done, stay creative and chug a lite beer!
B-A-L-A-N-C-E

Under Construction...

I guess I just have to accept that my life will always be like this.
I am a true work in progress.
Similar to the 405 Freeway in Los Angeles, I doubt that I will reach completion before my time on earth is up!
Every time I hit a pothole, I'm reminded that there will always be a need for resurfacing.
There are those days when everything clicks and falls right into place.
Then there are those days when I have to force myself into releasing my insecurities, and hope for the best.
I see the humor in an actor reminding himself to pretend to have a good day, even when everything feels overwhelming.
But the fact is, life can be as easy or as difficult as we make it- based on the choices we make.
When I choose to stay calm, focused and confident wonderful things happen.
It's easy to be happy living a full and balanced life when I'm thinking clearly-
Now if I could pay more attention to the road signs along my freeway of life.
Stop, when I see stop. Go, when I see go. Release, when I see release. Trust, when I see trust.
And remain clam when it's been a while since the last sign...
The destination is always clear when you keep the faith.

Six Word Essay on Pride

Life is short- live OUT loud!

Just Another Manic Monday...

It's only Monday, and I can already tell that it's going to be an overwhelming week...
I just returned to Los Angeles after a visit home to spend time with my family.
The trip was a bittersweet reunion for me.
I was thrilled that my sister went out of her way to make sure I got to spend a lot of quality time with my little baby niece. The bond that I have with my sister is stronger than ever. Definitely sweet!
The bitter part came in several doses. All of which are too difficult to discuss right now.
So for now, I'm giving my best effort to focus on the goodness in my life, and remind myself that Mondays can be tough sometimes. Especially after an already emotional vacation with family!

What's All The Gossip About?!?

What's more hilarious than a Star Jones sex tape?
A Group Production's latest parody!
This is by far my favorite video that we've created to date!
We even wrote, produced and performed two original songs for this one!
I hope you'll all enjoy:
Gossip Girl The Parody!

The Art of Balance

June is in the air-
Six months into 2011, the time is dancing by.
So far I'm pleased with the progress I've had.
It's always a challenge to live each day with the same energy, enthusiasm and passion.
I'm grateful for the days that everything clicks.
One of my largest goals over the past year and a half, has been to live everyday to my greatest potential.
For the most part, I believe I've successfully accomplished that feat.
Tonight I'm heading back to Los Angeles, after a much needed visit with my family.
I know I'm still on track, because as painful as it is to leave my beautiful little niece and the rest of my family, I am eager to get back to work on my creative projects.
Hopefully, in the very near future, I will be able to visit my family a lot more often.
Until then, I'm thankful that I have reached a level of peace in my heart at the sacrifices I make in order to live up to my true potential.
Living a full life requires a blend of compromise and balance that I'm feeling much more confident about living!

I Hate Goodbyes!

Tonight I had to say goodbye to my little peanut Kellyn.
I never imagined the utter joy I'd get from holding my niece in my arms.
Her beautiful blue eyes, always cheerful disposition and contagious smile-
One look at her and my heart melts.
From the second she entered this world, she had me wrapped around her precious finger.
She knows it too!
I guess there are worse things in the world than smothering my niece with love, kisses and made up nursery rhymes...
Isn't that what Italian Godfathers are for?
Now, if only I could convince my sister to move to LA so that I could spoil her on a daily basis!

Vacation Please!

Vacations can be tricky,
On the one hand, the whole point of a vacation is to escape the day to day life-
To relax, unwind and turn your brain off.
Then there are those vacations where you travel to lush destinations, take in the sights, eat fabulous food and spend too much money shopping galore.
But the most challenging vacations for me are the trips home to be with family.
Of course I'm so happy to see my loved ones.
Still, there are layered emotions and constantly changing dynamics that turn my universe into a whirlwind.
I exhaust the majority of my time stressing out about spending the same amount of quality time with each of my relatives. The remaining time is focused on helping out with little projects.
Any down time is filled with me on my iPhone trying to stay connected to my life back in Los Angeles.
No matter how hard I try to relax and let go of the voice in my head telling me to do more,
I'm left feeling overwhelmed and longing for a vacation from my vacation...
Alas- the minute my trip is over and I return home, I find myself missing my family.

Number One Reason To Come Home

When I first moved away from home, I struggled from major withdrawal.
I was so attached to my family, and though I had my mind set on building my career, I just hated being so far away from them.
I couldn't wait for a holiday, graduation or wedding to have an excuse to return home.
As the years passed the trips home got more complicated- Naturally, I evolved into an independent individual. The family dynamic changes.
It's painful to see grandparents grow older.
Cousins begin having kids of their own.
Parents get remarried...
And everyone wants their way, but no one wants to compromise. It becomes a battle not to fight.
Then the moment comes-
You get a phone call from your sister, and you find out that you're going to be an Uncle!
Then the joyous day comes... I'm officially an uncle.
Not to mention, I was asked to be my beautiful niece's godfather!
Coming home becomes magically again!
Yes, it's still a challenge battling the urge not to argue with family, or the heartache of watching loved ones get older, but my little niece has become my number one reason to come home more often!
I'm mean how can I resist this:

Life Lessons 101

Nothing can live up to the memory you have from the original experience;
So rather than holding on to the past, I have to force myself to be present in this moment!

I Finally Get It...

I always thought I knew exactly what my purpose was on this earth.

I have faith in God that I was put here for a reason.  

I have faith in myself that I could take the passion, determination and talent I posses and

use it to impact the lives of others.

My mistake was in believing that the only way I could make a difference was once I had achieved my

highest goal.

What finally clicked today, (and I admit it was entirely because of Oprah's last show) was that I have had an impression on every person that I have ever interacted with- and they on me.

Until today, I believed that I was living a full life-

I gave myself permission to shine a long time ago and I honestly thought I had been doing just that ever since.  

But I have not.

There was still a piece of me holding back. 

I was waiting to be validated.  

But I was seeking it from the wrong places.

Fame, money and recognition is not validation.

It is fame, money and recognition.

Today it became clear.  My life has been filled with validation.

In every job I've been blessed with, every bond that I've made, every smile I've shared, every journey and wild adventure has been a validation of my life.

Today I will stop waiting for the perfect opportunity to make a difference, and I will work to make a difference in every opportunity.

A Weekend Induldged!

Woke up after a wild Friday night out-
Enjoyed a glass full of the hair of the dog...
Off to brunch!
Stuffed my face with delicious food prepared by amazing friends.
Four bottles of champagne, because one is not enough!
The rapture, the rapture... Nope, not yet.
Time for celebration!
The drinking continued until mid-day Sunday.
I guess that's why my pants won't button up.
Totally worth it!
The world didn't end, but my indulgence has to!

Gossip Girl Parody...

 A Group Production, just wrapped on our latest parody.

This time we decided to get wild and crazy like only New York's hottest, most outrageous and scandalicious socialites can get in our Gossip Girl Parody!

Coming very soon...

But for now, I'll leave you with a few steamy photos of the outlandish sexcapades that only Gossip Girl had the inside scoop on! 

Dan and Serena In Central Park

Chuck and Little Jenny Humphrey

Looks like the gang is back up to their dirty little tricks...

xoxo

On My Career...

I've finally wrapped my mind around the idea that this career that chose me,

this passion that I have- may take another ten years to fully blossom.

And I'm okay with that.

It's no longer about the fame, attention or the money-

I've dedicated most of my life to a dream that I've had since I was eight years old.

To pretend that I would be happy doing anything else is wasted energy.

I'm proud of the journey I've had so far.

So bring it on!

Bring on more auditions that don't lead to anything.

Bring on more opportunities that fall through.

Bring on that bank account that hovers around one hundred dollars.

I'm not afraid of the life I lead anymore-

I've embraced the amazing adventures I've had.

More important, I've learned how to maintain a balanced life when the ride comes to an end.

Plus, I'm really great at seeking out a new expedition.

I've invested a lifetime of hard work, passion and sacrifice-

The reward is that my childhood dream is blooming into a reality.

Life: Up and Down

Life really is like a roller coaster. One minute you're on the top of the world, and in less than thirty seconds your back on the ground, sitting with your heart in your throat.

It's amazing how fast your perception of life can change-

I've been in pure bliss for the past two weeks;

From the wonderful adventures with my friends who were in town from New York, and the quality time I've had with my friends in Los Angeles-

To the amazing opportunities I've had to choreograph and create on television. In addition to the success that our parodies are achieving on-line...

I've been riding a ten foot wave.

And in one phone call my body comes crashing down with the surf.

Without going into great detail, I received a troubling phone call yesterday regarding my sisters health.

My sister, Shiree was diagnosed with cancer about five years ago, and after several rounds of treatment, we were all so elated that she beat it! Having been healthy and cancer free for over two years, the next miracle came when we found out Shiree was pregnant.

On December 15, 2010 my sister gave birth to a beautiful, healthy baby girl!

So when I found out that my sisters health took a turn for the worse, I instantly went to a dark place.

It's such a challenge to stay focused on positive energy and not give into the fear and doubt. Especially when it's my sisters life I'm talking about.

I want my sister to be well. Shiree has waited her whole life to be a mother- and from the second that baby entered our lives, my sister has focused on giving her unconditional love.

The thought of losing my sister or imaging life without her, kills me.

Yet I know that it is in this moment when my faith should be stronger than ever.

It's easy to be grateful and keep the faith when everything is magical and effortless.

The fear, doubt and negativity is much easier to give into. But that darkness will only lead to more destruction.

Thankfully, I was able to talk to my Grandma Shaffer (who celebrates her 75th birthday today) and I was reminded that energy is better spent focusing on what we can do, not what we can't.

Of course there is a large piece of me that feels selfish for living so far away from my family. For being unable to share in more of their day to day lives.

I would love to laugh with my sister, hold my niece on a daily basis, have coffee with my mom, go on a bike ride with my dad or just show up to Sunday dinner with my whole family.

However, I also believe that each of us has a path. A purpose on this earth. And I trust that we are lead on a journey that was designed specifically for us. If we can fulfill our lives on the deepest level, then we are more effective at helping others on their path.

Often I wonder if I'm too carefree with my approach to life.

Then I remember how long I struggled when I allowed fear and doubt to dictate how I lived from day to day-

The second I released all of those destructive thoughts, I was ready to see all of the amazing things that surround me.

I can be upset about things that happen in life, but that isn't going to change the outcome. The only way to truly change any outcome is to change the way you approach it.

The day before my Grandpa Shaffer passed away, he was laying in his hospital bed.

He knew he was dying, and yet he kept his sense of humor and wit.

He didn't cry. He didn't fight it. He had already spent five years battling cancer. He just enjoy his final days with his family surrounding him. He was a brilliant man.

I stood there crying over him. I was not ready to lose him.

He looked up, smiled and said,

"Don't be sad, Matt. I am so proud of you. I've had a good life."

That's when I decided to change my outlook.

On the phone this morning with my grandma, she said something to me that she would say all of the time while I was growing up,

"Nothing is in our control."

For a long time I would disagree with her when she said that. I believed we could change or control our lives-

But now I realize, the only thing we can control is our ability to make a choice.

The choice to seek out the positive energy, love and faith.

Or

The choice to give into fear and doubt.

Happy Cinco de Mayo!

Today my birthday celebration continues! ...and why not?

It's Cinco de Mayo! Which is basically a holiday created in honor of the fact that the Mexicans unexpectedly conquered the French at the Battle of Puebla.

I'm almost positive that no one in Mexico celebrates it, but in the grand tradition of the United States of America- we look to this day as a chance to raise a margarita and celebrate with our amigos south of the boarder!

So grab a poncho, break out the Latin music and line up the tequila shots... it's time for a fiesta!

Seriously though, I'm having such a wonderful week.

As I've mentioned many times in past entries, I never imagined what my life would be like past thirty.

I'm officially thirty-three years old and I am overwhelmed with gratitude. I know how cliche it sounds, but my faith has never been stronger. Honestly, I'm in total ecstasy with the friends, family, adventures and opportunities that I have been blessed with in my life.

If my life ended tomorrow- I would go as a happy man who was fortunate enough to live a life beyond my wildest expectations.

But as long as my journey continues- I plan on blazing forward into the dark unknown with the same fearless attitude that has served me so well up to this point in my life!

On that note... I think it's time for another margarita!

Overwhelmed With Love On My Birthday!

I love a celebration.

It doesn't really matter what the occasion, I am always ready to party like a rock star.

So you can imagine how I feel today-

Today is my 33rd Birthday.

I never thought I'd be so excited about getting another year older once I turned thirty.

But recently it occurred to me:

Birthdays are like a smelly cheese or a delicious bottle of wine...

With age comes a rich flavor, bold confidence and refined restraint.

Plus, you're worth more!

This year, my birthday month (Yes, birthday month) started off on a high note!

The month began with a pre-birthday visit from two of my closest friends from New York City.

While they were here, we went to a Dodgers game, hung out at the beach and ate at every amazing restaurant under the sun!

Also during their stay, I found out that The Real Housewives of New York Season 4 Parody made the Boston Herald as the number 1 video to watch! Above the boys from the Jackass movies!

Then, I was asked to choreograph a video for The Cartoon Network featuring Lil P-Nut and Haunted by Heroes. Which was a total blast. Aside from the fact that we were shooting a throw back version of Steven Tyler and Run-D.M.C.'s "Walk This Way" circa 1986...

I was thrilled that I was able to bring my New York friends to the sound stage and share with them a slice of my life while they were in Los Angeles.

But today was the icing on my birthday cake-

I woke up this morning to an overwhelming chain of birthday wishes on Facebook.

Honestly, I couldn't believe how moved I was to wake up and see so many beautiful messages for my birthday from all of my friends old and new!

It's like my Grandma Shaffer always reminds me;

"Make new friends,

But keep the old,

New ones are silver.

Old ones are gold."

Today I feel like the most blessed man alive. I have the career I've always dreamed of.

A family who gives me unconditional love and support...

and there is no greater gift in the world, than the friendships I've made throughout my life.

To all of my friends, old and new- thank you for sharing your love and energy with me!

The Real Housewives of New York City Parody Season 4

This is our eighth parody from A Group Production, LLC.
I think by far our best to date.
I'm proud of this parody for several reasons; we wrote, produced and shot this parody in exactly one week, the entire cast was only available to shoot together for two hours because of scheduling conflicts and in our first day up on YouTube, we had over 1,500 views!
Not too bad- thanks to help from our Real Housewife and fan Jill Zarin, who shared our parody on her Facebook and Twitter account!
In fact, even Sonja Morgan shared this parody with her fans!
It's such a cool feeling to create something fun with a group of our talented actor friends and release it and have it be so well received. Granted we don't have our own television show yet... but believe me, it's not from not trying!

Becoming Me.

There is nothing greater than a perfect moment of clarity.

Everything in my life syncs seamlessly with the Universe-

A flash of warmth surrounds my body,

I'm calm and more alive than ever all at the same time.

I look in the mirror and stare at my reflection like I have a million times before

throughout my life;

This time I saw something new.

I recognized the change,

and laughed at the irony.

I spent so long fighting, even after I stopped hiding-

But now the time is right.

It makes perfect sense- I am becoming who I'm truly meant to be.

Now the real fun begins!

Goodbye 32. Hello 33.

I will be thirty three in less than two weeks, and I've never been more proud of the growth that I've made in one year of my life. Not just on a professional level, but on a personal plane too.
Looking back on the past fifteen years of my life I'm finally able to recognize that my journey so far has been filled with amazing opportunities, adventures and unexpected blessings.
Very few people are an overnight success in any field, obviously the entertainment industry is no exception.
Achieving my goals in this business has proven tough, yet promising. I've spent my entire adult life, and most of my youth with one objective-
Though it has taken longer than I imagined it would while daydreaming in seventh grade History class, I can finally see the manifestation of my goals.
I have spent the past decade and a half on a journey bringing me a step closer to my realization every day.
When I turned thirty I decided that I had a new decade to conquer. A new opportunity to live a more balanced life. Rather than focusing on the things I hadn't yet accomplished on my check list- I decided to throw the check list out and try a new approach. One that involved using my past achievements and experience to my advantage.
Rather than continuing to fight for my chance to be pulled off the bench, I decided to quit the team and start my own.
This time around, I'd allow myself to trust MY game plan. Play by my rules. Most important, I'd stop trying so hard to be a halfback, when I was born to be a forward.
I had already accomplished so much in my life. Yet I still didn't feel like I'd lived up to my true potential. So what did I have to lose?
I remembered that fifteen year old boy who was fearless. I knew that he was still somewhere inside me... Dying, because I had allowed myself to buy in to the idea that I should be worried.
The instant that I released EVERY insecurity and removed all doubt, the path was revealed.
A thought occurred to me- stop waiting for others to help. Get out there and ask for what you want! Don't worry about what they'll think of you or if they say no.
If they're in a position that can really help, they most likely got there the same way.
Anyone who has ever accomplished greatness in their life, did so because they took action instead of succumbing to fear.
Sure enough, the past two years have lead to tremendous growth for me as an artist and human.
I feel like I'm living a life beyond the dreams I had as a kid.
I always thought I was living "in the moment." Until I woke up from my daydream and began to experience the greatness in my life while it was happening.
I truly understand the wisdom in the following quote which was shared with me along time ago by an important person in my life:

"I have seperated with no thought of going back. I know something special is happening, I think my wings are unfolding. But I cannot yet see that I am flying."

- Soul Stories by Gary Zukav

I look forward to soaring in my thirty-third year of life!

Overachiever

My mind is racing-
I'm unable to unplug.
Focusing on a million things at once.
Ridiculous, I know how it ends-
It always works out.
Close your eyes,
Take a deep breath,
Release it.
Leave something for tomorrow,
and enjoy the rest of today...
Tomorrow may or may not arrive!

Exploitation At It's Finest... Toddlers & Tiaras The Parody

Glitter, rhinestones, pageant gowns and a flipper...

I'm pleased to present the latest project from A Group Production:

Toddlers & Tiaras The Parody

The Fifty Yard Dash!

I woke up feeling a little sad and overwhelmed.

Adamant about not spending my entire day in a funk,

I started writing in my journal.

It's a daily battle for me to remember that life is not a race-

Although, sometimes I think I would accomplish twice as much if I carried

around a stopwatch and a whistle!

Bound To Stand Out!

I've been an avid journal writer since I realized during my senior year of high school that unlike people- journals don't talk back!
You can write your deepest fears, share your greatest dreams and talk about whoever you want, and your journal continues to offer unconditional support in the form of a blank page.
Because I'm a creature of habit and suffer from my own self diagnosed OCD in addition to my slight need for perfection, I have used the same black hardcover bound sketch books as my journal for the past ten (or more) years.
My close friends and family know how much I love to write, and because of this, I'm showered with beautiful journals for Christmas, birthdays and special occasions.
As much as I love the sentiment, it strikes me as odd that while people realize that I love a journal, it never occurred to them that I'm always writing in the same black books.
So I have a box full of beautiful leather bound journals in lavish colors. Some are embossed with encouraging quotes. Others have gold lined pages. All of them sit empty, sad that I share my dreams with the same black book day after day. Month after month. Year after year.
Today marks a frighting new day for me...
Call it a whim or call it what it is- I haven't been able to get to the art supply store where I buy my black sketch books, and I've been journal-less for the better part of two weeks.
Desperate to write and create, I decided to go for it!
I picked a cool distressed brown leather journal with gold lined pages that was given to me as a birthday present over four years ago.
I spent all of last year pushing myself to be more adventurous and allow my inner light to shine- and it paid off in amazing ways!
Then it dawned on me: I'm spending so much time and energy fighting to be nothing but Me! I'm working to share all of my special qualities and talents that separate me from everyone else-
But I can't even share my deepest feelings and creativity in anything other than a plain black book, that sits on a shelf along side all of the other boring black books filled with my wildest dreams and thoughts?
How sad.
Here I am striving to be comfortable allowing myself to shine everyday... And I keep my creative thoughts stacked up on a bookshelf in a military like uniformity?!?
So, as difficult as it is for me to break tradition, I'm proud that I just wrote ten pages in my beautiful brown leather journal!
Once this journal is full, it will sit on that bookshelf in line with all the black journals that came before it, and every time I glance over and see it, I will remember that April 8, 2011 was when I fully realized that some things are just born to stand out! So I should stop fighting so hard to fall in line!

That's A Wrap!

Just wrapped another parody!

This time we tackled the world of glitz, glamor and glitter that is Toddlers & Tiaras!

It might be the most disturbing and intoxicating show on television.

I'm fascinated that parents will go to such extreme lengths to expose their three year old for a minute of stage time!

But since they do- we might as well exploit the exploitation!

Stage moms. Gay dads. Diva toddlers.

I'm pretty sure we covered every stereotype!

It was such a blast working with my talented friends!

Just another reminder of how lucky I am that I get to wake up each day and do what I love...

I can't wait until we've finished editing the footage!

It's going to be a blast!

Focused

Focused.

Working hard to produce results.

Creativity is flowing.

Positive energy and action.

Excited for new adventures.

Definite goals in sight-

Open to new opportunities too!

The journey is the main goal.

Faith that I will end up where I'm meant to.

Zen Beach Day

Once in a while I have to allow myself to take a break from the self-inflicted nonstop hustle.

It's very easy in Los Angeles to slip through the cracks...

Or worse, stand by and watch as the life you were meant to have is realized by someone else, while you're out playing in the sun.

When I started out on my own, I spent every ounce of time focused on my career. I had fun, however, I never truly allowed myself to let go and enjoy the adventures that life has to offer. As I got a little older, and more years of professional experience under my belt, I was more comfortable with the idea that not every day had to be work, work, work.
Then, when my Gramps died, I decided to re-prioritize my life. I know that I can live a full life in the short amount of time we have. I know that balance is the key ingredient for a life well lived.
I believe there is a time for work and a time for play. I'm proud that I've been able to apply that idea for the past two years with amazing success.
Last night, after a beautiful day at the beach, I started to give into the fear, doubt and insecurity that tells us that we can't enjoy a day off. I started to wonder if I was doing enough for my career. I began to panic.
Instead of continuing down that path of dark thoughts, I picked up my iPhone and watched the 30 second video I shot with my friends at the beach early that day...
Instantly I was calm. I remembered I have a great life, that I cannot take for granted.

My Zen Beach Day:

Bored On A Wednesday...

What to do when you're bored on a random Wednesday? Invite all your creative friends over to read sonnets!
...There may have been some light drinking involved!



I think my friend and brilliant comedienne Amy Claire nailed this sonnet:

My Drug of Choice-

I'm thrilled that Nurse Jackie is back!
The show is outstanding.
The writing is brilliantly delivered by an all-star cast!
Nurse Jackie is a narcotic and I'm an addict!

I'm Obsessed with TwitVid's!

There is no denying it! I'm officially obsessed with TwitVid's! Clearly it's true. I'm using a made up word to make it sound like it's a normal thing and everyone should start doing it!
Not in a crazy "drug pusher" kind of way- I just believe it's where society is headed.
Obviously I'm correct in thinking so.

People like Charlie Sheen, James Franco and Kirstie Alley are on board, so it must be a good choice. Once the crazy celebrities, gays and Scientologist are involved it's a sure thing!

Not to mention my friend Brooke just got back from SXSW and she said that the buzz on the scene was that Tweeting pictures: TwitPik's and Tweeting Videos: TwitVid's is going to revolutionize the entertainment industry and social media will rule the world!

(I'm not sure if that was her exact quote, but it was something like that...)

And trust me, Brooke knows her shit! So I want to get in on the ground up...

Even if it is driving my friends insane! What's a little insanity in the name of building an empire?

Take my friend- Former celebrity and future Reality TV star:

Michael Cornacchia- he understands the importance of social media:

Of course not everything may be worthy of a TwitVid...

Fortunately, Michael is a professional- so he's always got a great story up his sleeve to bring the crowds back around...

There's no telling how long this infatuation I have with Tweeting short videos that have no point is going to last. But I can promise, like any great addiction, I'm going to enjoy the hell out of it! Filming random drunk moments, celebrity encounters and every other fabulous opportunities that arise in Los Angeles... and I vow to share only the best of the best at FunnyShaffer on Twitter.

Tug of War! A Puppy Ballet

Some dogs enjoy performing ballet...

...others enjoy sleeping through it!

Family Feud

I started the following entry three nights ago, after a phone conversation with my mom went down hill, fast. I've spent the past two days in a gloomy state of mind and really want to move past it!

When I originally sat down to write the blog entry I was unable to completely explore my feelings. They were too fresh, and I was too upset at the way I handled the situation.

Now, I realize I have no desire to rehash the conversation that took place.

Regardless of how hurt I was at the decision my mom made that lead to the blow up, I wish that I would have swallowed my words and let it go.

The bottom line is, I love my mom. She has been so wonderful and supportive of my journey in life. Of course there are things that I wish were different in our relationship. I'm positive there are personality traits that we share that add to both the brilliant parts of our bond- as well as the negative elements.

3.19.11

It's seems no matter how old I am or what I've accomplished in my life, I cannot escape the habit of reacting to my family like my former fourteen year old self during family conflicts.

Despite the fact that I'm extremely talented in the art of war- I hate to fight!

I loath the headache that follows almost instantly.

I despise the empty pit in my stomach.

And instantly, I'm sad and depressed about the way I talked to whomever I was in the fight with.

I spend the following days, reenacting the moments in my head. Playing out each of the beats, in search of the second where my tongue betrayed my heart.

So here I am, three days later and ready to move on. I'm not sure if there will ever be an opportunity to completely work through this particular issue that I have with my mom. I guess at a certain point in life you focus on appreciating the amazing aspects of the relationships you have with your family members and you learn how to accept the dynamics that might not ever change.

Crazy Thought On An Airplane...

I'm sitting on an airplane on my way to San Francisco.
In the aisle seat next to me is a beautiful older lady. If I had to guess, I'd say she was in her late seventies.
Her face is worn and full of lines in all the place I imagine you get lines when you spend a lifetime laughing. She is wearing just the appropriate amount of foundation, powder, eye makeup and the perfect shade of red lipstick.
It's very clear that she was a gorgeous woman in her prime.
I would describe her now as elegant and well groomed, with a magnificent spirit.
She sits with her friend who is around the same age.
It's clear, from spying on their conversation, that they've been friends for many years.
I was struck by their bond. I was intrigued with their (still) very youthful energy. I was excited by their devilish attitude.
As I sat and continued to secretly eavesdrop on their exchange, I imagined what my life would be in forty years.
Will I be sitting on a plane with one of my oldest friends heading to a city for a weekend of delicious food, theatre and shopping?
What stories will we look back on and laugh at?
But what I wondered most of all-
Will I still recognize my hands?
I know it seems like an odd question, however I couldn't get past this woman's hands.
She was so full of beauty and humor, yet her hands looked aged, abused and full of pain.
It made me incredibly sad.
Which is crazy- because she was extremely happy...

Random Thought...

I often think about people who have had a deep impact on my life and are no longer in it.
It's strange how some people enter your life and become a part of it forever, and others stop by for a little while and then continue on a separate path...
I wonder if those people that are no longer a part of my life ever look back with fond memories like I do?
Do they think about reaching out, but don't?
I know I do... so it seems very likely that maybe they do too?
I think I'm going to reach out to an old friend that I never talk to anymore. Just to say hello, and let them know I still think about them and our fun adventures and wish them well!

Somewhere in St. Louis

Sitting in a theatre somewhere in St. Louis.
I just had an out of body experience. The kind where a version of me from the past is staring down on the version of me now...
My life has been full of wild adventures and crazy unexpected opportunities. It's surreal to me.
Overwhelming at times.
The dreams and fantasies I had as a child, have manifested into a reality that is twice as rewarding.
I never imagined that the journey that I'm on would be more rewarding than achieving those childhood goals.
I'm thrilled that I'm living the life I dreamed of-
I'm grateful that it's better than I ever imagined.

Customer Service... PLEASE!

Polygamy, Craft Fairs and Mormon Rap... It's Time For a Parody!

Introducing the latest parody from our creative team at A Group Production, LLC.

This time our camera's crash the compound of a polygamist family with a dark secret...

Proving once again, no matter how religious you are, there's always an outcast!

This is what happens when you parody the popularity of Bravo's Real Housewives franchise and splash in some Big Love!

Introducing: The Real Housewives of the L.D.S.

Time to Relax

Having a tough time switching my mind to "stand by."

Energy spinning and I feel the pressure to do more-

more. More. MORE.

The mantra in my mind: Balance.

There is a time to work.

There is a time to eat.

There is a time to create.

There is a time to sleep.

There is a time to relax and enjoy what you've created.

Struggling to take the weekend off.

Forcing myself to release the check list for the weekend,

I'm positive it will still be there when I look for it Monday!

Welcome March.

It's hard to believe that another Friday afternoon is here. With that,

the start of March.

It's true what my grandpa used to say when I was growing up, "The older you get, the faster it goes..."

I'm so grateful that I can still hear his voice in my head. In fact, he is one of the primary reasons I continue to push myself everyday to create and stay focused.

I remember having long talks with him in high school. He would remind me to use my time wisely doing something I love, and to enjoy every single moment! "...life is short Mattsky."

(Mattsky was my grandpa and grandma's nickname for me growing up.)

The beginning of this year started off rocky, but by mid-February I was able to snap out of my funk, and get back on track.

I had a blast shooting an episode of a new Disney television show, enjoyed creating another parody with my creative friends and last night I pushed myself back out onto the stage to do some stand up comedy.

I always forget how nervous I get before I do stand up... Honestly, I'm past the point of fearing what might happen. I get such a rush of adrenaline once I'm up there with that microphone. Of course I'm never at a loss for words. I'm happy that I decided to take another pass at stand up. It's so much better now than five years ago when I first started doing it.

I worried so much back then about being funny or what people would think of me and my stories. Now, I just stand up there and live in that moment. It's the perfect opportunity to express myself and share my craziness to a group of people who are ready and willing to laugh at our similarities and differences.

All things considered, I think my creative juices are flowing again...

I'm looking forward to the adventures that await me in March.

Please Stand Up.

Just in case I don't already have enough on my creative plate, I was talked into doing stand up tonight at the Comedy Shed in Los Angeles.

It's not that I don't have plenty on my mind to talk about:

Between Charlie Sheen's new found craziness to Whoopi Goldberg's bladder control issues, I'll have no loss for chatter!

I love an opportunity to get up on a stage and have people listen to me...

Let's just hope they like what they are hearing!

If not, oh well.

I'm on a mission to cram as much creative energy into every aspect of my life, so that one day I too will make as much money as Seth MacFarlane!

The man is a mega-millionaire genius... and he didn't get there by saying "no" to opportunity or making fun of untalented celebrities that have crossed into the land of Crazyville!

The Perfect End...

...To a perfect week!

Between shooting and editing our next parody, booking a part on a cool new Disney television show, a fun filled adventure at Disneyland, Saturday brunch with friends in Beverly Hills, picking up a quick gig (and some ca$h) Saturday afternoon, followed by a birthday party later that evening- all leading up to a relaxing Sunday morning at home, before hosting a small gathering to watch The 83rd Annual Academy Awards!

That's right. It's Oscar time!

I"m sure it's no surprise that Oscar night happens to be one of the most exciting nights of television for me. Dating back to my early childhood, I remember demanding that my parents spend the day as if I were actually nominated for an award.

Every year that I sit and watch the telecast from whatever party I happen to be at or hosting... I'm inspired and encouraged to continue to stay focused on reaching my goals.

This year is no exception.

Especially on the heels of such an awesome week.

I'm grateful for this week because despite the highs and lows in my life and career, I was reminded that my path is clear.

As long as I live in the moment and work toward the things I'm passionate about, everything will fall into place.

It always has.

It always will.

Now, off to the kitchen. I've got food to prep and the Red Carpet pre-show to watch!

Happy Oscar watching!

Rain Drops and Recorded TV...

Swimming pools. Movie stars. Trendy nightclubs.
Los Angeles is known for a lot of things...
But not rain!
This is supposed to be the golden state!
When it rains in LA the world comes to a stand still.
So today became the perfect day to catch up with life...
I got a hair cut. Sent off my claim forms for my medical reimbursements. Paid bills. But most important, I was finally able to watch the twenty hours of recorded television on my DVR.
Call me crazy, but I'm unable to focus on ANYTHING if I know there are unwatched episodes of 30 Rock, Top Chef, Big Love or Gossip Girl!
I'm a freak. I get an incredible high from crossing things off a check list. Sometimes I even make lists of things that I've already done or can't help but do, like waking up or taking a shower- just so I can get the satisfaction of crossing it off.
So you can imagine how relieved I am to see an empty DVR box.
Now if only the pouring rain would stop!
One lazy day is all I need. I've got an empire to build!
...and a list a mile long that's not going to cross itself off.

Living The Dream!

I'm fully aware that I have a wonderful life-

I'll take it a step further and admit that this week has been a surreal experience.

A real LA moment! I'm living the dream...

Proof again that positive energy and faith can triumph over fear of the unknown.

On the heels of such a wonderful year in 2010- I've been really struggling to maintain a sense of calm and clarity. After a series of misfortunate events, I was starting to lose faith in myself and the path I was on. This lack of confidence really hit home after an embarrassing audition for a new television show that I had last week.

I was honestly questioning my path. It's so strange how fast confidence can come and go. One minute I'm elated to be receiving glowing reviews for a parody I'm in, and the next, I'm questioning if I'm ever going to work again...

Then, on Saturday while I was judging a talent competition out of town, I received an email for an audition for a new Disney television show. It was a last minute audition to replace an actor who the producers didn't feel was right for the job. The audition was Tuesday, and if booked- I would go straight to hair, make-up and wardrobe and then onto the sound stage to shoot the first scene.

Instantly my mood shifted. No matter how tired I was from sitting in a dark theatre critiquing the stars of tomorrow, my heart began to race at the thought of booking a Disney show!

I reminded myself (like I've done for the past fifteen years of my life) that "this could be the one!"

I arrived at the Hollywood Center Studios, in Los Angeles around 9:15 am. I auditioned along side four other guys that the producers and director were considering for the part. Once each of us had auditioned we waited in a production office and the producer called each actor in one at a time to find out if they were the lucky guy that booked the part...

Because I was the third guy called into the office, I assumed I didn't get it... However, to my delight, they offered me the part on the spot!
The next thing I know I was off to hair and make-up and then into my costume!
By 11 am, I was shooting my first scene on the new Disney show KICKIN IT!

I spent the entire day in heaven. I'm at the point in my life when I realize these jobs don't come around that often... so when they do, I want to make sure that I'm really getting the whole experience!

For me it's such an accomplishment that I was able to book a job on a television show so early into the year! Of course it's what I hope and pray for everyday- so when the circumstances actually arrive, I'm grateful to "live" in them fully.

And I did! I spent every moment on that set soaking it up!
And to be honest, I received all of the validation I needed to realize that this is my path.
I just have to remain true to myself and follow my dreams.
I've already accomplished so many of my goals in life- that occasions like booking a Disney job when you are least expecting it, is extra icing on my cake!
P. S. Don't you think I make a great Disco Dude!?!

Every Good Joke Needs a Button!

For February's video entry...
I thought I'd share a clip of a fun adventure to Disneyland for my friend Michael Cornacchia's birthday!
Michael is an actor... and the BUTTon of every joke!

Joan Rivers is Tenacious

You can say what you want about Joan Rivers, but I've got to give her credit... The woman is tenacious!
I'm sitting in a hotel room somewhere in Scottsdale, Arizona. I just finished judging performers at the worlds largest talent competition.
It can be such a soul crushing job at times- Honestly, how are you supposed to tell a person that their passion is not enough?
Sadly, that's what I get paid for.
When I got back to the hotel I turned on the TV and to my surprise the Joan Rivers documentary Joan Rivers: A Piece of Work was on.
I've watched it once before, and loved it. So I decided to decompress and watch it again-
I'm so glad I did too!
She reminded me that regardless of what critics, industry professionals, family, friends and colleagues may say-
if you were born with the passion, spirit and soul of an entertainer, you're going to fight like hell to achieve your dreams.
I feel at peace again in my heart.
And more inspired than ever to conquer my next goal!

The Clouds Have Parted.

It's no secret that my year so far has been off to a rocky start.

I've revealed in several of last months blog entries, that my inability to maintain the positive outlook that helped me achieve so much last year, has been MIA.

I admit- ninety percent of my frustration is due to my lack of willingness to follow through with the recipe that has triumphed in the past.

Well, the sky may be gloomy and grey today- but a glimmer of light has burst through the darkness and jolted me back into action!

Everyday that I spend comparing my past achievements to my present circumstances, is a wasted opportunity to grow.

No matter how many times I've reminded myself of that idea this year, I've been unable to retain the knowledge-

Today the clouds in my mind have separated. I can either spend my energy lost in the haze of past victories, or I can set out to conquer new regions!

It's such an easy concept- Just be happy.

It requires so much work and faith to release the fear and doubt, and just stay focused on the "happy." But every time I remind myself what the worst case scenario is, it occurs to me;

I have nothing in life to lose, except a missed opportunity!

Just Say "NO!" ...sometimes.

There are moments in our life, when we ignore our instincts and decided to follow through with an idea or action to see if it plays out in an unexpected manner than we anticipate-

I'm not sure why we ever think the outcome is going to be much different than what we expect in our mind. In fact, I'm fairly positive that no matter how hopeful we are, if we go against our initial gut feeling, it may be our very own subconscious that is quietly plotting against us...

In other words, if I sense the inner feeling of dread or doubt and I proceed anyway, I imagine I will always have that emotion holding me back from achieving anything other than what I expected.

The end result is almost always what I feared it would be.

That's not to say that I don't thrive on taking risks, nor do I shy away from challenges. I love new adventures and respond well to change, as long as it agrees with my gut feeling.

But from time to time, I push myself to do something that goes against every safeguard that I have in place.

Call me crazy. Call me a gluten for punishment. Just don't call me a chicken.

I think because I'm so adamant against saying "no" to any of life's adventures, possibilities or opportunities, that I sometimes say "yes" to things that are designed for my demise-

No matter how hard I fight or push myself, there are things in life that are out of my control.

I'm so grateful that in my thirties, I'm learning and understanding that not everything has to be conquered! I'm finally realizing that turning down an offer or opportunity that I have no emotional investment in is not necessarily a bad thing! Actually, it's the smartest thing I can do for myself.

When I was younger, I thought if I said "no" too much, people would stop asking.

What I've come to experience is the exact opposite- The more I say "no" to the things that I know I'm not inspired to accomplish, the greater success I have at attaining the goals that I'm encouraged to master!

Last week my reminder came in the form of a terrible audition! It's hard to say "no" to an audition, especially in this economy... but it was an audition that I knew in my heart I was not right for- and I went anyway. I gave it my all, and in the end I still had a horrible audition. I left feeling embarrassed and upset.

Had I passed on the audition, I'm sure there is a part of me that would have felt like I missed out on an opportunity- however, I think the overall feeling would have been that I made the right choice, and I wouldn't have spent the following days in a state of emotional turmoil like I did because I went and did a sub-par job!

Oh well- life is a work in process. This week I learned that it is most definitely okay to say NO.

Faith

I cannot change the past.

I cannot predict the future.

I have an incredible opportunity to live in this moment now~

I know what I have to do.

I know when I do it, I get results.

So, with every ounce of energy I have-

I'm going to stop punishing myself.

Let go of my self-doubt, anger and insecurity-

And I'm going to let faith be enough.

Searching For Talent...

Waking up too early for a crappy flight.
Landing in a city you know you've been before,
taking the ground transportation to a hotel you know you've slept at before.
Meeting at the theatre to hear things you know you've heard before.
Sitting behind a judges table watching contestant after contestant perform for twelve hours or more-
Getting back to the hotel just in time for last call; order a glass of wine.
Sleep for five hours wake up and do it all again...
Not as glamorous as outsiders think.
It's not bad getting paid to watch talented people perform-
It just hurts the soul a little when they're not so talented...
This is my path-
I'm sure they'll find theirs too!

Peaceful Clarity.

After a rocky January, I was allowing the negative energy and doubt to slowly seep back into my day to day life. I've been aware of the unwanted feelings, but frustrated that for whatever reason, I haven't been able to release them and focus on the positive action and energy that lead to a successful and adventurous 2010.

So I decided to take a long walk along the beach in Malibu yesterday...

At the beginning of the stroll, I felt overwhelmed and frustrated. However, as I continued down the beach, I turned my attention to the crashing of the waves and the sun's warmth. It was difficult at first, but once I relaxed and let my mind rest- I noticed an instant change in my mood and outlook.

I was able to feel the sand beneath my feet, smell the salty sea air and enjoy the meditative flow of the ocean. I remembered again that every fear, doubt and insecurity is distracting me from what I know I'm capable of achieving. I took a moment to stand still, and with my eyes closed, I faced the ocean and thought about all of the wild journeys I've experienced in my life.

I was happy, proud and excited to move forward with this new year full of possibilities!

I was a little upset that I had to re-re-re-re-remember this idea, it's as if you make the realization, understand the point of life and see how easy it is to be positive, calm and accomplished- and then you go to bed at night, and you wake up forgetting everything you learned.

Then it dawned on me; setting goals and working toward creating positive energy and opportunity is important. But even more so, I'm grateful for moments of peaceful clarity- they don't come often and don't last long, so I try to live in them fully~

Question?

Does anyone else find it strange that I started to cry and experience honest feelings of sadness for Holly Madison after her "surprise" visit to the Playboy Mansion to congratulate "Hef" and Crystal on their engagement while taping an episode of her spin-off reality TV show; Holly's World?

I guess it's because I'm still super emotional from watching last nights episode of The Real Housewives of Atlanta's season finale...

It just breaks my heart to see NeNe Leakes without her "happy."

Really? This Video Explains Everything...

Really?

Because of the amazing accomplishments I achieved in 2010, I thought it would be a great idea to continue to apply myself creatively and set new goals to encourage sustained success in my life and career in 2011.

One of my goals was to upload at least one video blog a month in 2011-

I sat down today, January 31st to tape the first of said video blogs... I think the video I taped says it all... and don't worry- when I went to upload and play it back, I too realized that it recorded sideways! ...I taped it the exact same way I record all of my videos. I tried to flip it, edit it and reedit it, and for some reason it will not play correctly! I raged for over two hours before I decided to "release it" or "let it go" and move on...

Honestly I didn't have the patience to re-shoot...

I think the universe might be trying to tell me something!

I promise I'll do better next time. I mean I'm not an a moron... I know how to record and edit video, I just think this speaks volumes for how 2011 has started off for me. I plan on turning it around and getting back on my "A" game for the remainder of 2011!

Successes and Setbacks...

In life, I'm told you have to take the good with the bad...

I'm not sure why, I guess I just have to accept it and move forward. There really is no point in dwelling on things that cannot be change- But there is a little part of me that wants to act like a five year old! Jump up and down, screaming at the top of my lungs... and then throw myself to the floor, kicking and biting until the last ounce of rage spills out!

Yesterday, just as I had finally made peace with trusting that this year will be every bit as successful as last year, as long as I stay focused and positive, I received a disappointing call.

Long story short- in this industry (and in life) people are waiting around every corner to screw you over. In yesterdays instance, I learned a valuable lesson regarding the choice I made in hiring an assistant that did less assisting me, and more assisting herself in scooping up a job from underneath me!

I've been in this town long enough to understand how the game is played- and most people that I work with play by the rules, so I guess I was just bummed that in this moment, the rules didn't apply.

I have faith that the person delivering the upsetting news is in fact on my side, and I trust her whole hearted when she says she will make it up to me- Moreover, I was extremely grateful for how she handled the situation... Unlike my former assistant, she understands the rules in which you play.

I learned a valuable lesson. I lost a potential job because I allowed my assistant to show up in my place on the final day of shooting on a previous job, while I attended another project... In short, all she had to do was "baby sit" the actors to make sure they felt comfortable.

I will never make that mistake again. I will be even more selective when hiring an assistant, and I will make sure that they know their place is assisting me- not networking their own deals!

On a happy note- (the good with the bad...) I finished the first rough draft of the book I've been writing! After almost two years of research, writing and struggle to stay inspired, I'm pleased that I accomplished one of my 2011 goals already!

Now the tough part begins. Editing, rewrites and publishing!

Wish me luck!

Doubt Is the Devil

The daily battle to fight off doubt.

Some days you win, others you lose-

Everything wonderful in my life, came through faith and confidence.

Yet, a part of me continues to let the devil creep in...

Regardless of how many times I've been educated on this life lesson, I constantly test the boundary.

Fear is the root of evil. A plague. A nasty waste of time and energy on this already short existence.

In order to live up to my maximum potential and have a full life, I have to banish the doubt completely.

The only thing I can control in my life- is how I react to where I am, and determine how to proceed.

The only thing to lose is opportunity. So enough! I've got to stop wasting my time on negative energy, and focus on manifesting my goals into reality.

Collaboration is Key!

I just finished reading a wonderful book. The Collaborative Habit- Life Lessons for Working Together, by the famous choreographer Twyla Tharp. I'm moved and inspired by the stories and advice she shared.

And it couldn't come at a more appropriate time! After the success that my creative partner and I shared last year with our Real Housewives parodies, we've decided to kick it in to high gear with our collaborations. The first being our own production company. We've toyed around with the idea for several years, but because of the wonderful growth that we've made creatively and personally, we've decided to really pour our heart into our company: A Group Production, LLC.

Jeff (my partner in crime) and I share the same sense of humor, passion and drive. We both understand that in order to get anywhere in life, you've got to take the reins and make it happen. With the talent and generosity of our creative friends and colleagues, we've been able to focus on producing a product that is worthy of our own television show-

Hence, this has become our challenge in 2011.

When we started out working together, it was hit or miss- Though we share the same common goal, we both have strong opinions and personalities, so finding level ground was a challenge. Now, however, we've applied a layer of padding and we've found a way to communicate that is not only fair, but productive too!

The result. Hopefully a very successful partnership creating and developing television, film and theatre that we love, for a very long time. One that will include the amazing and talented people we know in this industry, because after reading Twyla's book, I'm confident that two (or more minds) is stronger and more creative than one!

Dear Blog

Dear Blog,

I miss you. I know that I made a promise to spend more of my creative time working on finishing the final draft of my book, however, I really think it might be better for me to share more with you too!

Why do we have to set such high demands on our relationship? I don't understand why my book is so jealous of our time together...

Maybe it's because you're such a better listener!

My book is just so, "Work on me. Finish me. Me. Me. Me..."

I understand where my book is coming from. I have been putting it off for a while now-

I guess I just need you Blog- to feel more creative and inspired.

Would it be okay if I stopped in more than once a week to share?

I hope that's cool with you. I know it would really help me.

Thanks for being her Blog. I'm really glad we had this talk!

Your friend,

matthew

A Lesson Learned. Again...

I've spent my entire life comparing nearly every event, adventure and accomplishment I've experienced with an early moment or memory. So it's no wonder I would fall into this pattern day in and day out-
Of course the start of 2011 has been no different! Despite the fact that I've already wrapped on a successful project that I co-produced, wrote, directed and act in and it's only the second week of a new year... My mind wants to stress that I'm not doing enough.
Or worse- that I'm already not living up to the success I had last year!
It's a strange and overwhelming feeling. And though I am aware that I have this flaw in my personality, rather than stop the negative thoughts- for some reason I allow myself to buy into it! Again!
Even after a wonderful year without it... Some part of me feels like I did so good last year that I have no chance "top it."
I realize how ridiculous this notion is... what's worse is that I know how to stop it
Thankfully today I snapped out of it.
I woke up and remembered the key ingredient:
I was successful last year because I lived in the moment EVERY day.
Without any preconceived ideas about what I had to accomplish.
I did not let myself give in to the negative energy or doubt, and I didn't worry about the uncontrollable circumstances.
In short- I lived in the moment with a positive outlook and balanced lifestyle.
I enjoyed my play time, creative time, work, family, friends, travel and health.
I focused on what I could accomplish each day, and was open and responsive to the unexpected opportunities that came along
So, I'm going to forgive myself for forgetting the amazing lessons I learned last year, I'm going to concentrate on living in the moment with positive energy, I'm going to continue to work to create projects and opportunities that inspire me and I'm going to force myself to stop comparing my life to past experiences or people.
I have to trust that living in the moment has always lead me on an amazing journey, and as long as I keep my energy moving forward and my faith in check, I will end up exactly where I'm meant to be.

Fame, Fortune and Plastic Surgery

Without further ado, I'm pleased to present the latest spoof that I've been working on!

Though I LOVE The Real Housewives of New York City, as they were the original inspiration that started the entire parody idea... We couldn't help but point a laughing finger at the delicious and delusional ladies of Beverly Hills.

What do you get when you cross a former child star and a former Playboy centerfold and throw in some Beverly Hills Ca$h?

You get The Real Housewives of Beverly Hills Parody:

(If you're having trouble viewing this video on the blog please

click the link above.)

A New Year... A New Real Housewives Shoot!

I'm so excited...

Gearing up to shoot another parody of Bravo's The Real Housewives franchise!

This time we're spoofing the glamorous gals of Beverly Hills!

They're by far my favorite.

They have more money than all of the other "housewives" combined, and they still act like total heathens- in gorgeous gowns and fabulous mansions!

I can't wait to call action...

Overwhelmed

Feeling a little overwhelmed today.

Want to start the new year off in a positive way-

Trying to keep things in perspective,

I know I have the choice-

Remember, positive action when fear is near.

So many wonderful adventures last year...

Stop trying to compare.

Just let life take me where I'm meant to be.

I've always had and amazing journey.

Relax and trust that the path will clear!

It's So Hard To Say Goodbye...

After spending the last 365 days sharing my emotions to the blogosphere-
I'm having a hard time resisting the urge to sign on and chat!
I spent a number of days during the past year forcing myself to make sure I followed through with my writing goals- even if I had nothing important or creative to say. So I never imagined I'd actually miss the opportunity to release my thoughts, yet here I sit only one day away from an accomplished resolution from last year... and I'm ready to blog some more!
It may be out of habit. But I think it's a bit deeper.
I'm going back to Los Angeles tomorrow, and I'm sad I have to leave my family-
In particular, both my grandma's. Two wonderful women. Very different, but amazing and beautiful in their own way.
I hate saying goodbye to begin with- when it's either of them the layers of pain are intensified.
They sit, each of them with their puppy, and I see them in a new light.
The look in their eyes; sorrow, joy, fear and pride all in one glance. I know they worry about me-
I wonder if they realize how much I worry about them?
It kills me to watch these two magnificent women struggle in their own way with the aging process-
Not from a vain point of view.
I don't know how many more chances I'll get to spend time with each of them, I hope and pray they'll be around and healthy for many years to come.
But the only thing I can be sure of, is the time I get now...
Which is why it's so hard to say goodbye!

Mission Accomplished!

I'm sitting in front of a computer screen in a gorgeous home with a decedent view of a snow covered mountain in Beaver Creek, Colorado. I was invited to my friends father's house for the New Year, and I honestly cannot think of a more appropriate way to finish out 2010.
Ordinarily the end of a year is always a little tough for me. I'm sentimental by nature, and I get emotional with the end of almost anything-
This year is a completely different feeling for me. I think for the first time ever, I truly lived in the moment each and every day. I set out to conquer my goals and resolutions, and I spent the majority of my time focused on creating opportunities and enjoying the process along the way.
It was no small task to sit down and force myself to share my deepest thoughts, dreams, setbacks, disappointment, heartache and Private emotions. Nevertheless, I gained such joy from releasing these ideas into the universe without fear of judgement. Plus, the act of this daily routine really sparked my creative juices.
Make no mistake, I'm not delusional- I realize that more than half of my entries are just the silly ramblings of a crazy guy with big ambitions. Still, I'm impressed that I actually found the energy to focus (even if only for ten minutes a day) on writing out a thought, feeling or experience that might help me get a step closer to my ultimate goal.
I decided to blog for myself. There was no expectation of achieving a huge cult following or to be picked up for my phenomenal literary skills- My only hope was that blogging would encourage me to stay active in my journey as an artist.
I'm thrilled to report, it has. I've gained a level of self-achievement that is directly associated with the success of my personal growth as an actor, choreographer and person.
I learned a great deal about myself and my approach to life from these entries. Most of all, that if I deal with my feelings in the moment, and release them, I'm fully competent to continue on a positive path toward the direction of my ultimate dream. I guess it was a way for me to manifest the energy and passion inside and help me to guid it in the right direction.
I'm ready for 2010 to come to an end, because I maxed out the full potential in each day. I'm inspired and looking forward to the amazing adventures that are in store for 2011 and beyond.
So, this is it... My final daily blog entry for 2010! I'm grateful to those of you who may have stopped by to enjoy an entry in the past year, and to those who followed each day- I hope that my stories sparked at least one person to take a bold step in the direction of their dream, or at the very least brought a smile to someones face...
I will not be writing a daily entry in 2011, I've decided to use my creative juices to finish a book that I started over a year ago... I will however be back weekly to share my adventures in 2011. I'm not sure if I will stick to a specific day, but I promise I will check in once a week- after all, it would be impossible now to imagine my life without a blog!
Here's to another year full of love, passion, creativity and success-
Happy New Year!

Random Thought

Ambition.
I often wonder where my creative desire, passion and determination came from.
Is it a product of my childhood?
Are we born with a predetermined path that we follow on instinct as we grow up?
I'm so intrigued with my ability to endure, despite every set back and obstacle. In fact, I often thrive when faced with negative reaction.
I believe there is enough room for each and every one of us to succeed at living up to our full potential-
Sadly, too many people worry about the unexpected challenges.
I say, bring on the challenges!
As I continue to grow, I realize that some of the best experiences I've encountered, blossomed from a failed attempt at something else.
As 2010 comes to a resolve, I look back at the extraordinary accomplishment I managed to achieve, and it comforts me.
I'm thankful that I spent 365 days working toward a dream that I've had since I was at least eight years old.
I was fortunate to have a strong fire for how I wanted to use my life-
And the best role models in my life to inspire my vision.

Fun With Friends

Beaver Creek, CO
With very special friends-
Pre-dinner cocktails,
A sleigh ride around the snowy countryside.
Dropped off in font of the lodge for a delicious dinner-
Back to the cabin for some rest and relaxation-
Tomorrow a lazy day around the fireplace.
I'm so blessed with amazing friends,

Drawing Near...

It's unreal how fast time passes by-
It doesn't feel like it's been a year since I sat in this very spot on my Grandma Shaffer's couch and stared up at the ceiling looking answers.
I've learned a lot about myself this past year.
Writing a daily blog has continued to inspire me to create projects in the industry.
The New Year is always tough for me-
I'm flooded with emotions both happy and sad. As I think back over all of the accomplishments and adventures I had in 2010, I'm overwhelmed with pride...
It's no easy task focusing on constant positive reinforcement and creative energy. In the end though, the prize has been more than worth it.
I'm grateful for each and every experience in my life, and I look forward to a new year full of great opportunities and continued love and support.

The New Addition!

Lily-
Little furry black bundle of joy-
Impossible to believe you were left at the pound.
Lovable.
You had me the moment you walked over and stared up at me with those sad but hopeful eyes.

It's Official!

Today was the day that I officially became my gorgeous niece Kellyn's Godfather.
This little baby girls is a miracle. Beyond the fact that my sisters chances of conceiving were very low because of her radiation and chemotherapy treatments after discovering she had cancer, Kellyn was a perfect angel. Not even a peep from her during the entire eight minute baptism.
As I stood at the alter in the beautiful old church in Florence, Colorado with; my sister, Josh and Kellyn (in Josh's arms)- I couldn't help but burst into tears . Ironic that a ten day old baby with water being dumped on her head remained calm and happy. Meanwhile, a flood of emotions comes crashing out of my eyes and nose!
I've never been more proud of my sister. There I stood, gazing at this magnificent creation that she and Josh produced, and I was the man that they picked to insure that Kellyn would have a strong sense of faith and unconditional love and guidance for as long as I'm alive.
Strangely enough, I'd been struggling with my own faith over the past two weeks, and it wasn't until today when I stood before God and my family, that I was able to see the many blessings I have in life fight now.
But the highlight of today's baptism for me was not the homily or the cute outfit that Kellyn wore- today I held my right arm around my sisters shoulders and cried with joy. I'm beside myself with gratitude. My sister was born to be a mother, and today I saw and felt a shift in her armor. I'm most grateful for our new bond. I made a promise to my sister that I would always be there to love and supports her, Josh and their daughter Kellyn. All it took was that first look at my peanut Kellyn to know that I was wrapped for life!
I consider myself a lucky guy tonight! I become the Goddfather!

Merry Christmas

Family gathered in the living room,
Opening presents was fun- but it's just not the same as an adult.
Let the cooking begin!
A full house.
The food is served...
I ate entirely too much food.
Then we were off to the movie theatre for a Christmas treat.
Yes- life is nice.
Merry Christmas

Not The EVEning I Had Planned...

I've spent this entire year forcing happiness on myself- even when it was difficult or inconvenient. Especially then.
The idea: Positive energy can change the outcome of the current situation. For the better part of this year, my little scheme worked. Of course there were a few "bad" days in the mix. There were moments when I'd ask myself if I was just being delusional or negligent with my feelings. At times I even felt guilty not feeling sad, or upset over something that I couldn't change.
I must admit, each and every single time I started to fear, doubt or worry about a situation or circumstance I forced myself to think of something positive instead- ninety percent of the time it worked too! Several times it lead to a new opportunity or job. Half the time it changed the situation, and almost every time- I felt better.
So you can imagine how upsetting it is to face the last ten days of 2010 with such negative events. For whatever reason, I have been unable to convince myself to take a positive approach while at home with my family. Even worse, it feels like I've regressed, which elevates my negative energy times ten. What I'm coming to terms with is that no matter how positive or happy I am in life, there are certain emotions that I'm going to have to face sooner or later. It will be painful. It will be work. But hopefully, it will allow me to move forward in 2011.
I think the greatest challenge is understanding that before I can release my emotions- I have to acknowledge them and work toward confronting the source of the negativity. But the difficulty is making sure that I don't get lost in the negative emotion.
I get it... Each of us (for the most part) is just trying their best to do their part.
Life is short- and no matter how painful moments can be (even on the worst days) every moment we have should be full of love, friendship and family. The family dynamic can be extremely difficult- however, in my opinion there's no greater love or unconditional support than that of your family. I fully intended on accomplishing all of my hopes and dreams, and there will be no one better to share that with than my family.

Holiday Cheer?

Is rapidly turning into Holiday fear!
Too many people to please,
Too many places to go.
Too much work to accomplish,
Next year, I've decided I'm flying somewhere far away from the family.
No offense, I love them-
But I hear that Rome is beautify this time of year..,

Niece

Never imagined how beautiful you would be.
I'm in awe when I stare into your magnificent eyes.

Extraordinary in every way.
Changed my life forever.
Ecstasy- pure and innocent.

This Is Your Life...

There comes a moment when you realizes: Yep, this is my life right now- either get on board or spend your time miserable!
For me it's always the same old story... I fight like hell to stay positive. Enlightened. Happy.
I try to remember that so far I've had a pretty excellent life.
Nevertheless, there are those days when you come face to face with the reality of your world- the bad, the sad and the painful.
A trip back home is like an unplanned, unpredictable opportunity to uncover the world that you've become an outsider to.
My life goes on while I'm in Los Angeles pursuing my career. So I'm not sure why I expect the members of my family to live in suspended reality.
My cousins grow up. My mom changes her hair style. My dad rebuilds another bicycle. My sister has a beautiful baby girl named Kellyn. My grandma's Parkinson's takes a deeper impact on her body. Each incident is only as significant as I allow them to be. Individually the impact is not as strong (with the exception of my sisters baby) and yet, when they're lumped together in a two week visit- the magnification takes its toll.
Still, I cannot shake the echo of my Grandpa Shaffer's voice as he was dying in the hospital, "Don't be sad Matt."
Over the past year and a half, I've carried his voice in my head, trying to maintain a positive attitude even in the worst of scenarios.
Overall, the outcome of the positive energy has lead to a productive and blessed year...
So I'm disappointed that this trip has been so rough on me. I believe I have the choice to remain happy. I trust that everything happens for a reason. Unfortunately, it's nearly impossible for me to ignore my grandma's condition.
To see the woman who inspired me throughout my life; my mentor, role model, cheerleader and best friend struggle to walk, swallow food, or fight to find the word to finish her thought- it is pure devastation.
But I believe that I have to continue to live my life. I fight with my inner judgement when it comes to this choice. At times it feels like I'm pretending, putting on an act so that I don't have to deal with the reality and pain. I want to accept that keeping a positive energy breeds a happier outcome for everyone involved...
So tonight, when I found myself leaving my seventy-four year old Grandma at home alone to visit with my mom at the home town bowling alley, I felt like I made the wrong choice. Nevertheless, I was there and thought I might as well make the best of it! I looked around the small but cool bowling alley, and all of the happy people bowling and enjoying the Christmas covered dish party that was going on simultaneously, and thought: "This is your life right now... You are here. So you might as well enjoy it!" I went to the bar and grabbed a drink, loaded up a plate of food and started to relax. No sooner than I did that, my cousin and his wife and children walked in and the night was a total blast!
Once again reminding me that no matter what life gives you- the opportunity to make the choice to find the positive in a situation will always end happier than the negative.

It's The Most Wonderful Time I'd the year?

I'm not sure if I'd agree entirely with the classic Christmas song.
If it's such a wonderful time of the year, then why am I so stressed out?
Coming home for Christmas doesn't have to be this hard does it?
Of course I'm so happy to see all of my family and friends;
Still, I wish that we focused more energy on spending quality time with one another- instead of keeping score with each other regarding the amount of time that we aren't together.
As if shopping, baking, wrapping, cleaning, etc. etc. etc. -wasn't bad enough, I have to consider how I should divide my time with each of the members of my family.
Each one reminds me, "Don't worry about hurting my feelings, go have fun... I'll see you when you get home."
But no one realizes that their demands are the source of my stress.
I'm flattered that everyone wants to see me,
I just wish I could be in three places at once!
Then we'd all be happy...
Until then- "It's the most Okay time of the year!"

Wiped Out!

What happens when you decided to adopt a perfect little 8 week old puppy?
You spend your entire day devoted to that beautiful little creature-
But I am falling asleep just trying to finish this blog...
Which means that taking care of our new addition is exhausting!

A Family Tradition

One of the perks of belonging to a large Italian family is our ability to work as team in the name of food- Seriously, the Keebler Elves have nothing on us!
The best part of coming home for Christmas is spending time around the table preparing delicious goodies like; ravioli, Italian Wedding soup with dough balls and my all time favorite- pizzelle, heavenly Italian cookies, paper thin and amazing...
I promise there is nothing more tantalizing than walking into grandmas house while we're kneading dough, cooking the sauce for ravioli's or baking a decadent sweet treat. The icing on the cake is devouring everything once it's done! ...there in lays the problem- the only family tradition greater than making the food...
Is eating it!

Complications On The Home Front...

I imagine the holidays tend to be a tricky time of year for every family.

Of course I'm delighted to be with my family, especially this year with the new addition of my niece Kellyn or as I like to call her: "my little peanut!" Still, I'm faced with the hurdles of having a very large, emotional and outspoken Italian family- add in the trials and tribulations of parents who are divorced and remarried, their extended family and half siblings- and you have a recipe for disaster!

The most frustrating part for me, is that no matter how hard I try to approach this time of year, I always seem to hurt someone, usually me. I will go out of my way to plan the entire trip, and it blows up in my face. Next time I'll make no plans whatsoever, and that comes crashing down on me- Regardless of the path I decide to take, it's always the wrong direction.

The worst part is how upset I feel once Christmas has passed, and I'm back in California wishing I could have been more patient, calm and carefree!

Every year my goal is to live in the moment and enjoy the time I have with each member of my family, and every year, I end up fighting with someone in my family...

I've been home for three days, and I've come dangerously close to an outburst. Thankfully, I've managed to remember that my family acts out like they do, because the love me and they want to spend time with me- It becomes an unintentional competition.

So I've reached the conclusion that in order to avoid complications on the home front all together; I have to close my eyes, take a deep breath and smile. If past holidays show me anything, it's that no matter what I do "right" or "wrong" my family is going to act however they want depending on where they're at in their life... so my only objective now is to not to react! If I don't engage- I don't have rage!