Hustle, It's Your Day Off!

Today is my day off;
Which means I only have three conference calls,
Two classes,
15 emails,
and 4 social media posts to finish before I get to spend some time with friends at the pool.
Hustle, the life of an artist in the entertainment industry.

Yoga

You
Obviously
Gain
Awareness

Pep Talk

Some days you just need a good pep talk;
Remember:
Life is too short to give a shit what anyone else thinks.
Follow your passion and stay focused.
Face negative energy with a positive action.
Don’t give up!

Family Ties

The conversations I have with my sister now versus when we were growing up is night and day.
The fights, name calling, and competition has been replaced with love, respect, and support.
I feel blessed to have a friendship with such a strong woman.
I’m impressed with her wit and intelligence, and her ability to listen and offer thoughtful feedback is appreciated.
She knows me, accepts me, values me, and encourages me––which is inspiring from a little sister.
Our evolution has been a constant work in progress, and I’m grateful for her willingness to continue to build our relationship.
You can’t choose your family, but you can choose how to communicate with them; I’m lucky to have a sister who’s ready to participate!

#LoveWins

A rainbow sea of love and support;
I was reminded today that light and love win over fear and darkness.
As a teenager I struggled and ultimately condemned myself to live a lie.
Thankfully, over time and support from friends and family, I found the authentic me.
I had accepted that I could follow my dreams and love who I want; but would never be married.
Two years ago in California, I provide myself wrong––after 11 years of unconditional love, support, and creativity I was married to my best friend.
Today, everyone in this country, regardless of race, religion, or sexual orientation, can experience the joy and safety of equality.
Love is love and marriage is marriage.

Six Word Essay on Neighbors

I draw the line at sugar.

Motivated

Mind

Optimistic

Tireless 

Invested

Viscously

Active

Tenacious 

Engaged 

Discipline 

The Glamorous Life

Running on fumes.
Life on the road keeps me out of shape, eating poorly, and up too late.
I need to set boundaries.
I also need to scale back on some of the impossible goals I set for myself.
It’s a delicate balance, and right now, I’ve got to engage my center and pull up on a full relevé!

Dancer Body...

There’s not enough Advil in the world to relax my body.
Time for a long meditation, relaxing floor stretch, and a long hot bath.
#BodyAche

Book Signing

Nerves,
What if no one shows;
Ego vs. Faith.
I love talking to a group of people about the entertainment industry.
Friends come to support;
Small but mighty.
I have a book in Barnes & Noble;
I should consider that a victory.
Everything else is just icing on the cake.

Six Word Essay on Early Mornings.

Without my coffee I will rage!

Dance Life

Choreographing;
It’s what hotels were made for.
The dance life on tour!

Disney Coffee Taste Better...

Well, not really—but it should; 

I just spent $4.95 for an iced coffee.

No fancy business, just the beans!

The Mouse understands capitalism better than anyone else!

Selfish

People who still don't know how to proceed through the TSA line fall in the same category as those who think it's okay to get on an elevator before allowing people to get off.

#Selfish

Grateful

Reading from my book;

In a national bookstore.

Blessed, and so grateful.

Chores

I love doing laundry;

Primarily because it's a reminder that I have a washing machine in my home—which is huge.

I'm a grown up now.

Netflix

My favorite way to fall asleep:

Reruns of The West Wing on Netflix.

TV on demand, online!

Family Time

Early wake-up call;

I have to find time for my family.

A quick walk to Starbucks—two puppies and my bug.

These moments are the most important part of my day, and the greatest aspect of my life.

Two Dogs, One Lap.

The struggle is real;

The Shih Tzu wants to cuddle,

The Yorkie wants all the attention,

I want a blanket to keep me warm while I write my blog post.

Only one will win—right now the Yorkie is the princess in the lead!

A Day Late...

Some days you just can't get it all crossed off the list!

Shavasana

Laying in bed;

This is the kind of yoga I could do all day!

Floor Bed

Laying on a pile of down-filled blankets and pillows, cuddling with puppies watching movies;

An excellent way to spend a rainy day off!

Missed Opportunity?

#MakeUpPost
What could I have been up to on June 8th?
Lazy I guess.
Now I'm forced to write a post:
I never committed to creative writing in grade school;
It wasn't until I became and adult that I realized the value of free flowing thought.
Now, as I force myself to write this post (because I my OCD needs to see "365" posts) I'm reminded of why I hated writing in school––when you force it, it sucks!
But the post is done, never the less.

Six Word Essay on 5am Wake Up Calls

Pealing sleep out of my eyes.

Reflection

My emotions are on high alert;
I cried on an airplane for forty minutes last night.
There was no reason really––a song played on my iPhone, and I just started balling.
Flashbacks to childhood dreams lead to a self-evalutaion:
What I’ve achieved,
Who I’ve lost,
How much I’ve sacrificed.
I make choices that I believe will lead me to the best version of myself possible.
Only when I look back at the end of my life, will I know if it was all worth it.

Remember:

When you stop hating yourself––you start loving yourself;
And that’s the first step in succeeding in life.

Do You Hear Me?

Misunderstandings;
Some people hear you, some don’t.
Let go and move on!

Doggy Dreaming

Snuggled up in a warm bed;
Maybe I’ll get up for food, or maybe I’ll stay right here and stretch.
Long walks, lap time, and belly rubs.
Endless amounts of cookies and treats.
Someone who cleans up after my every move;
I wish I had my dogs life!

Let Go and Go Get It!

In an effort to reduce stress and enjoy a more balanced life,
I’ve decided I’m not going to rage today.
Yes, I want to go off on the lack of productivity I’ve received from people whom I entrusted with my career––but the simple truth remains;
NO ONE will ever work as hard as me on my behalf.
So, the negative energy is gone, and I’m ready to move on!
#LetGo&GoGetIt

Six Word Essay on Goals:

Endlessly trying to get shit done!

Life Goes On

Past the storm, calm waters.
Not much damage to report;
Bright skies lead the way.

Comment on my Day:

There isn't enough coffee in the world to make a fourteen hour day look easy.

Six Word Essay on Life

Every challenge provides opportunity for growth.

That's Life

The minute you allow yourself to feel excitement for getting caught up,
Something happens causing a three hundred dollar meltdown.
I should be used to it at this point, but I don’t think we’re ever prepared for the sudden punch to our gut!
That’s life... or so “they” say.

Broke Down

The feeling of having a nervous breakdown when your car stalls in the middle of rush hour.

A Day On Set

The enormous room,
A blank space for creating;
I love a soundstage!

Weekend Warrior

Work, promote, play!
I love a weekend where I get paid to have fun.
Critiquing dancers, signing books at Barnes & Noble,
And best of all––spending a fabulous evening with my aunt!
My life has been filled with laughter, love, adventure and encouragement in large part because of her, and I last night was no exception!
Thankfully not everything stays in Vegas... I’m bringing my light up hat and a few bucks back with me this trip!

The Glass is Spilling Over.

Expecting to be disappointed will guarantee a success at being disappointed.
Maintaining a positive outlook on life is not always easy, however it usually assures a more meaningful, joyous path to victory.
Setbacks, roadblocks, and negative people will prove frustrating––despite those obstacles we still have the opportunity to remain confident and trust in our optimistic point of view.
It might be perceived as naive, but I have no problem smiling while others are judging me.

Six Word Essay on my Body

I need to love it more!

Airport Starbucks

The line for Starbucks is always twice as long as the TSA.

Both are full of people who are cranky and never ready when their turn comes.

At least with Starbucks you get a jolt of caffeine...

All the TSA has ever given me was a really aggressive 3rd base!

Goodnight Moon

Stars are out,

The moon shines bright—I'm too tired to write,

So I'll just say goodnight.

Making An Artist

Passion.
Ambition.
Talent.
Hard work.
Relentless determination.
Fearlessness.
Faith.
Most of all, Faith.

Giving Back

My book tour continues.

Today I return to my roots;

The campus may have changed—but their mission is still the same:

Providing an impeccable education and challenging each artist to create at the highest level, in state-of-the-art facilities.

#OCSA

Loss

The pain of losing a loved one is deep and constant.
Rejoice in their memory;
Remember the times they made you laugh or touched your soul.
Find comfort in their peace and celebrate their life.
The pain will linger, but so will the love.

Sunday

Brunch.

Industry event.

Long walk with the puppies.

Family time on the couch.

Mad Men.

I love Sunday's at home.

LA Life

Photo shoot,
Conference call and a wedding.
It’s not a movie title––it’s just another day in LA.

It's A Living. ...and a coffee break.

My A-type personality never stops working whether I’m on the road, in an airport or at home, my head is constantly forcing me to be productive.
But my most of my best work happens at my office.
And by “office” I mean Starbucks.
It’s a strange part of my Gen-Y upbringing, either that, or the amount of time I spent in Starbucks while living in New York  (because my apartment was under 200 square feet).
I feel more connected and alive when I’m sitting next to a row of likeminded creators hacking away on their Mac’s––and the one random accountant on his PC (belly chuckle).

Deep Breath. Really Deep...

Even after meditation, deep breaths and a lot of journaling––sometimes you just have to say F_c$ it!
Is that email response or follow up phone call really going to make all the difference?
My brain says yes! Never miss an opportunity, but my heart and soul want balance.
So, I’m walking away from the computer, and I’m giving myself a forced day off.
Because life is short!

Work

The birds are chirping,

It's too early to wake up!

Time to make donuts.

Floor Bed

Cuddling on the floor with my family watching movies.

I am blessed.

Pep Talk

Occasionally I allow my inner demons to invade my creativity;

Slowly chipping away at my determination, passion, and spirit.

Nothing about the entertainment industry is easy. After nearly twenty years in this business, I can confidently say that nobody who succeeds does so without nonstop tenacity.

Enduring rejection, failure, and a barrage of negativity from every direction.

The challenge for me has always been to find a positive course of action and ignore the seemingly obvious facts.

It was much easier to convince myself to remain blissfully ignorant and optimistic in my twenties, nevertheless I continue to find hope.

It's not that I can't do something else with my life—I'm talented, motivated, and hard working.

There's a reason I was born with a creative passion, and I'm certain it was not to squash it out; why would I walk if I was born with wings to soar?

A Day of Rest

I’d like to say that I’m going to spend my unexpected day off having brunch with friends followed by a sunny beach day.
Instead, I’m going to make a fort in my living room and cuddle with my puppies while watching 90′s sitcoms on Netflix.
In life, you have to know when to relax.

The Power of a Choice

I have two choices:
Complain about the situation and expect it to change.
Or
Take charge of the situation and create positive change.

Smile

The ability to rise above the stress and remember that nothing ever comes from negative energy.

Smiling is a free drug!

Poolside

The sun is blinding; 

The turquoise water shimmers.

I need a cocktail!

Note To Self:

Dinner Parties are hard;

I need a staff!

With A Present Like Today...

Who cares about tomorrow?
Fleeting moments of clarity always arrive precisely when you need them most.
It’s so easy to become overwhelmed with the quest for continued success, that I miss opportunities to bathe in the accomplishment that surround me now.
The best birthday present I received this year, was one I gave myself; the gift of release.
Release the need to:
Do it all.
Keep lists.
Cross things off lists.
Predict the future.
Maintain a perfect body.
Deprive myself of guilty pleasures (in moderation).
It’s frightening to let go of the obsessive behavior that I connect to my success.
Will I still get things accomplished?  Will I be ready for the future?  Will I overlook an email and lose an opportunity?
No.  I believe I will enjoy the work in front of me. I will be more productive and I will be able to celebrate accomplishments as they happen.
More than anything, there will be less stress in my life and I will be able to find the balance I’ve been seeking for years.
My Faith reminds me that I will be where I need to be, when I need to be there.
What’s that quote? Today is always here––tomorrow, never!

It's My Birthday...

And I'll eat, drink, laugh, eat more and drink more if I want too!

I'll also probably be demanding and complain that I'm eating too much.

This childish behavior will most likely last for a week—and it started last week.

I blame my family for hosting a parade in my honor every year while I was growing up.

(The fact that the parade was actually the annual Blossom Day parade hosted by the city I grew up in, and my family "dedicated" it to me, explains my entire life.)

#DealWithIt! 

Ego

My confidence is like an iceberg; if the cap above water represents my confident exterior, the remainder below is my insecurity. 

Coffee

To go one day without coffee,

I could do it—I just don't want to.

Where else have I heard this?

Okay, perhaps I'm an addict! 

It could be worse, I don't think anyone has died of a coffee overdose.

Have they?

Six Word Essay on Dancers

Life is soaring through the air!

Day Off

Time with family;
A trip to the spa,
Walking through the sand on the beach,
Dinner with a sunset view at The Ivy.
#IReallyNeedThis

Man's Best Friend

Cozy and warm snuggling next to my puppies;
It’s hard to leave the peaceful slumber.
Especially when you realize the day will be full of annoying people.
I’ll enjoy another five minutes with my innocent, loving, furry family.

Working Day Off

Conference calls on my day off, feels like a trip to the emergency room while on vacation;
It’s annoying and unavoidable sometimes.

Choreography

I was convinced that the only way I could be happy was if I was performing.
However, after watching Rachel Platten execute the choreography I taught her while crushing her vocals at last nights Radio Disney Music Awards, my mind has been changed.
Rachel owned that stage like the star that she is, and I felt like I was soaring up there with her.
Dare I write this? It almost feels better to watch someone you’ve helped, shine!
She inspired millions, and I was a part of that.
So it really isn’t all about me?
I think I’m growing up.

Travel Day

Why do people wait until they've boarded an airplane to eat eat ethnic food?

The Creative Habit

Becoming a creative person is not something that just happens.
As far as I know, nobody came out of the womb with a paint brush, pointe shoe, musical instrument or reciting Shakespeare.
Creativity is a discipline. A process of learning how to take your passion and develop it into a craft that inspires emotion.
Creative people are focused, dedicated, hard working, overachievers who strive for new ideas and pushing boundaries.
The most effective way I’ve found to support my creative endeavors, is by staying focused on the habit of creating work.
It might not always be brilliant, but it will always lead to a more productive journey.

Work Work Work

What’s that saying, “many hands make less work?”
Wrong!
Regardless of how many people I have “working” on my behalf, I still feel like the only one getting anything accomplished.
I’m not complaining or bragging...
I’m begging for help!

Death & Taxes

I'd rather die;

Than see how much I owe in taxes.

Not really, but wow—what do we get for our taxes, seriously?!

Travel Day

When you take a Super Shuttle to save $5;

And the shuttle is twenty minutes late and has ten stops to make—that is rage!

Pilates

Painful
Irritating
Long lines
Ass engaged
Trembling
Exercise for a
Stronger core!

Book Signing: Come One, Come Ten...

I’m getting my message out there one book signing at a time!
Now, if I could only figure out a plan of attack to get more than twenty people at a time to show up.
In fact, I was hoping to have about one hundred people per event.
Is that too much to ask?
According to my manager, agent, publisher, publicist and the Barnes & Noble rep... Yes.
You’d think that if they were receiving a FREE dance class, workshop and evaluation dancers would be lined up in scores;
Apparently people don’t read anymore!

Random Thought Re: Food

I've decided that I'm not a foodie, I'm a fatty!

The Devil is Everywhere

Fighting to stay positive,

In a world full of negativity and insecurities.

Most will tell you why you won't succeed;

Few will encourage you to stay the course.

Find those people who energize you,

And shine your light bright—that's where God thrives!

Besties

When I was younger, I had a large circle of friends. 

As I got older, the circle grew smaller and I learned to distinguish between a friend and an acquaintance.

I have very few people who I consider true friends; who provide inspiration, unconditional love, support and endless side-splitting-snot-out-your-nose laughter.

I'm in Pittsburgh visiting my bestie, and in natural form I've almost peed my pants twice and received a dose of seriousness.

I love watching my friends evolve. I'm moved by the journey we've navigated, from our wild days in New York City, career highs and lows, marriage and dealing with adulthood.

I feel blessed to have friends whom I value as family (without the drama.)

Book Tour: Travel Day

My favorite thing about traveling is the TSA line.

Okay, not at all—but I'm trying to stay positive on my book tour;

And I am positive that the security line is always a joke.

Six Word Essay on Food:

Food is a substance I abuse.

Food-Fest Haiku

I can’t stop eating.
Delicious food is my drug.
i’m so fat right now!

Life On Tour

Travel days are rough.  I'm up too early, and I stay up too late.
Life on the road seems fun;
Until you're stuck there.

A Visit From Gram

I savored her embrace, gentle but firm;
I could smell her perfume and hear her laugh.
I even got to dance with her again.
It felt so real––I didn’t realize it was a dream until I woke up.
But at least I got to say goodbye.

Local Commercials: A Perk of Traveling

Watching local TV commercials is similar to attending a high school production of “Grease”: forced comedy, awkward chemistry between the cast and that girl who thinks they’re going to be discovered as the next Jennifer Lawrence.

Travel Day

Flying isn't the worst part;

It's the TSA line.

I wish I could wrinkle my nose Bewitched style and arrive at my desired destination.

Then again, if I was a witch I probably wouldn't be traveling for work, would I?

Spring Haiku

Laid back at the pool;

With alcohol, naturally.

Spring in LA rocks!

Fake It...

That terrible moment when you wake up to discover the ridiculously over-the-top incident that took place yesterday was NOT a dream.
Moving forward, walking on eggshells;
NO, that is not who I am.
So now, I have to “be” the asshole who pretends everything is normal.
Is this only Hollywood? Or does this shit happen in Nebraska, too?

How To Deal With Crazy.

Don't.

Yoga

A meditation;

Focus only on breathing.

Lifetime of release.

Jesus Christ Superstar

It was standing room only during mass today;
Who says God is not a Rockstar?
Obviously Christmas has become such a commercially celebrated holiday––for Christians and non-Christians alike;
Now if only we could remind practicing Christians that Easter is by far a more important day.
Lets compare:
Christmas, the birth of Jesus. Okay, well people are born EVERY day.
Easter, the resurrection of Jesus.  Yeah, you don’t see that every day do you?

The Puppy Waiting Game

The line at Starbucks is usually long;

My puppies sit in a chair waiting patiently.

Onlookers remark on how well trained they are—really they just know the cookies are in my pocket, but the only way the get them is if the save our table.

They're adorable.

I love my dogs like children.

I'm not crazy, I realize they're not human;

They're far too kind to be that!

Dr. Orders: Take Two Days Off and Call Me in The Morning

Sometimes I feel guilty for wanting to take a break from work,
Then I remember all of those wise (by wise I mean people in their sixties) leaders on TV share wisdom to their younger self:
“I would have told myself that it’s all going to be okay.” or “You don’t have to try so hard.” or “You’re going to need triple-bypass surgery on your heart if I don’t stop stressing out so much.”
I’m giving myself the weekend off.
Starting now!

Nonstop

I don’t know what’s worse:
Organizing my taxes, or cleaning our house?!
Thankfully, I finished both.
Now, can I please have a day off?!
#INeedToTakeABreak

Six Word Essay RE: Book Tour

I need to get some sleep! 

NYC Smile

A frown goes a long way;
A smile goes even further.
Negative energy spreads on the streets of New York;
But one smile lights up Times Square!

Note To Self:

Never visit NYC during Spring break.
A.) It might be Spring, but it’s still F_cking FREEEEZING;
B.) The streets are covered with annoying teenagers who act out scenes in their favorite NY movies––and yes, I realize I did that when I was their age, too.
But I don’t care. It’s a lot to deal with.

The Book Is Launched!

It’s official,
My book has been launched!

Six Word Essay on Shopping with Family in NYC:

Wish we were watching a musical. 

Dance Class at BDC

Preparation done;
Teaching class is an art forum.
Inspire and lead!

A NYC Day

Rehearsal.

Starbucks.

Conference call.

Choreography.

Radio Interview.

Dinner with friends.

All in a day in NYC!

#BookLaunch

890 Broadway

Just over ten years have passed.

I walk into the studio, my friend and her company dancers are rehearsing an emotionally charged, athletic dance;

It's as if time stood still.

The only noticeable difference is the beautiful evolution of creativity and confidence.

I love my friend.

#LifeOfAnArtist

Escape Negativity and Shine

I have two options:
Fear or Faith.
People can only disappoint you, when you give them the power to.
I need to ask for what I want (which I’m fairly good at) and then move on whether they help me or not (which I’m fairly bad at).
Life is too short to live in negativity.
So I must do whatever it takes to crawl out of the darkness and into the light.
Sometimes it’s hard to find the light switch, but it’s always worth it once you shine.

Stress

Stop
Trying;
Release,
Expel,
Smile,
Shine.

Note To Self:

People are mean.

There's nothing you can do about it.

Smile and let go.

Or be mean back, with a smile. 

Another Hotel...

Another almost comfortable (but still not your own) bed.
Watching television shows you would never watch at home.
It’s like you’re having an affair on your regularly scheduled programming.
#LifeOnTour

Weekend Getaway!

Friday traffic sucks;
Don’t people work anymore?
Weekend warrior!

The End of the Day and Nothing to Say

I spent too much time doing things that weren’t creative;
I forgot to share my words.
Not a great day.
Writing is key!

Six Word Essay on Preparing for a Fourteen Hour Day:

Not enough coffee in the world!

You Can('t) Do It All...

Remember that time I said, “there is plenty of time every day to do what you need to do...”
I stand corrected.
No matter how early I wake up, or how late I stay awake working––I can’t get it all done!
Who knew launching a book took so much time and energy?
Even with a publisher, agent, manager, two publicists and a group of very supportive friends, I still feel like overwhelmed.
#OCDpleaseWorkForMe!

Realization

I could never be an event planner.
Over the past three weeks I’ve been arranging the details of my official book launch (Sunday March 29th at Broadway Dance Center in NYC from 6-9PM) and I’m exhausted from the rejection.
As a performer who has been in the industry for over twenty years, I’m used to hearing “no”.
Generally, I can handle that because the odds are stacked against you in the first place.
However, when you invest time, energy, emotion and exploit every contact you know––and you still only have five confirmations?
Those are circumstances I’m not cool with.

Up And At It!

Once I'm awake, I can't go back to sleep;

Not even after a 14 hour day in the theater and a 4AM wake-up call!

So, now I'm getting my work done on an airplane on a Sunday.

#24/7

Life On Tour

Waking up in a new hotel room every weekend is what I imagine it’s like in the Twilight Zone––everything from the cheap, over-bleached sheets, to the poor water flow in the showers is vaguely familiar, but the furniture is arrange just different enough that you’ll stub your toe EVERY time you wake up in the middle of the night to go pee!

Caffeine Soak

Sitting in the sun,

Completely overheated;

Drowned me in Starbuck.

Six Word Essay on Dessert

Definitely worth the extra five pounds!

Counting Sheep

If I go to bed now, I can still get five hours of sleep.
But if I stay up working, I can cut my work-time in half tomorrow and take the afternoon off.
(Yeah right, I know I'll just find something else to do.)
It's time to stop typing words, and start counting sheep.

Day Off with Roseanne

Laying in bed watching reruns of Roseanne,
Really puts things into perspective:
The late 80's were hilarious.
Roseanne pushed boundaries,
My life is startlingly similar to a housewives,
I love taking the day off––even though I've got my laptop and I'm still answering emails, posting blogs and making things happen!

A Day Late..

I’m overloaded,
Overworked and need a break;
Yesterday’s post now…

Six Word Essay on Sunday

Sitting at Starbucks with my puppies!

Rise and Sun

I woke up early,
The birds aren't even chirping;
Ready for the sun!

Barnes & Noble: Shelved

I will elaborate on this moment when I can fully wrap my mind and heart around the feeling well enough to articulate a worthwhile essay;
In the meantime I will say that walking into a Barnes & Noble and seeing my book on a shelf next to Bob Fosse was overwhelming and incredibly exciting.
I spent the majority of my twenties in a Barnes & Noble, first in Chicago, then New York––reading, exploring, dreaming, scheming and growing as a person and artist.
This is a full-circle, HUGE event in my life.
I will never forget it!

Balancing: Good vs. Bad

Good: I took yoga.
Bad:  I ate a hamburger after.


Good: I accomplished all of my goals on the check list.
Bad: I started a new check list.

Good:  I stayed positive despite receiving unpleasant news.
Bad:  I didn't stay on-top of the situation in the first place.

Good:  I'm almost done with this blog post.
Bad:  I still don't feel good.

#BalanceIsHard

Note To Self:

Waking up before dawn,
Get's things done!

The Process

Setting goals is great,
But life is more than checklists;
Enjoy the journey.

Flying Stand-By

Is like saying yes to the 1st guy who asks you to prom, and then secretly puts "feelers" out for the dream date. i.e. The Captain of the Football Team!

Six Word Essay On NOT Being A Diva On Tour

I get up when I'm told.

Snow In Dallas?

A blanket of white,
The snowflakes are bigger here.
Dallas is shut down.

Another Airport

The shuttle is late,

The people are rude—cramming themselves to the front of the line,

And the TSA is out of control.

Just another day on the job!

Open Note To Haters

Allowing someone else's doubt to dictate my life isn't going to work for me.
I can't be concerned with your thoughts––I have plenty of my own thank you.

To Do Lists:

Crossing things off my "To Do" list always feels good;
Realizing once that happens, I have ten more things to do, doesn't.
It's like a vending machine––sure you buy the bag of chips, but the second the bag drops, another one is right there waiting.

Happy Hour

Because sometimes life is hard.

Life On Tour

4AM wake-up call: Gross.

TSA Pre-check: Not gross.

No line at Starbucks: Priceless.

Accomplished

It's early, and I didn't get an ounce of sleep last night.
I sit typing on my computer as a way of waking my brain and inspiring creativity.
It's not always intelligent or inspirational––but when I set goals, I get things accomplished.  No matter how insignificant they may seem.
Focused, steady, determined and balanced.

You CAN Do Everything!

When you're short on time,
You have to shine brighter!
Making the most of every situation––balanced and confident.
I always strive for excellence, even when I only have three minutes to achieve it.

Welcome To Portland

It's going to be a long night. 

#LifeOnTour

Winter In LA

Lounging by the pool-

Sun radiates the blue skies;

The hot tub's calling!

Random Observation

The earlier I wake up;
The more I feel I can complain.

Caution: Habits Are Forming

The year starts off with a bang;
Intentions are set and goals are met daily.

You find your pace,
A new routine is choreographed.

The dance becomes comfortable;
You start to relax into the groove.

Mid-way into the second song,
You realize you're behind the count.
It's too soon to lose the rhythm.

Be careful of the corners you cut while dancing;
Habits are forming.

5, 6, 7, 8 Write!

Give a dancer a count off and they take action.
Regardless of what it is, a dancer is ready and willing to attempt the challenge.
I'm sitting at my computer, staring at a blank page––working on my next book.
The problem isn't a lack of stories or where to begin; it's finding the time to do everything.
I pride myself on being exceptional at making lists and getting things done, but right now I feel overwhelmed with lists.
The walls in my office look like that cliché scene from any TV show or movie with the crazy serial-whatever who is tracking down alien-govenment conspiracy-missing children.
I always thought writer's block derived from a lack of creativity or inspiration, but now I'm pretty sure mine developed because it's so hard to block out any time for writing!
Which explains why I have so many notes on the wall (and my iPhone app) that say: write about "_____" when you have time.

When You're Annoyed...

You have two options:
Do something about it.
Or
Sit and complain.
Right now I'm enjoying what I call the "stewing" process––where I let the issue build up until I have to "do something about it."

Waking Up

Waking up without coffee is like shaving without cream;
If you don't want to be irritated or cut, I wouldn't recommend it!

Travel Day

When traveling to a cold climate from a beautiful balmy location;
Bring a warm coat, a beanie and a positive attitude:
I'm positive I'd rather be at the beach.

The Beauty of Aging

When people would piss me off in my twenties;
I reacted instantly with a sharp tongue that was more emotionally damaging than a brutal attack in a lions cage at a zoo.
When people piss me off in my thirties;
I take a deep breath, and decide if I want to invest the emotionally energy in giving a shit about their sad pathetic insecurities.  Then I calmly respond with one short sentence:
I'm sorry you feel that way, I disagree with your stance so let's call it a tie.

I'm Up!

Waking up is either the easiest or hardest part of my day.
It's one of the only "black or whites" in my life;
I don't know how I can wake up at 6AM on a Monday and feel like I'm on top of the world––and by Wednesday I want to commit a felony crime against my alarm clock!
But here I sit at my computer screen, trying to be creative...
My fingers are typing through the motions, and my brain is like, "does any of this even make sense?"  Meanwhile, I really don't care.
I'm just thrilled that I didn't stay in bed like the lazy, lump I want to be;
I got up and I'm ready to be me!

Release

Release-
Let go.
Faith.

My Grammy Rant

Madonna is no longer an innovator––she is a cliché.
#NotHelpingWomen #PerpetuatingTheSterotypeSheCreated

YoGaOT To Compare...

The sweat gushes into my eyes as I make my way from warrior three back to one leg-mountain pose.  My standing leg is on fire and my foot feels like I spent three weeks hiking through the wilderness in a pair of boots that were a size too small.  The room is 90 degrees and we're only half way through the practice.
It feels like torture, and I love it!
Just when it feels like my leg is going to melt, the yogi encourages us to continue to breath through it––or not.
Wait, what?
She continues, "...Yoga is not about accomplishing a pose.  Yoga is you. There is no right or wrong. Don't compare yourself to anyone else in the room.  Accept where you're at and if you can't breath through it, drop down to child's pose and let it go."
Really?!
That's my problem with society now, we're afraid to compete with one another. If something feels uncomfortable we give up.  We've become so brainwashed to believe that it's okay to accept mediocracy.
I get it, yoga is a zen thing...
I practice to better myself.  To become more evolved: mentally, spiritually, emotionally and physically.  Remind me how that's supposed to happen without pushing myself?  Which by the way, involves having a point of contact to compare my success.
I'm just saying...
Namaste!

Life Lesson No. "Who's Keeping Track?!"

I will continue to set goals that are inline with my dreams;
Leaving room for the surprises that shape my life.
Every twist and turn on my journey creates growth, opportunity and adventure.
There is nothing I cannot overcome with Faith, hard work, creativity, laughter and fearlessness.
Life is too short to live any other way.

After Yoga––Low Energy

At some point, I'm going to have to shower off the yoga and dress for success.
It's Friday and I've got a world to conquer!
As soon as I check Facebook one more time...

Addicted To The Internet

Hi, my name is Matthew.
I'm on my computer more than I'm in my bed.
I don't feel good about that––but I'm afraid to change.
What happens if I don't post a status update every two hours,
Or share my latest Instagram pic,
Even worse, what if I miss an important email with a job offer that I only have ten minutes to respond to?
The fear is real, the addiction is true.
I think it's time to unplug for a few days!

Six Word Essay on Customer Service

There is no such thing anymore.

Yoga

It's a zen thing.

You won't get it until you get downdog!

Motivated Monday!

February's here,
Mondays are a blank canvas;
I just need some paint!

America's Favorite Holiday...

Is not Christmas, Easter or even Independence Day––it's The Super Bowl.
I wouldn't be surprised if more people prayed today than on any other day.
I"m joking.  But not really.

Dark Chocolate

Rich, bold and heart-healthy.

The decadent sweet treat melts in my mouth.

This is not helping my lose weight!

Six Word Essay on Therapy

Get puppies; they're cheaper and softer.

No Seriously, It's Time To Do Something!

Worrying about the future is pointless;
Worrying about the extra five pounds of blubber I'm carrying around my waist on the other hand is something that needs addressed ASAP!
Seriously in need of FOOD detox.

Waking Up Before The Birds

The sun isn't up,
The sky is dark,
No traffic on the road,
And the rooster hasn't crowed;
It's just me with my thoughts and dreams.
They are still safe and I'm full of hope,
The harsh realities of life will kick in soon enough––but for now, I'm going to soak up my Faith.

The War on Customer Service

I have never negotiated with a terrorist; after dealing with AT&T I imagine I'm ready for almost any hostile situation.

Good Morning Yoga

Getting downward, dog.
Waking up this early sucks;
Start the day healthy!

Wake Up Call

NO, seriously––your pants are so tight you can't even button them!
Enough is enough.  The tree is down, the holidays are over;
Time to reduce the waist line.
For real.  Say "no" to In & Out Burger...
It's time to get healthy again!

It's All About The Money... Not really, but today it is.

Getting out of debt is fun!
Is what I have to tell myself every morning I have to wake up at 5AM to go to work.
Staying out of debt is even more fun!
Is what I need to remind myself every time I plan a trip to Hawaii.
Thankfully, I get to work in a profession I love––if only I didn't have to be up at the butt-crack of dawn.

Random Thought

Watching my puppies lounge around the house surrounded with bones, toys and cozy beds really gets me thinking...
God, it's good to be a dog.
Unless you're one of those dogs at a kill shelter; then it would really suck.

So UnZen!

My Zen was lost when the girl next to me rolled out her filthy yoga mat; honestly, it smelled like dirty feet and blue cheese!
Every downward dog was like fighting back an upward projectile vomit!

This Can't Weight

Seriously,
The Holidays are over but I'm still caring around a Christmas package;
Six pounds of goodies around my belly, back and face to be exact!
I noticed our neighbors still have their Christmas tree up, it's January 21st––seriously take down the tree, and take off the weight!
Okay, I'm glad I had this pep talk with myself.
Carry on.

Wine—Not?

So much for detox.

A bottle of wine, will wine;

Worth it every time!

Friendly Reminder to Myself RE: The Holidays

The Holidays are over;
It's time reduce the food intake.
Say "no" to the dessert!

The Golden Girls

It doesn't matter where I'm at or what time of day––if The Golden Girls are on TV, I have to watch.
My favorite viewing place is a hotel room (similar to the room I'm in now) because I never feel guilty spending hours laying in bed laughing with my friends.
The Golden Girls to the gays is like anything on ESPN to guys.
I've seen every episode at least three times, but just like a conversation with my gram, I find new wisdom and humor each time.
Thank you Hallmark for being a friend.
Whether you like it or not, you're making gay men everywhere smile.

(Another) Six Word Essay on Airports

People who don't share seats, suck!

#OscarsSoWhite

Is trending on Twitter right now.
I'm confused––are we supposed to honor and salute people based on their race, religion or sexual orientation versus their talent, ability or performance?
I understand that people get frustrated at the lack of diversity.  It's an undeniable reality of the world we live in, even still in the 21st century.
There is important, quality work being produced everywhere which celebrates every walk of life––perhaps if we focus our attention on that creative energy and "tweet" or get loud from a positive point of view, more people will listen and take note.
I just don't understand perpetuating negative.  It's been a long time since I had a math class, but two negatives do not equal a positive, right?

Life of An Actor

Wake up early to get my journaling, creative writing, meditation and a workout in.
Off to the "day job" (which I must admit, I'm so grateful it's not in the retail or food industry).  #Choreographer
Then back on set! Which is my favorite place in the world to be, even if it means sitting in dirt until they call action.
#LifeOfAnActor

Priceless

Seeing your name on a callsheet next to an A-List actress fresh off an awards show high...
Priceless!
I love my job.

Inspiration or Not...

Some days the inspiration flows like beer at the Super Bowl;
Other times, it's as tough as a steak at Sizzler to dream up a topic.
The point of a daily creative writing, is to maintain the focus and habit.
So here I sit at my computer without a clue as to what I'm talking about.
Rambling senselessly like many of the winners of last nights Golden Globe awards.
Perhaps that is why I'm without a spark––aside from Tina and Amy's perfectly timed dazzling display of wit, snark and intelligence.  The show was boring and uninspired.
Proving that everybody has "off days"  even in Hollywood.

The Golden Globes

It's the official kickoff of the Gay season!
Hollywood's hottest A-list stars walk the red carpet;
Diamonds, sequins and stilettos––and that's just for Ryan Seacrest.
The rest of the divas are all in their hotel rooms surrounded by stylists.
Who will win?
Who will lose?
Who will get too drunk and act like a total ass?
I can't wait to find out.
Let the fashion, speeches and closeted men pretending to be straight begin!

Rainy Days

Dark grey skies,
Wet soggy feet;
Movies on Netflix while cuddling with the puppies.
Sometimes the rain in LA doesn't bother me––but the sun better come out tomorrow!

Let It Go

Not the song,
The bitch who almost ran over my foot and nearly killed my dog this morning.
And then blamed me for walking my dogs.
You can hit-and-run, but I. Will. Find. You.

Missed Opportunity?

So early in the year––
Who was I to miss this chance to be creative?
Now I cram to find the words.
Another reminder to be present in each moment, and take time to finish goals.
#MakeUpPost

Ready SET Go!

Craft service for breakfast;

Wardrobe, check!

Off to hair and makeup—

I love working on a set! 

#TheGlamorousLife 

Top Secret!

Today is the first day of rehearsal for a Top Secret project I booked!
I'm so thrilled––only seven days into the new year and I scored a huge gig.
Another reminder that life (and God) will lead you down an unseen path, just when you thought the journey had ended.
Today I am grateful!

Random Thought: Headaches

When a headache lingers for more than two days,
It becomes a heartache.
I need something stronger than Advil migraine!

Six Word Essay on 2015

Five days in, I'm gonna win!

Time With My Niece

All it takes is a day in the snow with a four year old to remember what life is all about.
My niece is full of personality, and clever, too.
(Which is a lethal combination!)
Even as an actor, I forget the power of imagination––never fear, a four year old will reignite the sense of play faster than Olaf will melt in Nevada!
My niece also has the power to charm me into a galloping horse; and no matter how many times I say, "this is the last time, okay?"  She looks up at me with her gorgeous blue eyes and electric smile and says (in the most adorable voice possible), "just one more time?"
Naturally, I concede despite the fact that my back feels like it's going to break in half, and my knees feel like a racing horse after ten years at the Kentucky Derby!
I just remind myself how lucky I am that she remembers me and wants to spend time with me––regardless of the fact that I live a thousand miles away, and see her only every few months in person, and weekly on FaceTime. (Thank god for #Apple iPhone!)

Coffee Talk

One of my favorite activities while visiting my family over the holidays is to go out for coffee with my mom or dad.
Bonding over a warm caffeinated beverage in the Colorado cold is the ideal way to share our lives.
Exchanging victories, laughing about old memories and comforting one another on losses and setbacks.
My mom and dad have always been my heroes.
Their support, leadership, knowledge and love have guided me from childhood to adulthood; and I continue to learn and laugh with them every opportunity I get.
My dad and I spent our mornings sharing stories on the way to school.
My mom and I have been addicted to Starbucks and social hour just as long...
For me, it's the simple joy of sitting down with either of them and getting to know them; not as mom or dad––but as people with vibrant backstories.
Sure, we could bond just as easily at home, but there's something about a cup of "joe" that makes the moment that much stronger!

Six Word Essay On New Year's Resolutions

Two days in, don't give up!

Fresh New Year

I always love a blank page––so full of possibilities.
I regard every new year as a fresh start.  A new chapter in my book, just waiting for adventure and self-discovery.
Some years there is character development, and sometimes there's nothing but vanity and wild exploration.
Regardless, my journey continues to spark a wiser, more understanding and well-rounded hero.
I have no clue what 2015 holds in store for me, but if it's anything like the past thirty-six years, I will be utterly satisfied and overwhelmed with Faith, love, happiness and success.
I'm ready to say goodbye to ideas that no longer serve me––making space for wonderful new adventures!
#HappyNewYear

Happy New Year!

Releasing the doubt,
Possibilities reborn;
Partying all night!

Saying Goodbye to 2014

Sitting in a gorgeous cabin in the snow covered hills,
I realize how blessed I am.
For no other reason than the simple fact that I have friends and family who share their blessings with me.
2014 has been a year of growth.
It wasn't always easy, nor was it a year full of major victories.
At times I felt like I was in a holding pattern–– every hurdle was twice as high and road blocks kept me changing the course.
I punished myself for things that were out of my control.  
I was angry that I couldn't do more. (A common theme in my life, and a curse that I'm hoping to "resolve" in the New Year.)
I accomplished obstacles that had once been forgotten goals:
going back to school, getting back into acting classes, finding a way (and the time) to stay in yoga.
As with every year, I laughed.  Not nearly enough this year, but that will also be a challenge for 2015.
Loss, sadness and guilt were a major part of 2014.  More than any other year in my life that I can remember.
It's time to let it go.  Saying goodbye is extremely difficult and painful.
However, I've tortured myself enough, and in order to grow––I must forgive myself.
Life is too short, and I have a brightness in me that deserves the opportunity to shine. (We all do.)
So here's a salute to a year of learning, and to the year ahead, may it bring the evolution and opportunity I'm ready for!

Snow Day!

Sledding, skiing and maybe even a snowman?
Anything's possible on vacation in Beaver Creek-
With two feet of fresh snow and only 10 degrees,
Even with my long underwear, it's going to be freezing cold.
As fun as spending a day frolicking in the bone chilling cold sounds...
I'm really looking forward to the "adult" hot chocolate that I'll be enjoying afterwards!
P.S. When is Starbucks going to get hip to #alcohol?

Vacation Equals Excuse

Have you ever noticed that vacation is like a get-out-of-jail-free pass for everything?
I shouldn't buy that watch.  ...but I'm on vacation.
I shouldn't jump off a cliff.  ...but I'm on vacation.
I shouldn't have another drink.  ...but I'm on vacation.
I shouldn't eat another cookie.  ...but I'm on vacation.
Seriously, I wonder how many people lie, cheat and steal while on vacation.
I'd be more creative with this blog entry. ...but I'm on vacation.

Overhead Space

That awkward moment when you quickly pop your perfectly sized soft-sided duffle bag into the only empty overhead bin left-

Leaving the business man with three roller bags where he belongs, checked at the gate!

#VictoryOverFirstClass

...and scene!

The day Christmas ends;
Decorations are boxed up!
Clean palate, New Year.

Merry Christmas

Faith, Family, Friends and Food.

Christmas blessings;

Fully enjoyed.

Twas The Night Before Christmas...

And all through the house,
Christmas exploded everywhere... And. I. Love. It!
Not a corner is left without something red and green,
The stockings are hung on the fireplace with care, and I hope that tomorrow they'll be stuffed with more than just air.
I'm so grateful for my family and friends,
And to spend this evening in our home with loved ones, AND our puppies feels like...
#Christmas
Faith, Family, Friends, and Food.
Ho, Ho, Ho!

Spa Day

Shower,
Sauna,
Shower,
Steam room,
Hot tub,
Shower,
Massage,
Steam room,
Shower,
Hair cut,
Shower.
Repeat monthly!
#BecauseIReallyNeedIt

Note To Self:

The moment I allow fear to dictate my path, is the instant I've completely missed the point of life.

Filled With Rage

One exchange is all it takes.
Just like when we were kids.
Selfish, defensive, screaming-
Games;
I won't play them.
So now I have to accept that my relationship will no longer be a priority.
I'm devastated and I know I'll miss her,
But I can't handle the rage, or the fact that I'm always the one to concede, without an apology.
Life isn't always fair, this is a major loss.

Raging Headache

Johnny Walker and I got into a fight last night...
He won.
Tis the season.
#MerryChristmas

Friday, Finally!

As an independent contractor, my work is never done.
Expanding my career opportunities involves a nonstop hustle,
That does not consist of punching a time-clock.
Instead, I'm punching keys on my laptop; day in and day out.
Regardless of the hour, I keep on working.
Thankfully, I make the rules- and today, I'm taking an early lunch!
AKA I'm leaving the office early, and may not come back until after the holiday!
...or at least that's the goal.

Six Word Essay on School

Time to drink, the project's done!

Bagel and Rain

Sitting in my dining room eating a bagel and watching the rain fall;
If I didn't know better, I'd think I was in New York...
It's not supposed to rain in LA!
In the midst of the "worst drought ever".
I guess we should consider this a gift from Santa,
Or God?
I wouldn't mind the rain so much, if it didn't totally reck my hair.
#VainButGrateful

Holiday Baking; a poem.

Kitchen flour clouds,
The oven is preheated;
My diet is wrecked!

Special Day

Today is a special day.

The birthday of both my grandma and niece;

Also mine and Jeff's twelfth anniversary.

I'm so grateful for my loved ones.

Their unconditional love and support is overwhelming,

Their spirit's are uplifting.

#Blessed

Six Word Essay on Cranky People

Your attitude is unattractive, smiling helps.

Class

Whirling through the air,

Dancers will fearlessly soar;

Advil required.

It's A Living...

Alarm goes off at 4AM,

It's too early to think.

Bags are packed and clothes are preset.

Showered, dressed and on the road.

TSA is always nuts, and what? No Starbucks in the terminal?! 

How Un-American!

Middle seat, across the country.

Yep, it's official;

I'll do almost anything for work.

Six Word Essay on Waiting For a Response

It's just a "yes" or "no".

Bagel For Breakfast?!

Delicious and doughy,
It's like a savory donut.
Both are full of carbs, and neither one is healthy;
But totally satisfying, in an "I don't give a shit" kind of way!

Annoyed

That irritating feeling you just can't release,

Like a fly you can't catch.

Unlike the fly, my mood can't be killed.

So I sit. Taking deep breaths.

Hoping to release the attitude.

Life Lesson:

If you expect to be let down, you might occasionally be surprised;
If you hope to be surprised, you will always be let down.
#NoteToSelf

It's Party Time... Take 1!

Food is prepped,
Wine is breathing,
Candy everywhere;
'Tis the season!

Media Overload

Waking up to Facebook is more than a mild problem, it's an addiction.
Honestly, I'm not in my twenties and it is not 2007- so I think it's time to back away from the social media platform...
Plus, that will give me more time for Instagram, Twitter and Vine.
#SocialMediaMandatoryForSuccess

Throwing In The Towel

There are times you have to fight,
And then there are those circumstances where you realize, failure is unavoidable...
I am an incredibly willful person; I don't believe in giving up.
I also don't believe in clinging to an idea that has already imploded.
So I wipe the tears from my eyes, and throw down the towel.
#WalkAway

Play Day

I played hooky from EVERYTHING.
And I don't regret it.
#DealWithIt

There's No Business...

Eating dark chocolate after an audition is like my own personal F_c# You! to the industry;
Going to yoga the next morning is like my apology for betraying my passion and profession.
#CycleOfAbuse

Oh Christmas Tree...

Glowing amber lights,
The room smells like pine heaven.
No presents below?!

The Yoga Challenge:

Going back to yoga after a week of nonstop eating...
That's the challenge!
You can do it... is what I'm telling myself while looking at my gut in the mirror.
#Motivate

Thanksgiving Detox

I forgot that it was possible to gain 10 pounds in 4 days;
I suppose that's what happens when you enjoy a Thanksgiving-four-day-feast-athon without even thinking about working out, or going to a gym.
In fact, the only exercise I got this past weekend was:
Opening wine bottles,
Lifting food and drink from table to mouth,
Racing through the mall on Black Friday for outrageous deals,
And a lot of laughter with friends...
Sadly, that was not enough to keep my waistline trim-
So today, it's time to reel it in!
#TheHolidaysAreHere

Fight On!

Game day tailgate rocks,

Laughter, friendship, drinks and junk.

Thanksgiving detox! 

Deck the Halls

Starbucks Gingerbread Latte-

Black Friday, yes, I scored.

Home Depot for the perfect tree,

Awful 80's Christmas Films playing in the background;

Trimming the tree with family heirlooms.

Our house is covered in Christmas cheer.

#NostalgicChristmasTheme

Giving Thanks...

I'm always thankful for my family and friends-
But at this time of year the joy and gratitude overwhelm me.
No matter the distance, I continue to absorb the love from the family and friends who continue to support and inspire me.
Gathered around the television watching the Macy's Thanksgiving Day Parade, while the smell of turkey and stuffing saturate the air-  just one of the childhood memories that I continue to enjoy today.
Loved ones pass and friends move on, but the spirit of Thanksgiving carries beyond.
#Blessed and #Grateful

Six Word Essay on Feeling Rushed

Get off my back, or die.
#SubtleWarning

Hollywood

Walking on the stars,

Celebrities everywhere!

Hookers and bums too.

Live In The Moment

Is to appreciate the blessings I have in my life.

Without fear of the unknown,

Or regret for the un-changeable past.

Full of gratitude for the opportunities that exist today-

The laughter and conversation with friends,

The unexpected adventures that spring up everyday,

And the reminder that tomorrow is never promised-this moment is a gift worthy of being present.

Random Observation

The interesting thing about sleep is when you go without it long enough-

You really start to believe you don't need it.

#DownfallsOfTraveling

Blogger Late Than Never...

That moment when you freak out because you didn't hit one of your daily targets-

Writing on your blog.

Stay creative by creating habits!

Self-Park

Who needs valet, when you can park for free?

And by 'free' I mean $25 a day.

#TheJoyOfTraveling

Forced Group Activities...

#SUCK.
Seriously, I've hated assigned group activities since my first experience with them in Mrs. Oberwater's 3rd grade class.
There's always one person, generally an overachieving perfectionist who does all of the work (me), three or four people who just sit around with a blank stare, and one person who's only contribution is to complain about every decisions made, and take credit for the project in the end.
It's not that I don't believe in team work, I just prefer to associate myself with a team of people that I can count on!
#OverIt

Movie Marathon

The escape from our day to day lives.
Lost in a giant screen full of beautiful characters.
Delicious popcorn;
Reclining velvet seats.
And all for only $32 a ticket!?
#MoviesAreALuxury
But getting caught up in the magic is worth every penny!

Spa Day Off

Peace of mind comes in many forms-

Today, mine comes in the form of a Swedish massage and spa retreat, followed by light shopping in LA and a movie!

#DayOff

Dear Bagel,

I realize that carbs are considered the Devil in Hollywood-
But I cannot resist your glossy hard outer shell and warm doughy insides.
Even without cream cheese, you rock my world.
Please do me a favor, stay away from my love-handles and booty, and I will continue to savor you every morning from now until the end of time.
Love,
Matthew
#AddictedToCarbs

Yoga

You

Go

And

Oblige 

Puppy Love

My puppies think they're friends with everyone we pass.

They'd jump-on, lick or cuddle-up with a horror villain if I weren't there.

If only humans were so friendly!

People Watching at Starbucks

Odd and comical,

He has a clear objective.

You just have to laugh!

What Happened? Six Word Essay

Honestly, how could I forget you?

Reading At A Cafe

Quietly sitting,

My imagination runs wild;

Escaping through books!

Six Word Essay on Having A Day Off

I'm not going to do anything!

Monday Madness!

Walked the dogs,
Posted my #SocialMedia,
Two conference calls,
Returned twenty emails,
Mailed the final proofs for my book, back to my publisher,
Ate breakfast,
Rehearsed an audition,
Choreographed for my next master class,
And finished my creative writing...
All before 10AM!
(You should see what my mid-day looks like!)
#Overachiever!

Airport Case Study

I never get tired of people watching.
Especially at an International airport-
Europeans are always well dressed and smell good.
Asians are always quite and efficient.
Americans are always poorly dressed, loud and eating something.
These are all generalizations, of course.
Still, I find it crazy that in every culture, young and old, EVERYONE is plugged into a power source... or desperately searching for an outlet!

I'm Awake!

The alarm goes off-

SNOOZE!

The alarm goes off- 

SNOOZE! and silence phone!

The alarm goes off- 

VIBRATING on the hotel nightstand...

I'm awake!

But I'm 5 minutes late.

#LifeOnTour

Life On The Road

And it begins:

The stress.

The lines.

The people who still don't know how the TSA screening works.

The dreadful coffee.

The bags, not under the seat, under my eyes...

#TheGlamorousLife

In Knots

Twisting and turning,
A sea of dread and anger.
Daydream to forget.

Six Word Essay on LA Traffic

The layers of rage are vast!

Election Day

Election day always reminds me of my Gram Shaffer and my grandpa Smith.
My Gram was an extremely active woman in our community.  She never needed to push an agenda, but had a magnificent way of encouraging anyone who she came in contact with of their right and responsibility to be involved in the world they live.
My grandpa continues to be an activist.  He served as the County Commissioner in his town, and I'm proud to say that during my first election in 1996- I was able to vote for him!
Ever since- I have been eager to research and elect people that I believe really want to make a difference in public office.
Naturally it's easy to become agitated or repulsed by career politicians and the media pushing agendas on either side of the aisle.
But a voice inside of me remembers that we are fortunate to live in a country where we have the right to speak up and vote.
Whether you think your vote matters or not- we need to remember that there are so many places in the world where citizens are not free and don't even have the option to submit their "illusion of a choice" so I never take for granted my obligation as a proud citizen of the United States of America.
#RockTheVote!

Fighting With Fire

I'm not afraid to ask for what I want.

I know that everyone who gets anywhere, does so by being bold, fearless and demanding.

I always attempt to be thoughtful, warm and humorous--especially when asking for a big favor.

However, time and again I get further by demanding what I want. (Especially from the people who I've helped out in the past, which is sad and strange.)

Still I realize, you have to fight fire with fire.  And I will not be the one getting burned!

You may not like me as much afterwards, but you'll respect me.  Moreover, you'll work with me again, because I get shit done!

Gingerbread Latte

Isn't it fascinating that such a simple idea exploded into such a massive event-
I'm positive that there are people who have "Starbucks Red Cup Day" marked on their calendars.
The Gingerbread Latte evokes the spirit of the holidays.
My first sip of Christmas in a cup came during a lunch break during rehearsals for the Radio City Christmas Spectacular in New York City.  I was with a group of performers strolling through Rockerfeller Center.  We were tired and needed a pick-me-up.  I broke my usual (twice a day) habit of ordering a Grande Mocha, to try the new festive drink.  Trust me, I spent more money on Starbucks coffee, than I did on rent in my NYC studio apartment during my twenties!  (If only I had that money now.)
I haven't looked back since.
Every holiday season since, I eagerly await the day I can order a taste of Christmas past.
After all, isn't that what we're buying into?
It's commercialism at it's finest.  If you're longing for family, friends or the childhood memories that never existed- look no further than Starbucks.
I promise one sip of their custom holiday specialty drinks will fill you with warmth and happiness!

Gentle Reminder To Self:

Life is short to leave room for doubt.

It's also too short to stray from doing anything other than what you know in your soul you were born to do!

Happy Halloween

I loved Halloween as a child.

Candy aside, I was obsessed with decorating and designing the perfect costume! 

Can you say #gay?!

It makes perfect sense that I chose a career in the entertainment industry-

It's like Halloween everyday. Freaks included.

Six Word Essay on Email Etiquette

Acknowledge emails within two business days!

A New Word For Goodbye?

I have a difficult time saying goodbye-
Such a simple word, to describe an act that is so loaded with emotion.
Someone is leaving.
Will they comeback? Will you see them again?  Won't you miss them?  Won't they miss me?
We use the word goodbye so casually, it feels like we should have a more appropriate word for a longtime send-off.
"I-love-you-and-I'm-going-to-miss-you-and-I-want-to-remember-this-moment-and-your-laugh-and-the-way-you-smell-and-our-moring-coffees-and-our-addiction-to-posting-photos-and-shopping-sprees-and-I-love-you!"
See.  Doesn't that feel like more than "goodbye"?
But I have no choice.  My mom is leaving, and I have to say something; so I guess it will be thank you and goodbye, followed with a long hug.
Until next time!

Random Observation: Music

That moment you realize that a song from high school makes you feel young, so much so, that you log onto iTunes and download the entire album.
...the one you through away in your mid-twenties because you were so ready to move on!

I Want Candy!

When moms in town, our house looks like a super sized candy store.
Similar to those you see at amusement parks and touristy vacation destinations.
My mom is seriously addicted to sugary treats, and though I usually stay away from all things high fructose corn syrup related, I'm totally guilty of shoving at least a pound of Sour Patch Kids down my mouth!
They taste so good going in, and then I feel like shit.
It's how I imagine Honey Boo Boo child feels daily.
Which is why starting first thing tomorrow I'm getting rid of the junk.
Wait, Halloween is Friday?
Starting first thing Saturday, I'm getting rid of the junk!

Close Shave

Don't get me wrong, men have it easy compared to women when it comes to beauty and styling- especially when it comes to the critique of society.
Nevertheless, men still have necessary maintenance routines in order to avoid being labeled a caveman.
For example, no one ever told me when I was a young boy that I would have to trim my back hair and tweeze my nose hair when I grew up!
But the most annoying grooming gripe is by far shaving!
Razor burn, knick's, dry skin and ingrown hairs are enough to make me rage.
Daily.
Because if I don't shave every single morning- I get acne!
So I'm left with the decision: close shave or pizza face?

Stuffed!

I need to remember that I am not a turkey and it is not Thanksgiving!

I don't need a second helping of anything.

Diet starts after this chocolate chip cookie...

Pop Quiz

Are pop quizzes ever fun?
The answer:
NO!
It's been twelve years (yes I dated myself) since I've taken a pop quiz;
Last night in my Business Entertainment class, our instructor surprised us with a test.
I knew every answer on the test, but in true Shaffer style- I heard the word "test" and I froze.
I dislike being tested.
Ask me to have a conversation, and I can tell you everything you want to know.  Better yet, ask me to apply what we've learned, and I will shine!
I am a classic overachiever, and my need for perfection always hurts me in situations where there's a piece of paper with a series of questions and a time limit to answer.
I always over-think everything.
In the end I only missed two questions, but I want perfection.
I want an A-Plus every time.
Oh well, there's always the next one.
#LettingGoIsEasierAsAnAdult

Six Word Essay on Yoga

Mind is calm, body is strong!

A Visit From Gram

Gram came to visit,
Hearing her laugh was heaven;
Even in a dream.

Family Time!

When family comes to visit, I can hardly contain my excitement!
Unconditional love and support, aside-  the members of my family are wild, crazy, and passionate.  They all have big personalities, too.
Especially my mom.
Whether we hang out at home watching movies and eating popcorn or go on a lavish shopping spree at the mall, the bonding time is irreplaceable.
Now that I'm an adult, I appreciate my family more than ever-
I realize I would be lost without them.
Even when they piss me off, I'd still rather spend my time with them than almost anyone else.
...I said almost.

Press Release

Today it's all about self-promotion.
I'm delighted to share the official press release for my new book, So You Want To Be A Dancer!
It's official.  I'm an author.
#DreamComeTrue

Forced Creativty

Not ideal.

Still, necessary in order to grow-

Continually practicing and evolving,

To rediscover your passion.

Eager Puppies

Eager puppies hovering at the edge of the bed,
Ready to release their bladder and smell the new scents on their morning walk.
The cookie dance, which involves twisting and twirling in circles when we get back-
These dogs are so predictable...
Take them on a morning walk, give them a few cookies and some dog food and water, and they give us unconditional love!

Note To Self on Overachieving:

The more you do, the more you get done.
So stop complaining and finish out the week like a #champion!

Fall

Layers of earthy cozy delight,

Pumpkin Spice Latte's and crisp morning strolls.

Grounded colors rich and bold.

I love the fall!

Social Media Faux Pas

In the social media world of: "Look At Me and All Of My Amazing Projects"
it's no surprise that you have to shame people into "Following" or "Liking" you back.
Sadly, some people get so caught up in their own self-promotion, that they forget to support their friends back.
The worst part is, it cost nothing!
...Except your ego.

Good Night Moon

Just like a child, passed out the a couch...

I tried to stay awake for another episode,

But my eyes were ready for bed!

Good night moon,

And whatever I was watching in HBO when I fell asleep...

Stop Picking!

I have a terrible addiction to picking at things.  Primarily scabs.
It all started when I was a young child.  I suffered from painful earaches, which lead me to rubbing my ears uncontrollably until their was a scab, and naturally I would continue to pick at the scab.
It was a brutal cycle of self-abuse, just when the infected wound would heal, I'd dig right back in.
As a teenager, the nightmare continued with the onset of acne! I was like a migrant worker farming for zits.
Once I discovered Retin-A and puberty had calmed down, so did my obsession for picking...
At my skin anyway.  What I've come to realize is, as an adult I continue to pick--at problems.
I will pick away at a question or project until I cause a full gash in the situation, thus forcing me to deal with the larger dilemma at hand.
I'm not proud of this dirty little habit, alas any good picker knows, once you start, the scar never leaves!

Lines

Some lines are worth the wait:

Space Mountain at Disneyland- Yes.

Splash Mountain at Disneyland- No.

The line for coffee at Starbucks- Yes.

The line for the bathroom at Starbucks- No.

#PickYourBattles

Thank You For Being A Friend!

There's one TV show I can't resist-

If I pass it while channel surfing, I have to stop and watch it!

I grew up with these women in my living room every Saturday night.

Their humor and unconditional (but no-nonsense) love was such a comfort.  Especially being so far away from my grandmas! 

Thank god for TV Land marathons of The Golden Girls.  They're like Saturday morning cartoons for gays!

Get Up! ...and Get To Work!

Sleeping in is fun,
Until you remember there is work to be done.
You're not going to conquer your goals in bed dreaming,
So wake up, use your head and start scheming!

Note To Self:

Nothing exceptional ever comes from a rushed process-
But sometimes you just have to settle for "good."
Life is short; spend time on the things you are passionate about, and everything else, get it done and move on!

Creative Writing for Artistic Growth

After contributing to a daily blog for over five years, I can honestly say that providing content requires imagination, creativity, and a willingness to release the idea of perfection and settle for, "you did it!"

Six Word Essay on Starbucks

Corporate deliciousness in a venti cup!

Just Another Mundane Monday

Off to a slow start today,
Mondays are always rough.
Full of eagerness-
But lacking the motivation to conquer.
Maybe another cup of coffee will help?
If you can't find motivation, find caffeine!

Hotel Breakfast

Avoid the eggs and the meat,

Try the oatmeal instead.

The coffee's gross, but does the trick-

And you might as well gulp it down.

After all, you probably paid twenty dollars for it!

#HiddenRoomCharges

Dear Bran Muffin

You are delicious AND nutritious?!

I can't believe you're heart-healthy.

Just promise me you aren't full of carbs!

Wait you are?

I feel betrayed!

But I'm finishing you anyway.

...Everything Happens For A Reason...

Yeah, yeah, yeah...
We've all heard it before, and nobody wants to hear it when they're receiving bad news or suffering a loss.
However, I'm a firm believer in a higher power- call it God, The Universe or the collective spirit of humanity, I don't believe in coincidence.
I'm always thrilled and hopeful when I begin a new journey, and I encounter a person who knows me or I receive an opportunity based on my past life experience.
It's a little reminder that this world is small, and the entertainment industry is even smaller.
It also validates the decision I made to experience a new venture.  I trust my instincts, but I believe in God, and in moments when a "coincidence" transpires, I'm calm because I know I'm right where I'm meant to be.

My Reality...

Last night: adoption orientation,

This morning: pitch meeting at NBC!

#MakingItHappenInHollyood 

Busy Week. Time Flies

The more loaded my week is, the faster it goes.
I enjoy being busy.  Actually, I prefer it.  However, I think I could do a better job at finding the balance-
Rather than looking back on an event thinking, Oh- that was fun, I wish I wasn't so overwhelmed at the time.
I'd like to find a moment in the thick of it to stop, take a look around and appreciate the process.
I'm not afraid of time passing, but time lost, is life lost.
I refuse to miss out on my life.
So today in the hurricane of auditions, meetings, appointments and errands- I'm going to remember the most important job: taking care of me.
#Yoga

I'm Growing Up... I think.

I was thirty-five years old when I passed the laundry mat phase of my life.
I always thought I'd grow up faster, especially because I was wearing three-piece suits as a nine year old.  But something shifted for me when I got to high school.  I decided it was okay to be young, wild, creative and free...
I guess that's what happens when you're a performer attending a performing arts high school.
I'm happy that I had those crazy adventures in Chicago, Europe and New York City, however it wasn't until I moved back to Los Angeles when I realized, I'm ready to start living an adult life.
I don't miss the parking pass; carry (four months worth of) your dirty laundry to a laundry mat; only eat out during Happy Hour, hours part of my life.
I may not be the next Hollywood heartthrob, but I have an awesome life and a fabulous career doing what I love.
And today, that just feels awesome.
I'd still like to take the day off, and go to Disneyland though.

Motivated!

If you want to "do it all" you have to start by doing something.
Taking that first step in any direction is hard, however it will help motivate the spirt into action.
Action equals results.
So my choices today:
Sit around waiting for a phone to ring.
OR
Pick up the phone and start ringing-up some potential opportunities.
The only way to succeed, is by going after what you want!

Standing On Principle

Sometimes standing on principle just pisses people off.

You have to ask yourself, 

Do I want to be right?

Or

Why do I give a F_ck?

If the goal is to prove a point, take a less passive-aggressive approach-

Articulate your case and move on!

Be Careful What You Wish For

Sitting at home bored one day, waiting for my phone to ring-
I started sending out emails looking for leads,
I just wanted to stay active in between promoting my book and choreographing and teaching master classes on the weekends.
It's not that I wasn't pleased with my time for yoga, socializing with friends and catching up on a lot of reality TV-
My mind just needs distractions.
Well, low and behold, I received responses from all of my outreach, and now I'm over-booked and have no time to breathe.
Be careful what you wish for!
I'd finish this blog post, but I don't have

Observation on Balance

When you have a full day,
There's no time to play!
Unless you work your ass off to shit done, so that you can sneak away from work to go to a Friday Happy Hour and a date night movie...
#Balance

Recognizing You're Growing Up

That uncomfortable moment when you realize you're not "that" person anymore, but you're caught in the eye of the storm.
How do you get out?
You cause a bigger storm, and level the playing field...
Then you move to a new state. Or peer group!

Rise and Shine

"The earlier I wake up, the more time I have to accomplish my goals and get things done!"
...is what I repeat as I peel myself from my bed with my eyes glued shut.
As a classic overachiever I set high expectations.  I refuse to fail because I didn't work hard enough.
I've come to the decision that I will do everything in my power to accomplish my goals in life-
If that means a 6 AM wake-up call, then so be it.
The only thing more annoying than an early morning wake-up call, is not succeeding because I was too lazy.

Loyalty In Business?

Loyalty- I'm grateful for it, until it prevents me from making the right choice.
I believe in standing by my colleagues during conflict-
Defending them and our relationship.
But in business, I'm learning that sometimes you have to cut that cord.
It can be painful, but it's more devastating to go down with a burning ship that never gave you your own cabin anyway.

Daily Reminder

Life is as easy or difficult as we allow it to be!
I've blogged this before, and I'll blog it again, because it is a reminder that continues to evade me from time to time.
Once I remember that I can release the shitty circumstances and reinvent my outlook, I seem to thrive.
So, I'll ask myself this question:
Why the f_ck would I choose to make life any harder?
Dump that nonsense and move on!

YOGAtta Be Kidding Me!

Last time I checked, yoga was meant to be a peaceful practice of mind, body, and spirt-
Leave it to LA to turn it into a competitive, catty environment with strobe lights and club beats...
I am so NOT down with that dog!

Saturdays at Starbucks

The Hollywood socialites are fast asleep. While the overachieving fitness fanatics are sprinting past the homeless man that sits outside, eagerly awaiting an act of kindness from a European tourist.

Meanwhile, I stand in a line thirty-people-deep for my first Pumpkin Spice Latte of the year.

Starbucks is the McDonalds of the 21st Century.

And just like my elementary years with the Value Meal No. 2, I am #addicted!

Emotional Much?

You know you are a sensitive person when you cry during a two minute YouTube clip (posted on Facebook) of a stray cat who is ignored by everyone on a busy street, until a homeless man comes to the rescue and the cat starts purring.
#ICryAtHallmarkCommercials

Fear

Fear is the enemy of creativity.
It slowly destroys the imagination-
Replacing peace of mind with confusion.

When Life Caves In On You...

You have two choices:
Dig yourself out and keep on going.
Or
Give up the fight and get buried alive.
#ThePowerOfAChoice

The View is Looking Good! ...Again!

I was a closeted The View fan since the dawn of the show,
Until they dumped Rosie for a Republican schmoe,
This season returns with a new logo, a new set and a new Republican, too!
But, I'm back on board for the Rosie times TWO!
#TheViewIsBack

The Aftermath...

Cleaning up after a dinner party is similar to rummaging through a teenagers bedroom-
Everywhere you look there is a stack of something gross and crusty.
Half-eaten containers of food underneath furniture.
Overflowing trash bin.
Board game remnants strewn about.
And a funky smell fills the air... What is that?  It's nothing that was prepared by me!
#CleanUpIsGross

Dinner Party

Friends, food & fabulous conversation.

Oh, and delicious combination of beverages.

Six Word Essay on Saturday Morning Cartoons

SpongeBob SquarePants is the cartoon King!

Motivate! ...NOW!

The act of staying motivated, with nothing promising in sight, is always a challenge.
Life is full of ups and downs.  Especially in the entertainment industry.
I fight to maintain my disgustingly positive energy, even in the midst of a dry-spell or a shitstorm!
Everything seemed so much easier in my twenties.
Now, I actually have to give myself a pep-talk to get to yoga, class or a meeting...
I guess that's what happens when you hit thirty-  you allow the reality of reality to sink in.
Well, I have a choice.  I refuse to be a bitter thirty-something complainer-
I'm ready for my next adventure.  But the only way that's happening is with the motivation to get up off my ass and do something about it.
#NotGivingUpThatEasy

Remembering

It's hard to believe that thirteen years have passed since that unimaginable day in New York City.
I woke up to the sound of crying, my roommate had been up earlier than I, and saw the first plane fly into the World Trade tower.
We watched in horror as the second plane flew into the second tower-
We knew then it was no accident.
More than the fear, the overwhelming smell of smoke and destruction, and the looming uncertainty, I will remember how my New Yorkers and America united that day.
I was never more grateful to have my friends, who after that day, will forever be my family.  We cried together.  We comforted one another.  We prayed.  We told stories, which turned into much needed laughter.
On that day, we lost our innocents.  Through it all, I had my friends, who from then on, I consider members of my family.

Done. and Done!

It's no secret (I've mentioned this before) I LOVE crossing things off lists.
But I have to take it a step further, of course...
Now, I play a game to see if I can cross-off all of my "to do's" before 10 AM.
If I win, I get to cut work early and take a dip in the pool.
Today I claim victory!
Sure, I could be working on a plethora of important projects, but there's always tomorrow for that.

An Open Letter To The Universe

Dear Universe,
I realize I'm just a microscopic piece of dust in the grand scheme of everything, but I was hoping you could just help me shine with the stars and the planets.
Somehow I've bounced out of alignment, and I really need to get back on track.
Oh, and I wouldn't mind if Mercury would stop going into retrograde (whatever that means) my friends keep telling me this is a major problem, and I don't give a shit.
Thanks,
Matthew

A Poem About Mondays

Email inbox full,
Slowly I weed through the spam;
It's almost lunchtime!

When Opportunity Knocks...

Answer the door in your hottest outfit!

Oh, and be outrageously confident, sincerely charming and ridiculously over-prepared!

Six Word Essay on Morning Wake-up Calls

Puppies, stop jumping on my bladder!

There's No Business Like Showbusiness!

I always feel guilty for finding loopholes and using them,
Until I remember that a shadier person created the loophole to be used!
What's that old saying?  "Fake it, till you make it."
...and leverage everything you've got!

Pep Talk!

There are twenty-four hours in a day,
Six of which I spend sleeping-
Which means I have eighteen usable hours in a day.
More than enough time to get shit done!
So I have two options really,
1. I can sit around and complain about what's not "working" for me.
or
2. I can get motivated, take action and make "it" happen.
Good talk, Matthew!

Focus On The Work

The amount of energy you put into a project,
Is directly proportionate to the outcome.
Passion, detail and determination combined with pure hard work usually produces something powerful.
Hold onto the feeling of accomplishment. That, is success.
The praise and attention (which may or may not come) does not make something better, it's just the icing on an already delicious cake.

It's Tuesday... Get to Work!

When Tuesday is "Monday" my whole game is off-
I can't start a work week on day two!
These unanswered phone calls aren't going to return themselves,
So it leaves me no choice, I have to do Monday's work today, and the first thing I do on Monday mornings is walk to Starbucks to ease my way back into the work week!

#FloorBeds

A bed made out of pillows on the floor. Used for cuddling puppies and watching movies; enjoyed most on holidays and weekends. Perfect for holiday weekends.

SUNday

Three day holidays,

Partying with friends and food.

Swimming is a must!

Project!

Turning old to new,
Upholstering fabric and glue;
Our dining chairs rule!

TGIF??

It's not that I don't LOVE the weekends, it's just crazy how fast Friday comes as an adult.
Naturally when you're in school you dream about Friday-
Now, I struggle to get every single task done before the end of the week, and while doing so I lose all track of time.
It's Friday, and I have twenty projects to complete.
Where's an intern when you need one?
Oh, right- they're all off at some Happy Hour.  The weekend starts early for twenty-year olds.

Note To Inner Self:

Whenever you want to feel like a kid:
Turn on cartoons,
Pour a bowl of bran flakes, add honey, cinnamon and soy milk;
Dive in!
Instant sugary sweet childhood sense memory, without the processed sugar and preservatives!

Cut

Sadly, not on a movie set, but from an audition.
No matter how many times you audition and book (or don't book) the job-
The audition process is always a joyful torture.
On the one hand, you get to perform and be creative-
On the other, you are forced to "act" natural while people stare and judge your performance, and then cast you (or not) based on EVERYTHING other than your talent...
It's the life of a performer- and sometimes it sucks!

That's Life

It's a phrase I've heard throughout my life-
Offered by friends, family and even enemies (depending on the circumstance.)
As I child, I HATED that short, but painfully truthful analysis of almost any situation:
Your best friend spreads a nasty rumor, "That's life."
Your dog gets hit by a car, "That's life."
Your second runner up in every category, "That's life."
However, when put into perspective, it is also a joyful reminder:
You published a book! "That's life."
You own a home. "That's life."
You sold a TV show!  That's me projecting... But I hope soon enough I'll be saying to myself, "That's life!"
Outlook is everything!

Early Productivity

Waking up early;
Increased productivity.
More free time at night!

Random Thought

If we spent more time stretching, and less time complaining that we're getting older... we might not feel like we're getting older!
#Yoga #SundayStretchDay

Blogged Down

I got so caught up in my day, I forgot to blog!
It's called, being back in Los Angeles and trying to catch up on the life you put on pause.
Still, NO EXCUSES!
An artistic life, involves balance.

Home Sweet Home

They say "home is where the heart is" and while I believe that it's true, you can find happiness, love and family anywhere you are-
There's nothing better than walking into you home after being away for a long period of time.
The joy of being greeted by your family, my puppies give extra long cuddles.
The comfort of knowing where everything is in the kitchen.
But most of all, my BED!
I might actually get a full nights sleep tonight, for the first time in four weeks...
It's great to be home.

Road Trip

Cramped car,
Crappy junk food,
Beautiful scenery,
Bugs flying at the windshield,
Asshole drivers,
Tired truckers,
Spending too much money on gas,
Unclean rest stops.
Ah, the beauty of a road trip!

Excited

Meeting with my publisher today!
Eager to see the cover of my first book, for the first time.
What started as a childhood dream-
Expanded into a practical idea,
That lead to a serious project,
Which evolved into a passion,
Finally manifesting into a book that I could not be more proud of.
I'm so excited!

Keep The Faith

It's easy to doubt, fear and question,
However it's more rewarding to trust, love and take action.
I've experienced the outcome of negative and positive thoughts; without question, the positive energy always leads to a more rewarding outlook and subsequently a brighter result.
No matter the circumstance, there is power in recognizing we can manifest phenomenal things with Faith.

Forced Relaxation

I always feel guilty taking time off-
My soul wants to create,
My brain wants a challenge,
My OCD wants to take action,
But my heart NEEDS time: with my family, friends and myself.
I need to calm my thoughts, fears and desires, and remember how healing it is to sit in stillness and appreciate my surroundings.
Enlightenment comes through meditation.

Observation:

Though it can often come with headache and heartache; time with my family is priceless!

Slumber Party!

Sleepover with my niece! 

Frozen, cupcakes and dancing... Of course!

Mom and Dad; My Heroes

I didn't realize it when I was younger-
As an adult, I can comprehend how extraordinary my parents are.
Growing up they gave me: discipline, guidance, support, unconditional love and the confidence to follow my passion; they continue to do so now.  Moreover, they have become my friends.
When I feel like giving up, they're my coach-building me up.
If I need to cry, they provide a shoulder and words of wisdom to cheer me up.
When my ego takes over, they're there to remind me who I am.
When I need help, they continue to offer whatever they can.
I know how lucky I am, I count my blessings everyday.
I have a mom and dad that continue to be my number one fans, whether I'm teaching, performing, writing or working as a waiter; their love and pride is an example of true parenting.

Annoying Observation:

Even on vacation, I work!
I need to unplug.
Alas, my empire won't grow without my constant hustle!

Goodbye NYC

After a successful week of teaching, choreographing, and laughing with old friends; it's time I leave NYC.

I'm delighted that I got to see my buddy star on Broadway, my bestie's company shine on stage and even pick up some fun new designer merchandise at the House of Lodes! (AKA my friends hand-me-downs.)

But like all great adventures, this too must end, and just in time- it's raining... And I hate summer rain in NYC!

Remembering A Master

His ability to bring joy in sadness, truth in comedy and energy to all was extraordinary! Very few people can make you cry while you're laughing and laugh while you're crying-

Robin Williams artistry will be missed.

RIP

Non-Stop NYC

I forgot how busy you feel in NYC.
Between the tourist, subway rides and distractions everywhere- even a trip to Starbucks feels like work.
The city is pulsing with creativity, energy and MONEY.
go, Go, GO! is the attitude here.
I had a massage, three Starbucks coffees, two rehearsals, a Broadway show and dinner all in one day!
It's a crazy adventure, but I'm ready to get back to LA.
These days yoga, a power meeting and an audition are more my speed.

Line Up

Cheap tickets are near,

Please don't sell out before me!

Ready for the jazz hands.

#TcktsBroadway

Day Off

After a very long (and rewarding) week of teaching in NYC,
I'm ready to relax and enjoy a mimosa and brunch with good friends.
As soon as I can convince myself to get out of bed and hobble to the shower.
#EveryMuscleInMyBodyAches

Check-in Here

A NYC cafe full of people on their iSwippythings...

Posting, tagging, checking in-

But certainly not making contact with the friends sitting next to them.

I belong to a generation that has the best if both worlds. 

I know how to Tweet a sassy thought, post an interesting photo and check-in to share my location to anyone interested (including the government).

Fortunately, I still remember how to UNPLUG! 

Do the social media tech savvy children of our future even know what a handshake is? Or do the fist bump without looking up as the swipe to a new app?

Reasons I STILL Love NYC:

You can walk into a random Starbucks near Union Square and run into an old friend, (even though neither of you actually live in NYC anymore) and pick up right where you left off.

You can sit in a park and be approached by three complete strangers from three different countries, who are all in an English class-and they want to engage in conversation to better understand the language. (P.S. All three spoke better English than a third of the people who are actually born here.)

You can eat a three course meal at 1AM and nobody thinks anything of it.

But my favorite part, you can walk around any area of this city and gaze up and see no less than: 10 different types of architecture, 10 different ethnicities and 10 different styles of fashion-all while watching an uber wealthy stockbroker avoid eye contact with a homeless man.

  

Wrecked!

My body is a twisted piece of crunched up muscle-

Aching all over from prolonged teaching.

How did those dancers keep up?

Oh, right- they're sixteen and I'm thirty-six!

When did that happen?

I might be in pain, but I'll never stop teaching.

...my leg just might not go as high.

417 West 47th Street

It's like time stood still.

Sitting in the comfort of my old living room, laughing with my roommate;

Reminiscing about the past and catching up on the present.

I was a different person back then, I had yet to grow into myself.

She pointed out that I am comfortable in my new skin-

Yes, I am proud of the person I'm becoming.  I've stayed true to my goals and dreams, and haven't given up on the idea that "it" will happen. 

It IS happening!

A constant work in progress.  Maybe I'll really discover who I am when I'm old and bald?

Line Up!

I hate waiting in lines!

It started at Disneyland when I was five-

And continues to torture me to this day.

Especially at the airport.

TSA

Starbucks

Boarding the plane...

rage. Rage. #RAGE!!!