Happy New Year!

Releasing the doubt,
Possibilities reborn;
Partying all night!

Saying Goodbye to 2014

Sitting in a gorgeous cabin in the snow covered hills,
I realize how blessed I am.
For no other reason than the simple fact that I have friends and family who share their blessings with me.
2014 has been a year of growth.
It wasn't always easy, nor was it a year full of major victories.
At times I felt like I was in a holding pattern–– every hurdle was twice as high and road blocks kept me changing the course.
I punished myself for things that were out of my control.  
I was angry that I couldn't do more. (A common theme in my life, and a curse that I'm hoping to "resolve" in the New Year.)
I accomplished obstacles that had once been forgotten goals:
going back to school, getting back into acting classes, finding a way (and the time) to stay in yoga.
As with every year, I laughed.  Not nearly enough this year, but that will also be a challenge for 2015.
Loss, sadness and guilt were a major part of 2014.  More than any other year in my life that I can remember.
It's time to let it go.  Saying goodbye is extremely difficult and painful.
However, I've tortured myself enough, and in order to grow––I must forgive myself.
Life is too short, and I have a brightness in me that deserves the opportunity to shine. (We all do.)
So here's a salute to a year of learning, and to the year ahead, may it bring the evolution and opportunity I'm ready for!

Snow Day!

Sledding, skiing and maybe even a snowman?
Anything's possible on vacation in Beaver Creek-
With two feet of fresh snow and only 10 degrees,
Even with my long underwear, it's going to be freezing cold.
As fun as spending a day frolicking in the bone chilling cold sounds...
I'm really looking forward to the "adult" hot chocolate that I'll be enjoying afterwards!
P.S. When is Starbucks going to get hip to #alcohol?

Vacation Equals Excuse

Have you ever noticed that vacation is like a get-out-of-jail-free pass for everything?
I shouldn't buy that watch.  ...but I'm on vacation.
I shouldn't jump off a cliff.  ...but I'm on vacation.
I shouldn't have another drink.  ...but I'm on vacation.
I shouldn't eat another cookie.  ...but I'm on vacation.
Seriously, I wonder how many people lie, cheat and steal while on vacation.
I'd be more creative with this blog entry. ...but I'm on vacation.

Overhead Space

That awkward moment when you quickly pop your perfectly sized soft-sided duffle bag into the only empty overhead bin left-

Leaving the business man with three roller bags where he belongs, checked at the gate!

#VictoryOverFirstClass

...and scene!

The day Christmas ends;
Decorations are boxed up!
Clean palate, New Year.

Merry Christmas

Faith, Family, Friends and Food.

Christmas blessings;

Fully enjoyed.

Twas The Night Before Christmas...

And all through the house,
Christmas exploded everywhere... And. I. Love. It!
Not a corner is left without something red and green,
The stockings are hung on the fireplace with care, and I hope that tomorrow they'll be stuffed with more than just air.
I'm so grateful for my family and friends,
And to spend this evening in our home with loved ones, AND our puppies feels like...
#Christmas
Faith, Family, Friends, and Food.
Ho, Ho, Ho!

Spa Day

Shower,
Sauna,
Shower,
Steam room,
Hot tub,
Shower,
Massage,
Steam room,
Shower,
Hair cut,
Shower.
Repeat monthly!
#BecauseIReallyNeedIt

Note To Self:

The moment I allow fear to dictate my path, is the instant I've completely missed the point of life.

Filled With Rage

One exchange is all it takes.
Just like when we were kids.
Selfish, defensive, screaming-
Games;
I won't play them.
So now I have to accept that my relationship will no longer be a priority.
I'm devastated and I know I'll miss her,
But I can't handle the rage, or the fact that I'm always the one to concede, without an apology.
Life isn't always fair, this is a major loss.

Raging Headache

Johnny Walker and I got into a fight last night...
He won.
Tis the season.
#MerryChristmas

Friday, Finally!

As an independent contractor, my work is never done.
Expanding my career opportunities involves a nonstop hustle,
That does not consist of punching a time-clock.
Instead, I'm punching keys on my laptop; day in and day out.
Regardless of the hour, I keep on working.
Thankfully, I make the rules- and today, I'm taking an early lunch!
AKA I'm leaving the office early, and may not come back until after the holiday!
...or at least that's the goal.

Six Word Essay on School

Time to drink, the project's done!

Bagel and Rain

Sitting in my dining room eating a bagel and watching the rain fall;
If I didn't know better, I'd think I was in New York...
It's not supposed to rain in LA!
In the midst of the "worst drought ever".
I guess we should consider this a gift from Santa,
Or God?
I wouldn't mind the rain so much, if it didn't totally reck my hair.
#VainButGrateful

Holiday Baking; a poem.

Kitchen flour clouds,
The oven is preheated;
My diet is wrecked!

Special Day

Today is a special day.

The birthday of both my grandma and niece;

Also mine and Jeff's twelfth anniversary.

I'm so grateful for my loved ones.

Their unconditional love and support is overwhelming,

Their spirit's are uplifting.

#Blessed

Six Word Essay on Cranky People

Your attitude is unattractive, smiling helps.

Class

Whirling through the air,

Dancers will fearlessly soar;

Advil required.

It's A Living...

Alarm goes off at 4AM,

It's too early to think.

Bags are packed and clothes are preset.

Showered, dressed and on the road.

TSA is always nuts, and what? No Starbucks in the terminal?! 

How Un-American!

Middle seat, across the country.

Yep, it's official;

I'll do almost anything for work.

Six Word Essay on Waiting For a Response

It's just a "yes" or "no".

Bagel For Breakfast?!

Delicious and doughy,
It's like a savory donut.
Both are full of carbs, and neither one is healthy;
But totally satisfying, in an "I don't give a shit" kind of way!

Annoyed

That irritating feeling you just can't release,

Like a fly you can't catch.

Unlike the fly, my mood can't be killed.

So I sit. Taking deep breaths.

Hoping to release the attitude.

Life Lesson:

If you expect to be let down, you might occasionally be surprised;
If you hope to be surprised, you will always be let down.
#NoteToSelf

It's Party Time... Take 1!

Food is prepped,
Wine is breathing,
Candy everywhere;
'Tis the season!

Media Overload

Waking up to Facebook is more than a mild problem, it's an addiction.
Honestly, I'm not in my twenties and it is not 2007- so I think it's time to back away from the social media platform...
Plus, that will give me more time for Instagram, Twitter and Vine.
#SocialMediaMandatoryForSuccess

Throwing In The Towel

There are times you have to fight,
And then there are those circumstances where you realize, failure is unavoidable...
I am an incredibly willful person; I don't believe in giving up.
I also don't believe in clinging to an idea that has already imploded.
So I wipe the tears from my eyes, and throw down the towel.
#WalkAway

Play Day

I played hooky from EVERYTHING.
And I don't regret it.
#DealWithIt

There's No Business...

Eating dark chocolate after an audition is like my own personal F_c# You! to the industry;
Going to yoga the next morning is like my apology for betraying my passion and profession.
#CycleOfAbuse

Oh Christmas Tree...

Glowing amber lights,
The room smells like pine heaven.
No presents below?!

The Yoga Challenge:

Going back to yoga after a week of nonstop eating...
That's the challenge!
You can do it... is what I'm telling myself while looking at my gut in the mirror.
#Motivate

Thanksgiving Detox

I forgot that it was possible to gain 10 pounds in 4 days;
I suppose that's what happens when you enjoy a Thanksgiving-four-day-feast-athon without even thinking about working out, or going to a gym.
In fact, the only exercise I got this past weekend was:
Opening wine bottles,
Lifting food and drink from table to mouth,
Racing through the mall on Black Friday for outrageous deals,
And a lot of laughter with friends...
Sadly, that was not enough to keep my waistline trim-
So today, it's time to reel it in!
#TheHolidaysAreHere

Fight On!

Game day tailgate rocks,

Laughter, friendship, drinks and junk.

Thanksgiving detox! 

Deck the Halls

Starbucks Gingerbread Latte-

Black Friday, yes, I scored.

Home Depot for the perfect tree,

Awful 80's Christmas Films playing in the background;

Trimming the tree with family heirlooms.

Our house is covered in Christmas cheer.

#NostalgicChristmasTheme

Giving Thanks...

I'm always thankful for my family and friends-
But at this time of year the joy and gratitude overwhelm me.
No matter the distance, I continue to absorb the love from the family and friends who continue to support and inspire me.
Gathered around the television watching the Macy's Thanksgiving Day Parade, while the smell of turkey and stuffing saturate the air-  just one of the childhood memories that I continue to enjoy today.
Loved ones pass and friends move on, but the spirit of Thanksgiving carries beyond.
#Blessed and #Grateful

Six Word Essay on Feeling Rushed

Get off my back, or die.
#SubtleWarning

Hollywood

Walking on the stars,

Celebrities everywhere!

Hookers and bums too.

Live In The Moment

Is to appreciate the blessings I have in my life.

Without fear of the unknown,

Or regret for the un-changeable past.

Full of gratitude for the opportunities that exist today-

The laughter and conversation with friends,

The unexpected adventures that spring up everyday,

And the reminder that tomorrow is never promised-this moment is a gift worthy of being present.

Random Observation

The interesting thing about sleep is when you go without it long enough-

You really start to believe you don't need it.

#DownfallsOfTraveling

Blogger Late Than Never...

That moment when you freak out because you didn't hit one of your daily targets-

Writing on your blog.

Stay creative by creating habits!

Self-Park

Who needs valet, when you can park for free?

And by 'free' I mean $25 a day.

#TheJoyOfTraveling

Forced Group Activities...

#SUCK.
Seriously, I've hated assigned group activities since my first experience with them in Mrs. Oberwater's 3rd grade class.
There's always one person, generally an overachieving perfectionist who does all of the work (me), three or four people who just sit around with a blank stare, and one person who's only contribution is to complain about every decisions made, and take credit for the project in the end.
It's not that I don't believe in team work, I just prefer to associate myself with a team of people that I can count on!
#OverIt

Movie Marathon

The escape from our day to day lives.
Lost in a giant screen full of beautiful characters.
Delicious popcorn;
Reclining velvet seats.
And all for only $32 a ticket!?
#MoviesAreALuxury
But getting caught up in the magic is worth every penny!

Spa Day Off

Peace of mind comes in many forms-

Today, mine comes in the form of a Swedish massage and spa retreat, followed by light shopping in LA and a movie!

#DayOff

Dear Bagel,

I realize that carbs are considered the Devil in Hollywood-
But I cannot resist your glossy hard outer shell and warm doughy insides.
Even without cream cheese, you rock my world.
Please do me a favor, stay away from my love-handles and booty, and I will continue to savor you every morning from now until the end of time.
Love,
Matthew
#AddictedToCarbs

Yoga

You

Go

And

Oblige 

Puppy Love

My puppies think they're friends with everyone we pass.

They'd jump-on, lick or cuddle-up with a horror villain if I weren't there.

If only humans were so friendly!

People Watching at Starbucks

Odd and comical,

He has a clear objective.

You just have to laugh!

What Happened? Six Word Essay

Honestly, how could I forget you?

Reading At A Cafe

Quietly sitting,

My imagination runs wild;

Escaping through books!

Six Word Essay on Having A Day Off

I'm not going to do anything!

Monday Madness!

Walked the dogs,
Posted my #SocialMedia,
Two conference calls,
Returned twenty emails,
Mailed the final proofs for my book, back to my publisher,
Ate breakfast,
Rehearsed an audition,
Choreographed for my next master class,
And finished my creative writing...
All before 10AM!
(You should see what my mid-day looks like!)
#Overachiever!

Airport Case Study

I never get tired of people watching.
Especially at an International airport-
Europeans are always well dressed and smell good.
Asians are always quite and efficient.
Americans are always poorly dressed, loud and eating something.
These are all generalizations, of course.
Still, I find it crazy that in every culture, young and old, EVERYONE is plugged into a power source... or desperately searching for an outlet!

I'm Awake!

The alarm goes off-

SNOOZE!

The alarm goes off- 

SNOOZE! and silence phone!

The alarm goes off- 

VIBRATING on the hotel nightstand...

I'm awake!

But I'm 5 minutes late.

#LifeOnTour

Life On The Road

And it begins:

The stress.

The lines.

The people who still don't know how the TSA screening works.

The dreadful coffee.

The bags, not under the seat, under my eyes...

#TheGlamorousLife

In Knots

Twisting and turning,
A sea of dread and anger.
Daydream to forget.

Six Word Essay on LA Traffic

The layers of rage are vast!

Election Day

Election day always reminds me of my Gram Shaffer and my grandpa Smith.
My Gram was an extremely active woman in our community.  She never needed to push an agenda, but had a magnificent way of encouraging anyone who she came in contact with of their right and responsibility to be involved in the world they live.
My grandpa continues to be an activist.  He served as the County Commissioner in his town, and I'm proud to say that during my first election in 1996- I was able to vote for him!
Ever since- I have been eager to research and elect people that I believe really want to make a difference in public office.
Naturally it's easy to become agitated or repulsed by career politicians and the media pushing agendas on either side of the aisle.
But a voice inside of me remembers that we are fortunate to live in a country where we have the right to speak up and vote.
Whether you think your vote matters or not- we need to remember that there are so many places in the world where citizens are not free and don't even have the option to submit their "illusion of a choice" so I never take for granted my obligation as a proud citizen of the United States of America.
#RockTheVote!

Fighting With Fire

I'm not afraid to ask for what I want.

I know that everyone who gets anywhere, does so by being bold, fearless and demanding.

I always attempt to be thoughtful, warm and humorous--especially when asking for a big favor.

However, time and again I get further by demanding what I want. (Especially from the people who I've helped out in the past, which is sad and strange.)

Still I realize, you have to fight fire with fire.  And I will not be the one getting burned!

You may not like me as much afterwards, but you'll respect me.  Moreover, you'll work with me again, because I get shit done!

Gingerbread Latte

Isn't it fascinating that such a simple idea exploded into such a massive event-
I'm positive that there are people who have "Starbucks Red Cup Day" marked on their calendars.
The Gingerbread Latte evokes the spirit of the holidays.
My first sip of Christmas in a cup came during a lunch break during rehearsals for the Radio City Christmas Spectacular in New York City.  I was with a group of performers strolling through Rockerfeller Center.  We were tired and needed a pick-me-up.  I broke my usual (twice a day) habit of ordering a Grande Mocha, to try the new festive drink.  Trust me, I spent more money on Starbucks coffee, than I did on rent in my NYC studio apartment during my twenties!  (If only I had that money now.)
I haven't looked back since.
Every holiday season since, I eagerly await the day I can order a taste of Christmas past.
After all, isn't that what we're buying into?
It's commercialism at it's finest.  If you're longing for family, friends or the childhood memories that never existed- look no further than Starbucks.
I promise one sip of their custom holiday specialty drinks will fill you with warmth and happiness!

Gentle Reminder To Self:

Life is short to leave room for doubt.

It's also too short to stray from doing anything other than what you know in your soul you were born to do!

Happy Halloween

I loved Halloween as a child.

Candy aside, I was obsessed with decorating and designing the perfect costume! 

Can you say #gay?!

It makes perfect sense that I chose a career in the entertainment industry-

It's like Halloween everyday. Freaks included.

Six Word Essay on Email Etiquette

Acknowledge emails within two business days!

A New Word For Goodbye?

I have a difficult time saying goodbye-
Such a simple word, to describe an act that is so loaded with emotion.
Someone is leaving.
Will they comeback? Will you see them again?  Won't you miss them?  Won't they miss me?
We use the word goodbye so casually, it feels like we should have a more appropriate word for a longtime send-off.
"I-love-you-and-I'm-going-to-miss-you-and-I-want-to-remember-this-moment-and-your-laugh-and-the-way-you-smell-and-our-moring-coffees-and-our-addiction-to-posting-photos-and-shopping-sprees-and-I-love-you!"
See.  Doesn't that feel like more than "goodbye"?
But I have no choice.  My mom is leaving, and I have to say something; so I guess it will be thank you and goodbye, followed with a long hug.
Until next time!

Random Observation: Music

That moment you realize that a song from high school makes you feel young, so much so, that you log onto iTunes and download the entire album.
...the one you through away in your mid-twenties because you were so ready to move on!

I Want Candy!

When moms in town, our house looks like a super sized candy store.
Similar to those you see at amusement parks and touristy vacation destinations.
My mom is seriously addicted to sugary treats, and though I usually stay away from all things high fructose corn syrup related, I'm totally guilty of shoving at least a pound of Sour Patch Kids down my mouth!
They taste so good going in, and then I feel like shit.
It's how I imagine Honey Boo Boo child feels daily.
Which is why starting first thing tomorrow I'm getting rid of the junk.
Wait, Halloween is Friday?
Starting first thing Saturday, I'm getting rid of the junk!

Close Shave

Don't get me wrong, men have it easy compared to women when it comes to beauty and styling- especially when it comes to the critique of society.
Nevertheless, men still have necessary maintenance routines in order to avoid being labeled a caveman.
For example, no one ever told me when I was a young boy that I would have to trim my back hair and tweeze my nose hair when I grew up!
But the most annoying grooming gripe is by far shaving!
Razor burn, knick's, dry skin and ingrown hairs are enough to make me rage.
Daily.
Because if I don't shave every single morning- I get acne!
So I'm left with the decision: close shave or pizza face?

Stuffed!

I need to remember that I am not a turkey and it is not Thanksgiving!

I don't need a second helping of anything.

Diet starts after this chocolate chip cookie...

Pop Quiz

Are pop quizzes ever fun?
The answer:
NO!
It's been twelve years (yes I dated myself) since I've taken a pop quiz;
Last night in my Business Entertainment class, our instructor surprised us with a test.
I knew every answer on the test, but in true Shaffer style- I heard the word "test" and I froze.
I dislike being tested.
Ask me to have a conversation, and I can tell you everything you want to know.  Better yet, ask me to apply what we've learned, and I will shine!
I am a classic overachiever, and my need for perfection always hurts me in situations where there's a piece of paper with a series of questions and a time limit to answer.
I always over-think everything.
In the end I only missed two questions, but I want perfection.
I want an A-Plus every time.
Oh well, there's always the next one.
#LettingGoIsEasierAsAnAdult

Six Word Essay on Yoga

Mind is calm, body is strong!

A Visit From Gram

Gram came to visit,
Hearing her laugh was heaven;
Even in a dream.

Family Time!

When family comes to visit, I can hardly contain my excitement!
Unconditional love and support, aside-  the members of my family are wild, crazy, and passionate.  They all have big personalities, too.
Especially my mom.
Whether we hang out at home watching movies and eating popcorn or go on a lavish shopping spree at the mall, the bonding time is irreplaceable.
Now that I'm an adult, I appreciate my family more than ever-
I realize I would be lost without them.
Even when they piss me off, I'd still rather spend my time with them than almost anyone else.
...I said almost.

Press Release

Today it's all about self-promotion.
I'm delighted to share the official press release for my new book, So You Want To Be A Dancer!
It's official.  I'm an author.
#DreamComeTrue

Forced Creativty

Not ideal.

Still, necessary in order to grow-

Continually practicing and evolving,

To rediscover your passion.

Eager Puppies

Eager puppies hovering at the edge of the bed,
Ready to release their bladder and smell the new scents on their morning walk.
The cookie dance, which involves twisting and twirling in circles when we get back-
These dogs are so predictable...
Take them on a morning walk, give them a few cookies and some dog food and water, and they give us unconditional love!

Note To Self on Overachieving:

The more you do, the more you get done.
So stop complaining and finish out the week like a #champion!

Fall

Layers of earthy cozy delight,

Pumpkin Spice Latte's and crisp morning strolls.

Grounded colors rich and bold.

I love the fall!

Social Media Faux Pas

In the social media world of: "Look At Me and All Of My Amazing Projects"
it's no surprise that you have to shame people into "Following" or "Liking" you back.
Sadly, some people get so caught up in their own self-promotion, that they forget to support their friends back.
The worst part is, it cost nothing!
...Except your ego.

Good Night Moon

Just like a child, passed out the a couch...

I tried to stay awake for another episode,

But my eyes were ready for bed!

Good night moon,

And whatever I was watching in HBO when I fell asleep...

Stop Picking!

I have a terrible addiction to picking at things.  Primarily scabs.
It all started when I was a young child.  I suffered from painful earaches, which lead me to rubbing my ears uncontrollably until their was a scab, and naturally I would continue to pick at the scab.
It was a brutal cycle of self-abuse, just when the infected wound would heal, I'd dig right back in.
As a teenager, the nightmare continued with the onset of acne! I was like a migrant worker farming for zits.
Once I discovered Retin-A and puberty had calmed down, so did my obsession for picking...
At my skin anyway.  What I've come to realize is, as an adult I continue to pick--at problems.
I will pick away at a question or project until I cause a full gash in the situation, thus forcing me to deal with the larger dilemma at hand.
I'm not proud of this dirty little habit, alas any good picker knows, once you start, the scar never leaves!

Lines

Some lines are worth the wait:

Space Mountain at Disneyland- Yes.

Splash Mountain at Disneyland- No.

The line for coffee at Starbucks- Yes.

The line for the bathroom at Starbucks- No.

#PickYourBattles

Thank You For Being A Friend!

There's one TV show I can't resist-

If I pass it while channel surfing, I have to stop and watch it!

I grew up with these women in my living room every Saturday night.

Their humor and unconditional (but no-nonsense) love was such a comfort.  Especially being so far away from my grandmas! 

Thank god for TV Land marathons of The Golden Girls.  They're like Saturday morning cartoons for gays!

Get Up! ...and Get To Work!

Sleeping in is fun,
Until you remember there is work to be done.
You're not going to conquer your goals in bed dreaming,
So wake up, use your head and start scheming!

Note To Self:

Nothing exceptional ever comes from a rushed process-
But sometimes you just have to settle for "good."
Life is short; spend time on the things you are passionate about, and everything else, get it done and move on!

Creative Writing for Artistic Growth

After contributing to a daily blog for over five years, I can honestly say that providing content requires imagination, creativity, and a willingness to release the idea of perfection and settle for, "you did it!"

Six Word Essay on Starbucks

Corporate deliciousness in a venti cup!

Just Another Mundane Monday

Off to a slow start today,
Mondays are always rough.
Full of eagerness-
But lacking the motivation to conquer.
Maybe another cup of coffee will help?
If you can't find motivation, find caffeine!

Hotel Breakfast

Avoid the eggs and the meat,

Try the oatmeal instead.

The coffee's gross, but does the trick-

And you might as well gulp it down.

After all, you probably paid twenty dollars for it!

#HiddenRoomCharges

Dear Bran Muffin

You are delicious AND nutritious?!

I can't believe you're heart-healthy.

Just promise me you aren't full of carbs!

Wait you are?

I feel betrayed!

But I'm finishing you anyway.

...Everything Happens For A Reason...

Yeah, yeah, yeah...
We've all heard it before, and nobody wants to hear it when they're receiving bad news or suffering a loss.
However, I'm a firm believer in a higher power- call it God, The Universe or the collective spirit of humanity, I don't believe in coincidence.
I'm always thrilled and hopeful when I begin a new journey, and I encounter a person who knows me or I receive an opportunity based on my past life experience.
It's a little reminder that this world is small, and the entertainment industry is even smaller.
It also validates the decision I made to experience a new venture.  I trust my instincts, but I believe in God, and in moments when a "coincidence" transpires, I'm calm because I know I'm right where I'm meant to be.

My Reality...

Last night: adoption orientation,

This morning: pitch meeting at NBC!

#MakingItHappenInHollyood 

Busy Week. Time Flies

The more loaded my week is, the faster it goes.
I enjoy being busy.  Actually, I prefer it.  However, I think I could do a better job at finding the balance-
Rather than looking back on an event thinking, Oh- that was fun, I wish I wasn't so overwhelmed at the time.
I'd like to find a moment in the thick of it to stop, take a look around and appreciate the process.
I'm not afraid of time passing, but time lost, is life lost.
I refuse to miss out on my life.
So today in the hurricane of auditions, meetings, appointments and errands- I'm going to remember the most important job: taking care of me.
#Yoga

I'm Growing Up... I think.

I was thirty-five years old when I passed the laundry mat phase of my life.
I always thought I'd grow up faster, especially because I was wearing three-piece suits as a nine year old.  But something shifted for me when I got to high school.  I decided it was okay to be young, wild, creative and free...
I guess that's what happens when you're a performer attending a performing arts high school.
I'm happy that I had those crazy adventures in Chicago, Europe and New York City, however it wasn't until I moved back to Los Angeles when I realized, I'm ready to start living an adult life.
I don't miss the parking pass; carry (four months worth of) your dirty laundry to a laundry mat; only eat out during Happy Hour, hours part of my life.
I may not be the next Hollywood heartthrob, but I have an awesome life and a fabulous career doing what I love.
And today, that just feels awesome.
I'd still like to take the day off, and go to Disneyland though.

Motivated!

If you want to "do it all" you have to start by doing something.
Taking that first step in any direction is hard, however it will help motivate the spirt into action.
Action equals results.
So my choices today:
Sit around waiting for a phone to ring.
OR
Pick up the phone and start ringing-up some potential opportunities.
The only way to succeed, is by going after what you want!

Standing On Principle

Sometimes standing on principle just pisses people off.

You have to ask yourself, 

Do I want to be right?

Or

Why do I give a F_ck?

If the goal is to prove a point, take a less passive-aggressive approach-

Articulate your case and move on!

Be Careful What You Wish For

Sitting at home bored one day, waiting for my phone to ring-
I started sending out emails looking for leads,
I just wanted to stay active in between promoting my book and choreographing and teaching master classes on the weekends.
It's not that I wasn't pleased with my time for yoga, socializing with friends and catching up on a lot of reality TV-
My mind just needs distractions.
Well, low and behold, I received responses from all of my outreach, and now I'm over-booked and have no time to breathe.
Be careful what you wish for!
I'd finish this blog post, but I don't have

Observation on Balance

When you have a full day,
There's no time to play!
Unless you work your ass off to shit done, so that you can sneak away from work to go to a Friday Happy Hour and a date night movie...
#Balance

Recognizing You're Growing Up

That uncomfortable moment when you realize you're not "that" person anymore, but you're caught in the eye of the storm.
How do you get out?
You cause a bigger storm, and level the playing field...
Then you move to a new state. Or peer group!

Rise and Shine

"The earlier I wake up, the more time I have to accomplish my goals and get things done!"
...is what I repeat as I peel myself from my bed with my eyes glued shut.
As a classic overachiever I set high expectations.  I refuse to fail because I didn't work hard enough.
I've come to the decision that I will do everything in my power to accomplish my goals in life-
If that means a 6 AM wake-up call, then so be it.
The only thing more annoying than an early morning wake-up call, is not succeeding because I was too lazy.

Loyalty In Business?

Loyalty- I'm grateful for it, until it prevents me from making the right choice.
I believe in standing by my colleagues during conflict-
Defending them and our relationship.
But in business, I'm learning that sometimes you have to cut that cord.
It can be painful, but it's more devastating to go down with a burning ship that never gave you your own cabin anyway.

Daily Reminder

Life is as easy or difficult as we allow it to be!
I've blogged this before, and I'll blog it again, because it is a reminder that continues to evade me from time to time.
Once I remember that I can release the shitty circumstances and reinvent my outlook, I seem to thrive.
So, I'll ask myself this question:
Why the f_ck would I choose to make life any harder?
Dump that nonsense and move on!

YOGAtta Be Kidding Me!

Last time I checked, yoga was meant to be a peaceful practice of mind, body, and spirt-
Leave it to LA to turn it into a competitive, catty environment with strobe lights and club beats...
I am so NOT down with that dog!

Saturdays at Starbucks

The Hollywood socialites are fast asleep. While the overachieving fitness fanatics are sprinting past the homeless man that sits outside, eagerly awaiting an act of kindness from a European tourist.

Meanwhile, I stand in a line thirty-people-deep for my first Pumpkin Spice Latte of the year.

Starbucks is the McDonalds of the 21st Century.

And just like my elementary years with the Value Meal No. 2, I am #addicted!

Emotional Much?

You know you are a sensitive person when you cry during a two minute YouTube clip (posted on Facebook) of a stray cat who is ignored by everyone on a busy street, until a homeless man comes to the rescue and the cat starts purring.
#ICryAtHallmarkCommercials

Fear

Fear is the enemy of creativity.
It slowly destroys the imagination-
Replacing peace of mind with confusion.

When Life Caves In On You...

You have two choices:
Dig yourself out and keep on going.
Or
Give up the fight and get buried alive.
#ThePowerOfAChoice

The View is Looking Good! ...Again!

I was a closeted The View fan since the dawn of the show,
Until they dumped Rosie for a Republican schmoe,
This season returns with a new logo, a new set and a new Republican, too!
But, I'm back on board for the Rosie times TWO!
#TheViewIsBack

The Aftermath...

Cleaning up after a dinner party is similar to rummaging through a teenagers bedroom-
Everywhere you look there is a stack of something gross and crusty.
Half-eaten containers of food underneath furniture.
Overflowing trash bin.
Board game remnants strewn about.
And a funky smell fills the air... What is that?  It's nothing that was prepared by me!
#CleanUpIsGross

Dinner Party

Friends, food & fabulous conversation.

Oh, and delicious combination of beverages.

Six Word Essay on Saturday Morning Cartoons

SpongeBob SquarePants is the cartoon King!

Motivate! ...NOW!

The act of staying motivated, with nothing promising in sight, is always a challenge.
Life is full of ups and downs.  Especially in the entertainment industry.
I fight to maintain my disgustingly positive energy, even in the midst of a dry-spell or a shitstorm!
Everything seemed so much easier in my twenties.
Now, I actually have to give myself a pep-talk to get to yoga, class or a meeting...
I guess that's what happens when you hit thirty-  you allow the reality of reality to sink in.
Well, I have a choice.  I refuse to be a bitter thirty-something complainer-
I'm ready for my next adventure.  But the only way that's happening is with the motivation to get up off my ass and do something about it.
#NotGivingUpThatEasy

Remembering

It's hard to believe that thirteen years have passed since that unimaginable day in New York City.
I woke up to the sound of crying, my roommate had been up earlier than I, and saw the first plane fly into the World Trade tower.
We watched in horror as the second plane flew into the second tower-
We knew then it was no accident.
More than the fear, the overwhelming smell of smoke and destruction, and the looming uncertainty, I will remember how my New Yorkers and America united that day.
I was never more grateful to have my friends, who after that day, will forever be my family.  We cried together.  We comforted one another.  We prayed.  We told stories, which turned into much needed laughter.
On that day, we lost our innocents.  Through it all, I had my friends, who from then on, I consider members of my family.

Done. and Done!

It's no secret (I've mentioned this before) I LOVE crossing things off lists.
But I have to take it a step further, of course...
Now, I play a game to see if I can cross-off all of my "to do's" before 10 AM.
If I win, I get to cut work early and take a dip in the pool.
Today I claim victory!
Sure, I could be working on a plethora of important projects, but there's always tomorrow for that.

An Open Letter To The Universe

Dear Universe,
I realize I'm just a microscopic piece of dust in the grand scheme of everything, but I was hoping you could just help me shine with the stars and the planets.
Somehow I've bounced out of alignment, and I really need to get back on track.
Oh, and I wouldn't mind if Mercury would stop going into retrograde (whatever that means) my friends keep telling me this is a major problem, and I don't give a shit.
Thanks,
Matthew

A Poem About Mondays

Email inbox full,
Slowly I weed through the spam;
It's almost lunchtime!

When Opportunity Knocks...

Answer the door in your hottest outfit!

Oh, and be outrageously confident, sincerely charming and ridiculously over-prepared!

Six Word Essay on Morning Wake-up Calls

Puppies, stop jumping on my bladder!

There's No Business Like Showbusiness!

I always feel guilty for finding loopholes and using them,
Until I remember that a shadier person created the loophole to be used!
What's that old saying?  "Fake it, till you make it."
...and leverage everything you've got!

Pep Talk!

There are twenty-four hours in a day,
Six of which I spend sleeping-
Which means I have eighteen usable hours in a day.
More than enough time to get shit done!
So I have two options really,
1. I can sit around and complain about what's not "working" for me.
or
2. I can get motivated, take action and make "it" happen.
Good talk, Matthew!

Focus On The Work

The amount of energy you put into a project,
Is directly proportionate to the outcome.
Passion, detail and determination combined with pure hard work usually produces something powerful.
Hold onto the feeling of accomplishment. That, is success.
The praise and attention (which may or may not come) does not make something better, it's just the icing on an already delicious cake.

It's Tuesday... Get to Work!

When Tuesday is "Monday" my whole game is off-
I can't start a work week on day two!
These unanswered phone calls aren't going to return themselves,
So it leaves me no choice, I have to do Monday's work today, and the first thing I do on Monday mornings is walk to Starbucks to ease my way back into the work week!

#FloorBeds

A bed made out of pillows on the floor. Used for cuddling puppies and watching movies; enjoyed most on holidays and weekends. Perfect for holiday weekends.

SUNday

Three day holidays,

Partying with friends and food.

Swimming is a must!

Project!

Turning old to new,
Upholstering fabric and glue;
Our dining chairs rule!

TGIF??

It's not that I don't LOVE the weekends, it's just crazy how fast Friday comes as an adult.
Naturally when you're in school you dream about Friday-
Now, I struggle to get every single task done before the end of the week, and while doing so I lose all track of time.
It's Friday, and I have twenty projects to complete.
Where's an intern when you need one?
Oh, right- they're all off at some Happy Hour.  The weekend starts early for twenty-year olds.

Note To Inner Self:

Whenever you want to feel like a kid:
Turn on cartoons,
Pour a bowl of bran flakes, add honey, cinnamon and soy milk;
Dive in!
Instant sugary sweet childhood sense memory, without the processed sugar and preservatives!

Cut

Sadly, not on a movie set, but from an audition.
No matter how many times you audition and book (or don't book) the job-
The audition process is always a joyful torture.
On the one hand, you get to perform and be creative-
On the other, you are forced to "act" natural while people stare and judge your performance, and then cast you (or not) based on EVERYTHING other than your talent...
It's the life of a performer- and sometimes it sucks!

That's Life

It's a phrase I've heard throughout my life-
Offered by friends, family and even enemies (depending on the circumstance.)
As I child, I HATED that short, but painfully truthful analysis of almost any situation:
Your best friend spreads a nasty rumor, "That's life."
Your dog gets hit by a car, "That's life."
Your second runner up in every category, "That's life."
However, when put into perspective, it is also a joyful reminder:
You published a book! "That's life."
You own a home. "That's life."
You sold a TV show!  That's me projecting... But I hope soon enough I'll be saying to myself, "That's life!"
Outlook is everything!

Early Productivity

Waking up early;
Increased productivity.
More free time at night!

Random Thought

If we spent more time stretching, and less time complaining that we're getting older... we might not feel like we're getting older!
#Yoga #SundayStretchDay

Blogged Down

I got so caught up in my day, I forgot to blog!
It's called, being back in Los Angeles and trying to catch up on the life you put on pause.
Still, NO EXCUSES!
An artistic life, involves balance.

Home Sweet Home

They say "home is where the heart is" and while I believe that it's true, you can find happiness, love and family anywhere you are-
There's nothing better than walking into you home after being away for a long period of time.
The joy of being greeted by your family, my puppies give extra long cuddles.
The comfort of knowing where everything is in the kitchen.
But most of all, my BED!
I might actually get a full nights sleep tonight, for the first time in four weeks...
It's great to be home.

Road Trip

Cramped car,
Crappy junk food,
Beautiful scenery,
Bugs flying at the windshield,
Asshole drivers,
Tired truckers,
Spending too much money on gas,
Unclean rest stops.
Ah, the beauty of a road trip!

Excited

Meeting with my publisher today!
Eager to see the cover of my first book, for the first time.
What started as a childhood dream-
Expanded into a practical idea,
That lead to a serious project,
Which evolved into a passion,
Finally manifesting into a book that I could not be more proud of.
I'm so excited!

Keep The Faith

It's easy to doubt, fear and question,
However it's more rewarding to trust, love and take action.
I've experienced the outcome of negative and positive thoughts; without question, the positive energy always leads to a more rewarding outlook and subsequently a brighter result.
No matter the circumstance, there is power in recognizing we can manifest phenomenal things with Faith.

Forced Relaxation

I always feel guilty taking time off-
My soul wants to create,
My brain wants a challenge,
My OCD wants to take action,
But my heart NEEDS time: with my family, friends and myself.
I need to calm my thoughts, fears and desires, and remember how healing it is to sit in stillness and appreciate my surroundings.
Enlightenment comes through meditation.

Observation:

Though it can often come with headache and heartache; time with my family is priceless!

Slumber Party!

Sleepover with my niece! 

Frozen, cupcakes and dancing... Of course!

Mom and Dad; My Heroes

I didn't realize it when I was younger-
As an adult, I can comprehend how extraordinary my parents are.
Growing up they gave me: discipline, guidance, support, unconditional love and the confidence to follow my passion; they continue to do so now.  Moreover, they have become my friends.
When I feel like giving up, they're my coach-building me up.
If I need to cry, they provide a shoulder and words of wisdom to cheer me up.
When my ego takes over, they're there to remind me who I am.
When I need help, they continue to offer whatever they can.
I know how lucky I am, I count my blessings everyday.
I have a mom and dad that continue to be my number one fans, whether I'm teaching, performing, writing or working as a waiter; their love and pride is an example of true parenting.

Annoying Observation:

Even on vacation, I work!
I need to unplug.
Alas, my empire won't grow without my constant hustle!

Goodbye NYC

After a successful week of teaching, choreographing, and laughing with old friends; it's time I leave NYC.

I'm delighted that I got to see my buddy star on Broadway, my bestie's company shine on stage and even pick up some fun new designer merchandise at the House of Lodes! (AKA my friends hand-me-downs.)

But like all great adventures, this too must end, and just in time- it's raining... And I hate summer rain in NYC!

Remembering A Master

His ability to bring joy in sadness, truth in comedy and energy to all was extraordinary! Very few people can make you cry while you're laughing and laugh while you're crying-

Robin Williams artistry will be missed.

RIP

Non-Stop NYC

I forgot how busy you feel in NYC.
Between the tourist, subway rides and distractions everywhere- even a trip to Starbucks feels like work.
The city is pulsing with creativity, energy and MONEY.
go, Go, GO! is the attitude here.
I had a massage, three Starbucks coffees, two rehearsals, a Broadway show and dinner all in one day!
It's a crazy adventure, but I'm ready to get back to LA.
These days yoga, a power meeting and an audition are more my speed.

Line Up

Cheap tickets are near,

Please don't sell out before me!

Ready for the jazz hands.

#TcktsBroadway

Day Off

After a very long (and rewarding) week of teaching in NYC,
I'm ready to relax and enjoy a mimosa and brunch with good friends.
As soon as I can convince myself to get out of bed and hobble to the shower.
#EveryMuscleInMyBodyAches

Check-in Here

A NYC cafe full of people on their iSwippythings...

Posting, tagging, checking in-

But certainly not making contact with the friends sitting next to them.

I belong to a generation that has the best if both worlds. 

I know how to Tweet a sassy thought, post an interesting photo and check-in to share my location to anyone interested (including the government).

Fortunately, I still remember how to UNPLUG! 

Do the social media tech savvy children of our future even know what a handshake is? Or do the fist bump without looking up as the swipe to a new app?

Reasons I STILL Love NYC:

You can walk into a random Starbucks near Union Square and run into an old friend, (even though neither of you actually live in NYC anymore) and pick up right where you left off.

You can sit in a park and be approached by three complete strangers from three different countries, who are all in an English class-and they want to engage in conversation to better understand the language. (P.S. All three spoke better English than a third of the people who are actually born here.)

You can eat a three course meal at 1AM and nobody thinks anything of it.

But my favorite part, you can walk around any area of this city and gaze up and see no less than: 10 different types of architecture, 10 different ethnicities and 10 different styles of fashion-all while watching an uber wealthy stockbroker avoid eye contact with a homeless man.

  

Wrecked!

My body is a twisted piece of crunched up muscle-

Aching all over from prolonged teaching.

How did those dancers keep up?

Oh, right- they're sixteen and I'm thirty-six!

When did that happen?

I might be in pain, but I'll never stop teaching.

...my leg just might not go as high.

417 West 47th Street

It's like time stood still.

Sitting in the comfort of my old living room, laughing with my roommate;

Reminiscing about the past and catching up on the present.

I was a different person back then, I had yet to grow into myself.

She pointed out that I am comfortable in my new skin-

Yes, I am proud of the person I'm becoming.  I've stayed true to my goals and dreams, and haven't given up on the idea that "it" will happen. 

It IS happening!

A constant work in progress.  Maybe I'll really discover who I am when I'm old and bald?

Line Up!

I hate waiting in lines!

It started at Disneyland when I was five-

And continues to torture me to this day.

Especially at the airport.

TSA

Starbucks

Boarding the plane...

rage. Rage. #RAGE!!!

Lazy Sunday

Lounging around in my pj's.

Cuddling puppies,

A bottomless cup of hazelnut coffee,

My BFF in town,

And an obscure, but enjoyable movie on Netflix-

It's the perfect lazy Sunday!

Six Word Essay on Airport Travel

I can't stand rude flight attendants!

Good Morning in the Mountains

Some people sleep in,

Missing the gorgeous sunrise!

I wake with the birds.

Outlook Is Everything

The really burdensome part of my job is that I have to wake up in a different city every week.

The really exhilarating part of my job is that I get to explore a new city every week.

Life is complicated. It's nice to maintain a positive perspective.

#OutlookIsEverything

Sense Memory

After all the complaints I make about life on tour,
I figure the least I can do is share a happy memory.
As I was walking out of the hotel elevator after a very long day in the theatre last night, I was flooded with the aroma of hotel pool carpet and the buzzing of the ice machine in the alcove in the hallway.
I was instantly transported to my childhood; wonderful vacations with my family.  Traveling with my grandmas and grandpas was such an adventure, and continues to be with the pair I'm blessed to have left.
It never mattered where we were going, or what we were doing, the love and laughter that surrounded me was overwhelming.
My family gave me the gift of confidence, Faith and unconditional love.  I'm grateful to have that reminder today- life is short, so make it count.
Worry less about the "have nots" and remember the blessings.

The Morning Grind

I'm not talking about my grande coffee from Starbucks-
(Although I do love a delicious breakfast blend in the morning!)
My day starts two hours before I'd like to admit.
In order to meet my daily goals, I find myself up before the rooster crows at dawn.
Oddly enough, I used to be a night owl but I realized I'm twice as productive in the morning.
So here I am attempting to be creative.
I've discovered that I may not always write a witty blog post, however the act of committing to a daily essay, poem, random thought or creative writing has encouraged me to invest in my growth as an artist and release the idea of perfection.  Which will lead to more opportunity and success! (Hopefully.)

Life on The Road: The View is Nice

Occasionally, I complain about the irritations of life on the road;
Let's be honest, traveling for work is as enjoyable as going to the dentist for a root-canal.
So when I wake up in a new city, and roll over in my somewhat lumpy and uncomfortable hotel-bed and watch the sunrise over a glistening lake and soaring mountains, I have to admit that I have a pretty awesome life.
My "office" is never in the same place for more than a week.
I get paid to see the world, and however exhausting travel can be-I still appreciate the perks!

Focus

Creativity;

Constant pursuit of passion!

That is my success.

Random Note:

Household budget crisis over;

Bring on the HBO!

I've got a season of True Blood to catch up with.

Regret

That burning pain that seeps up from the stomach and into your chest- 

No, you did not NEED that French Dip Sandwich at 10 PM last night!

#RememberThisNextTime

Reach Out and Take It!

Opportunity,
Steal every chance you get!
Waiting is pointless.

Audition

The excitement of a potential job,
Reading through the script, making choices and preparing a character,
Running lines over and over, until you have it in your body,
Picking out the right clothes to convey the part,
Signing in and waiting in the lobby with twenty other guys that look JUST like you,
The awkward small talk in the casting office–then you slate your name and the scene begins and before you know it, your done...
Walk out feeling confident, you gave it your all and rocked it out!
Then, you wait.  You try to forget about it.  Every time it pops into your head you think, "Wouldn't that be awesome?"
But you let it go, and wait for the next audition.

Red-Eye

Relentless tossing;

Wide awake and craving sleep!

Sunny day, no rest.

Bagel Haiku

Savory goodness;
Toasted "everything" heaven.
Add delicious spreads!

Sundays In LA

It's rare when I get to enjoy a Sunday morning at home with my family.
Usually I'm waking up in a hotel bed in a random city across the country; getting ready to spend my day in a theatre.
So I'm taking advantage of this elusive day:
Breakfast in bed,
Walking to Starbucks with the puppies,
Hike in the Hollywood Hills,
Pooltime,
Dinner with friends,
and finally a late night movie in bed!
Full circle.
I love Sundays in LA.

The Glamorous Life on Tour...

The delight of sleeping in my own bed is second only to the love I receive from my partner and our puppies!
It's not that I don't enjoy life on the road-I just HATE hotel beds.
#SleepIsNecessary

Random Thought at an Airport

The more I fly, the more I realize people are so F_C#KING annoying!

Dancing The Night Away

Dancing all night long,
Like I'm a twenty year old!
Advil is my friend.

Cafiine RAGE

The line for the Starbucks in our hotel lobby is longer than the Great Wall-

With as many annoying tourists!

How can you not know what you want?

You've been standing in line for twenty minutes! #OverIt!

Random Question:

How many different combinations of the same four button down shirts and pairs of pants can you wear before becoming completely sick of it!
It's like a fashion game for middle-class people.
You have enough money to buy a few nice things, so you have to figure out how to maximize the return..
I think I'm doing okay, but one quick look on my Instagram, might tell a different story.
#TiredOfTheSameOldLooks

Moonlight Swim

The warm water rushed toward my feet,
Waves crashing faster,
No looking back now-I'm in to my waste.
The salty air was intoxicating,
Moonlight glistening across the horizon;
I love a midnight dip!

Six Word Essay on Red-Eye Flights

Stinky dirty sleepless breath really sucks!

Lucky In Love

After a week of working out of town and a twelve hour travel day, I crashed last night.

Waking up to the smell of Kona coconut Hawaiian coffee and bacon is just one of the many perks to married life.

I'm so blessed that I found my soulmate-

Whether creating projects, exploring a new city while on vacation or lounging at home watching Saturday morning cartoons, I am the luckiest man alive.

Because I found a partner who inspires me to thrive!

Travel Day

Up at 5 AM.

Thank God for Starbucks.

The shuttle driver proceeds cautiously at a snails pace to the airport-

TSA is surprisingly short,

So is my first flight.

Connection in Denver (I wish I had time to see my family). 

One day at home, then back on the road...

It's impossible to get enough sleep or look good.

Ah, the glamorous life!

Inspiration

Never stop fighting for your dreams-

You never know who's counting on your positive energy to encourage them.

Inspiration is contagious!

Living The Dream

Choreographing in a hotel room,

Drafting a marketing and PR strategy for my new book,

Composing an email to my manager,

Coordinating a meeting with a TV network to pitch our TV pilot-

All on three hours of sleep.

So I'm pretty much living the dream!

#TheGlamorousLife

Insomnia

Wired and hopeless,

Tomorrow is upon me.

Today will be long!

Success Takes Planning:

Focus,

Clearly recognizing my goals.

Determination,

Creating opportunities where they didn't exist.

Strategy,

Learning the game quickly.

Caffeine Is The Answer

Waking up is hard,

Staying awake is harder;

Starbucks will save me!

The Glamorous Life on Tour

So begins my five week tour of the United States of America.
I will spend half my time in and out of airports-
Thankfully my company decided to book me on several different airlines, so I won't be able to enjoy the benefits of airline-mileage programs. #Sarcasm
Additionally, I'm thrilled for the five-plus hour layovers I will get to enjoy.
Most of all, I'm excited for the lack of sleep I'll get between now and the middle of August!
#TheGlamorousLife

Note To Self:

When life seems overwhelming-
Remember your vacation on Hawaii,
Close your eyes,
Visualize the calming sea,
Release the fears that are holding you back,
Trust in the plan that is set in motion,
And shut the F_@K up and get to work, (so that you can pay for that trip to Hawaii)!

Six Word Essay on Why I Miss Hawaii

The calming water was so Zen!

Back To Reality

The first day back from vacation is always a rough one;
You wake up ready for another dream day, and remember you have to go to work-which can be more like a nightmare (depending on the day.)
Nevertheless, the holiday served it's purpose:
Rest, recharge and remember why you work so hard in the first place...
To enjoy time with family and friends in beautiful tropical destinations!
Life is short.  Work hard. Play hard!

Hawaiian Vacation Game Over

Selfie on the airplane back to reality!

Hawaiian Vacation Day 14

Everyone deserves a spa day!

Hawaiian Vacation Day 13

Today I celebrate and honor the spirit of my Gram.  She taught me almost everything I know, and certainly inspired me to laugh, love, dance and never give up!

One of her favorite quotes was, "Bloom where you're planted."

As a kid, I hated that thought- "Why not dig yourself out and bloom somewhere else if you're unhappy."

Now, I see the beauty in the thought.  There will be many pit stops along the path of life, if you learn how to flourish despite them, you will always grow, evolve, "bloom!"

I miss her so much, but I will continue to shine on in her honor! 

Love you gram! 

Hawaiian Vacation Day 12

There's a time to be active, and a time to sit and enjoy the view-

When the #Sunsets, so should you!

Hawaiian Vacation Day 11

What's the point of working so hard if you don't find time to enjoy the results?

#Balance

Hawaiian Vacation Day 10

Life is a balance-

Sometimes you have to find a way to make peace upsidedown!

Hawaiian Vacation Day 9

It's important not to act important on vacation!

Life is too short!

Hawaiian Vacation Day 8

In order to grow, you have to stretch-

Not just your body, but also your soul!

Hawaiian Vacation Day 7

Life is always about balance-

In the dance studio, but on vacation, too!

Hawaiian Vacation Day 6

This peaceful, stress-free way of life doesn't just have to happen in Hawaii- I can adopt the same mindset back home, too.  

I'm worry free and confident while I'm in Hawaii, because I make that choice.

Life isn't easier here, it's just easier to see clearly. It's all perception.

Hawaiian Vacation Day 5

Today I remembered-

I must not lose: 

My ability to dream,

The fearlessness to declare my dream to the Universe,

The confidence to take action toward accomplishing my dream,

And my Faith to trust that it will manifest as it is supposed to.

#DanceThroughLife

Hawaiian Vacation Day 4

Life's a beach!

Hawaiian Vacation Day 3

I strive to find balance in my life- i

It's important that I set goals and intentions that motivate me-however, getting stressed or angry if targets aren't met, is counterproductive.  

Goals are in place to inspire me, not overwhelm.  If I'm not enjoying the process, then what is the point?  Happiness is not in the victories, it's in the daily journey.

Hawaiian Vacation Day 2

Find time for balance on vacation!

Hawaiian Vacation Day 1

Boarded the airplane,

Paradise is awaiting;

Lava flows very soon!

Packing

Vacation is near,

Packing is always a chore;

Hawaiian reward!

The Glamorous Life

Four am wake up,

Sleepless but ready for work;

Vacation is near!

Work

Waking up,

Over it,

Ready for a new opportunity,

Keeping a positive attitude.

Six Word Essay on my Puppies

I wish I had a master!

Rage at Starbucks: I. HATE. TECHNOLOGY!

Eager to share a funny story, I logged on to my Tumblr account and was ready to start writing-
Forty-five minutes and fifteen attempts to sign-on later... I'm frustrated and over it!
I've said it before, and I'll say it again: I. HATE. TECHNOLOGY!

Hike and a Latte

Steady climb up hill,

Drenched with sweat, covered in dirt.

I earned a latte!

RX: Vacation

Is it that obvious I NEED a vacation?
Apparently the answer is YES!
One of my closest friends reached out to me yesterday,
"Don't take this the wrong way, but I've known you long enough to tell you, I think you need to take a break."
She's right.
My journey feels more like a job than an adventure.  I've been pushing myself to continue to create and stay motivated, that I discounted the idea that my mind and body need to rest, too.
After all, what's the point in working so hard, if I'm not going to give myself some time to sit back and enjoy the results?
Following the cover shoot for my book this week (which is TOTALLY EXCITING) I'm going to Hawaii-
A trip that was planned months ago, and I was actually dreading it.  Until I realized, with the help of my friend, that EVERYONE needs some down time.
Hopefully in two weeks, I will come back recharged and inspired!

Broadway Inspiration

Watching last nights Tony Awards reminded me how much I miss performing live-
As much as I love the process of writing and shooting media, the energy and theatricality of a live performance will always be magical.
Because I don't already have enough to do... #Sarcasm.
I've decided to focus on finding the perfect opportunity to jeté back on stage.  It's been so long since I've even auditioned for a musical, but I figure there's no time like the present.
Life is short.  Set goals and work your ass off to accomplish them.

Life On Tour: I Miss My Weekends

I can't wait until I can sleep-in on a Sunday; without a 4 am wake-up call and a 6 am flight to catch.

I vaguely recall the intoxicating aroma of brunch, and the tangy taste of mimosas. 

It's been six months since I went to mass or an afternoon movie-

Lounging poolside feels like a dream.

I'm thankful for my career, even if it means giving up my weekend adventures.

#BookTour 

Another Life Lesson From The Road

When you wake up in your hotel room before the sun is up-
It's best not to look in the mirror.
Instead, avoid turning on lights, and jump into the shower.
Once you've allowed the water to warm your face (approximately 20 minutes) continue getting ready as normal.
Be prepared, you still might look like an alien, but at least the crust around your eyes will be softer!
#IHATESleeplessNightsOnTheRoad
#TheGlamorousLife

Random Thought: Re Technology

You know you're a spoiled asshole when you #rage because it takes twenty minutes to send an email from Starbucks!
 #21stCenturyProblems #technology

Six Word Essay On Dinner

Steakhouse dinner is always a hit!

What's Your Opinion?

I'm always shocked when a person will attack me for sharing my thoughts, after they've asked for my, "honest opinion."
We all know opinions are like assholes- everyone has one.  If you don't want to hear my feedback... don't ask for it.  If you only want to hear positive critique then just say, "I don't really care for your thoughts, I just want to hear praise."
Asshole.

A Day Off

Day off by the pool,
Sun, sweat, dive in and get wet;
The emails can wait!

Travel Days

Airports are the worst aspect of life on the road.

TSA aside-

Dealing with bitter, jaded, nasty airline employees suck.

I get it. You're tired of the endless parade of uneducated, uncivilized, overweight assholes who don't have a clue...

But: 

A. YOU chose this job. 

B.  and more important, I am not one of those people aforementioned.

So slap on a phony smile and take care of your customers. 

Please and thanks (with a phony smile back!)

#United  

Thoughts In The Dark

Sitting in the darkness of the theatre,
I'm confronted with flashes of my past adventures;
There is a moment of panic,
That chapter has closed.
Then-
A spark,
The end of every chapter, is the beginning of a new one.
I'm ready for a new adventure.
It's time!

The Glamorous Life

Flight delayed, in at midnight;
Drama at the front desk- it's NO Holiday...
Four hours of sleep then off to the theatre,
Twelve hours of dancing, that's the gig!
#TheGlamorousLife

Insecure People Suck

Negativity; 

An industry full of it!

Don't give into doubt. 

Six Word Essay on Going To My Orthodontist.

My retainer makes me feel young!

Filled With Gratitude

Filled with gratitude,
The great days outweigh the bad;
Adventures await!

Zen Puppies

I love to watch my puppies wake up;
Slow yawns, then-
Drop, roll over and wait for belly rubs.
Harnesses on, they eagerly wait by the front door.
Once we're back from their morning walk,
They twirl for cookies,
Followed by a hop, circle dance to the food bowl (they each have their own special way of eating.)
Finally, with a full belly, they run to their doggy beds in the living room:
The yorkie, Ginger, soaks up the sun, while the shih tzu, Lily, lays around watching the squirrels outside.
It's a wonderful zen moment.
#AnimailsAreNecessary

Happy Memorial Day

United we stand,

Remembering our heroes;

Hot dogs and pool time!

Note To Self:

Late night drinking in Las Vegas will lead to a wasted Sunday morning.
#LostTime #SleepingIn

Another Holiday Weekend #Working!

I think working on a holiday weekend is my punishment for not having an office job to report to everyday.
I don't have a corner office in trendy building in LA, but don't get it twisted...
I work seven days a week-
It's called the #HustleOfAnArtist.
Writing, organizing, storyboarding, re-writes, shooting, editing, posting, social media, networking, researching, teaching, judging, choreographing, gigging to pay the bills, etc.
True, I don't punch in on a time clock,
My hours never stop-
#AlwaysOnTheJob in order to succeed.

TSA Airport Rage

Security line,

Impossible not to rage!

Happy thoughts calm me.

A Sea of Friendship

Occasionally, a friend will disappoint me-
Unintentionally, yet still painful.
Like life, friendships have cycles;
Sometimes we flow together, randomly we drift apart.
Finding comfort in the waves of emotion,
Trusting that true friends will float to the top.

LA Luster

Sunshine and blue skies,
Swimming in a sea of fame;
Dream or make-believe?

Six Word Essay on Waiting in Line at Starbucks

I may die of caffeine withdrawal. 

Another Friendly Reminder to Myself:

I worry too much.
I always have. Especially as a child-
Any of my energy that wasn't spent acting out skits for my family (or more-so for myself in front of a mirror) was exhausted in deep thought.
I overanalyzed, questioned and contemplated every detail of my life.
I concerned myself with how others might react to my decisions, and for the better part of my young adult life, I continued this pattern.
Allowing the actions or reactions from others, to dictate the way I communicated, planned or approached a situation.
Finally, after several life changing events, I made an epic self discovery:  I am not responsible for how others react to my decisions.  My choices are mine, and the only person I have to please, is myself.
Not out of selfishness, but rather full of self-respect.
I have strong opinions.  I still overthink things and I'm highly critical of myself, however, I've managed to adopt a healthier outlook on pursuing my goals and finding balance in my life.
As an artist, I struggle with "the question" which I now call "checking in."
Should I continue to purse my goals?
This question that lingers over my head, is the primary reason I've committed myself to daily journaling and my creative writing on this blog.  I'm dedicated to my growth as a person: mentally, physically, emotionally, artistically and spiritually.  I want to live a balanced life-  therefore, it is necessary for me to evolve in my ideas and adapted to the opportunities (and setbacks) that I am faced with.
I wouldn't continue to work my ass off every single day if I didn't believe that I am destined to achieve my goals.
I never thought about deadlines growing up.  I just knew that I was going to "make it."  As time passed and I got a little older, I began to see others giving themselves ultimatums and setting timelines.  "If I don't [Fill in the blank] by my thirtieth birthday, then I will quit.
What's the point?  If my goals are still real in my mind, then why on earth would I stop pursing them- especially after all of the time I've invested.
As long as I have a point of view that is uniquely mine, and the passion to share it- I'm going to fight to get it heard!
Allowing anything other than positive energy and Faith to motivate me, is an utter waste of time.

Back To The Grind!

Another Monday.
The email in-box is full;
Starbucks will save me!

Saturday Morning Sans Work-

I love Saturday mornings-
I rarely get one off, but when I do...
Look out Sponge Bob, I'm watching you.
Breakfast in bed, followed by a long walk with the puppies.
After that, who knows what will happen.
I have no plans, and I don't care.

Just One Of Those Days...

You know those days when you wake up happy,
with a wonderful adventure planned-
Then, without waring, everything turns to SHIT!
Today, is one of those days!
After spending three hours on the phone dealing with a business matter that should have been resolved in ten minutes...
I missed my movie, a trip to the beach and the chance to have a delicious lunch with friends.
The worst part is, I'm so pissed off, I can't even move past it, to go forward and enjoy whats left of my DAY OFF!
#RAGE #Annoyed #ThatsLife #TRYINGtoRELEASE!!!

Me Time

Sitting outside in the valley heat,

Drinking my Starbucks iced coffee-

The puppies comfortably passed out in my lap.

I should be writing or returning calls,

But instead, I'm enjoying some me time (with a splash of social media), naturally.

Auditions

Similar to going to the doctors office,
Auditions can be a painful experience-
The waiting room anxiety,
The fear that your going to hear something your not ready to learn about yourself,
The awkward “small talk”,
and then:
The naked vulnerability,
The only difference is that after the doctor, you leave with a lollypop!

Forced Creativity May Lead to Something?!

When you're over worked, it's hard to find time to write-
Nevertheless, I force myself to sit in front of my computer screen searching for creativity.
I'll let you know when it arrives.

Networking Takes Work! ...AND A BETTER SPELL CHECK!

It's interesting how responding to one email can turn into a forty-five minute project.
Carefully scrutinizing every word (with far more patience than I do this blog post), I hit send, only to see a typo-
That's life.
Do I send an additional reply and comment on the silly mistake? Or do I let it ride and hope they understand?
How come networking takes so much work?

Happy Mother's Day

Mom, you gave me life-

Even though I'm sure you wished you could take that back during my teenage years, I'm grateful you didn't!

Thank you for your unconditional love, support and faith in me and my dream.

You are the worlds best mom!

Weekend Work?!

Sunshine and blue skies,

Perfect beach day excursion;

Trapped inside working!

#TheGlamorousLife

Two Choices:

The opportunity always exists to be grateful for what I have,
rather than lamenting over the things that I want.
The advantage of celebrating my victories, however small, provides an energy that usually leads to unexpected adventures.
vs.
Laying around sulking, which inevitably lends itself to: overeating, weight-gain, complaining, a bitter attitude, a bleak outlook, depression and an overall lack of creativity.
Life is too short for that shit!
#MakeItHappen

Goodbyes Suck

Saying goodbye is never easy;
Especially when it's your mom.
Watching as the car turns the corner and fades into the sea of traffic-
It's like a vacuum cleaner is sucking the laughter and unconditional love away from you.
Just like that, the suspended childhood-bond that emerges whenever she is near, gets ripped apart all over again.
My heart sinks and I realize, my life as an adult must continue.

Note To Self:

When life gives you a free and delicious steakhouse dinner;
You take it.
Eat all of it. (Regardless of how fat you already feel because all you've been doing for the past week is consuming calories of every kind.)
Then, you regret it the next morning and tell yourself you CAN lose ten pounds in two days.
#MyMonthLongBirthdayCelebrationContinues

Missing Gram on Her Birthday

Gentle, wise and kind;

I miss her love and laughter.

I feel her spirit.

A Cinco de Mayo Thought:

Americans love a holiday,
Especially one that they've invented that involves booze.
Margarita- rocks with salt.
Don't forget the chips and salsa.  Guacamole, too!
It's Cinco de Mayo and I'm a partying fool.

Birthday Thoughts

Getting older, yes.

Celebrating each day!

Fabulous and wise.

The Art of Balance in Hollywood

It's so easy to get wrapped up in the LA scene-
Hustling for meetings, pitching your fabulous projects, relentless SELF-promotion;
You start to buy into the idea that you're only a success if you have two TV pilots in production, a movie deal with NBCUniversal, your own reality TV show and 10 BILLION followers on Instagram!
It's exhausting, but you're trapped into this belief that if you take a break you'll lose EVERYTHING!
When my mom comes to visit, I'm forced to STOP.  Family reminds you that there are far more important things in life than how you look on camera.  My loved ones knew me when I was just a little kid with a huge imagination and an enormous dream.
They continue to support my adventure, offering their love and encouragement.
I strive to live with balance in my life-  Naturally, I'm not perfect.  I do, however, fight to be a better person every day.
Therefore, in honor of my thirty-SOMETHING birthday, and my family in town I'm going to give myself the week off.
There will be plenty of time to conquer Hollywood next week, and if "Hollywood" forget who I am in a week, I'll just stage a "comeback" by checking myself into trendy rehab facility- I may have to do that anyway after this week!

Faith not Fear.

Life is wonderful;
When I release fear and doubt.
Living in the moment.

Mouth Pain

The heat in the valley is rough-

But not nearly as much as my tongue from my retainer!

#AdultPubertySucks!

Ode To Mexican Food

Puffy face,
Fat belly,
When I eat Mexican food, my body shakes like jelly.
Too much salt and lard and flour,
I need detox, and the treadmill for an hour!

Nothing For Granted...

When you're not feeling great about yourself-
Change something small.
Get a haircut or try wearing something you have in your closet, but mix in a fresh new spin;
Little tweaks bring a fun new energy to your life.
If that doesn't work, close your eyes and remember all the huge things we take for granted, like: walking, talking, oh and breathing!

Travel Day Poem

People are unaware,

Gone are the days of kindness.

Release helps bring peace.

Rise and Shine and CAFFEINE!

Rise and shine,
And get that espresso machine turned on, because I'm coming for a triple latte and I don't have time to waste.
Another long day in the theatre requires a very caffeinated, me.
#TheGlamorousLife

Starbucks NEEDED!

 A sleepless night, equals a long day in a dark theatre-
You'd think with the bass pumping and dancers jumping it would be easy to stay awake,
But the heat from the stage lights calms the body.
Today is going to require an extra trip to Starbucks, lets just hope that three triple-shot lattés will do the trick!

Pep Talk.

Living a happy life requires constant release and Faith.
Dismissing the thoughts and demands that I think society expects of me; it's vital to my success.
I refuse to get lost in a sea of doubt.  Sure, it's easier to give into fear.
Taking action, however, has always served me well.
I don't know where my future will take me, but judging from my past, I imagine the adventures will be fun.
As I get older, it has become more tempting to abandon my optimistic nature-
How will that serve me?  It won't.
Life is a journey; there will be mountains to climb and a lot of less-than-fair weather to overcome.  Through each struggle, I will conquer new heights.
When I look back on my life, it will be the view from the peaks that I cherish.