Mission Accomplished!

After hours of rewriting, teaching and torture -
I finished my first manuscript!
The moment hit "send" on my computer, a weight was lifted.
My book is now in the hands of my publisher.
I'm elated.
Joy, pride and accomplished are the words that sum up my feelings.
I poured my heart and soul into every detail of my book, and I have nothing left to say right now.
My mind needs a creative break.
But what an awesome way to end a brilliant year, and begin anew!
I'm an author!!
Happy New Year!

Stand Back 2014!

Approaching the end of another year-
They come and go faster as I get older. (Just like grandpa said!)
I'm proud of my accomplishments, and accept that I can still do more!
I'm an over-achiever, that will try to find happiness in the goals that I'm able to conquer.
Still I want to do more!
So look out 2014, I'm coming for you Fearlessly and FULL OUT!

Remember:

When people are assholes, just smile and ignore them.
As hard as it is (and it is PAINFULLY difficult for me.)
The message is loud and clear.
When I don't engage, they feel like SHIT.
That is the best payback.

A Collection of "Friends" on Facebook?

The difference between a friend and someone pretending to be your friend is apparent when you ask for help.
You can have thousands of "Friends" on Facebook - but if they can't be bothered by a simple request (that requires nothing more than a response), the odds are they aren't really in your corner.
The collaborative spirit shines in those who see the benefit in helping others succeed at their goals.

Lap Time

I envy the life of my puppies,
Their toughest job is deciding which lap they're going to lie in.
After lap time they wake up, eat, go to the bathroom and then search for their next lap!
Oh to be a puppy.

Christmas Without Gram

Accepting loss is never easy,
This was my first Christmas without Gram.
I missed hearing her voice say, "Merry Christmas."
The way she would remind me of all our blessings.
The smell of the savory holiday fixings.
I yearned for her long embrace.
It was a joyous day of celebration, but there was a huge hole in my heart.
I no longer have Gram her on earth,
If Christmas has taught me anything, it's to Believe in the spirit-
And I do.
Merry Christmas Gram,
I love you.

Stuffed and Stretched

I overate and now I'm stuffed.

I started stretching on the floor to feel active.

Health is important to me,

Especially when I eat like a maniac!

A Knock-Off Christmas Poem

Twas the day before Christmas and all through the house,
No one was cooking not even a mouse.
Our stockings were hung, but no presents in sight-
I sure hope Santa comes when I'm sleeping tonight.
Tis the season of love, blessings and cheer,
And before you know it, the start of a new year!
And I have a lot of work to do (which explains the lack of delicious holidays snacks, presents or creativity in my blog posts lately!)

Deadlines

The pressure is real,
So is the date.
I'm working real hard, and staying up LATE!
It's rough through the holidays,
I have no Christmas cheer,
My book is due soon, and I'm just plagued with fear.
Forcing the words, I'm in the creative zone.
But you'd never guess that from this cheesy poem!

Six Word Essay on Christmas Parties

My waistline can't take one more!

Random Thought:

If I were a cartoon, I'd probably be a lot like SpongeBob SquarePants. I respect his adventurous personality, innocent outlook, and fabulous fashion style. We both have big eyes too!

Tis' The Season

I'm overeating,
And drinking too much,
Laughing a lot,
And growing a gut!

Lost On The Internet

Social media has become a necessary evil in my line of work,
But I have to accomplish something MORE than a #Tweet today!
Getting caught in a Facebook, Huffington Post, Twitter tornado has not been great for my writing.
Has anyone else been lost on the internet?
Seriously, I "click through" so many posts, that I end up on some random website with political cats!  I knew cats were intelligent, but who knew they could vote?

#HangoversMakeForUnproductiveDays

Laying on my sofa trying to motivate!

I may have had too much to drink last night.

I'm pretty sure my book isn't going to write itself,

But nothing can pull me away from last nights episode of The Voice and the swimming pool of coffee I'm slurping down.

#HangoversMakeForUnproductiveDays

Release

How can I stay sad, when I'm surrounded by laughter?
How can I be stressed, with nothing to stress about?
How can I be afraid, when I'm guided by light?
Release the negativity and embrace the blessings.

Crunch Time!

...and I don't mean the gym!
I have a deadline and it's closing in.
Writing, edits and pictures to sort,
My book is due soon and I still have so much to do.
#LessCreativeBlogging

New House, Same God

My new church smells like old lady perfume.
I'm fairly certain it hasn't been remodeled since the 70's;
And I LOVE it.
It reminds me of my gram.
The music is different, and the people are unfamiliar-
But it's the same God.

Take Out The Trash

I woke up and spent the better part of an hour “reading” US Weekly and InTouch “magazines” that a guest brought into our new home.
I go out of my way to avoid the temptation while in line at the grocery store, yet the pictures of Kris Kardashian with the caption: Cheating Scandal! have suckered me back in.
I wish I could say that I wasn’t interested, but clearly I am.
I think it’s time to take out the trash-
But I need to flip to page 12 to see who Khloé’ is really OJ’s daughter!
(Hey it’s research for our parodies!)
Click the link:
http://bit.ly/rFylbV

Dinner Party Tummy

Dinner parties are so much fun.
Friends gather to eat, drink, laugh and eat more!
Unfortunately the next day isn't a joy.
Stepping on the scale is a major bummer.
#TheHolidaysAreHere

The Adventurous Squirrels in our Trees

I wake up each morning and gaze out our bedroom window.
It's not instantly noticeable in our treelined view,
But if you wait just a moment you'll get such a thrill.
Adventurous squirrels swing from tree to tree,
Dancing around and leaping with glee.
They balance on the wires,
They climb to with such ease,
These squirrels are more fun than watching a flying trapeze!

Starbucks

The red cup is alluring,

I cannot deny.

I long for an almond,

To get me thorough my day.

Caffeine addiction?

AbsoLATTE!

The Creative Life

It's not enough to say you love to dance, if you want to be a dancer;
It's not enough to say you live to write, if you want to be a writer;
It's not enough to say you long to act, if you want to be an actor;
It's not enough to say you like to paint, if you want to be a painter;
Proclaiming your artistic passion is a brilliant start-
But to live the creative life, you have to take action.
Regardless of how insignificant you think the work is,
Taking that first step, writing that first words, speaking the first scene, painting the first stroke:
That is living as an artist.

Food Is Always on My Mind

I go to bed hungry,
I wake up hungry,
I spend most of my days and nights dreaming about food.
Make no mistake, I eat three well-balanced meals a day; (AND a snack!)
Yet nothing takes the hunger cravings away.
All the rich smells that fill the air, are making for one FAT derriere!

Six Word Essay on Taco Night

I can't eat them fast enough!

Creativity At Work

Family is gone,
There's work to be done.
Writing and editing to meet my deadline.
I'm grateful for the fun I had,
But now it's time to get to work!
Just as soon as I watch these cartoons.
After all, it is Saturday.

I Hate Goodbyes!

I've always had a rough time saying goodbye.
Today was no exception!
After a wonderful week with my mom, the time has come for her to return home.
I try to remind myself to enjoy my time with her, and remember that I'll see her again soon-
Unfortunately, no matter how old I get or how much time I'm able to spend with her, saying goodbye kills me.
I will miss her warm energy, laughter and sassy commentary.
But more than anything else, I will miss how safe and protected I feel while she's visiting.
I think I have such a tough time with goodbyes, because I realize how long the space between "hello" can be.
I'm grateful for 21st Century technology.
FaceTime has revolutionized long-distance communication, but nothing will replace the caring embrace of my mom or the delicious smell of her homemade pizza!
Safe travels mom.  I can't wait for the next hello!

A Friendly Reminder in Our New Home

Last night we had a few close friends over to celebrate our new home.
As each of them entered our house for the first time, they reacted with oohhs and aaahhs.
Noticing the floors, the fixtures, the art on the walls-
(Everything we worked so hard on, and hoped would stand out!)
After everyone took the tour, we sat down with a drink and began talking.
In no time at all we were laughing and sharing wonderful stories.
It was a reminder that a home is not about the gorgeous new hardwood floors or recessed accent lighting;
It's about the love you bring into a new space!
I'm so grateful that we have so many wonderful friends and family that will bring life into our beautiful new home.

Puppies Need Love Too!

You try getting work done with an adorable puppy on your lap!
I woke up this morning with every intention of getting some things done around our new home.
Instead, I find myself sitting on the sofa with my Shih Tzu on my lap and my Yorkie wedged between my thigh and the sofa!
I think they're trying to tell me something.  Perhaps if they could talk they'd say, "Stop ignoring us!  You've been so focused on fixing up our new home, you haven't even given us a bone."
I get it puppies.  I need to spend some quality time with you.
So today, instead of vacuuming, cleaning the kitchen, changing the faucet in the guest bathroom or working on my book (that is due December 31st!) I'm going to cuddle with you!
After all, puppies deserve attention and quality time too!

Another Cheesy Holiday Poem

Working non-stop I was up all night,
Trying to enjoy a well balanced life.
I have family in town and a book deadline,
Focus Matthew, you'll be just fine!
I make a check list, and check it twice;
I'm not Santa, just a man with a mission.
(I can't rhyme everything.)
That is clear,
But I got my blog entry done today,
and made time for holiday cheer!

You Can Do It All!

If you wake up early,
And stay up late,
You can finish your work.
Spend time with friends and family,
and still create!
Discipline is the key to achieving balance.
Set goals with enough time allocated to work on accomplishing them,
Then make sure to enjoy personal time too!
It's exciting how much you can do in a day,
There is ALWAYS enough time for work and play!

Mom's In Town!

I love when my mom comes to visit me,
Spoiled with love, laughter and gifts!
But mostly I'm grateful for the time I get to spend with her,
Sharing stories and catching up on her life.
My mom has always inspired me to take on new challenges, invite change and live in the moment;
Which is exactly what I needed this time of year.
To push myself past the fear and embrace the exciting new opportunities!

Six Word Essay on Black Friday

I shopped, I spent, I contributed!

Turkey and Stuffing and Pie, Oh My!

I woke up in a food haze,
Still craving stuffing,
As if three servings wasn't enough!
The taste of gravy still on my tongue,
Sweet pumpkin pie and wine with friends,
It was a Happy Thanksgiving up to the end!

Happy Thanksgiving

The blessings are bountiful this Thanksgiving,
Marriage, a new home, a book deal.
I'm overcome with gratitude.
Despite the emotionally devastating loss of my gram-
I'm thankful for her love and spirit that lives on in me.
None of my accomplishments or victories would bring joy or happiness if I couldn't share them with my supportive family and friends.
I give thanks to every single person that has impacted my life;
I am a kinder, wiser, more loving and successful man because of them.
Happy Thanksgiving.

I Am Here

Occasionally I have to stop and remind myself that I am here.
Now.
Present in this moment in time.
If I choose to focus on plans, events or goals for the future, I'm missing out on today.
Life is overwhelming enough on a daily basis-
Why continue to stress, worry and plan for a tomorrow?
There is no guarantee that todays fears about the future will even pertain.
In fact, there's no promise that tomorrow will even come.
Live in this moment, because I am here now.

Realizing My Achievments

As a kid I never questioned my goals and dreams;
I knew exactly what I wanted and no one could convince me that my path might be a challenging one.
I stayed focused and confident.
Slowly I began achieving small victories that guided me to new opportunities.
I've made a career out of following every twist and turn,
I've said "yes" to new adventures and unexpected offers.
It's important that I "check in" with myself at every stage of my life to realize that I have enjoyed a continuous journey of growth, discovery and success.
As long as I stay committed to my Faith, confidence and hard work, I will soar.

Opportunity Awaits

In order to manifest the life that we plan for ourselves,

We must first be ready to accept the opportunity that is right in front if us,

Regardless of how overwhelming or frightening it may be.

The adventure that awaits us is "the plan."

Wine

The most effective stress-releasing sleep aid for those just so shitty days.

#GrapesEqualGoodness 

Creativity Requires Action

It's not enough to have a vision,

You must strive for focused energy on every project or adventure.

To label yourself a creative person, and spend little time working and growing is lazy and irresponsible.

Even the most inspired artists have moments of fear, rejection or negative thoughts-

Creativity demands action to over come the challenges! 

Living in Chaos

The move is complete.

My life turned upside down,

I'm not a hoarder but from the looks of my living room, I'm one litter box away!

#TheJoysOfMoving

Unpacking. Another bad poem...

Boxes stacked to the ceiling,

Random shit covers the floor,

I'm trying to stay calm unpacking,

But all I want to do is run out the door!  

Bad Poem about Moving Day

The bags are packed,

Car fully loaded;

Moving sucks!

Duly noted.

The Money Pit

You work,
You spend,
The cycle never ends.
The more I make,
The more "they" take,
I need to save-
A seemingly impossible concept to grasp;
Especially while renovating a new home!
Now I know why they call homeownership a money pit!
It doesn't even compare to the pit in my stomach...
That's life:
Now if you'll excuse me,
I've got to get to work!

Rant:

The only thing I hate more than a drivers who don't use turn signals,
are websites that don't work properly!
RAGE engulfs my entire being.
Why won't you load?
Why is there an "error" message?
Why does technology fail me!
WHY?! WHY?!
RAGE!

Moving Sucks!!!

Period!

Note To Self:

Waking up without Starbucks is possible, but I wouldn't recommend it.

I'm bitter without my bold blend!

Show Time!

Months of rehearsing with 50 children,

The lines are learned,

Musical numbers polished,

And the choreography is kicking!

Now it's time to break a leg!

No Sleep, Overworked equals Bad Poem

I'm running on empty,
No break in sight.
I try not to cry with all of my might,
Writing cheesy poems for my blog entry today-
Give me a break,
I'm in a bad way.

Covered In Paint

Dip,

Roll,

Brush slow.

Splattered paint in my hair;

My clothes look like a college art exhibit.

The once hideous walls are now like new!

It's amazing what a fresh coat of paint can do.

Over-Worked

Apparently it's my mission in life to bite-off more than I can chew;
I'm just not happy unless I'm committing myself to:
meetings, classes, creative projects, producing, developing relationships, home improvement projects, flying around the country choreographing and teaching workshops, the list is endless.
The non-stop hustle of it all is tiresome and rewarding and I wouldn't have it any other way!

Six Word Essay on Painting Our New Home:

I'm too old for this shit!

Remember:

The only way you will ever be "ready" for a new adventure or opportunity is when you accept that you will never feel ready, but once you take action, the fear and doubt are replaced with opportunity and accomplishment.

The Glamorous Life

Waking up at 5 AM-

The Glamorous Life has started again.

Sequins,

Jazz hands,

Stage moms galore-

Nothing can prep you for life on tour!

#DanceCompetitions 

Dear Southwest

Dear Southwest,

You suck!

Why don't you hire more employees?

I hate you.

Homeownership

Overwhelming joy wrapped up in:
Stress,
Projects,
Maintenance,
Taxes,
Dinner parties,
Family gatherings,
Quite nights near the fireplace.
I'm beside myself with excitement and uncertainty;
Life is always a wild adventure, now I officially have a home base to feel safe.
It's a beautiful day!

Life Online

Paying the bills,
Checking the mail,
Shopping for clothes and food on sale.
Everything we do in our day to day,
Can be done online,
Including play!

A Trip To The Airport

Saying goodbye at an airport is always rough.
Sitting in morning rush hour traffic for an hour and a half on the way home, is brutal.
Getting to Starbucks just in time for them to run out of my favorite breakfast sandwich, is RAGE-worthy!
Who knew a trip to the airport could be so disappointing?

I Love Mondays

I'm up and ready to start the week.
First things first:
Coffee, morning journal writing, creative blog post, check in on social media.
Then-
Review the tasks and goals I'd like to accomplish and create a game plan.
Followed by:
Morning meditation, thirty minute hike and breakfast.
I'm focused and ready to give this week my full attention.

Ode to Thai Food on a Sunday Night

Spicy and savory,
Magnificent vegetables drowning in coconut curry sauce,
Thai chili paste I adore you!
I celebrate each SINsational bite of the drunken noodle;
Intoxicated? Absolutely.

Random Observation:

Waiting in line at Starbucks is like the adult version of waiting in line at Disneyland as a child.

Crabby, irrational and ready to throw a tantrum if someone tries to cut in front of you!

The Weeks Go By So Fast!

Another Friday,
The week has passed-
Like my grandpa said:
"When you get older, the weeks go so fast."
As a kid, I couldn't wait for the weekend,
As an adult, I just wish I could hold on to each day a little longer.
Enjoy each moment for what it brings,
Soon enough I'll be wearing diapers! ...again.

Random Thought:

I'm guessing Lady Gaga dresses like a Librarian for Halloween!
#Normal Is Boring!

Six Word Essay On Zits

Will I ever get through puberty?

Terrific Tuesday!

It's going to be a terrific Tuesday I can tell;
The birds are chirping,
The sky is blue,
I'm enjoying a cup of coffee on my balcony.
Then off to work, meetings all day-
But looking forward tonight,
Dinner with friends downtown,
Balancing work and play!

Anticipation

I battle the urge to live in the future;
Always aware of where I'd like to be,
What I'd like to be doing.
I've been a "planner" since I was a very young kid.
The need to set goals, make lists, and map out an entire year of my life-
In many ways, I believe I've succeeded at my dreams because I was so focused.
Yet there is a part of me that strives for a release.
A break from always anticipating every moment.
Do I miss the real "payoff" because I've been so attached to the idea of what "it" will feel like?
Ultimately I think a little anticipation goes a long way;
My goal is to have an understanding of what may come,
But be open and ready to be surprised!

Sunday Mornings

Sunday mornings are calm and peaceful,
Even my puppies lie quiet, despite the 7 AM alarm.
Lazy and warm, we stay cuddled up in bed,
Until the rich aroma of coffee (set on auto the night before)
Entices me to start my day!

Game Day!

Fight on!
Is what all of my USC friends shout in every direction on game day.
The energy in the stadium is astounding;
A sea of cardinal and gold.
The band provides the perfect beat,
The song girls kick and turn every time the players soar,
And just in case your keeping score:
USC wins again.

A Call From My Sister

Early morning phone call from my sister,
I could hear in her voice she was shaken.
Instantly concerned, I ask if she's okay,
With that, the flood gates of emotion come pouring out.
It doesn't matter how old we are, or how far apart we live,
I can always tell when my sister needs me.
Hearing her cry breaks my heart.
I wish I could give her a hug.
I listen as she begins to calm herself down,
Sometimes we just need each other to cry, laugh or vent,
Just like we did as kids.
I love my sister so much-
I get caught up in my day to day life, activities and personal B.S.
I forget how much I miss her.
On a positive note, I'm so grateful for FaceTime!
Thank you Apple iPhone for keeping me near my family, even while they're so far away.

Gloomy Day!

It's a gloomy day in LA,
The sun is hiding and so am I.
Trying to motivate,
Get my day started...
But on grey days like today;
I just wanted to curl up on the couch and watch trash TV!

Thought Of The Day

Things don't always work out the way we planned and hoped for;
But they always work out the way they're supposed to.
From everything, there is a lesson learned and the opportunity for growth.

Stress Sweat

It's a special odor unlike any other;
The adrenaline, anger and potential for things to go seriously of course makes the body react in such strange ways.
Every toxin in the body rises to the surface to motivate you to push through the stress,
Leaving you with a euphoric and smelly outcome.

Who Knew?

Who knew buying a home while producing a television show would be so stressful?
I always fantasized that buying my first home would be a joy;
Similarly, I imagined that running a television show would be exciting and fun.
While both opportunities are a huge blessing,
I'll be grateful when we're comfortably moved into our new home, and we've found our groove on the set!

I'm Eating A Bacon Hamburger...

Deal with it!

Bad Dream

Not quite a nightmare,
But definitely not a fairy-tail either;
There's nothing worse than waking up from a bad dream.
Emotions on edge,
You spend the rest of the day with a terrible feeling,
Realizing it's was just a dream only makes the day more frustrating.
Like when I dream I've won millions of dollars, only to wake up and discover the truth...
How can I be this upset over something that happened in my mind while I was sleeping?

Goodbye Parties

Goodbye Parties are brutal.
Emotions are high,
Too much alcohol,
Clicks of friends meeting the "secret" friends,
Dancing, dancing, crying, dancing,
MORE alcohol!
The long walk home and the hangover in the morning.
So long good friend, I hope you'll stay in touch!

Get It Done! A Cheesy Poem...

Wake up early to start the day;
Lists "to do" aren't going away.
Working hard to get it done-
I just can't wait for weekend fun!

Six Word Essay on Editing

Jump cuts aren't pretty, but necessary!

NYC in the AM

New York in the early morning is (dare I say) calm;

No honking taxis,

The streets are empty,

Times Square shines half as bright.

On the way to the airport I got sentimental-

I miss the good moments I had while living in the city.

[Then]

Slam on the breaks and barley miss hitting a nasty, angry man crossing the street.

The moment passed.

LA is waiting for me,

But I'll always have my memories!

Hangover!

Last nights wedding in NYC,
Equals a massive hangover this morning.

View From Above

Wedding in NYC,
The Ritz Carlton in Battery Park;
The view of the Statue of Liberty is stunning.
Old friends reconnect,
New friendships forming,
Weddings like this are always a pleasure!

LAX to NYC

TSA is always packed,

Just one bag so I am stacked!

Through the jam and now in line at Starbucks,

Next, the line at Southwest...

Lines everywhere at LAX.

I #Hate airports!

Six Word Essay on Morning Walks

I love the crisp fall air!

The Saga Continues...

I've heard thousands of horror stories about buying a home;
I just never realized all of those first time home owners I talked to were seriously UNDER exaggerating!
We're fighting so hard to own a house that isn't our first choice;
It isn't even our fourth choice-
From what I understand, this is just the first challenge in a nonstop saga of homeownership!
But I'm ready to join the big boys.

Note To Self

Buying a home is an interesting process;
Never have I been so excited to spend so much time, energy and money on something that is only going to cause stress and financial hardship for the rest of my life...
Oh right, there is my career in show business too!
#That'sLife

Offer It Up!

I offer up my fear to God,
To the 'sellers' realtor, we offer up a solid quote,
To anyone out there, I offer my services as talented:
producer; director; choreographer; performer; teacher!
Everything works out for a reason.

Dear Headache

You are so F_ckin& annoying.
It's interesting how even after three cups of coffee and four Advil,
You continue to plague me.
I've released my stress and now I'm ready for you to move on too!

House Hunting!

Exciting to look,
Dreaming big,
It's frightening to see what some people think is a "home improvement."
LOCATION, LOCATION, LOCATION,
Found our dream home.
Offer goes out,
God, I hope we get it!

Six Word Essay on Faith

If you believe, you will succeed.

Friday

I love Friday, and have since I was a kid.
Friday is a beautiful hybrid of productivity and play.
There are still goals and tasks that you crunch to cross off a list,
In order to maximize on a carefree weekend of fun!
Not too stressful (like Monday.)
Not too lazy (like Sunday morning.)
Just a perfect balance!

A Short Story: How My Dream Turned Into A Career

Inspired by variety shows like: The Carol Burnett Show, You Can’t Do That On Television, In Living Color and Saturday Night Live, my passion for the entertainment industry was ignited!  I remember the first time I decided to build a set. I was wide-awake in my bedroom late at night after watching an episode of In Living Color. My mind was whirling in a hundred different directions searching for a creative outlet.  Influenced by a sketch that I’d seen Jim Carrey performer earlier in the evening I was eager to release my own inner entertainer.  Without a firm plan, I decided to raid our linen closet searching for the largest sheets and blankets I could find.  I began stapling the sheets to the ceiling in my bedroom to create the best version of a soundstage I could imagine.  I snuck into the living room and “borrowed” the family camcorder that (in my opinion) had not been used to its full potential.  Without a script or any idea of a concept, I searched through my closet to find whatever ridiculous outfit I could make into a costume; propped the camera up on its tripod; pressed record and began improvising.  That improvisation sparked my journey as a performer and filmmaker.  Whether acting, directing, dancing, choreographing or producing- I love the business of entertaining!

Fall

Overcast skies,
Crisp chill in the air.
Pumpkin Spice lattés keep me warm and satisfied.
Layered clothes in rich earthy tones;
Topped off with a bold scarf and fashionable hat.
My internal clock reminds me that the time change is rapidly approaching.
Short days, equal cozy nights,
I love the fall!

Daily Reminder:

Stress and fear distract me from success and Faith.
There is always room for positive action.

Email Etiquette

Whether writing a personal note or a professional response;
Keep it short and direct.
REMEMBER NOT TO USE ALL CAPS UNLES YOU WANT THE PERSON TO THINK YOU'RE YELLING AT THEM OR REALLY EXCITED ABOUT EVERYTHING!
Consider that not everyone understands "tone."
So a disclaimer: "The tone of this email is urgent, but caring..."
Helps clarify your point.
Finally, please remember that adding a period doesn't take up more time, so use punctuation, just like you were taught in school.
Thx! (Oh yes, short hand doesn't save time, it just looks foolish.)

Production Sunday

Mission accomplished!
Sunday business meetings aren't always ideal-
Thankfully, we made progress on some necessary evils.

Island In Between

In the midst of a heavy production schedule,
I will be traveling to Catalina Island for a wedding-
I feel like I'm caught in one of those cheesy tweenage action adventure films; Journey To An Island Wedding and Still Attempt To Meet Your Deadline!
Not to say that I won't have fun,
I just feel guilty for leaving all the work that still needs to get done.
The things we do for friends...

Six Word Essay On Destination Weddings

I love my friends, but seriously?

Check's In The Mail...

I finished the job, WELL I might add...
So why haven't I been paid?
As a small business owner, I'm always disappointed with companies that don't value their Independent Contractors.
Don't mail me the check, hand it to me when I finished the job you asked me to do.
It's just good business!

That's A Wrap!

We wrapped on an awesome new project last night;
I love when dance and television collide,
Intelligent Latin women, full of passion and talent...
It doesn't hurt that they're all gorgeous!
We got what we needed from them,
Now the real work begins-
The most important part of the story:
Editing.
Ugh. It's a thankless job, but it has to get done.
Let's sell a show!

I'm So Hollywood

Nothing like a jam-packed schedule in LA;
Shooting a fun sketch for some friends with their own cabaret show in New York,
Then off to choreograph fifty 5th graders through the enchanted forest,
Next stop power lunch with industry friends,
Followed up with a full night of production on our next TV adventure.
The glamorous life is less less attractive when you don't have time to breathe.
Still, I love creative productivity!

Walk, Walk, Jazz Run, Step Tilt.

The life of a chorus dancer is still the same;
Show up,
Sign in,
Warm-up,
Learn the combo,
Dance,
[Cuts]
Sing,
And scene!
When they're fun (like today's audition for Elf) they remind me of how much I love musical theatre and performing on stage.
I made it to the end of the audition, and the director and choreographer seemed to enjoy my performance, so fingers crossed, I get the job.
Which I REALLY need right now,
Because the 42 block walk home was very humbling.
Ten years later, and I'm still shuffling off to an audition with a backpack and bittersweet attitude.
You can take the chorus boy out of New York, but apparently he'll just keep living like he did there!

The Tone Of This Post Is Passive Aggressive

So much for a day off.

My Sunday just went from a day at the beach, followed with a glamorous night with friends, food and The Emmy Awards-

To work, editing and a lot of stress.

I guess I just don't work hard enough to deserve a Red Carpet

Saturday Mornings at Starbucks

A steady line of cranky customers waiting for their caffeine fix-

That will not stop me from enjoying my morning check-in.

Catching up on world news with my New York Times iPhone app,

Visiting with friends,

Meeting new neighbors,

People watching and of course listening to juicy gossip from the shady characters at the next table.

I love Saturday mornings at Starbucks!

Apple is Becoming Too PC (Pun Intended!)

I think my iPhone 5 is watching me.
In fact, I'm positive that the iOS7 update is a collaboration between Apple and Big Brother;
Recording our every move,
Keeping tack of our online interaction,
Reporting our every step to the government, or worse...
Advertisers!!!
Don't even get me started on the new design. It's too safe. To sterile. To clean. Too PC!

Random Observation

My grandparents were right!

The older I get, the faster the weeks go...

Live in the moment.

Random Thought about Writing

Writing keeps me fresh.
I love to tell stories, share experiences and express my emotions.
I don't follow rules-
Free flow,
Limitless,
Creativity.
Activating my ability to think!

Crisp and Chill

It's a brisk fall day in LA.
I love the rolling fog along the Hollywood Hills.
If it weren't for the palm trees,
I'd swear I was on the east coast!
I'm going to get outside and take a hike...
Breathe in some of that crisp air,
Regroup, refocus and revitalize in the chill!

How Much Is That Condo on the Corner?

I spent the entire morning daydreaming...
Online shopping for a home.
I love to pretend that I'm on Million Dollar Listing;
I play both the Realtor and the client looking for a home!
Making an offer on a dream condo in West Hollywood.
That's the phase of life I'm entering.
Will I sacrifice space for location?
Probably.
More money, less room in a fabulous, safe neighborhood.
We put it out into the universe, we're searching and I know it's going to happen.
VERY SOON.
#Christmas2013 #BestGiftEver!

Six Word Essay on Sunday Brunch

Eating eggs after noon is awesome!

Sassy Saturdays at Starbucks (The One In WeHo)

I love Saturday mornings in West Hollywood.
The young Hollywood socialites are still passed in some random venue,
The good looking guys from WhereEverVille, USA turned Hollywood Bad Boys are sneaking out of the aforementioned venue, making the walk of shame back to their crappy studio apartments,
And the fabulous, although somewhat older, sassy, funny men are laughing out loud at the latest celebrity scandal while trying to "one-up" each other with their nonsense and gossip over a delicious cup of Starbucks;
Pumpkin Spice Latté, naturally.
Happy Sassy Saturday.

Signs

I believe in signs.
Primarily because I've relied on indicators throughout my journey.
I wouldn't walk down a dark alley alone if I saw two guys with knives hanging around on the corner;
That's a sign of more trouble to come.
Every time that I've struggled with my career path or a major life decision, I've asked God for a direction-
Clarity, guidance, strength, wisdom.
A sign so that I may feel comfortable with my choice.
The past three months have been rough on me; losing my grandma, career setbacks and financial fears.  I began questioning, doubting and giving into fear.  I allowed the opinions of others to control my choices.
I lost Faith in myself and God.
(I should mention that I don't believe in coincidence, nor do I doubt the presence of a spiritual being greater than me; God.)
So it's no surprise that I find myself once again humbled and grateful for the sign I received yesterday.
It didn't take much, just a simple reminder in the way of a Scripture I saw posted on Facebook:
Jeremiah 29:11
"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."
It was a direct answer to the questions I had while silently meditating in prayer.
It's a sign that I must hear, accept and trust.
It was an answer to my question of doubt.

Reminder on "Making It" in the Entertainment Industry

The ability to work, be creative and sustain a life for sixteen years in an industry that fights to crush your spirit on a daily basis, is a huge success.
That is the very definition of "making it" in my book!

Always Remember

Twelve years ago today,
Heroes emerged to save the lives of innocent victims.
New York City gathered against hate and fought fear with love and peace.
America united-
Freedom comes at a price;
Today, I am grateful for all of those selfless men and women who continue to fight to keep our country the land of the free and the home of the brave!

Random Thought:

After spending a wild night in LA with one of my oldest friends; dancing, laughing and reminiscing about our lives on tour it occurred to me:
I got to party like a Rock Star in Chicago, Europe, New York City and Los Angeles in my Twenties.
That's fucking awesome!
#Memories

Monday Madness

Errands to run,
Laundry to do,
Monday's in LA can feel like a zoo-
Traffic is stopped like a parking lot,
It's the daily grind...
Oh, coffee sounds good!
Quick trip to Starbucks,
It's my favorite spot!
#It'sNotAPoemIJustLikeToRhyme

Six Word Essay on Gigs...

Take every single job that pays!

Saturday In The Sun

Blue skies,
80 degrees with a gentle breeze;
It's the perfect pool day in LA!
Lounging with a book,
Laughing with friends,
Sipping mojitos,
But definitely NOT eating!
#CelebrityThinByThePool

Exhale The Fear

Woke up in panic,
Take a deep breath-
Exhale the fear,
Inhale Faith.
Life is short,
So I follow my dream,
Perhaps I'm blinded by the delusional state of mind I've lived in my entire adult life...
But so far, it's never let me down.
I continue to soar in the wind of unknown.

Dance 3. Looks 10.

That's not how the song goes?!
Sadly, that's how I felt yesterday at an audition.
Despite my yoga practice and all of the choreography and teaching I do,
The fact is, there are some things I just cannot do anymore...
Like extend my leg past 90 degrees!
Still, I can clean the floor with my style and story-
But don't ask me to do an eight count développé to penché!
It's just not going to happen.
P.S. I'll gladly keep my looks over my extension any day.
Plus, there are still those Broadway style, step touch shows that I'm perfect for!

Gentle Reminder:

I cannot let other people's insecurities effect me.
Nor can I let their fears become mine.
I must trust my path.
Keep faith.
Work hard
Stay healthy; mind, body & spirit.

An Open Letter to Winona Ryder

Dear Winona-
You had such a bright future;
Mermaids was good for you.
I'm sorry that Angelina Jolie out-shined you in Girl Interrupted...
But it's time for a comeback-
I know you've got more in you than Black Swan and playing Spock's mom-
Signed,
A fan

Sinking Feeling

I woke up today with a huge pit in my gut.
Life is full of unknown obstacles,
Especially if you're in the entertainment industry.
Fighting to remain calm, focused and confident that another opportunity will come along;
ASAP!
I hate feeling fear-
I must take action.
Part of "making it" in the game of life,
Is moving forward, evening while you're struggling to find a reason to get out of bed.
Don't say the "D" word-
Just get up and work.
Every step forward, is a step in the right direction.
R-E-L-E-A-S-E

September

Another summer comes to an end.
September is upon us;
Fall,
Back to school,
Pumpkin Spice lattes,
The daily grind,
Football games,
Layers of clothing,
The brisk chill in the air,
The smell of fireplaces at night.
Before long we'll be hearing Christmas music playing in drugstores!
Oh yeah, and rent is due!
Happy September

Social Media Saturday

I've:
Texted,
Tweeted,
Tumblred,
Facebooked,
Instagramed,
Vined,
Blogged,
and sent my last email.
I think it's safe to say that social media is here to stay-
Now I'm off to enjoy my day!

Just When You've Got it All Figured Out...

Reality hits.
You remember that life (no matter how much you fight it) is full of unexpected situations;
An opportunity comes along to perform on your dream TV show,
OR
You get a phone call informing you that the wonderful job that you've been confirmed on, gets canceled- leaving you jobless for three months!
It happens.
It's life.
Dealing with the reaction to the news, positive or negative, is also a huge factor in the game of life.
I continue to learn, and relearn that life is a daring adventure,
Much like whitewater rafting.
One minute you're smiling, high on the rapids- dry and happy.
Then, out of nowhere, you're tossed out of the raft, into the violent water, and left praying that you don't get pulled under or hit a rock.
Somehow, you find a way to get back in the boat, and eventually back on top.
All you can do is fight for the things you want, and continue to say yes to opportunities.
You can't plan life-
But you can decide how to react.
Release the fear, and focus on how to rebound.
Stay positive and take action.  Every single step forward, is a step in the right direction.

Lap Dogs

We have two small dogs;
A Yorkie and a Shih Tzu.
Ginger, the Yorkie, is a 5 pound prima donna-
Lily, the Shih Tzu, is a tubby 11 pound, pound puppy.
Both are adorable, cuddly puppies who LOVE to bury their heads in a nice warm lap.
Just don't expect either one to fetch anything for you,
Lily will chase and play tug-of-war, but she has yet to master the art of catch and return.
Still, I love my puppies.
Even when the hog the entire bed and steal all of the covers.

Lets Do Lunch!

Today is one of those Hollywood days-
Finalizing our new press kit,
Coffee meeting with our manager,
Strategizing with our production partner,
Lunch meeting with network executives on the lot.
Hiking the Hollywood Hills,
And hopefully booking a gig...
All before lunch!
#SoHollywood

Six Word Essay on Auditions

Waiting for the phone to ring.

Annoying, Shitty, Downstairs Neighbor

When the annoying downstairs neighbor gets me down;
Playing music with the bass pumped up to full blast until 2 AM, four days in a row...
I don't get mad-
I wake up EARLY Monday morning, put my favorite tap shoes on, and start cleaning my house.
I vacum while choreographing a heavy time step,
I dust in the middle of my cramp rolls (extra loud on the heel drops.)
I empty the dishwasher in the middle of a shim-sham and belt out the high note in my best audition song!
Because the fact is, some people are just shitty, disrespectful, unaware human beings that think the world revolves around them.
Truthfully, I don't mind neighbors throwing a wild dinner party or holding a club night in their home, as long as it's not a nightly occasion.
But when it's day four of what sounds like Lady Gaga and Britney Spears wrestling over the last mound of cocaine-
I'm going to fight fire with HEAVY, syncopated tap combinations that involve rearranging almost every piece of furniture I own!

SUNday!

Church,
Hike,
Journal,
Creativity,
And now the beach.
I LOVE my SUNdays.
The continued focus on balance.

When You Party Until 2 AM...

You sleep until NOON.
I HATE wasting days because of laziness.
Still, an adventure is always fun, and last night was no exception.

Better Luck Next Week... A Motivational Reminder:

I don't really believe in luck,
Mostly I just use the word as a point of reference.
I spent most of this week in a groggy, mopey, uninspired state of mind-
The kind of mental and emotional place that will get me nowhere fast!
I think we're all entitled to at least one or two moments like this a year;
But that is it.
I am a healthy, talented, hard working, intelligent and fun person,
I have absolutely no reason to let one day of my life pass without finding a happy moment!
So, release, relax and roll on!
Okay, the pep talk's over...

Out of Darkness

Darkness is always near,

But can only effect you when you allow it to be more than a break from the light-

It's easy to sleep in negativity,

It is just as simple to flip a switch and awake with light!

Our greatest accomplishments wait to thrive in the warm glow!

Social Media Mind-Warp!

Texting and Tweeting and Tagging oh my!
Spent 45 minutes surfing YouTube,
Before heading over to Facebook- where I was lost in an endless chain of shared social media satisfying.
Then off to Instagram for a photo bouquet...
I spend too much time using electronic devises, that are meant to help me connect to people!

Side Note:

Some days you've just got to give yourself a break...
AKA-
Movie Matinee!
#ILoveLA
#IndustryResearch

Monday Back in LA!

After a a summer on tour,
I'm so grateful to be back in town.
Hustling for meetings,
Creative writing sessions,
and
Maybe even a Monday morning movie matinee?
It's so good to be back in LA!

Sunday Chores!

Woke up early to get things done.
After church and a Starbucks it was off to work!
Hair cuts for the puppies,
Dust and sweep,
Cleaning the kitchen,
Bills,
emails,
The list goes on,
But Sunday evening is time for fun.
Enough work, writing too.
I'm chilling with friends.

Back In LA

The sun is out,
The skies are blue,
Gorgeous tans,
Tight bodies-
Surrounded by healthy, happy, smiling people.
I LOVE LA!

Colorado

Rocky Mountains,

Blue skies,

And my family-

This was a wonderful visit!

The Thing About Family...

No matter how much they annoy you,
Through all life's ups and downs;
My truth with family-
They'll always come around.
Their love is unconditional,
Yes, it may be with emotion,
But nothing will break our bond.
Pure love.

A Dream Is a Gift Your Heart Needs...

I got to see my grandpa Shaffer in my last dream before I woke up this morning.
It was so nice to hear his voice,
Give him a hug and say I love you.
The dream was so real, I could smell him!
I'm so grateful for those moments with him,
Even if it is in a dream-
I still get to see him from time to time, and remember his impact on my life.

Six Word Essay on Colorado

Crunchy granola mountain men are hot.

Vacation!

As much as I hate traveling,
I'm so happy to spend some time off-
Colorado in August is always beautiful.
Looking forward to time with my family.
First trip without gram;
I'm sure there will be some rough patches,
But I'm here to live in the moment and enjoy my family.
PLUS- I get to sleep in. (I got up at 7:30 am instead of 6!)
Life is good.

Daily Truth:

I have Faith and passion-

I am an unstoppable force!

So Long NYC!

Hit it,

And quit it!

That's how you do New York City...

I was in the Big Apple for one whole day-

Just enough time to see some good friends, walk through Times Square and remember just how stressful the city can be.

Now I'm on the NJ Transit headed to Atlantic City.

The NYC skyline safely in the distance behind me,

It doesn't look so tough looking back.

New York, Brooklyn?!

I thought the saying was New York, New York!
Nevertheless, I'm on a couch in Brooklyn visiting with my friends in the city.
Flashback to eight years ago, when I used to live in NYC, and you NEVER would have found me in Brooklyn! NEVER.
NOT because it wasn't safe, or hip, or cool.
It just wasn't The Big Apple!
When I was a kid growing up, I never dreamed about moving to Brooklyn-
No offense. It just wasn't part of the Broadway experience.
So after PLENTY of ribbing and clichéd jokes, I decided to give Brooklyn a chance...
I mean, I didn't really have a choice, that's where their house is, and I needed a bed to sleep in!
All I can say is that I was wrong.
Their tree-lined street is gorgeous. Their apartment is charming. The food and culture rivals anything I've seen in Manhattan, and they live right next to a spectacular park!
The only down side-
Two subway transfers and 20 minutes to get to midtown...
#YouCan'tHaveEverything!

I Saw The Sign

Every year, we usually end up with tickets to the Hollywood Bowl.

I love it.

The music, culture, friends, food wine and people watching-

It's the perfect LA moment!

Last night was special for me. Not because Steve Martin was performing, though he was very entertaining.

One of my favorite moments at the Bowl, is as the sun sets behind the Hollywood Hills, the dusk heightens the romantic atmosphere-

Then, I always see it, right near the famous Hollywood sign, there's a gigantic Cross lite up.

I see that Cross on every trip to the bowl, and each time it feels like the first- a significant sign just for me.

"Remember Matthew, God is with you. You are safe. You have nothing to fear."

Last night however, I did not see that Cross.

It turns out the seats that we'd been given were perfectly placed in a gorgeous section of the outdoor theatre, and right next to us was a very lovely old tree hiding the Cross.

It suddenly dawned on me,

"Just because you can't see it, doesn't mean it's not there."

It was the most brilliant analogy for Faith.

It came at the exact moment in my life that I needed it.

After losing my gram, the doubt and questioning of my path and purpose in life began to seep in like a slow killing poison. 

I miss her so much, and no matter how many times I've tried to release my pain, my downward spiral continued.

I was remind last night, that in no way is my lack of Faith or sadness serving God or the spirit of my grandma. 

My time on this earth is short-

God has had a magnificent presence in everything good in my life.

I'd rather spend whatever time I have here filled with; happiness, hope, passion, love and Faith.

Whether I can see it or not, God has a path for me, I have to trust that it's there.

Six Word Essay on Mixed Messages...

Please get your story straight ASAP!

Tuesday...

It came and went without me.
I did some stuff,
But not enough,
And now it's almost Wednesday!

God is Real To Me...

In every blessing,
Opportunity,
and failure-
In my happiest moments,
and my darkest fears-
Every trace of doubt is removed, at the exact moment that I need to remember or feel His presence.
Through all my setbacks, questions and successes-
I believe in His path.

Six Word Essay on Food! ...Again

I love to eat so much!

Creative Juices!

This morning I'm getting my creative juices flowing again!
Looking forward to shooting a fun sketch for Funny or Die.
Whether I'm working on my own projects,
or in this case, helping a friend out,
I'm always grateful I get to do what I love.
If you're passionate about your job,
It's a lot more fun to go to work...
Especially at 8:00 am on a Saturday!

Up, Up and Away!

I'm feeling much better about myself now that I'm back in LA.
When I'm on the road I lose track of the things that are most important to me.
My quality of life, family, goals and faith are what keep me grounded and motivated,
When I'm on tour, I don't have enough time to focus on maintaining balance.
But I'm back in LA and I'm up, up and away!
Working towards accomplishing more of my dreams.
One day at a time.

Shake It Off...

The process of release is slow sometimes-
The point is that I'm trying.
Holding onto pain and the past, will not help my future.
I have to shake it off!
1, 2, 3...
Shake it off, shake it off!
(I think I understand the origin of that song!)

Enough!

How long can I spend in sadness and self-doubt?
Don't answer that question!
Because the only answer is-
Too long! I've spent too long in this emotional mind frame.
If I've learned anything from the death of my gram,
It's that time does not stand still.
Life continues.
Whether I'm on board or not.
So as long as I'm here, I MUST use my time, creativity, energy and spirit to better myself and others.
You're either living or dying.
I refuse to die without living.

Release. Trust. Release.

Woke up with a pit in my stomach...
Again.
I've got a lot on my mind-
Missing my gram,
Turmoil with dad,
Wanting to start a family of my own,
Ready to buy a home,
Striving to continue building my career,
How to afford everything and still spend time with loved ones...
I know that worrying about all of this isn't helping me achieve any of it!
Ordinarily I'm really good at releasing the fear, and focusing on efforts to accomplish each of these goals and dreams.
But after losing my gram, I STILL haven't found my rhythm of release and trust.
I know that I was placed here for a purpose,
I believe there is a path for my passion and spirit,
I have to release my fear,
And trust in my faith!

AdventureLAND

So far, my summer has been filled with work, travel and more work!
Notice I said "travel" and NOT vacation.
This weekend I did get to enjoy a weekend of wine, friends and wedding festivities in Napa, which was a nice treat.
But today, my summer vacation really takes off-
I'm going to Six Flags Discovery Kingdom with my niece and nephews!
The only thing I love more that family fun...
Is family fun on a roller coaster!
So without further ado,
I'm off to AdventureLAND!!!

Life In A Bag!

Waking up in a different bed, in a different city-

Clothes you're so sick of wearing,

Does this smell clean enough?

Driving 30 miles to make an appearance,

Then back on the road for the next gig.

Lack of sleep,

PLUS

Lack of gym,

Equals: raging, tired, emotional fatty!

All part of living life out of a bag.

Six Word Essay on Rehearsal Dinners

Don't drink too much or else!

Wedding in Napa

Day 1
Wine bus that seats sixteen;
Five vineyards on the tour-
Tastings, tastings, tastings galore!
BBQ at the bride and groom to be's gorgeous house.
Day 2
Sleep in and a late brunch,
Champagne toast with the bride to be-
Rehearsal (dress tech!)
Rehearsal dinner and dancing!
Day 3
Wedding day!
Sleep in,
Lounge by the pool,
Ceremony,
Cocktail hour in a champagne cave,
Dinner is served,
Dancing on a cliffside bluff,
A drunken wonderful time!
Day 4
Brunch with the Bride and Groom.
More pool time,
Lazy afternoon.
I LOVE weddings like this!
Congratulations Bevin and Lee

Big Belly Blues!

Sitting at the airport waiting to board another flight.

Traveling has its advantages and disadvantages-

My number one complaint,

The disgusting feeling I experience after spending weeks eating non-organic, gross, fried, salty chain restaurant food!

Coupled with the lack of a regular workout regimen,

And I feel like a bloated water buffalo-

No, worse.

An uncomfortable Buddha wearing clothes that are too tight!

Mental Wondering

I've got a lot on my mind.
No matter how hard I try,
My ability to "release" has been suspended.
Missing gram,
Getting married,
Spending the past month working away from home,
Setting up meetings,
Planning a fall work schedule,
Stressing about what's next,
Angry that I can't seem to achieve balance right now,
Upset that I'm angry.
The choice to release all of this and trust in my FAITH remains,
Yet I continue to drown myself deeper the pool of thoughts in my mind.
I need a life preserver from my mental wondering!

HIt Snooze

Blaring in my ear,
It's way to soon.
I just got to sleep!
HIT SNOOZE!
How many times can you hit snooze anyway?
I guess we'll find out.

Life in a Hotel

Living out of a carry on is so much fun;
Miss matched clothes,
Full of wrinkles.
Clean or dirty? It's a guessing game!
Airline vouchers, balled up receipts and random business cards, shoved in various sections of your brief case,
A laptop that doubles as your television set,
(Thank you Netflix!)
Maid service, but don't get used to this!
No one is going to pick up your dirty towels at home.
You're also never going to find a bed that is as inviting as the one you have at home.
Life in a hotel isn't all bad-
I mean you can get room service,
Free (crappy) toiletries,
and occasionally a wonderful pool to hang out at!
But I am so ready to return to my walk-in closet and familiar home!

Remembering Gram

The past three weeks since my grandmas death has been full of ups and downs-

I've been swamped with work, which has provided a needed distraction, but the moments of intense sadness and loss still overwhelm me. 

When I first wake in the morning is generally the worst.

Still, I'm able to recognize that all of the sad thoughts, regrets and wishing for a different outcome, won't bring gram back to me-

Nor will it encourage me to continue to pursue the goals and dreams that I have been working for my entire life. No one believed in me more or wanted these dreams to manifest for me more than gram did.

She understood my passion, inspired me to work at my dreams and never give up!

So rather than allowing the despair to conquer the spirit that my gram ignited in me-

I must celebrate her memory and her spirt that lives on in me.

I owe her the honor of continuing to be that man she believed I could be.

I have to release the negative and embrace her light.

I know she'll continue to inspire me to shine!

Blessed

I have my health,

My family and friends.

My passion and creativity continue to thrive,

A beautiful home filled with puppies and love,

Food and water- I've never gone without.

Despite the loss and setbacks in life,

I'm grateful. 

I know I have been blessed with wonderful opportunities, and I must remind myself to be thankful for the beauty in my life.

Six Word Essay on Airports

Transferring terminals for a layover sucks!

Coffee!!

The smell alone is killing me...

This line is so ridiculous!

Why must all these people take so long?

Have you never been to a Starbucks before?!

Raging!!!

Six Word Essay On Sleep

I never get enough of it!

Life on Tour

Bloated and tired,
I lack sleep.
Trying to catch up on "life" at home,
While working and living out of a bag.
It's fun for a day in every new city...
Then it just becomes another hotel room that IS NOT your home.
Friends are near to keep you smiling,
Even if your laughing at the conditions.
Grateful for the opportunities,
Just wish I could go to the bathroom...

I'm Up!

I'm up two hours before I'd like to be...
I'm up two hours before I need to be...
I'm up for a call time that I WON'T get paid for...
I'm up for NO reason at all...
I'm up because it's my job, and I'll do it with a smile...
I'm up on tour, and wish I was at home with my family!
I'M UP!

Life on Tour

Eat, sleep, work, travel-
Pause: to return home for my gram's funeral-
Back on the road;
Eat, sleep, work, travel-
Pause: to get married! An event that we planned in half a day (while catching connecting flights at two different airports.
One night at home as a married man-
Then;
Travel, eat, sleep, work...
Life on tour never gets dull.
I work twice as hard to stay focused, active, creative, outgoing and happy while I'm out of LA.
Otherwise, I'd just be a cranky biathc!

It's Official!

After 11 years of happiness, love, success and a lot of laughter...
It is official!!!
I didn't think I'd feel a "change" but I was wrong-
Nothing would have prepared me for how huge an impact yesterday was.
I'm so blessed to be surrounded by a loving, accepting group of friends and of course my family!
Here's to a lifetime of continued joy!

Tying The Knot

After 11 wonderful years,
A proposition of hate,
And a ruling for Equality-
Love will prevail today.
Jeff and I are tying the knot.
There's never been a person in my life that has influenced, inspired, challenged or loved me more!
I hope that I can be that for him too!
For the rest of our lives.

Forced Happiness

It's a goal of mine to remain happy-
Grateful for the blessing (and there are a lot of them) that I have in my life.
Nevertheless, I have those days when I wake up, and the weight of the world is on my shoulders.
Dealing with the loss of my grandma has been tough.
I know life goes on, and I've thrown myself into my job and creative projects to ease the pain-
But this morning I woke up and I just can't shake it off...
It's in these moments that I default to something I refer to as:
Force Happiness.
I'm not happy in any way,
But I lie to my self, and tell myself that if I pretend to be happy I will trick my mind into believing it.
I'm not sure that its working, but it's better than walking around in a state of depression.

The Art of Packing

When you spend half your life living out of a suitcase, you get used to packing.

The secret is to fold your clothes and then roll them up like a burrito. 

You can stack twice as much that way!

It also helps if you buy clothes that can be worn in a number of matching combinations, allowing you several outfits without overpacking!

Life on Tour

Laying in bed awake,
If I fall asleep now I'll get 4 hours of sleep.
I have to work all day tomorrow!
Finally pass out...
Time to wake up,
I hope I stay awake today!
#IMissMyOwnBed.

Missing Gram

Woke up feeling sad,

Really missing Gram.

Her spirit is around, I know.

I just wish I could call her and hear her voice.

Trying to remember that she's no longer in pain,

I just wish I could say the same.

A Lot of Beer

...and a lack of sleep makes for a long day in the theatre!

Life on Tour

Day 1-

I'm up early,

Ready for a Starbucks session:

Iced tall coffee with soy,

Post my blog entry,

Write in my journal,

Catch up on email,

Post my Instagram, (Social Media!!)

I'm focused on staying in shape and committed to my daily goals.

Finding balance on tour is NOT impossible...

It just takes losing sleep.

Airport Goodbyes

Once again at an airport.

I've always associated airports with sadness-

Despite the fact that happy times come from visiting family and friends,

Not to mention awesome vacations...

Yet my lasting memories of airports is always from the end of a wonderful visit.

Saying goodbye.

This trip is especially difficult, because I had to say goodbye to my gram for the last time.

I'm always thankful for new adventures, but going to the airport is always bittersweet.

I've spent my adult life leaving people curbside.

I'll never get used to it.

But I'm learning to deal with it.

...very slowly.

Guardian Angel

Losing gram this week was extremely devastating.
She was my best friend;
No one has ever inspired me,
Or believed in me more.
She was the first person I shared my victories with,
She eased the sting of my setbacks.
She reminded me of my accomplishments,
She knew my worth, and had faith in my talent.
I know that my life will go on,
I imagine the pain will never fully go away-
I just keep reminding myself that I could not have a better person as my guardian angel!
I trust that she will be up there working double time.
And nobody is more charmingly persistent,
Or effective at convincing people to take a chance!
I love you gram.